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The next day, Jessy doesn't show up to school all day, nor the next day. I'm worried to death for him. Also at the end of class, I will question Amy in order to obtain his address. She gives a little smile which immediately makes me think that she is going to rush to find Chad and tell him but, honestly, I don't care. At this moment, I don't care about my reputation, all that matters is this boy who has already indelibly marked my life and for whom I worry so much. I have to struggle for a little while and make up a crazy story, but in the end, I leave the school with the coordinates in my pocket. Immediately, I went to his house. He lives in an old two story house which has retained its incredible charm, despite the renovation work it has undergone. The paint, a light yellow, was redone recently. It’s just the kind of well kept house my dad likes. This thought makes me smile. A covered terrace, where a bench and two armchairs have been installed, shelters the entrance to the house. I climb the three steps and ring the bell. I don't have to wait long before the door opens for Jessy.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ2ThScw0b
— I’m not in the mood to worry, he told me point blank.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qar9dsle1
He looks tired, preoccupied. Despite his obvious bad mood, I'm happy to see him. These last two days without seeing him seemed like an eternity. His mother comes up behind him. I can only glimpse it briefly.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpaKK1e4Hk
— It’s for me, mom, he tells her.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJUVMqxWmc
Understanding that he doesn't want to talk to me in front of her, I decide to play on it and, leaning towards him, I whisper to him : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPC7Mz81NJ
— I'll stay until we've talked, and it's too bad if your mother asks me what I want.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVD8yRDWJzJ
His green eyes stare at me, trying to see if I'm bluffing or not, finally, he gives in.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXAlOAkbC0
— Very well, I’m coming.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzGWU8fx1V
He grabs a denim jacket before following me down the street.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ULGpqe4j0
We walk aimlessly, following the roads that pass before us in complete silence. I don't know how to start the discussion, I'm afraid of offending him, or of upsetting him if I question him too much.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNwilePM98
— So ? You wanted to talk to me, go ahead ! He says in a bad mood, as we arrive near an abandoned factory.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMG1UusohW
Intimidated, as always by his presence at my side, I take it upon myself to get started : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3VWwTmXTC
— You haven't come to school for the last two days...286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSKqdfhl8Y
— Oh yes, you noticed, well done ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZtS91VM9p
— Don’t be sarcastic, please. But you let me down for the presentation ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrWxXrjzbM
— Oh, and you probably want an apology ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgwYvnqeAG
— No, I don't care about this duty.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNCOPbQoiY
I use a calm tone so as not to annoy him further.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡui4vBeyeJw
— Why did you come to see me ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMXcvnmWAk
He stops walking.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuZqVjFGhV
— I was worried about you.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTiwvmOMcZ
— Well then ! Instead, admit that you want details so you can tell your friends everything afterwards ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTy81dcjV3
— I don't plan to tell anyone about it.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8jKUIqITz
He examines me for a long moment, seeming to search deep in my eyes if he can trust me.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JC79M4Jlz
— How long have you been HIV positive ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH69SbNPdU9
— It's been about a year now.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLipPruQiW1
— And how did you catch it ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQLJEXXurF
— One evening at a friend’s party, I met a girl…286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCEuc0Whxk
— And you slept together ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyfTUl42g3
— No, we watched cartoons ! He said, really angry.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ3L971pTR
— She didn’t tell you she was HIV positive ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyGRkaX8yz
— She didn't know at the time... A doctor called my mother a few weeks later, Haley had taken a test which came back positive. She had informed the doctor that I was one of her partners. I had to go get tested myself and that’s how I learned that she infected me.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5bL7qBUcg
— Just for one night you spent together.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jPW9GQDFb
I whisper this sentence as if to myself.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdm9G6V1dq
— Not one night, just a short moment and a lack of condom and this is the result. A word of advice Meg : When you decide to do it with Chad, don't forget the condom otherwise you'll end up like me, a walking corpse ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52T1OMg0bt
— Jessy, stop saying that ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BdyrU0sid
— For what ? It's the truth ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYod33uK8h
— No, you are in good health, it doesn't even look like you have this virus so you have to be optimistic.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrktpXulJW3
— As if that could cure me ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPyKtxglYI
— Yes, it can help you hold on until the doctors find a cure.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKcsJTY6mr
