外出時，微風在人來人往的旺角中像耳語般時而吹過。寒雨過後的陽光曬來時格外溫暖，路上甚至有人停下來仰望藍天暖陽，自然地攤開手作擁抱的模樣。綠田瞥了一眼父親，父親的目光在那刻也同樣停留在那人身上。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA7P8zUUtP
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二人沐浴在陽光之下地走過賣金魚的大街，再穿過飄散著小食香氣的窄路，過了紅綠燈後，才發現想幫襯的那家早餐店沒開張。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXu7LvIvaQ
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「唔會係又執笠啊嘛⋯⋯」父親沿著店面左瞥右望。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFue0Mu6e2
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「東主有喜。」綠田指著貼在餐牌旁的告示紙，早餐店休息三天。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfhXAVzcFj
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父親見到告示後點頭呼了口氣，說最近太多店鋪活不下去，一年內已見證過幾間餐廳倒閉。綠田聽後環顧四周，熟悉的街道上，確實已是新舊店鋪互相交錯著。三十年的老餅店旁，正是營運了兩三年的奶茶店和夾公仔鋪。時間的流逝在不知不覺中以另一種形式呈現眼前。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52wb5vjcrB
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後來，綠田帶父親再走遠點到大角咀去，去那家他工作時經常幫襯的茶餐廳去買早餐。老闆娘已對綠田大概熟識，不過這還是她第一次見到綠田帶著父親來，臉上也自然地泛起欣慰的笑容。最後，還多請了綠田一家吃茶餐廳新推出的燕麥蛋撻吃。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQY5klh2BBj
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「覺得唔好食記得投訴呀。」老闆娘打趣地說。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0nxoU2rL7
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綠田瞇眼一笑，點頭說好。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJ9A8JWil4
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那個時間點的大角咀有不少伯伯婆婆在茶餐廳裏吃早餐，有的看起來像老夫婦，有的則是獨個來到，一邊看看電視新聞，一邊喝熱奶茶和吃炒蛋，那就像是融入了他們日常的片段。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9JLQJxwrz
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不過茶餐廳外的世界則很不同，離開以後，綠田目光遠處的地下隧道也有一些老年人三五成群地緩緩走上來。他們有些在寒風中赤腳穿著拖鞋，有些則把自己包得頗為臃腫。他們腳步不快，好像有點疲憊地正在往旁邊派飯的社區中心走去。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRqYoxsd6D
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驀然，綠田想起了紅妹說自己在那邊工作，懷著忐忑又期盼的心情從遠方一望，果真能看見對方就在社區中心的門口準備著飯盒。二人距離太遠，紅妹的身影變得很微小。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWREitiWM6C
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那好像她當初浮現自殺念頭後所給綠田的感覺，身影微小得像會隨時消失——但這次卻又不盡一樣，這次的遙望中，綠田隱約能感受到對方身上的光芒。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWz74gax2a
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或許，有些無以名狀的正在她生命裏燃燒著。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyCXEAEhTa
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「做咩呀？」父親問綠田。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdLjsf8v6A
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「冇⋯⋯有個好朋友喺間社區中心做嘢。」綠田說。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCb12UisWJR
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「你唔過去同佢打照面？」父親也看了看那個方向，大概也知道是誰。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoM9sj4CgXF
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父親這樣一說，綠田確實有想起步的念頭。但回頭看了看紅妹後，只見遠方的她正開始派飯。霎那間，又卻步了：「唔啦⋯⋯佢做緊嘢。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9tvU0kvEW
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雖然這麽說，回家的路上，綠田還是回憶起許多過去跟紅妹相處的片刻，從剛認識到很喜歡跟對方相處，從不知不覺疏遠到最近重遇。漸漸他想起了，二人當初讀書時便是在這社區裏留下過足跡，像是去附近的甜品店吃著雪糕談心事，或是去公園或海傍散心，只是時間的流逝讓人忘記了許多過去的生活細節。他只能依稀記得那些畫面，更多的，是留下了感覺。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogadiso6R3
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當初還不太會表達自己、跟別人關係疏離的自己，所能從紅妹身上感受到的那種溫暖感覺。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlfpQEbukr
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想到這裏，綠田看了看父親，終於說自己還是決定跟對方打個招呼，說個兩句。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxOVsU7hR2
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父親聽後便從綠田手中拿過外賣袋，很從容地揮著手。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXuYoLWFkP
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綠田點頭後便回頭快步走著，腦海浮現了重遇紅妹後的光影，海邊、小巴上、公園和餐廳裏⋯⋯想著想著，還夾雜了阿芝最後的懷疑——只是此時此刻的綠田，再沒有像從前那般一樣懷疑自己。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0UUvgNb0W
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轉個街口，回憶中的紅妹化為現實，彼時的她還停留在社區中心的門前給到來的人派飯。只見領飯的人越來越少，好像計時器般提示著綠田該上前問好。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrgV3Fh4Dq
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綠田往那個方向緩緩走去，沿途紅妹並沒有發現他，直到他悄悄到來的時候。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrL9C5YKPz
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起初是綠田先打招呼的，那時，剛好最後的飯和物資也派完了。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9HXkZewNY
