108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRVphkKhvI
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJyaf62DRX
和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHBFo5SJbJ
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7RjkTias9
「咁耐嘅？」他問。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZtaML2anc
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabBOyKmXGe
「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31oSH3uJ0O
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5aQZNJbYZ
「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnuO7Y4Vzs
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqmw05bnd4
這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzmNy1Z5ef
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAe3VdLeCdK
自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7P0vina4o9
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiX61kC7VHB
我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXknY45dQy
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WtYZmtbVq
我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGp7YtDFYt
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xQmjaCPEu
我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3AvW6wtNa
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7M8aUCCKz
人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4PJS9eOgq
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JARnLZNOF
想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4vu25uUId
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfI0I9ygia
爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17hXc9VN1v
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJbhRIRJdD
「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMRI9jkx0k
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMxuCES7Qi
「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG73MzKZbp5
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQ05hEBpM2
Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUwtbEKKuD
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Q8ap9QGG5
「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8y5BxDiyk
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm3W7eR4D5
「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOMYTcWl0V
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vwiJKRcJR
我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXnCJAYwQX
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESW05O35v0
腦中是各式各樣的幻想。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG3y3VF8mO
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XQJaiWUEn
如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEcN5pAk1s
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9Yfjlwp3y
如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SentyvLEG
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAWfe5RSC2
「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVi9dNdwCA
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJ9EUTtu5w
「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGVI7yum76
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOgf7fgF3Y
「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMkdRo0VF9
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4zBYRy0uz
「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7tns3cE1F
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWhoLRCqzr
「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GH99H7Fbn
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIL4jo9iFsS
「點解咁講？」我問。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPRGLCDhWg
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuSxDXAsKL
「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgxZJPn7Cr
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAZFIzpzcj
「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYu80jjDyB3
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WvtqaZClz
「唔會，我唔會接受。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMISOfhHp2
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9gK2dsogf
「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8ZyhRfRXt
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXzsi0uFTS
「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CKNQ1Onvj
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEFRGcOWti
我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeUioo3V5B
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLs4zpyFkjh
想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5XuecMagU
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDCwE8NrHG
「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiurc5npX6r
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡai6J56ONaQ
「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATxWdjAtgD
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2yWNKbMbk
「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeaErvsxy7
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOuVVdVrKv
Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDws9AetS51
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaxF7cus8A
他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmy16ToVnH
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkHXhYqShk
我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDo7TMD9ls5
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTnXZv4LkE
我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRvuewfo4J
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnrjHEOXJt
婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjK4cCkAT6
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5x0z8qH6L
「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG23vFG9X4B
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DxUbxn000
「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1BEoC7TlN
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmPcqnXv8X
「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10p3BNpLAF
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRCxJHCKip
我為未發生的事情擔憂。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitfxJqBoAD
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qvr4rg9dI
面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaEFLb65Fp
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejuuc3cui3
「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05l79Rktjo
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6hMqOdZxz
「無呀。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yEERYLAFz
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0Ot068Scj
「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDirbGLgFM
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBLBnByc12
「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtkwqjAIiE
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAMc6xMXwG
人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQDWjFTHWM
108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqvjYkcqgH
難過。108Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ682TEsOUj8
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