I spoke more firmly than I wanted. Jessy looks at me, surprised.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL13wE9P2a4
— You're right, you have to be positive and enjoy life, right ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGjrc9dUDg
Suddenly his gaze changes, it becomes darker. He approaches me and takes me by the waist, holding me tightly against his body. I pull away from him immediately, not out of fear of illness, but as I would with any boy who did it this way.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkO6Blhh2D
— Hey, weird ! You don't want to kiss me anymore ! This surprises me greatly ! Go find your fantastic and healthy boyfriend and leave me alone ! he shouts as he walks away.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnNbpjNxUt
— Jessy, you’re wrong, that’s not it ! Come back ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eBQT5QrOz
My words are lost in the silence.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxkqegsSpz
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The next morning before classes, which start later today, and where Jessy will certainly still be conspicuous by his absence, I am sitting in a corner of the snack bar. It’s a café where all the young people from high school like to meet for a drink, listen to music and chat. The room is quite large, with its light green imitation leather benches, its silver metal tables and its fifties decoration all in pink and blue. I found Chad there, who is having fun around a pinball machine with his friends a little further away, while I read Jessy's book. In fact, this is the third time I've devoured it since he lent it to me. The story of this man who fights alone against everyone to obtain his freedom after having been condemned in advance by public opinion now takes on a whole new meaning for me. Between these lines, it is Jessy’s life that I see. I can't stop thinking about him, and it drives me crazy. I'm dating Chad, I like Chad. So why do I only think about Jessy's lips on mine ? Why am I so worried about him ? How come I miss him so much ? I have already gone several days without seeing Chad, when he went on vacation with his parents, without ever feeling this emptiness in the pit of my heart. Yet I am in love with him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfTMQjbKNL
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Ah, I'm going to go crazy if this continues ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8JV6MaBA9
I raise my head and look at him, he looks at me and gives me a smile that I have trouble responding to, before he turns his attention back to his friends.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzbzkVZshZ
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Putting my thoughts aside, I carefully dive back into my reading when Amy approaches me. That day, more than ever, I had no desire to talk to him. As I expected, she reported my comments to Chad and, as always, I had to justify myself. Luckily we have this talk to give, it gave me the perfect excuse.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRVmj5xtI7
Amy lifts the cover of my book and whispers : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiwlvc1Rm6
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— It’s a great book ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu68tkkJfTw
— I will never understand how you could want to read outside of class, there are so many things286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDJ8sPughj
much more exciting to do…286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mTPYQd9QI
— Excuse me…286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CBHe50wjJ
I get up quickly after seeing Jessy passing in the street.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEbNdctOfX
Hurriedly, I leave the café.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4CgiVNeOM
— Jessy ! Wait for me ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxhrXO7Pbp
As usual, he hears me, but continues on his way.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7MNTKPOkL
— I have your book ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYytyoEMkw
This time, I manage to catch his attention, he stops on the sidewalk.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZBaTw4U53
— What do you want from me ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVwUiZtFuw
— I just wanted to give that back to you.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3UHsJXTPA
I hand him his paperback, staring at him, my heart rate increasing.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojQpfht7dq
— And then, I wanted us to talk.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hMCj4L1LM
— I think we said everything. You should go back to your boyfriend.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9M8U68PFXk
— I don’t want to talk with Chad, but with you.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6ibOMH0lv
— Thank you, that’s a pleasure, says a familiar voice behind me, making me jump.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPXaUjvCON
I quickly turn around to see my boyfriend.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPFrvV1aBj
— It's not what you think. But I need to talk to Jessy.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUij1Rnc6uw
— We have nothing to say to each other, he repeats.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZiIhvWvu7
— Glad to hear you say that ! Stop hovering over my girlfriend ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIfmU735px
— Hey, I’m here, Chad ! You don't have to speak on my behalf and even less tell me who I can talk to or not ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40jI0s4194
— There, I agree with you, replies Jessy.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAFfRXwjKq
— We didn't ask you anything ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgOfbEEAhQ
— Leave him alone ! It’s me who wants to talk to him ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B30HIZD26
— Are we having a threesome now ? Chad angrily grabs my arm.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDln951n1VF
He squeezes it tightly and takes me with him towards the snack bar.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhuoTGii1a
— Let me go, I demand, trying to get out of his grip. You're ridiculous ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgcu181jCg