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只見紅妹驚喜地發現綠田後，隨即自然地向他開玩笑道：「突襲！？」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBabO2m97it
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那反應沒有綠田想像中的尷尬，甚至可以說是很順其自然地發生的事情。與想像中的憂慮不符，只是這樣，反倒讓綠田不太懂得怎麼回應。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyY7VmrIdqS
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「同老豆喺附近買早餐返屋企食，咁啱見到你就諗住同你打個招呼。」綠田有點生硬地說：「知道你返呢到之後，都未有機會嚟過。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROoX8N8yCH
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「都係幾日嘅事，唔緊要呀。」紅妹似乎完全沒所謂地輕笑，整個人看起來都比以前要放鬆了不少。只見那時她往社區中心裡細心地掃望了一下，然後又望回綠田，好像有話想說，但又沒說甚麼。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyPNAiind1
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「啊⋯⋯」綠田以為自己可能耽誤到對方工作，便說：「或者下次再約吖，我怕阻到你做嘢。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhVJVpxADO
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「唔會呀⋯⋯我望入去係諗住睇吓等等要買啲咩物資。」紅妹向綠田招手，然後指著社區中心裡的白板，白板上寫著今天需要購買的不同物資。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XGTFVWtgS
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「咁多你一個人要買晒？」綠田問。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtIrJrLG6x
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「唔係呀，等等會有義工朋友一齊買。」紅妹微笑說後，二人之間又靜默微笑地看著對方。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34qr8WFHVg
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紅妹清澈的雙眸稍微看了看遠方後，又問綠田：「返你舊屋企？」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9ytIHnBje
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曾經，紅妹送過綠田到他家門口。雖然不盡順路，但二人中學時期的話題，總是開啟了就不想結束。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9UfrzgmKH
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不過，那是許久許久以前的事情。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPCBHgN9qO
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「係呀。」綠田指著遠處名為「豪華美味屋」的茶餐廳：「啱啱同阿爸去豪華買早餐。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs129qTzwEW
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「以前中學成日食。」紅妹很快就接上了一句。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zFNX2Sz09
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「嗯嗯。」綠田點頭一笑，同樣想到在那餐廳留下的美好畫面。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKpMi3KZiN
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不過話題還是像寒風般吹來就去。紅妹抿嘴笑著，不知為何，綠田也一樣笑了。彼時冬日正披在大地上，枯樹因此添了點光澤，店鋪也豐富了色彩，連旁邊走來打著哆嗦的人們，也精神了起來。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ch90eTQJC
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「不如我送你返屋企？」驀然，紅妹問，帶著剛才很溫暖的笑意。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDJ09rHYLO
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像是以前一樣。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EzMsiqpLr
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綠田聽後，思考了一下。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz58ubiKdBL
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「好呀。」他說，臉頰許久沒有試過那麼放鬆地輕笑。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdlUZyBHcr
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大角咀的冬日，二人走過五金舖，走過有大白狗趴在門口的士多，走過的路與十年前的回憶光影重疊。只是紅妹如今已不再是那個會不斷開話題的開朗女生，綠田也不再是那個沉默如山的木呆男。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqLKMeXWtc
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「過咗咁耐之後再返工⋯⋯會唔會唔習慣？」綠田問。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItaoEHIVPW
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「都會呀，仲係有好多嘢要適應。」紅妹微笑地說：「始終感覺，同人傾偈到冇以前咁好⋯⋯」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnPkFyK71N
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「可能係你以前講太多嘢喇。」綠田隨口地說，直到紅妹笑著問他是不是真的，他才笑著說自己只是亂說而已。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34F2E6Tu6t
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該以怎樣的態度跟紅妹相處，綠田還是沒想到一個最適合的方式。始終有時候，他真的找不太到適合的方式去回應對方的說話，語言到了腦海中便很快就消散了。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJovEFfhRg
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「不過都可能真係以前嘅說話能力已經用盡晒⋯⋯」紅妹似是半開玩笑地說：「即使係對住你，有時候都係唔知講咩好咁。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFEpMCNkta
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綠田看了一眼紅妹被日光曬著的側臉，沒有想到對方也有同樣的感受。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgpb0Ogy4f
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隔了幾秒後，綠田笑著說：「我都係。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeT8I6PAR2
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紅妹聽後不語，只是淺淺一笑，好像早已知道，但也不介意。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2pS5WaZRF
