Knowing that I messed up such a beautiful relationship we had going on later on, and knowing that she was going to eventually mention it, it makes it difficult for me to smile right now. I am close to the end. I know it, I am about to reach the part where she left, and it pains me.
I am eventually going to have to give my dad an answer. Do I want to go to England and perhaps rekindle my relationship with Karen, or just stay here and forget her?
I placed my hand over my face and groaned. It's not only my decision to make. She also has a role to play in this, does she wants us back together, or has she already moved on?
how you always make time for us.
Now the night seemed longer and the days very short. I finally got you. I can finally scream to the world that you are mine. But it was as if the world was against us being together.
A few days after YOUR confession, I wasn't the one that confessed to the other, you did... fine, it was me, I got confused when you apologized and the words slipped out of my mouth. But hey, you felt the same way too and you said it.
"I feel the same way too, Karen."
I still remembered the words you uttered that day. After you spilled it, a cold shiver ran down my spine and made goosebumps all over my body.
We made it official, but up to five days after we started dating, we never went out on a date. Either when we make plans, something came up and I don't make it. Or I don't make it. It was always me, I'm so sorry Cole. I sometimes get nervous or keep contemplating what to wear and by the time I decide or get over my nervousness, it's already too late.
Our first date was supposed to be at an ice cream shop, her favorite. I went there ten minutes early in order not to keep her waiting. I waited and waited, and finished two bowls of ice cream, but she didn't show up.
But I didn't leave and surprisingly wasn't mad. One of the waiters there, who turned out to be a student at our school noticed that I'd been seating there for hours, and decided to keep me company because his shift was over. We chat for a while before he left. and a while later, I left too.
Just as I got home, she called me and apologized for not coming.
You always say it was fine, and act normal the next time we meet in school. You kept making plans for our next date and I kept missing them. Honestly, I can't apologize enough for my attitude.
And then one day, after school, around 4 pm, you appeared in front of my house and knocked on the door. Heavens knows how you found out where I lived.
Susan told me.
My mom was the one that opened the door, and without shame, you asked about me. Like, who the hell does that? Who knocks on the front door and asks a mother to see her daughter?
And you didn't stop there, I was upstairs in my room and I heard the conversation you had with my mother, you were both crazy.
Her mom was nice.
Lemme jug your memory in case you have forgotten because you put me through hell, no she wasn't mad, she kept teasing me about it.
"Well hello handsome, how may I help you?" She asked.
"Oh, hi, I'm just looking for Karen Heyford."
"Well you are in the right place darling, come on in."
She ushered you in and you entered. I heard your footsteps as you both walked in. And my mom giggled as she closed the door. I was screaming on the inside and my heart was racing faster because I knew she wasn't going to stop there.
"Are you her classmate, or perhaps, her boyfriend," she uttered the last words softly.
You didn't reply, as if you were weighing your reply. And you said, you foolishly opened your mouth and said yes.
Her mom seemed harmless. And I thought she also deserved to know.
And then she asked. "How long have you two been together?"
"A couple of weeks."
"Oh, she never mentioned you. I'm guessing you two have a date, so I'll get her down here."
And she did, she came into my room and asked why I haven't put on any nice-looking clothes. I was surprised, because she kept pushing me, and made sure I didn't put on any rough clothes. My mom was somewhat strict, but she ushered me to go out with a guy.
I loved that you did that though, because of that, I wasn't afraid if any of my family members saw us together. I loved that you cut out of your precious time and hang out with me.
End of chapter.
