x
To the boy who'll never read this.
You turned my life upside down. You came in like a hurricane and I got swept up in it.
Now I have to battle hundreds of demons just to write this letter.
That day, when our Senior class went and explored that abandoned factory, you pulled me behind a decrepit conveyor belt and just full on kissed me. I nearly died of happiness.
Now I'm dying of heartbreak.
You went to California for college, and I stayed in Maine. We grew apart. You dated that accountant, and we both know how that worked out. I got engaged to an architect who left me at the altar. I didn't really care, though. Now, nearly two years after we fell apart, I'm finally realizing just how much you meant -- mean -- to me.
It's killing me, you know. I miss you, every single day of my miserable life.
I have to stop now. I can barely see the paper, I'm crying so hard.
I love you, still.
- Ember, the girl whose heart still burns for you.
To the girl who will never read this.
I know, when I moved to town and switched schools, it turned my life on its head. I came in like a tidal wave, and swept you up in the undertow.
I'm fighting so hard just to write this.
I remember the first time I kissed you. I pulled you behind that conveyor belt in the abandoned gun factory. I remember you were smiling, and that your lips tasted like our future. I couldn't hold in my happiness.
Now I'm struggling to hold back the tears.
I shouldn't have gone to California. I should've stayed with you in Maine. I don't know if you loved that architect, but I'd never been more relieved than when the news came.
Two years, love. Two years I've missed you.
I don't feel pain anymore. My counter is covered in red stains, and the ink on this page is running, I'm crying so hard.
I love you, so much.
- Atlas, the boy who could never find the way to your heart.
ns 15.158.61.8da2
