或許是不能再聽到妳的聲音,抑或線上暑輔的開始搗亂了我們的生活節奏,有種若即若離的疏遠,而雙方卻保持沉默應對。8964 copyright protection160PENANAcytbJDagJ0 維尼
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知道因為分班,我們的交集勢必會少了許多,但對我來說無所謂啊,我還是會分享今天發生了什麼,今天心情怎樣……可是在那暑輔剛開始的一個禮拜,很明顯的感受出妳對我的冷淡。8964 copyright protection160PENANAiGiyQ4qg5C 維尼
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「嗯嗯。」夜晚睡前簡訊聊天時,妳句點了每一句話,留我一個人在原地。不知道我現在是該問妳今天過得如何,抑或直接道了晚安然後就寢?8964 copyright protection160PENANA59DKlywEBb 維尼
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說真的勉強自己去維持以前的相處模式真的有些累呢,問妳今天做什麼,妳不再如以前會透露些妳今天對這些事物的情緒,而是冷冰冰的,條列式的,如同向長官報告,一一列成清單後傳送給我,就沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection160PENANAXtz5U2tKR9 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAJv9VopBgmQ
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我真的害怕我究竟做錯了什麼。8964 copyright protection160PENANAzRiNSKeufO 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAa5eGZEp2oT
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但多想是徒然,我總是想著或許這段時間妳情緒不好,經歷太多生活壓力—裝撐牙器及剛進入新班級,我需要做的就是在妳低潮時,帶領這段感情繼續走著。8964 copyright protection160PENANAKWfUmfZSEe 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAHGjJtx4Kui
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAxGIXMJ8Xxr
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可是真的受不住了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAvJ4jwHhxih 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAWUZ1xJwaqx
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAlQlfhHojXU
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一個禮拜過去,兩個禮拜過去,而妳對我的態度依舊是忽冷忽熱,或許妳真的沒有那個意願要這樣吧,我也勸自己不要多想,多做點自己的事提升自己,多往自己的夢想邁進,而不是拘泥於這並無是非的情感問題。8964 copyright protection160PENANAj9cJQLA8XO 維尼
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有段時間,我努力應戰即將到來的數學競賽,我跟雲層的高手組成一個團隊參戰,而每個禮拜都有線上補習上課磨練。8964 copyright protection160PENANAGtTuzcCdQ3 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAGQFlcZjnO6
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數學模擬題目使我徬徨,讓我品嚐到時間的付出不一定正比於回饋。8964 copyright protection160PENANArXpjJXPnHM 維尼
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就如同對妳一樣。8964 copyright protection160PENANAu3nBpSj0J0 維尼
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常常有種不想要努力的念頭,偶爾會在假日的下午放空發呆,抑或去海邊吹吹風舒緩疲倦的心靈。8964 copyright protection160PENANASAS5Um33ze 維尼
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而這些壓抑許久的情緒,在考試那一天,久違的小爆炸了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAStwggY4px5 維尼
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我是真的在車上回訊息回到哽咽。8964 copyright protection160PENANATPNkekr9BG 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAG6u6rmT32R
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但妳的訊息給我的感覺是,妳對我當時的狀況漠視。8964 copyright protection160PENANA4FijflhoCA 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAtmFsFyJeZo
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我到了雲層的本部門口,等待遊覽車的發動前往考場。8964 copyright protection160PENANAbC7I5RKXye 維尼
大家熱絡的討論數學跟聊日常(畢竟大家也很久沒見了),而我一個人顯得不是他們這一夥的,忐忑不安,原地徘徊,手上的手機放不下。8964 copyright protection160PENANAsFGAMRRQek 維尼
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畢竟有些心緒不穩,明明沒有發生什麼事情我卻快要失控,從我將這些訊息打到妳的聊天室就可以知道了。8964 copyright protection160PENANA63MqLfoHGC 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAXSruLT3bqh
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「加油,希望你能自己成功走出。」8964 copyright protection160PENANAMZHvz3KLoP 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAPDVQQVB8bb
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很簡短,妳回覆了,不過本來我也不期望妳說些讓我安心的話語。8964 copyright protection160PENANAa6D5mx2kT2 維尼
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因為我從那刻終於知道,或許我再也沒機會從妳那感到安心了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAB9XLhL9bps 維尼
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哽咽中,我假裝調侃的回道:8964 copyright protection160PENANA2NtiGQB9wt 維尼
「哈哈謝謝,我就把這句話當作妳對我的勉勵吧。」8964 copyright protection160PENANAqIaRhxZPG0 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAXc9vHEgFqt
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說真的很奇怪呢,明明妳也沒做什麼,妳也只是用跟平常一樣的方法回覆我的訊息。8964 copyright protection160PENANA9WbjKgosPk 維尼
