Dear Seth,
I had my doubts about writing this letter. As always I never know what to say, I guess that's why we were so good together, you always knew what to say. How are you? A bit cliche right, asking you questions doesn't make any sense. Why? Because I won't be around to read it.
I hope the military is treating you well, I hope you're making a lot of friends, and good friends, not like the ones you had in high school. You better not be giving any trouble.
Do you remember how we met? It was like a cliche love story, well before I broke your nose for breaking my camera. You ran into me in the halls and my camera fell out of my hands and the lens shattered. I got so angry that I punched you in the nose and God did my hand hurt.
Since that day, you and Alex stared at me all day. And little by little, you both started moving closer and closer to me. We went from spitting insults at each other to being the most golden memory in each of our lives. Speaking of Alex, he visited me the other day. That idiot seriously brought me beers. Of course, we couldn't drink it but we did get high on my prescribed weed, and boy did we have a time.
We sat and reminisce about the old times. I started crying, it had me thinking about all that I'm leaving behind. I don't want to go, I know I don't have a choice but still. I'm young there's so much I want to do with you still. And now, I can't even see you on my last day alive.
I remembered the first time we found out about my sickness. It was my 21st birthday, we were celebrating in our first apartment. Suddenly, during the night while we were drinking I went into coughing fits. Drips of blood flew out of my mouth. I could never forget the look of fright that came across your face because of me.
My head got dizzy then I collapsed even though I was barely conscious. I remembered being able to feel you put me in your arms and holding me right while shouting at Alex to call the ambulance. You were begging me to stay with you.
I blacked out after that and woke up in the hospital. You were fast asleep beside my bad. When you noticed I was awake your eyes filled with relief. We later found out I had stage 3 cancer. I remember being frozen to the spot by shock, you were talking to the doctor about what we should do next. Everything changed not just for me but for you too.
You were there with e every step of the way, maybe that's why I hated it when you left for the military. I wanted to hate you for leaving me but I couldn't. At the end of it all, I wish we had more time but we don't. After all this writing what I wanted to tell you was.
I love you. I cherish every moment we spent together and I'm sorry to leave you so soon. I didn't write you this for you to be sad but because I wanted to tell you how I feel. I don't want you to feel sad or regretful. I want you to be happy so please forgive me for leaving first.
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