“don’t let them see you like this
wash your face and hide your wrists” -Candy Alex G
i relate SO highly to this lyric. first with ‘don’t let them see you like this’. in my perspective it’s that i don’t want my friends or family to see how i truly am. people think i’m the happy smiley girl i was a few years ago but in reality i’m just a dark void with a mask. i don’t let barely anyone in my heart because if i do they’ll know what i’m like behind that mask and i don’t want that. i want to be the happy one that’s there for everyone. do i? i’m not sure. sometimes i just wanna be held by someone. ‘wash your face and hide your wrists’. this year i’ve basically been living in constant fear that people will see my arms. my dad has a couple times before. i’ve made excuses each and every time. he mentioned it to my mum but she doesn’t believe him that i harm myself. i know my dad knows. we both know. i go to my dads house every 2 weeks for the weekend. i eventually stopped cutting my arms but as i’m writing this i’m hiding my arms. i’m seeing my dad in 6 days and i’m so anxious it’s unreal. i can’t let anyone see my cuts or scars. people in my school make fun of the kids who self harm. it’s really not good. i don’t want to be bullied even more. sometimes i just want someone to be able to help me with my addiction to hurting myself. i don’t think anyone can.
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