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可是我從心底可以深深的感受到,現在的我絕對是不得人看的慘樣。8964 copyright protection160PENANAygjzeVp0YV 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANA7TuUbeZUpr
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164Please respect copyright.PENANArU7mMgdYor
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164Please respect copyright.PENANASQWuUn8kHF
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我總是在對我們關係感到茫然的時候,才會打那些讓妳覺得莫名其妙的文。8964 copyright protection160PENANAMdmDACvKY7 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAj80NmBLRpP
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或許妳覺得那只是我平常的習慣。8964 copyright protection160PENANAoCmxlYmd5b 維尼
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我也跟妳說過,我好像只會對妳說這些話。8964 copyright protection160PENANAJ5sFT3osrM 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAemE0BRm90e
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總是在最後談完沒有結果的交談後,跟妳說那些是我多想時會有的負面情緒,希望妳不要將其放在心上。8964 copyright protection160PENANAbP2aUvhvOC 維尼
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真的,我真的很討厭這樣的自己。8964 copyright protection160PENANACkw2XXNiJt 維尼
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明明自己已經快不行了,還要向妳示意我沒有事情,希望妳可以不要放在心上,繼續走著妳的日子。8964 copyright protection160PENANAnzrEILqG6z 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAwysy6Aznfg
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAwRlbtWa6yQ
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不過現在憶起,只能說當時的自己很強韌。8964 copyright protection160PENANAmLMJAxCsLo 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAOFLvVO326l
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一個人撐著這若即若離的關係,很累,很累,每一次找妳談事情,都是我每一次的崩潰。8964 copyright protection160PENANASSJUhb60b0 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAcu36voq7zr
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAqd2S7BXTla
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之後還有一個小插曲。8964 copyright protection160PENANAVWgRQLFteE 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAsw422RXZVB
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某天深夜,我算著阿蘭交付的作業時,徐捷岳突然打了電話過來。8964 copyright protection160PENANAUxq2Nl4kGz 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAIBxdcWtl3N
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「喂,怎麼了。」8964 copyright protection160PENANAA4Qoll8lgD 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAM5fVkHHOLx
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「你怎麼不讀我訊息,受傷!」徐捷岳那邊看起來很火,但我聽得出來他語氣裏面帶有些玩味之心。「我給你連結,你來救我們數學!」8964 copyright protection160PENANAP8bHXwzMZY 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAH9McmV7vGo
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蛤……?8964 copyright protection160PENANAbAwlm96Pre 維尼
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「等等,什麼狀況?」我還未反應過來時徐捷岳已經切掉通話,留下一臉狐疑的我。8964 copyright protection160PENANArQU6rPoM5B 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAh92K5zxVP3
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我嘆了口氣,看著頭頂的時鐘,好吧,就休息一下好了,今天也奮鬥很久了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAPTwkqEUsQB 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAsrRRydEC0x
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我打開了訊息,在點開徐捷岳的聊天室時瞄到了下面熟悉的對話框。8964 copyright protection160PENANAq3tGGI9Ap1 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANA945SDvhaWE
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妳還沒讀我訊息呢。8964 copyright protection160PENANAIvZOcwRiWf 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANANMAXSwsNVM
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但接下來的畫面讓我情緒波動。8964 copyright protection160PENANA6ZRkHR2O6g 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAJS2NaQmSRA
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會議室裡面,有徐捷岳,珠姐,以及……8964 copyright protection160PENANA0TgHOvfqxN 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAHInXn3KxA9
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妳……?8964 copyright protection160PENANAoZDetmYuPY 維尼
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妳們三個人都在裡面。8964 copyright protection160PENANAYxZRBGAgkI 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAUakajhPpYz