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二人並沒有為那空白的時間補上甚麼話語。旁邊路人說說笑笑地走過，而街市老闆和小販正熱烈叫賣著。這樣的早晨，最近並不多見。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04T2p9zPAE
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終於，隔了好一陣子，綠田才笑著望向紅妹。腦海記得對方曾有過離開世界的想法，如今卻還能與自己在同一條街道上呼吸著同樣的空氣，心中忽然就有種踏實的感覺浮現出來，好像墮後沉入了厚厚的枕頭中。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6Us7eeP3C
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彼時的旺角大街正沐浴在溫暖的陽光下，綠田眼中的紅妹也笑得燦爛，像是很安心的小貓。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNOUDQwRO6
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寒風陣陣吹來，二人走在過去再也熟悉不過的回家路。沿路有上班族在趕路，有男女拿著戲飛往朗豪坊的方向走去。紅燈前，手造麻雀店的老闆戴著冷帽地磨著工具，而報紙檔的檔主則一如以往地靜靜觀望著匆匆或緩緩經過的路人。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OxLn54M1m
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不知不覺，二人已並肩地走過了回程的大半路，卻幾乎甚麼也沒說到。意識到這點的時候，綠田的心裡才焦急地浮現了些話想說。但一想到要說出口，他的耳根臉頰卻又覺溫熱。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2qsLCutcH
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只是那種溫熱已不是從前喜歡女生的那種害羞與躁動——更似是，觸動靈魂所需要的一種溫度。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBProVaIYW
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「⋯⋯」把話語沉澱在心中一會兒後，綠田終於在走上旺東天橋時向著身旁的紅妹說：「多謝你今次搵返我。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoNyV1g89x
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微風輕輕地把他的細語送到對方耳邊，紅妹凝望了綠田清澈的雙眸一會兒，又莞爾一笑地望回眼前來去匆匆的人群。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimPicOBzR8
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那時二人剛走到天橋的L形轉角位，路邊空出了一個地盤。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvBSh0OelG
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「呢到好似要起一棟好高好高嘅商廈。」紅妹站在欄杆旁地望著那還沒成型的地盤。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AYX4yQDWm
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湛藍的天空飄著幾朵小小的白雲。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pu5ZWL7i8
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「嗯。」綠田聽後點頭。過了一會兒，才續說：「到時如果從我屋企個窗望出去，應該會有一大片風景擋咗。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOOnlD2sN3
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那時綠田捉緊欄杆後微微探頭仰望，日光躲在雲層後微照著綠田與橋邊，他深呼吸了一下，空氣裏飄散著一點泥土與一絲樹叢的味道。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZL2X7T7bx
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「都唔知之後會擋咗幾多風。」綠田抬頭，在空中想象著那摩天大廈的高度。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBbfVcSQ1P
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紅妹看了看綠田，又笑著地望回空空的地盤，甚麽也沒說地閉上了眼，就這樣隨著風微微擺動了一下頭。如此，她的短髮便微微地隨風而行著。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWAQxI6rW0
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如是者，綠田也吐了口氣，在日光下微微攤開了手地迎接陽光與微風。耳邊傳來了行人走過的腳步與橋下車輛駛過如風之聲。而他不顧，眼裏似是只有閉著眼地隨風輕輕搖擺的紅妹。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VlDiuiJXO
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就這樣，風在暖陽下吹了好一會兒。紅妹偶爾像綠田一樣張開眼睛地看著對方。二人就如海綿一樣地吸收著世界彼此彼刻的畫作與音樂。地盤外的一片枯葉被吹得飄揚起來，又再盤旋落下。小孩追了一追落葉，撿了起來又被媽媽罵這樣不衛生，於是小孩一鬆手，落葉又一次飄回空中。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtMgA5vBUE
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「送你送到呢到喇～」後來，紅妹笑著說。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK70qUbocni
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她知道，這位置跟綠田家距離大概還有三分鐘路程。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsQuvle51y
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「冇問題。」綠田點了點頭，心中依舊有許多無法成形的說話。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aW4bRMHyE
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紅妹暖暖地笑著望向他，直到是這刻她才吐了口氣說：「我都好多謝你。」43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTpGwd89cf
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綠田聽後終於低頭一笑。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fwvqBywrc
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「再見。」綠田輕輕地攤開手地上前，像是往昔離別的時候。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBykQF1oQi
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紅妹點頭莞爾，上前輕輕地擁抱著綠田。冬日下的寒溫頓時被隔絕在外，心裏的溫暖蓋過了其他感覺。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCLjbCyKvG
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除了這樣，此時此刻或許已沒有更適合的語言了。43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlppxE6GnUq
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《假如，憂鬱是我們唯一的共同語言》全文完43Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsUn0P9xjk
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