我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。629Please respect copyright.PENANAvTqXN6QTCI
629Please respect copyright.PENANAN85OcnMAiE
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。629Please respect copyright.PENANAsxnASBykZ6
629Please respect copyright.PENANAdhFc67JGPl
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。629Please respect copyright.PENANAQU01caPnMP
629Please respect copyright.PENANAoRNWcEW9N2
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。629Please respect copyright.PENANAqc328RtGOT
629Please respect copyright.PENANAWBGRPReS9D
走進了屋邨商場。629Please respect copyright.PENANA1iTdjbqr4Q
629Please respect copyright.PENANAzpaj2GPuC6
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。629Please respect copyright.PENANAop7DxqAbBc
629Please respect copyright.PENANAgxAlJHKQ2j
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。629Please respect copyright.PENANAGdE6UxKIN5
629Please respect copyright.PENANACfDQDl7dUZ
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。629Please respect copyright.PENANADg7eXCZDtb
629Please respect copyright.PENANAooLaQrcn4V
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。629Please respect copyright.PENANAyKQO86JfJl
629Please respect copyright.PENANAzfs4wTXFIJ
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。629Please respect copyright.PENANAy4hL97FsPe
629Please respect copyright.PENANAede7mGapGw
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。629Please respect copyright.PENANAXaxO28ImnQ
629Please respect copyright.PENANAqVVUQGyTHn
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。629Please respect copyright.PENANAQcILAM9OU4
629Please respect copyright.PENANAWXyzJm1dJV
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。629Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZbqLsdplx
629Please respect copyright.PENANAqFTXbTF5zV
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。629Please respect copyright.PENANA6gaFRS3ckN
629Please respect copyright.PENANAwZCQXUIsWT
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。629Please respect copyright.PENANAwsPX4WLrBn
629Please respect copyright.PENANAtKeiUeC4rc
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——629Please respect copyright.PENANAXgGtC34fzo
629Please respect copyright.PENANAO2y4mSaYIC
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。629Please respect copyright.PENANAuhpvK7silD
629Please respect copyright.PENANA1rqKKqXH20
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。629Please respect copyright.PENANABj9mAcTzlW
629Please respect copyright.PENANA5woLZMKpyE
腳步還是能動。629Please respect copyright.PENANAOqG7xLn7sv
629Please respect copyright.PENANAgfxvSavdiG
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。629Please respect copyright.PENANAIr586idRos
629Please respect copyright.PENANA9P3QWHALQH
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……629Please respect copyright.PENANAJw9Hbj1XQC
629Please respect copyright.PENANAy9QD1pVfg2
腳步才轉向離去。629Please respect copyright.PENANAVdM00pK45f
629Please respect copyright.PENANAud4pBNbwn7
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。629Please respect copyright.PENANAONr0vaqNfa
629Please respect copyright.PENANARsug00ZWVq
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。629Please respect copyright.PENANAnQBC7swfyG
629Please respect copyright.PENANAkaWHs6xH6z
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。629Please respect copyright.PENANAwtFQdspasx
629Please respect copyright.PENANAhhfvmRXUon
但是已經不再重要。629Please respect copyright.PENANAF4FzyMn3nr
629Please respect copyright.PENANAJKVe0MCRGZ
她騙了我。629Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6o0TQXeMO
629Please respect copyright.PENANAr5WYjN1nEM
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。629Please respect copyright.PENANAzNJTHvyF7G
629Please respect copyright.PENANAynCcLI264f
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。629Please respect copyright.PENANAiNi2mloydk
629Please respect copyright.PENANAJvREdFNThb
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。629Please respect copyright.PENANALAPwF8Hj1N
629Please respect copyright.PENANAu8sVBT11cv
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。629Please respect copyright.PENANAFvyBylhUBd
629Please respect copyright.PENANAujT9hkJWsV
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。629Please respect copyright.PENANAT72D4UCBiv
629Please respect copyright.PENANArO6XH0AA79
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。629Please respect copyright.PENANAMXbCQ83Ndt
629Please respect copyright.PENANAwpOZYMCbOZ
但我錯了。629Please respect copyright.PENANAHOvWnzuZHE
629Please respect copyright.PENANAfNciziatSg
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。629Please respect copyright.PENANAo1LC1ucUg1
629Please respect copyright.PENANAqE2lbPsMuL
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。629Please respect copyright.PENANAhWCW0iFTA9
629Please respect copyright.PENANAEVTsMBPsxr
眼下——629Please respect copyright.PENANAVeIHItdIBe
629Please respect copyright.PENANALdVeEB4ZbH
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。629Please respect copyright.PENANAowj9qdsbH7
629Please respect copyright.PENANANdmFNgp9s5
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。629Please respect copyright.PENANAvnZwiwNdMR