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忽視了徐捷岳跟珠姐在語音的吵雜聲,我按下了掛掉鍵。8964 copyright protection160PENANAcGD9JZACas 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANALgkZFGSU3p
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我愣在原地不發一語。8964 copyright protection160PENANAvELJqxodwK 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAmnr0YfcL7c
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剛剛那是……?8964 copyright protection160PENANA51HPxi1b7N 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAc3ISsqut2J
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過了兩三分鐘,像是做好了萬全準備,我又再度進去了會議室。8964 copyright protection160PENANA2SkM3ovsrA 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAxTTvyA5s2Y
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可是只剩下徐捷岳跟珠姐兩人的頭框。8964 copyright protection160PENANAEtL4vY8toX 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAoDt3BgcY1W
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「欸你回來了呀!!!嚇死我了你剛剛怎麼退出了啊。」8964 copyright protection160PENANA3v2I67wfwM 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAFRELwdG9ms
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「你好你好歡迎~」8964 copyright protection160PENANAFpnkbzh7kt 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAQH45KoHcPt
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徐捷岳和珠姐似乎挺歡迎我的到來。8964 copyright protection160PENANARjJEBqB5J3 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAcp5e7z7aN6
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「嗨嗨……所以你們現在在……寫數學?」我試圖忘記剛剛第一次進會議室的畫面,向他們兩個詢問。8964 copyright protection160PENANA5qRYU6PC3Y 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANA4JBRiSlSe8
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「唉唉對啊…。」徐捷岳嘆了長氣。8964 copyright protection160PENANAyDYFo6FRpZ 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANArgwIlW4DBu
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「維軍你要救救我們呀……」珠姐哀嚎。8964 copyright protection160PENANArPoTlN7zQv 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAs60MKAuY4R
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「好啦…就二十分鐘。不過…」8964 copyright protection160PENANATJeDECG7QT 維尼
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「 「 「 啊啊啊啊啊啊! 」 」 」我還沒說完他們兩個就興奮的大叫了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAYsK7U08YEy 維尼
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「欸…等等先不要激動啊你們兩個!重點是我會嗎?」8964 copyright protection160PENANAtpQY2vhFkt 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAVGhfKsS7gU
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「哎呀放心啦這個你輕鬆。那我先傳給你題目,然後我們要問的是……」徐捷岳娓娓道來他們面臨的數學挑戰,聽著的同時,我打開了訊息。8964 copyright protection160PENANAFC8547Bjuf 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANABTyrq1YhnE
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「剛剛好像看到妳了呢。在會議室。」傳送出去。8964 copyright protection160PENANAQdI55eaA1s 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAcW9yANAyNx
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164Please respect copyright.PENANASZ99RQoIwq
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我掛了通話,開拾收拾起了凌亂的桌子。8964 copyright protection160PENANAljCDezLzQi 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANABMqS6dsxAt
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不知道過了多久,我的手機訊息鈴聲響了。8964 copyright protection160PENANA6unDmIQzGE 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAaKZt5VtR9O
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「嗯?」8964 copyright protection160PENANAvHALJjsjPl 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAstKEDixK8Z
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「妳剛剛不是在跟徐捷岳他們語音?」我將東西擺放好後,向妳回覆。8964 copyright protection160PENANA66QXB5wKyo 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAyRXZjO8OvA
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「嗯嗯對呀,用數學。」8964 copyright protection160PENANAHcEtG5o1Cy 維尼
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「剛剛我有進去呢。」8964 copyright protection160PENANAR9geqoK52J 維尼