Chad tightens his grip further.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIZ3YNJqmJ
— I just want to talk to you.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsakBL0bRH
— So let go of me, you’re hurting me ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrqVzKhpYr
— Let her go ! Jessy demands, interposing.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmDd7E6PPV
— Don't get involved ! My boyfriend shouts, finally releasing my sore arm before pushing Jessy along the wall of the establishment.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJH8Fad4cY
— Don’t hit me, Jessy warned.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsdOYpIlpu
— Ah, Monsieur gives more orders, says Chad angrily, putting his fist in the young man's stomach.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCP2LBcUG11
In shock, Jessy doubles over, dropping his book.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡininSdinF7
— Chad, stop ! I scream in the middle of the street.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrSanJpWGk
Jessy, still hunched over, rushes at Chad and knocks him to the ground. He finds himself straddling him, trying to keep him on the ground while asking him to calm down. But you don't know Chad very well to think that he's going to let himself be controlled so easily. Soon they are rolling on the sidewalk, almost falling onto the road. Chad finds himself on top of Jessy and punches him in the stomach again. Then he stands up, waiting for Jessy to get up. When he gets back to his feet, he spreads his hands in a sign of appeasement, but Chad rushes at him again and hits him in the cheek.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuK1JLs9y4c
— Chad ! Leave him ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1K64ejNhyl
Jessy picks up his book and walks away, but Chad comes at him again and hits him in the back. Jessy falls to his knees as Chad walks around to face him and grabs him by the collar of his T-shirt.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADz7J7JNIM
No matter how much I beg him, Chad doesn't listen to me. I am about to betray my promise when, fortunately, two police officers intervene to separate them, surrounding them.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJzgnIsvky
Jessy immediately regains his calm while Chad continues to struggle in order to continue the fight.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVx1HpbvrP
— What is happening here ? Asks the officer holding Jessy.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESW9rVHNw4
— This guy is hitting on my girlfriend, Chad shouts, still annoyed.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUHACVp7mP
— Anything ! I shout angrily. Jessy is a friend and there’s no way you’re going to forbid me from talking to him ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVkzW4BaJ1
My boyfriend stares at me in astonishment while I think I see recognition in Jessy's eyes. This has the gift of calming Chad who lets his arms fall while blowing.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6d2NMtfaHU
— Can we let go of you ? Asks the second police officer.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4zY64upoo
Both boys nodded weakly.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmGEcYOBik
— It’s not over yet, Chad says, staring at Jessy, before heading back to the snack bar.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiuS1t7PVh
— It'll be OK ? Asks the other agent. He hurt you, do you want to go to the hospital ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw078kAX0c7
Jessy's complexion suddenly turned pale.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRPovvECte
— No, it’s okay.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEbtH5hkOd
— I’ll take care of him, I intervene, moving closer to him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEJxhvVBqn
With a knowing look, the two police officers walk away.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0qVACyfNf
— Thank you, Jessy sighs.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxCGR66w8L
— You seemed panicked at the idea of going to the hospital.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycEq43cYXA
— Yeah, I'm not a big fan of it. I've already just left my doctor's office, I'm not going to spend the rest of my day on a stretcher.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYv4cHGwe7j
I pick up his book and give it back to him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDE7cFQu4L
— Do you want to talk now ? I ask.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKxDTMC659
Jessy purses his lips.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDm9YMjNJz
— You never give up ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1thMTUXwP
— It depends on the subject but when it’s something important to me, no, I never give up.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAe7bfqIvZ
Jessy seems touched by my words, he lowers his head and nods, pursing his lips.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5gQ2Nv7t9
Without even asking him if he plans to go to class this morning, we head towards his house.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIijui2154H
— Did you like the book ? He finally asked after a long silence.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hHYkEzfKU
— I devoured it ! I'll have to buy a copy.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxn6euxj6sF
His smile is radiant when he tells me : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArofUeEbZD
— I'm glad you liked it. You're the first person I've told about this.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqQsirk0KW
I take advantage of this confidence to try to learn more.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4G0FiCAU0
— You told me you went to the doctor, are you okay ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8aJWfXbih
— My doctor told me that apart from being HIV positive, I am in great shape. She will do regular blood tests to monitor how the virus is progressing and has also encouraged me to join a support group of people who have the same problem as me, he tells me as he stops walking.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡok1VNbePy1
I meditate on his words for a few seconds, I know how important the subject is and I definitely don't want to focus on it.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPkudPWUSB
— I think you should try going to one of these meetings. After all, what are you risking ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nLMta19KA
He raises his face to the sky and observes a cloud which moves slowly, pushed by a light wind.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYbFARnQpC
— Maybe you're right.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrYtedjZkk
Satisfied with his answer, I leave him in front of his house. As I head back home, I'm torn between the pleasure of being closer to Jessy and the anger that overcomes me when I think of Chad. I know this situation has gone on for too long.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUjcjGdSzR
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I had barely crossed the threshold of my house when my mother told me that Chad was waiting for me in the garden.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXw3hXFpiC
— Neither of you have been to class and Chad looks upset, she said. What's going on, Megan ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2ZFwlfOck
— I'm sorry, mom. I should have warned you. Chad and Jessy fought before we went to high school. Chad crossed the line, Jessy is hurt, and believe me, he really didn't need this.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7GhVnLITs
My mother examines me carefully. I'm not going to lie, along the way I thought about how events unfolded and the more I think about it, the more my anger grows.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRI5VynSWgL
— And this fight happened because of how you feel about Jessy ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJbCB2yzHY
I agree, nodding my head.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDend0CMiHg
— Now, do you know what you are doing ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqIsHvCIj5
— Yes, even if it is painful, I can no longer hide my face.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8d8TGBER0
My mother gives a little knowing smile.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sj4AsXRQ2
— GOOD. I don't like it when you skip school, but this time, I'm giving up. You will go to class this afternoon. In the meantime, go and sort this situation out. Good luck.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIietYzzBW
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Chad is pacing around the yard when I open the back door of the house to join him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNQoqXseRN
— Finally you're here ! Were you with him ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBaWuv8pLJ
The tone of his voice is icy. If he thinks I'm going to let him talk to me like that, he's sorely mistaken.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrpBQ6sTKJ
— Remind me, when did we get married ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58zC26VXnV
— Pardon ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwUnmJJ0en
— No, because the reason you're acting like an incredible asshole is because we've been married for years and you think I'm your property, right ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhhs9LFx2v
Chad puts his hand to his forehead and bursts out into mirthless laughter.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5c8LVwwooU
— I should have known you were going to take his side. Damn, Meg, you don't realize this guy is manipulating you to separate us ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXX74DE8yN
If until now I had managed to keep calm, his words made me lose all control.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs68z95wf4
— But you are completely delusional ! I'm not your thing, I'm free to do what I want ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnIHP3PIal
— Like sleeping with him ! ? He writes to himself, clenching his fists.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdLe7fxWjb
— I'm not going out with him ! I scream. And I'm not going out with you anymore ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hSrmnSLVp
In shock, he takes two steps back.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIo5KDBHmpK
— What ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQbakkdgTV
— You understood me very well. It's over Chad.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoOh2uQmwF
— He succeeded then ? He wanted to separate us and you become his accomplice.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryFNFkYA1M
This time it’s me who’s in shock. Where did he get such an idea ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sCWMpLz0e
— No, but do you hear yourself ? I'm talking to you about us, not Jessy. He never even suggested that I break up with you, even after you hit him earlier.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57KFbjaaXE
— You're not going to make me believe that it's enough for you to realize that you don't love me anymore.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFS2jDPaPm
— Since we have been together, I have asked myself a lot of questions, I admit, going to sit down on a chair in the garden furniture. We have nothing in common. I know that I annoy you when I talk to you about literature and you annoy me when I try to share a moment with you and you are so captivated by a match on TV that you don't care.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFFkuCWjvf
Chad opens his mouth to respond but remains silent.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgWS6iPF2f
— You know I’m right, I insist calmly. You and I have known each other since we were kids, we have always been friends and I think we should have stayed that way.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfxlXpmwsM
He takes a deep breath as his eyes water.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhqlrXfhGU
— So you don’t love me anymore ? he whispers.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRhCQqvj80
— Yes I love you but, contrary to what I thought, I realized that I am not in love with you. I love you as a friend, not as the man of my life.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkeu2b9Cjq
— And did you realize how you felt, before or after falling in love with Jessy ? He get angry again. It’s not over Meg ! I'm sure this guy is hiding something and trust me I'll find out what it is ! You will come back to me Meg ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lbq5Je2Oi