629Please respect copyright.PENANA6nCZwwy5cu
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。629Please respect copyright.PENANAzBL9S73TYA
629Please respect copyright.PENANAXGezpk98at
我能夠再承受一次嗎?629Please respect copyright.PENANAIJ9NHcktv9
629Please respect copyright.PENANAljS7l0548M
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。629Please respect copyright.PENANAonTUYC5Zfp
629Please respect copyright.PENANANFl8aFpkrO
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。629Please respect copyright.PENANAWo2Hs4lE5X
629Please respect copyright.PENANA5kMSJa7M5h
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。629Please respect copyright.PENANAvWozXuVDIk
629Please respect copyright.PENANAiAsdd8kz2d
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。629Please respect copyright.PENANAV1z2TvVDbY
629Please respect copyright.PENANAGbkxFl6tnR
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。629Please respect copyright.PENANAI2yb1Z3AgT
629Please respect copyright.PENANATJT8Loe7oz
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。629Please respect copyright.PENANAl1yYHi7gc5
629Please respect copyright.PENANAYMdGK5EN72
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。629Please respect copyright.PENANAiSN2FsiTS8
629Please respect copyright.PENANA1pF3bm76Z4
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。629Please respect copyright.PENANAXxkeevuAWD
629Please respect copyright.PENANAuRYnCoafFB
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。629Please respect copyright.PENANAlbQad1CdNR
629Please respect copyright.PENANA38MR2az8YN
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……629Please respect copyright.PENANA8naZmn4uXm
629Please respect copyright.PENANAAF2ha62CSM
我樂意代勞的。629Please respect copyright.PENANALpaha2d7gW
629Please respect copyright.PENANAlBIv6q9mFd
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。629Please respect copyright.PENANAIZAv0O4Rx1
629Please respect copyright.PENANAU4No4A1eGT
我馬上看看後座的乘客——629Please respect copyright.PENANALSYyw5zcqE
629Please respect copyright.PENANAxnGgxuaqbn
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。629Please respect copyright.PENANAIaJfJvgCcO
629Please respect copyright.PENANAyMD527sX9P
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?629Please respect copyright.PENANAfxydtRtGnZ
629Please respect copyright.PENANAcKFAV1erAO
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。629Please respect copyright.PENANALzZdJCAxEd
629Please respect copyright.PENANAseYMqTrRJk
在下午等待至日落——629Please respect copyright.PENANALGmcQbLxmW
629Please respect copyright.PENANAlU9LjzIgZO
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。629Please respect copyright.PENANAz7LhuHNbv5
629Please respect copyright.PENANAMUYvoGyOb3
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。629Please respect copyright.PENANAi71pDjtnd0
629Please respect copyright.PENANA1ONFkKZYlN
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」629Please respect copyright.PENANAe5IX36Qk2K
629Please respect copyright.PENANAtn76bMoRrk
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。629Please respect copyright.PENANAEvtej8UXJp
629Please respect copyright.PENANAw4EKogQ6mz
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。629Please respect copyright.PENANAJaVS0BCR8H
629Please respect copyright.PENANAl2AHCw4zaL
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。629Please respect copyright.PENANAcPEOLCK9rx
629Please respect copyright.PENANA1UklsFraS2
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。629Please respect copyright.PENANAUT9jWMsdBY
629Please respect copyright.PENANABmBzlL705o
「嘭——」也是不進。629Please respect copyright.PENANAXZ3WVyRxDc
629Please respect copyright.PENANACzr0FvdksU
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。629Please respect copyright.PENANA45YG8ujW5q
629Please respect copyright.PENANA5AdkpSvpPz
漸漸出現晚霞。629Please respect copyright.PENANAsKL1X3nPEN
629Please respect copyright.PENANAaMT5OdNC5H
回去吧。629Please respect copyright.PENANAKdTTBbRHyo
629Please respect copyright.PENANAZtZm9OI2n0
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。629Please respect copyright.PENANANqefJfRhKQ
629Please respect copyright.PENANAp9TKl7EDRK
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。629Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3cmTPwHZ4
629Please respect copyright.PENANAadqinaXqhB
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。629Please respect copyright.PENANACsQaYUyN0S
629Please respect copyright.PENANA3s7Freoad1
背著書包,累然站起——629Please respect copyright.PENANAwQ4VS3Y3fE
629Please respect copyright.PENANATRo5qE2WCC
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」629Please respect copyright.PENANAkWDOvjFeTu
629Please respect copyright.PENANAuTQd9nCgal
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。629Please respect copyright.PENANAOdR3bsIWuK
629Please respect copyright.PENANAsJ2JCNvo29
最後,舉起手。629Please respect copyright.PENANAOvPkIn8yfB
629Please respect copyright.PENANAcZxlQNYMAj
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。629Please respect copyright.PENANA2hCpAuK5EK
629Please respect copyright.PENANAoswGasFGY2
* * *629Please respect copyright.PENANA2jxLrrEVl1
629Please respect copyright.PENANATKwnL9JQiX