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「嗯?我沒有發現呢,而且我也很早就掛了,洗澡。」看到妳的回覆後我愣了一下。8964 copyright protection160PENANAeHkQn1VoG8 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAi1dzUBGQKO
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真的,沒有看到我嗎?8964 copyright protection160PENANA55hgRsG5lC 維尼
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而且不是說這陣子都沒有打算,跟任何人打語音電話了嗎?8964 copyright protection160PENANAoffSY0X5bE 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAgkRXOa59ae
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「不過妳不是說不太想講話嗎?」很試探性,有些刻意我知道,但這個是我當時能想到最委婉的表達方式了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAQZVizG8K7M 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANABcwptsGtPZ
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「嗯嗯所以我只有聽他們講話而已啊。」8964 copyright protection160PENANA19bLw6cV7l 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAoyTGtCMvl5
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAHbNaSNtM6w
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有種奇妙的情緒使我打了個冷顫。8964 copyright protection160PENANAigeyxTuqYP 維尼
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或許我不該繼續問下去了。8964 copyright protection160PENANACg2U1Atorc 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAgCwqQoRMLA
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還好我有做到,也轉移了當下的話題,就像是什麼都沒發生。8964 copyright protection160PENANAmjb4Erx4sz 維尼
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畢竟,再問下去,好像對彼此都沒有好處。8964 copyright protection160PENANADnuUmB6pNz 維尼
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我相信妳,可是,我怕我又會多想。8964 copyright protection160PENANAeBwF19QvAC 維尼
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以為妳在躲我。8964 copyright protection160PENANAcAFDv58Lkt 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAWFHPBYRDp1
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAhJE2Iht1Yi
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距離開學降臨僅剩幾天。8964 copyright protection160PENANAADfjJCrUbH 維尼
可能是習慣了,我對妳有時的忽冷忽熱也無所謂了,妳冷淡,我也跟著冷淡,妳分享事情,我也跟著分享事情,變成了這種被動的相處模式。8964 copyright protection160PENANAnlQuuv3dDe 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAUzX0WhrXSB
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我知道我在做違背自己意願的蠢事,但我真的別無他法了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAc8iegBG1NP 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAs1Z9S5FEJv
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就這樣到了開學前幾天。8964 copyright protection160PENANAEHc65AHerO 維尼
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鑒於寒假的經驗,我對我們接下來的相處模式有種迷茫感。8964 copyright protection160PENANABvqEjpiaeu 維尼
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更何況當時那種局面。分班,高二課業變忙,挑戰性越來越高。8964 copyright protection160PENANAdCLuBvpq31 維尼
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所以我提議了中午跟妳去拿餐。8964 copyright protection160PENANA24e41ViUO5 維尼
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至少這樣每天都有見面的機會了,也排除之前困惑我們很久的誰找誰的問題(說真的這個只能說當時我們兩個不太成熟吧)。8964 copyright protection160PENANAQ9VSwLfiBF 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANASa4biw76nD
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希望有了個保障才能安心入睡。8964 copyright protection160PENANAQ6JDo1TAqx 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAXxVcEGNnG8
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只是,我那時候才意識到,真的不太像在談感情了呢,反而有點像是在破遊戲關卡,每一步都如此戰戰兢兢。8964 copyright protection160PENANATwUK7fUX6y 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAYYI8VCDuUS
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幸好開學時我們的氣氛緩和了不少。8964 copyright protection160PENANAlcany8DAdW 維尼
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一來,妳向我說妳最近憶起那些糾纏妳許久不好的煩惱,所以一直處在鬱卒的狀態。8964 copyright protection160PENANAeQHkjQ12qt 維尼
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二來,收到了妳送我的生日禮物,這陣子疲倦的心靈舒緩了不少,感動及感激的正面情緒湧現。8964 copyright protection160PENANATMQUwUKju7 維尼
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三來,或許吧,我接受事實了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAJb9fwt8NOZ 維尼
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至少自己是這麼認為的。8964 copyright protection160PENANA2MFY9wUuk2 維尼