— Chad ! Chad ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UvvHD1Xum
But it's too late, he's already slammed the door behind him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2brX5oDu43
I feel relieved to finally have been able to put into words what had bothered me since the beginning of our story, but I am also worried at the thought of Chad discovering Jessy's secret. I hope his threats are out of anger and that after he calms down he will realize their stupidity.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexHiILVpib
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In the afternoon, I head back to school and smile as soon as I see Jessy arriving in the main hallway.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6ALpXWk7I
— You’ve decided to come back, I comment.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq612kVorK
— Yeah, I don’t want Chad to think he’s got the upper hand on me, he replies as we walk down the hall towards our class.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9NAreDZ2E
— Good choice. But I need to talk to you.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAeDWazyUJ
Without waiting, I pull him by his jacket away from the crowd of students and lead him into a corner near the boys' bathroom. I don't want anyone to hear our exchange.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYCUgWaDP6
— What is happening ? He asks me, frowning.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7l9IXfnr6J
— Chad was at my house when I got home.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQjvRe4CiJ
— Okay, he says slowly.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWzS2IJKRA
— I broke up with him, I admit abruptly.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIq33rl5HJd
His already piercing gaze locks on mine and never lets go. I wish I could drown in it but I only have a short time before the bell rings.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVSMxuFyRS
— He is very angry with you. He thinks you made me dump him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD910D9hxpj
— I have never done that ! He writes to himself, shocked.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKr9G75UvD
— I know that perfectly, but I think he's looking for someone to blame for our breakup, when there's no one to blame. We're not meant for each other, that's all. Anyway, he told me you're hiding something and he's going to find out what it is. So be careful, okay ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUI0NYy4dfN
— Yeah.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SrOfB1jLM
He leans against the wall behind him and whispers, with tears in his eyes : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUF1PqlWTX
— I don't want it to start again like in my old school, I couldn't stand it.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLJQiwlskz
Seeing him abandon his armor in favor of sincerity upsets me beyond words. In these moments of fragility, I meet the real Jessy, not the one who takes a cold attitude to send me away but the sensitive boy who has suffered too much.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BhoTN6y9C
— That won’t happen, I reassure him. You are not alone here, I am your friend, I will always be here no matter what happens.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2gnBpwXjp
— Thanks Meg. I thought about what you told me earlier, about the support group for HIV— positive people. I called my doctor to ask for the contact details of the center.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79wdNQ85UJ
— Great, I smile. It will help you to talk with people who have the same virus as you, you will certainly be able to help each other.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpRSFHYmn5
— I don’t really believe it, but I’m going to try to go to a meeting, he said, resuming a distant attitude. So maybe you'll let go of me a little ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcXE1EyZNS
The bell which announces the resumption of classes interrupts our discussion.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMwI2kSjHs
— Here, I said, handing him my notes. That way you'll be up to date on math.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeGUlvIhH3
— Thanks Megan. Sometimes it’s good to have you in my life ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N0scSKMyJ
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The last bell announcing the end of the day has barely sounded before a rumor invades the establishment. I'm putting my things in my locker when I hear whispers about Jessy. I turn to him who is standing a little further away in front of his locker. He lowers his head, shoulders hunched and lips pursed.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzw7aPYNoI
Around us, the students murmur among themselves, stunned. At the time, AIDS was still a little— known disease; we were only in the early stages of medical research. There are lots of rumors about how and why this disease spreads, but the truth is that people still know very little about it. The only things we know for sure are that AIDS is scary and deadly. All eyes are fixed on Jessy, those who pass behind him move aside to make sure not to touch him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXJeJd5iUJ
A student I vaguely know passes in front of me, I intercept him to ask him what this new rumor is.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLcDNUxVQW
— You are not aware ? Jessy Sutter, the new student, he has AIDS and what's more, he's homosexual ! He announces to me proudly. Above all, don't go near him, you never know.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Iec8DFgzo
I don't have time to send him away, he's already moved away.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOm4kGsnQi
I look at Jessy again. He raises his head, fixes me with a burning look of anger before leaving the school as quickly as possible.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQyodaepbu
I do not understand anything. How can everyone know ? One thing is certain, given Jessy's fury, he thinks I betrayed him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkhMsEqGvM
I rush after him but when I get outside, he has already disappeared.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q9mVZ52wz
