I think Jacob knows his presence has made things at home unstable. He's been really quiet all day; he's hardly spoken a word at all.
Kaito hasn't noticed. Luckily for us, he'll be one of the last people to notice something wrong... but sometimes I wonder.
Does he really know what's going on, but is trying to hide it, like me? Does he understand everything? Or is he completely oblivious, like I'd hoped?
There are a lot of things that I don't know; there are a lot of things I don't want to know - an example of which is the feeling of having to choose between the two of your parents.
This afternoon I sat at my desk just staring at my laptop - just breathing, just being. Enjoying the moment of partial peace. Enjoying the almost serene atmosphere. Truly appreciating it before it had completely dissolved in all this tension.
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