Notes to you.

unspoken feelings are unforgettable ~ Andrei Tarkovsky

Sometimes or Most of the time I feel the loose of myself

Gotta figure it out what is the closed door behind it

Don’t know why but the reason can be laziness of myself

What I’m gonna do and what I’m going to become trickle me down always to the ground

I’m standing, Can’t lift myself up no matter how hard tried

Because of the heaviness, I got thinking and waited long enough

Someone will come sooner to rescue me out

Seems like only I can do the escaping along the way of the path

Everyone was here and there did the right thing since the start

No more can’t give out or passes the weight of continuation of the journey we got

The cure was inside the head all the time trying to spill out

It split apart and choose to go on a different path

One was easy and the other one like always a hard one

Please gives me opinions to choose the correct one

On the way, it’s a very hard and dark one

Forget to learn how to cross the line

Jaywalking on the lines got us nearly seen by the red lights

Saying time is an act against us

I never met a person like you

To say the things I wanted to say

All of the other buddies wanted the things

I don’t wanted to say

What kind of feeling and gut wanted to hold it that way?

As I said before

Honesty got way beyond everything it wants

To describe depthness and unhappiness in a happy way

The bitterness of the truth got us thinking the deep way

Turn us into the bittersweet thing we ever taste

What a gorgeous life he ever made

To himself and the cycle of people around him

What can I say

Without a full stop in the end

Put a coma instead

To continue ahead

As everyone says don’t judge a book by its cover

Except yourself

Nothing lasts forever

Since it’s has made

Changes are on the way

Gotta open the door wider

To let things in

Honesty got the most mysterious thing we ever felt

A March 2019 Poetry collection, this time with no main theme other than being honest and creative. All these poems were written over the course of a single day being Thursday March 14th 2019.

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