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After looking for Jessy all over town for what seemed like hours, imagining him alone, depressed, I gathered up my courage and went to his house. The door opens to reveal his mother.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5YHzPwCAJ
— Hello, she greets me kindly.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbKiAUjWdi
From the first glance, I feel that she is an understanding woman. Her long blond hair and green eyes identical to those of her son reflect the gentleness that I also detect in Jessy.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46rHNhzxPk
— Good morning. Is Jessy there ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIpkbONBXE
— No. You're Megan, right ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXCZIm7Sdf
I nod in agreement.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xwTjw49Ff
— Jessy told me about you.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCba9r9TZA
— I've been looking for him everywhere since school ended, hasn't he come back ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cr2XyRdBL
— No, I have not seen it. He must be walking somewhere now that everyone knows Jessy is infected.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlncm4fp3ap
I look at her, surprised that she was able to guess, she continues : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYWDaWTKBU
— I received a call from the school. Apparently, parents of students learned of the rumor and immediately reported it to the school administration. I am called this evening to talk about my son's state of health and to see if he can continue his education in this establishment.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJwgT1SwO3
— My God, this is nonsense ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMC1MrqzWn
— Unfortunately that's what happens when people know Jessy has AIDS. Everywhere he goes, he is rejected. This has happened before in Allentown, and it's happening again here. Everyone is afraid of being contaminated by simple contact, even my husband can't stand living under the same roof as him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61l7EaBZEE
Mrs. Sutter shakes her head as if her thoughts could evaporate with that gesture.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezU6k9dFqp
— It is so unfair. I need to talk to him. Contrary to what he thinks, I did not betray him. I don't know how his secret was revealed. You don't know where he might be ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4pP35fAdL
— He sometimes leaves alone for hours.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPh32qkZiy
— You are never afraid that he…286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80kIjmcpu7
Mrs. Sutter looks at me as if to say, “Would that be worse than what awaits him ?”286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKigWELvmN
I thank her and go home, totally dejected. Not only do all students now have to know about Jessy's condition, but even the administration is threatening not to keep him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gspAh78Na
When I walk through the door of my house, night begins to fall. I hear my parents talking.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ODe3EcSgm
— Meg, it’s you ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Y4j63gnr4
— Yes Dad.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVe0CqB0WgB
— Can you come ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LV1F1CYCb
I walk down the hallway and into the kitchen, where my parents are sitting around the table.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoFqQ4XLGv
— Nina told us what is being said around town about Jessy. Is it true ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6vjHT4qBI
I nod silently.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTfPuk3XUm
— How long have you known that ? Ask my mother.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBTawh4qi1
— Since the other evening, when he stayed to eat. He admitted it to me when I took him home.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuOtOEifWB
— You could have told us about it ! My father points out.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycNFV5G9kc
— I told him I wouldn't tell anyone. I didn't want to break my word...286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdumBSjb44
— Then how…286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3N236MXIdL
— You can believe me mom, I keep asking myself that question. I only see one answer : Chad. This afternoon, he was very upset with Jessy and promised to find his secret. However, I don't know how he found out about it.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡene8Ri4jRV
— Is it true that Chad fought with Jessy because you wanted to talk to him ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKcZWDOq7i
I nod.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovaaZKdek9
— Chad wanted to force me into the snack bar, Jessy intervened to defend me.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHS0gd2lkYh
My response makes my father clench his fists and he says : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDloyRSHBI5
— He loses nothing by knowing what I think of his way of fighting like that and the rest.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvfse3CPju
— Are you aware that Mrs. Sutter has been summoned to high school ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbSWD7IbeG
In front of my parents' questioning looks, I tell them the words of Jessy's mother.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvo4aJ2HQKb
My mother makes a few phone calls and tells us : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3saB9uvtV
— The parents’ council is meeting this evening with the administration. Officially, they can't fire Jessy because he's sick, but they can send a report to the academy who will judge what to do in such a circumstance.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AhzWG5HKB
Seeing my dismayed face, my father said to me : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ262VYzsbvo
— Don’t worry, darling. We will go to this meeting and we will support Ms. Sutter. It will be fine.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNHA9nkA2q