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。629Please respect copyright.PENANAh75tWEtaQT
629Please respect copyright.PENANA1xwAIG6Z2M
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。629Please respect copyright.PENANAuaFnaLIuEB
629Please respect copyright.PENANAFi7n4pzIqZ
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。629Please respect copyright.PENANAGPVvr0cgxQ
629Please respect copyright.PENANADsfppuhGhL
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。629Please respect copyright.PENANATAijG4nnM2
629Please respect copyright.PENANAwlSDQCHHUa
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。629Please respect copyright.PENANAedzGmwMcV9
629Please respect copyright.PENANAeGsEEirIbK
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。629Please respect copyright.PENANA5TOmelhDqv
629Please respect copyright.PENANADjb1s7vNBF
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。629Please respect copyright.PENANAP6x3vk9ea8
629Please respect copyright.PENANANMwWgIVzEC
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。629Please respect copyright.PENANACTm9E4XgVH
629Please respect copyright.PENANAMakNAGCSCq
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。629Please respect copyright.PENANASb5tD0N4ah
629Please respect copyright.PENANA5FqNv6ytto
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。629Please respect copyright.PENANABtfFhJcFTn
629Please respect copyright.PENANA0liFPOVopX
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。629Please respect copyright.PENANArN7N1ufjg1
629Please respect copyright.PENANAUETq2IjGEv
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。629Please respect copyright.PENANAvK9oSvnJQE
629Please respect copyright.PENANA4bOzRyvXmA
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。629Please respect copyright.PENANAlK2kzqbqFc
629Please respect copyright.PENANA9Spkqb0tKR
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。629Please respect copyright.PENANA9uYH9Zz7HG
629Please respect copyright.PENANABczM2W6wGJ
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。629Please respect copyright.PENANAjhQkdPoZHB
629Please respect copyright.PENANAlQ1ywnjqKh
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。629Please respect copyright.PENANAoS83Xj9OAg
629Please respect copyright.PENANAKW5CtayjgL
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。629Please respect copyright.PENANAKYiOshzL9Z
629Please respect copyright.PENANAOfVOBVjlwZ
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。629Please respect copyright.PENANApIUwkFBQ30
629Please respect copyright.PENANAIWCEq6SXKC
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。629Please respect copyright.PENANAcgmy9MPdPm
629Please respect copyright.PENANA29vFocJOm7
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……629Please respect copyright.PENANAuGheo6K6RX
629Please respect copyright.PENANAU0qqwJTDmh
——放大瞳孔。629Please respect copyright.PENANAzNzFtVLFw1
629Please respect copyright.PENANAbYJ5GQzGcC
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。629Please respect copyright.PENANAxuboKyrD8A
629Please respect copyright.PENANA40zt3vJMTh
手機就在我的褲袋。629Please respect copyright.PENANAMusVbOKAu8
629Please respect copyright.PENANARppkOkf7xe
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。629Please respect copyright.PENANAN2zqVrH1sY
629Please respect copyright.PENANAyV52MfH62P
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。629Please respect copyright.PENANAq4VrQG0HqC
629Please respect copyright.PENANAi3ZavmCYCE
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。629Please respect copyright.PENANAVCs4Qb6OHV
629Please respect copyright.PENANAhLrZoqd7no
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。629Please respect copyright.PENANAtWXmtWgrmo
629Please respect copyright.PENANA28oDJwJcRU
那麼,打嗎?629Please respect copyright.PENANAfyIHEJ57F4
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。629Please respect copyright.PENANARMWC409QeW
629Please respect copyright.PENANAhEztScoLgX
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?629Please respect copyright.PENANAPhaDC29V2D
629Please respect copyright.PENANAMi2gjwzUen
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?629Please respect copyright.PENANAnGCewLI1PY
629Please respect copyright.PENANAUaSGuug5ij
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。629Please respect copyright.PENANAADAKnyAyqG
629Please respect copyright.PENANAQB2RvcqzG0
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。629Please respect copyright.PENANAonpWgrkvh8
629Please respect copyright.PENANA2nfGN79vzi
幾度拿出手機的我——629Please respect copyright.PENANAaDm3c6pffR
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算吧。629Please respect copyright.PENANA2WZrftmNY3
629Please respect copyright.PENANA1HGmEkToIs
把手機放回褲袋。629Please respect copyright.PENANA1DAWQrBxtr
629Please respect copyright.PENANAAnHKM0swV5
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。629Please respect copyright.PENANA4RgJGjFTay
629Please respect copyright.PENANAxWwJ08kx1m
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。629Please respect copyright.PENANARIQMcH2Adj
629Please respect copyright.PENANAiHBDSTB5Q6
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。629Please respect copyright.PENANAZljfi4u7dH
629Please respect copyright.PENANA2njUVSRRSd