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但九月十月這段時間我越來越不知道我是誰了。日記寫的凌亂,中飯吃不下去,有時會放空整天,而且越來越頻繁,胃的惡化嚴重到,我還去照胃鏡,還被醫生說可能要吃一整年的胃藥。8964 copyright protection160PENANAz5s3hahoZi 維尼
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心情也吞噬著唸書的本分。8964 copyright protection160PENANA5nHG8u1M0Q 維尼
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儘管複習考,第一次段考我考的其實不差,但我已經摸不著唸書的感覺了,心情的鬱卒吞噬了唸書的慾望。8964 copyright protection160PENANAE7uU3UiuGB 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAxa9GDBtvJX
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我這兩次段考前的週末是整天放空的,不過我沒有把這個事實告訴過任何人。8964 copyright protection160PENANAWs0hKKtMMm 維尼
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因為很丟臉阿……。原本最該認真的時刻應該就是段考前的時刻,我卻在那段時間荒廢,沉浸在苦苦的哀愁中。8964 copyright protection160PENANAyLxwVEJDPi 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAerOCWQUOLh
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現在的我真的很想回到過去給自己一巴掌。8964 copyright protection160PENANAX6Hs6hk7eo 維尼
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真的很可笑呢,當時的我,或許妳也是這麼認為才有了疏離感吧?8964 copyright protection160PENANA7azgyvsgaS 維尼
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只是我沒有悔恨的意思,因為那是我的必經路程,只可惜當時妳的情況,也沒法給我適時拉一把吧。8964 copyright protection160PENANA7H4lJ613I5 維尼
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於是我走火入魔了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAyuunI70h1v 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAF2dWEzwDoB
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我不該一直傳訊息跟妳討論我的情緒的,只是不這麼做,我那天的唸書計畫就會荒廢。8964 copyright protection160PENANAbPJbhkPQjl 維尼
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我不該太在意妳在妳的朋友圈跟在我的身上付出的多寡,不過真的很難啊…,妳說妳撐牙器拆掉後才打算跟人出去玩,我也期盼著可以跟妳出去的機會,四個月未見的心情真的很難掩飾妳知道嗎?…我真的只希望,只希望,就妳我兩個能獨自聚在一起,聊聊天,做做自己的事也好,我只是想要這樣而已…就這樣而已…8964 copyright protection160PENANASnRks80Zri 維尼
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但我們的聊天內容中充斥著妳跟妳朋友的各個計畫,各個出去遊玩的規劃。8964 copyright protection160PENANArlEruQYkVi 維尼
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儘管我很喜歡聽妳的日常分享,內心卻時而有些隱痛。8964 copyright protection160PENANAozqxcmSMoQ 維尼
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失望……嗎?倒也不是呢,就只是一種心痛罷了吧。8964 copyright protection160PENANAPBbpBhQsQb 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANA5BZy7CYtYQ
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我不該一直在拿餐時的走廊上刻意牽起妳的手,不適當的時機這麼做,顯得我需求感很重。8964 copyright protection160PENANACzBZUmvDkX 維尼
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在走廊上抱妳的那次,我真的內心快要崩潰了。8964 copyright protection160PENANAbncOkOispE 維尼
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而牽手這些親密舉動是兩情相悅吧,讓我憶起了妳曾經說的那句話:8964 copyright protection160PENANAmR3H6BPfYC 維尼
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訊息上每天固定說晚安是一種習慣,但牽手擁抱卻不是相同的概念呢。8964 copyright protection160PENANALGIFHfDooK 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANArvwdSFbZNs
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當下我對妳這句話無動於衷,抑或是無法理解吧。8964 copyright protection160PENANAsCkRiLzL52 維尼
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不過現在回想起來,挺中肯的呢。互道晚安只是尊重我們是情侶的關係,而牽手,僅僅只是因為,一種感覺。8964 copyright protection160PENANAQDLzYTv2Xo 維尼
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或許有些現實吧,但挺感同身受的。一直以來困擾過為何妳從沒主動牽我過這個事實,我能理解前期是基於害羞,基於羞赧,基於新知,基於尊重。8964 copyright protection160PENANAohe3vwyqay 維尼
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但後期,沒有了兩個獨自相處的時間,這些真的,真的不值得一提。8964 copyright protection160PENANAJFjPaC0nlV 維尼
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而為什麼我當時會想跟妳探討這類問題?8964 copyright protection160PENANADdvYVXTwMj 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAs5b8NZv7S4
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不知道,可能我發瘋了吧。8964 copyright protection160PENANAWxfPlROvqR 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAYzTIsEohRh
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可惜妳也沒有阻止我,而是靜靜地聽著,靜靜地短訊息回覆,靜靜地當作一切都沒發生。8964 copyright protection160PENANANxlE8svqXB 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAX5uFI9Ch7j
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAN7XGkPGrG4