Less convinced than my father, I go into the garden and sit on the swing. Alone with my thoughts, I realize that I have suddenly aged. Before I met Jessy, I was a carefree kid with few worries, but now I see life differently. And to think that it’s only been ten days since Chad’s party. I wanted to become an adult, I'm served ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GTL0gDRp1
Jessie, where are you ? I sigh, mulling over the latest events. I don't hear Nina open the back door.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfLV4g5TiF
— I was wondering where you were, she says, making me jump. The parents are out, Chad is there. He wants to see you.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3NwCZAuf0
I sigh again. After what happened this afternoon, I still don't want to talk to him. But he doesn't wait to hear my opinion before following my sister who, feeling the storm brewing in the sky as much as with my ex-boyfriend, slips away.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvVzNipPAE
— I came to apologize for my behavior this morning. If I had known Jessy was gay, I wouldn't have been jealous of you talking to him.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vBJPzqWg9
I huff, exasperated. Chad looks at me, I see the incomprehension on his face.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrnaXKouQR
— He is not homosexual. It was a girl who infected him ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx70ZVx3aq8
— Sorry, but how could I have known ? You don't tell me anything anymore ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkcaXA3F8X
— Sorry, but when someone tells me a secret, I do my best to keep it. Were you the one who revealed Jessy's illness to everyone ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1o5cGVtDcs
His false innocent appearance betrays him even before he confesses. I think I see a little boy having done something stupid with his hands in his pants pockets, squirming for words. Even when we were children, he behaved this way. His attitude makes my anger explode.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciDJO37Adc
— It's about time you grew up, Chad ! You are so immature at times ! Do you realize that now everyone knows about their state of health ? That he might be kicked out of school ? That you're ruining his life ? But no, you don’t care as long as you make him pay for my breakup ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kyq1zehFF
Annoyed, he lowers his head. This attitude annoys me even more.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96kUFEFkJl
— I know, I screwed up. But if you had told me everything...286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgv0OxPbBz
I give him a murderous look. He's old enough to know how to behave.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFKU22Deqo
— Don’t ever ask me why I broke up with you again ! If you want to have an answer, look at yourself in the mirror... That is, if you can ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8sth2wVIO
— You don't even realize that since he arrived in town, you have completely ignored me ! Chad gets angry in turn.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElCCicEPjx
— It’s nothing to do with it ! I'm the guilty one, the one who understood that we are too different. Jessy had nothing to do with our relationship ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpGVeb1JRG
— I know, he whispers. I heard him say it this afternoon.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDja453i8ua
My eyes must be as round as saucers because Chad continues : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh02laeLwYT
— I was behind the bathroom door when you were talking. I heard your conversation, that’s how I knew.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOCR21GnSg
— Oh my God ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVAjN5Hv6U
With tears in my eyes, I place my hands over my mouth.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGCMgDohnX
— I’m sorry Meg. I didn't want things to go this far.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYN0S00aOYh
— And you rushed to repeat it to the whole school ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx37JnCqZkS
— I only told a few friends but it spread quickly. I really blame myself.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39b4U4idyK
My eyes filled with tears, I whisper : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFBV7MyvrW
— You can.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4B9rPqia6
— You’ll never want me again after this, will you ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcaByA103W
I shake my head.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurwqx8FRqD
— You disappointed me a lot, Chad. You are still my friend but I no longer trust you. I'm sorry.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC41TA3QEf5
— You don’t have to be, it’s my fault. I went way too far. The role of the jealous boyfriend doesn't work for me, he smiles sadly. Do you want us to remain friends ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kluOksnGq
I nod in agreement. I know that after digesting these events, I will forgive him. I can't not have him in my life, he's been part of it for too long.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyO87AGjJ8
Chad is about to enter the house again when, turning around, he says to me : 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfUNgYVXjc
— By the way, if you're looking for Jessy, it seems he hangs out near the bridge over the highway.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsTJA5Qlg8
As soon as Chad leaves, I put on my black parka and head in the direction he told me. Night has now fallen, the air is heavy, the storm threatens to break out at any moment. I hurry the three kilometers, running half the way. I arrive on the bridge, out of breath, but happy to see Jessy there. It is a narrow bridge, reserved for pedestrians, it allows us to reach a corner of the forest which encircles the city. Jessy paces along the steel guardrail, watching the cars and trucks speeding by on the dual carriageway just below. His face is half lit by the streetlights placed all along the highway. He turns to me as I approach.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpwIDPlYQF
— What are you doing here ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2bHTJI4TQ
His tone is dry.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJ5xDhueor
