Chapter Six
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The whole ride to the boutique I’ve been praying that they already have a model to put on the dresses when I get there. I don’t think I can put on one more prom dress and for the record, it’ll be very embarrassing to dress like that with Sterling around.
“Good morning, I am River Young from TeenApple? I believe I told you I was coming in today?” I greeted the store manager and she just nodded her head and went to their office to get their owner.
He looked so stylish, and he is not a gay cross-dresser, he just dressed handsomely with a lot of layers of course. “Ahh! You must be Ms Young, you can call me Mario. The boutiques around the neighbouring states and cities told me about you and you are quite a miss!” he complimented and I just smiled.
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We waited as they gathered their best dresses.
“It must be fun doing your job, huh?” Sterling opened up the conversation.
I rolled my eyes at him, of course he knows that it’s not fun for me, “Fantastic.” I said sarcastically, “How about you? You teach at a university, huh?”
“Yea, apparently I am well-read because of all that classics from required reading and the books you shoved my face to for a few months.”, he chuckled lightly.
I giggled, “Well, yeah, I’m happy it worked for you.”, aaaand cue the silence, “I kept on wondering why didn’t you follow your parents and brother to Europe.”
He cleared his throat and looked at me, “Aside from Charlie not having any company here, I was hoping that you’ll come back to Michigan again.”, and he genuinely smiled at me.
I smiled at him. I am smiling a lot these days.
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“I was hoping that you have someone to try the dresses on as I snap a photo?” I queried and their answer was not unexpected at all.
“Oh, I thought you were the one who’ll try them on? I mean you did on the other boutiques right? And you have such a wonderful body shape, all of these dresses will fit perfectly on you.”, Mario gestured so much that I think he is beyond happy with me trying on his dresses. I don’t know if that is because of the article I’m writing or just the fact that he wants me to try on the dresses.
I scratched the back of my neck and chuckled nervously, “Uhmm, are you sure? I have to take a photo of it, though.”
He snatched the camera from me, “Oh silly, of course we got this one” he said referring to my camera, “and don’t be shy because of your boyfriend right there because he will also try on a suit for me.”, and the look on Sterling’s face is just impossible.
His assistants dragged us both on separate dressing rooms.
“Cue the music!” I heard Mario exclaimed. Okay, maybe he’s a lot excited about this.
I looked at the stylists begin to open make-up sets, “Make-up even?” I asked.
“Yes. Mario is really excited about this. We may be a small boutique but when it comes to accommodating guests he gets extra excited. Don’t worry, it’s not because you guys are from a teen magazine, which was just an incentive for us. The real deal is that you have fun visiting and trying on our dresses.”, the stylist explained and continued on her work.
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After trying half of the dresses laid down for me, I began to feel differently.
As we posed for the camera, Sterling just gazed at me longingly and the flashbacks of our own senior prom came blasting at me. And a quote from Charlie’s book went through my head.
‘And as we danced under the twinkling nights and through the night. I knew that I love her and I want her to be my forever.’
I inhaled a sharp breathe, “Uhmm, can we take five?” and I ran outside the boutique before they could answer.
I put my hands on my chest, “Yep, that’s that more than irregular heartbeat again.” I said to myself sarcastically. I guess moving on from him is a continuous process. Maybe, I shouldn’t have done this.
I looked at my hand where my engagement ring is. I just have to remind myself of Evan. My fiancé, my love, my Evan.
I heaved a sigh, calming myself down, before I went inside the boutique again and get everything over with.
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Maybe he being here is destiny telling us to have a closure once and for all, and for me to come clean. My mind drifted off to the letters I wrote to him ages ago. I was really planning on giving them to Charlie to pass it on to Sterling, but I guess it’ll be better if I do it myself.
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June 4, 2008
Dear S.W.
I had to tell you that I have this early junior program at the uni and that I have to go a lot earlier than everyone. The thing is I lied, yet again. I’ve been a lying to quite a lot these days and I’m sorry for that.
I didn’t tell you about that doctor’s appointment I had before the prom night, neither did I tell you about the other doctor’s appointment after graduation. The thing is I don’t want to talk about it and talking about it will just make it real, more real than I could imagine.
I’m thankful for that last date we had after graduation though, it just felt like it was long overdue because we never really go out because I’m too involved in school and you are on the honors program that you have to work hard.
Then I remembered that last hug, that hug that I didn’t want to let go. We hugged like that for more than a minute I think and people started to stare before we went our different ways. My heart was pounding all the way home.
Going back to that doctor’s appointment, my parent’s didn’t tell me about the complications of my heart until that day before the prom that I blacked out.
“You seemed to be tensed to be going out on your own.”, the doctor said.
But that is impossible for my parents and I were excited for me to go to the uni and it’s all that we’ve talked about since I was a kid. Letting go of my parents wouldn’t be as hard.
“Maybe it’s not your parents you are having a hard time letting go.”, he implied and my thoughts went to you, “You can’t have too much emotion. Laughing too much, crying too much, feeling too much up to the extent that you think you would explode. Those are harmful for you.”, he explains.
It’s true that I haven’t felt this much about another person as you.
It’s true that at some point of the day I would think of what would happen the moment I was gone.
It’s true that I feel too much for you more than you know and I have no assurances that you felt the same way.
It’s true that I am happy, excited, nervous and giddy to the point of feeling I might explode when I’m with you.
Feeling this way and not knowing what it might do to me is stupid. What if I really fall in love with you? What if I told you I love you and you didn’t say it back, what will I feel then? Will I die from heart break?
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After another doctor’s appointment my mom talked to me seriously which rarely happens. “I think you shouldn’t be in any romantic relationship right now. You’ll be stressed so much if you put it on you all at once. I mean, you are starting college soon and that feeling of new environment and catching up as much as you can and at the same time looking back and making time for the relationship you have with Sterling. I think you should take one step at a time dear. You know your priorities.”, and she patted me on the back expecting me to reach to the right decision.
And that is what I’ll do… the right decision.
R.Y.
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