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在段考前,我提議:8964 copyright protection160PENANAhcFmYVWV1Z 維尼
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這個週末一起出去走走吧。8964 copyright protection160PENANAwNIQcAGr5m 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAk8BdyvxLU0
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嗯嗯。8964 copyright protection160PENANA2TYIrsJHDK 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAjoy2G0PUQp
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我也自己約法三章,在這一個禮拜,專心於第一次段考的課業,不再試著向妳回那些沒有結論的溝通訊息。8964 copyright protection160PENANA9z38sPpqUO 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAV4EO1hHYvo
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我努力的克制。8964 copyright protection160PENANAqQslTvSvT8 維尼
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成功的秘訣是什麼,那就是做絕。8964 copyright protection160PENANAv3HkhhPdh3 維尼
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要是我沒有達成我給自己的任務,我就決定要給我們的關係一個了斷。8964 copyright protection160PENANAN72daSdAzX 維尼
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很絕情我知道,但正是因為不想要失去妳,我才會這樣做的。8964 copyright protection160PENANAHa97glZue8 維尼
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因為不想失去,所以就能克制了。8964 copyright protection160PENANA5ztYynrVxr 維尼
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原本事情都很順,而我們也走在正軌上。8964 copyright protection160PENANANsSNRBix94 維尼
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而就在某天拿餐的路程中聊天時,妳跟我說妳要跟刷刷禮拜六出去遊玩。8964 copyright protection160PENANAyA3uZaNXUS 維尼
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我愣住了,說不出話來。8964 copyright protection160PENANAQnoF5C67vf 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8G4Y4h3rp
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那是我約妳的那一天啊,那一天啊…8964 copyright protection160PENANA2V6i1eh5sb 維尼
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我跟妳提醒到,不過我們那天不是有約嗎?8964 copyright protection160PENANA0dvqV1RLGe 維尼
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妳轉過身來,跟我說,那就隔天啊,禮拜天啊。8964 copyright protection160PENANA7LR3DdW15g 維尼
164Please respect copyright.PENANAEoB4q2Jptn
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164Please respect copyright.PENANANv7PMreazq
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我承認我過去也有跟妳毀約過。只是明明妳可以理解那是逼不得已的…我不像妳們家一樣,我爸絕對不會同意我們在一起的。8964 copyright protection160PENANAgoxCiU8Iko 維尼
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也許妳還記得實驗課說要去小七唸書的邀約?我說的就是這個毀約。8964 copyright protection160PENANA1JRr3lTjUq 維尼
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我很抱歉,記那麼久是因為,我也覺得我很不應該,應該要等我爸允許假日去看書後,再跟妳提起邀約。8964 copyright protection160PENANAWr6o6Oma77 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAykTyL2KWzQ
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAp23uhSqZMA
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對不起,是我的錯。8964 copyright protection160PENANAjhr6t2NloK 維尼
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但眼前的妳給了我一種茫然。8964 copyright protection160PENANAsPlTmSTGdn 維尼
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說真的不會很在意妳跟朋友的邀約跟我撞期,那都是可允許的,倒不如我很樂意調時間。8964 copyright protection160PENANAX4s409ABNR 維尼
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只是妳那時真的讓我很不知所措呢。8964 copyright protection160PENANAiTMhB54AMF 維尼
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妳的語氣像是要一筆帶過,更何況……8964 copyright protection160PENANAy3wxR8PFDp 維尼
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在一起這麼久了,我們什麼時候禮拜日出去過呢?8964 copyright protection160PENANAchCZoDZS3p 維尼
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隨後,妳也沒有再多講,對這個邀約也沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection160PENANABcFomg7Fyz 維尼
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幾天後,我淡淡的道:8964 copyright protection160PENANAVgVJ1yK6yZ 維尼
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「不然,就原本約的那週的下個禮拜吧。」8964 copyright protection160PENANAv4bZdO851e 維尼
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「嗯嗯。」8964 copyright protection160PENANADUKTaGwsc0 維尼
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164Please respect copyright.PENANAaXWevVuES2
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