— I've been looking for you for hours.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwaW8GFKzB
— Well, you found me. You see, I'm still alive, you can go back now.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7l7axQsXnW
— I'm sorry for what happened. I discussed it with Chad, he was the one who spread the rumor.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Uzbxw8Xgo
— So you came so that I could forgive him ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTzgXZOKaN
I look at him, incredulous; However, I have to admit that he is not entirely wrong. I wish we could all be friends, but I know that is a utopian vision of our friendship. However, even if she is often embarrassing for his interlocutors, I like Jessy's frankness.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxon5uLgGFL
— I came because I'm afraid for you. It's late, come home with me.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PDVvyVs2C
Jessy looks at me with a disillusioned look but doesn't answer. He starts walking along the railing again, moving away from me. He seems hypnotized by the vehicles passing beneath our feet.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYr66CTwO3
— Ever since I’ve known you, you’ve spent your time moving away. Why are you running away from everyone ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfkE75nCz7
I shout to cover the sound of a heavy truck passing below.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPumu89VqRC
Suddenly a lightning bolt tears through the sky. Jessy turns around angrily.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmHH0dUlxF
— I'm not running away from anyone ! It's the others who never want me ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zd2A7dbSf
He sits on the railing which is only a few centimeters wide, passes his legs over the air, wraps them around the metal bars. A new flash of lightning illuminates the sky. Despite the heaviness of the night, I tremble and move closer to him to hold him by the back of his jacket.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFWPCnMwUf
— Jessy, please. Come back ! You're scaring me ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryRCcQoGeN
— I'm a danger to others, Meg ! I'm just on reprieve from this crap ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4dpt1ChEw
The tone of his voice is no longer charged with anger, but full of despair. It squeezes my heart.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytNE6LjsXx
— No ! You are not a risk to anyone ! And you are still here, alive and well ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv8dtWPUNb
Thunder suddenly cracks, startling me. I move closer to him and tighten my grip.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxcRIS6iLD
— Do you want to know what brought me here ? He says to me, letting go of the railing with his hands.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ9ZlM7VR3
He opens his arms wide, closes his eyes and falls forward, screaming in rage. Despite my efforts to hold him, his leather jacket slips through my fingers and I let go.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xuvh8lUN8
— Jessy, no ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUm26rnShK
I scream as loud as I can as I see him fall into the void.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzxt0gkJXo
I put my hands to my mouth while closing my eyes, not daring to open them because I am so sure that he has thrown himself under the wheels of the vehicles passing underneath. And then I suddenly realize that I care about him much more than I wanted to admit to myself until now. Yes, he's HIV positive, angry at the whole world and he spends a lot of time telling me off and yet, without knowing why yet, I can't help but think about him every minute. Suddenly, I hear him scream again at the same time as thunder cracks near us. I slowly open my eyes to see him hanging by his legs above the void. With a quick movement, he manages to stand up, then sit down again on the railing before coming back to my side. I admire his flexibility as I breathe with relief. He rushes straight towards me angrily.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqtaVXFDB2
— I'm going to die, Meg, my life expectancy is so low that it's not worth living ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxeI3N2b5g
His voice is thick with anger and despair.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zQ3m02m6L
— No, I said, crying. You're not sick and you may never be sick, but you have to keep breathing, keep fighting this shit ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡON8YQVOOwj
— To do what ? What awaits me in this cursed life ? Everyone will start turning their backs on me again, whispering in my way, being afraid of me.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BFXAv9Vid
Do you think that’s what it’s like to live ? 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpPxuYF5ko
He points to the highway.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lUJJFzL82
— AIDS has already made me fall into a void, vehicles have already crushed me. And none of your prayers or hopes can save me ! he shouts.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLPhMZ93db
My tears increase in the face of my helplessness. Jessy is going to die, it's just a matter of time and, in this second, I am fully aware of it.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ345THxN3V5
— This virus is circulating inside me and nothing anyone says or does to me will make it go away ! I will have to live the little time I have left carrying this burden alone ! I can't, I can't take this anymore. Reliving what I experienced in Allentown is beyond my strength ! 286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYPes0OKWH
He lowers his arms, weariness written on each of his features. Cries that he has had to repress many times flood his face. I go to snuggle up against him, immediately his arms embrace me.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKDTpsYzIi
— I’m here, you’re no longer alone. I'm here Jessy, I repeat to him several times, hoping that my words penetrate his bruised heart.286Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpyAXsQ4j7
Above us the storm calms down as the rain unleashes, mixing our tears with those of the sky.
Penana
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