這算什麼?578Please respect copyright.PENANA65OBwmGUfk
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。578Please respect copyright.PENANA0zzsveBYFm
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。578Please respect copyright.PENANA9JYLq3snHk
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。578Please respect copyright.PENANAafMqB6UxNe
578Please respect copyright.PENANA7VEhPRufvV
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。578Please respect copyright.PENANA7tfc4LtPcH
578Please respect copyright.PENANAMNMFwTpCs7
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。578Please respect copyright.PENANAO0iBOiYavM
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。578Please respect copyright.PENANAu3NQjKhOfP
578Please respect copyright.PENANAjj4uf4diVA
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。578Please respect copyright.PENANAhAQ1tBu0Cu
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然後便準備下山了。578Please respect copyright.PENANAiyfS3MMsi9
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。578Please respect copyright.PENANAo0NWl66tFN
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。578Please respect copyright.PENANAgwP933aB6B
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAxTxsT8OSmt
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。578Please respect copyright.PENANAsBswTtdw7g
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。578Please respect copyright.PENANA4vrPkBZQPA
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。578Please respect copyright.PENANAVMfen6k15r
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。578Please respect copyright.PENANAkGREnOEbEj
578Please respect copyright.PENANAmXTNeVEQaA
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。578Please respect copyright.PENANApEJCEFbMtz
578Please respect copyright.PENANAmzkOxHgThZ
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」578Please respect copyright.PENANArLgmVtMqSS
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不會告訴我,又一天了。578Please respect copyright.PENANA7wv02CKMGI
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。578Please respect copyright.PENANAOh01hAW4Fr
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。578Please respect copyright.PENANADkmmjeOAxu
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。578Please respect copyright.PENANAK6p4Kbyi4J
578Please respect copyright.PENANAf47WIEmIVY
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。578Please respect copyright.PENANAGtWRHhacXj
578Please respect copyright.PENANAmr3qR0B9BG
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。578Please respect copyright.PENANApaGiXnJbOR
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」578Please respect copyright.PENANA5lYaDPfpEe
578Please respect copyright.PENANAm1Wq9GUV66
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。578Please respect copyright.PENANABoc25ECIk7
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。578Please respect copyright.PENANASTkTR3xYmF
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怎麼說呢?578Please respect copyright.PENANAN4w2mqGeeD
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。578Please respect copyright.PENANArqNqnbjtyz
578Please respect copyright.PENANAz7lvxvV79i
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。578Please respect copyright.PENANAIcGCVT4iTs
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。578Please respect copyright.PENANAlN0Qxf5PTf
578Please respect copyright.PENANAmHr5Xtopu9
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。578Please respect copyright.PENANA2p2S6W6bgB
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。578Please respect copyright.PENANAwS9vifMFvk
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。578Please respect copyright.PENANA3TBTmLALFm
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我再點頭。578Please respect copyright.PENANAg6gpQVGvN1
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。578Please respect copyright.PENANAzo9Li40Rwk
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。578Please respect copyright.PENANAdeY0a9921k
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我馬上看第二天。578Please respect copyright.PENANAvnrOoLz5zB
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。578Please respect copyright.PENANAxomIwzvbci
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。578Please respect copyright.PENANAp5yT9zJOCo
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……578Please respect copyright.PENANAb0MbOf7pEs
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。578Please respect copyright.PENANAtgDUZRleMA
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」578Please respect copyright.PENANAlNWuC7aMuF
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」578Please respect copyright.PENANAkqssFUlSGn
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第二天「END」出現。578Please respect copyright.PENANAtPTu1gN1Lg
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我蓋上了練習簿。578Please respect copyright.PENANA7VHdS8Rdos
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。578Please respect copyright.PENANA6QCkWql53v
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?578Please respect copyright.PENANA1WhVNOw70t
578Please respect copyright.PENANAfckyG4cJHF
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。578Please respect copyright.PENANA8qdN1txLys
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。578Please respect copyright.PENANALtTeoOHKiO
578Please respect copyright.PENANAsDEYYlmptv
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。578Please respect copyright.PENANAvCcE9p6Xhx
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。578Please respect copyright.PENANAhZ9IcL6JHY
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。578Please respect copyright.PENANASSTyzOJQqt
578Please respect copyright.PENANAuqgC2dZcRJ
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?578Please respect copyright.PENANAL5UcmAwTiu
578Please respect copyright.PENANA370E1gBgdb
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。578Please respect copyright.PENANAFSask2vP8W
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。578Please respect copyright.PENANAlB5KgeJa4B
578Please respect copyright.PENANAGEtNwoWpY8
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAUBtZInI5t5
578Please respect copyright.PENANAisOVgWHv8o
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。578Please respect copyright.PENANAdTiiuAmSL3
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAs2XdJj5VJC
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。578Please respect copyright.PENANA4goZRJjhgC
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。578Please respect copyright.PENANANK8F5GsrP8
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。578Please respect copyright.PENANAcauZuV2YET
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然後再次坐好。578Please respect copyright.PENANADZ74z55guZ
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「陸……傾兒。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAXSugsq1Qpe
578Please respect copyright.PENANADL0PUQYKQU
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。578Please respect copyright.PENANAoIOHRvijBc
578Please respect copyright.PENANAohpudvAOwn
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。578Please respect copyright.PENANA0v9CycvtAC
578Please respect copyright.PENANAlHzt3UwMJs
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。578Please respect copyright.PENANAifGn0xbe4g
578Please respect copyright.PENANAZeKbnAJ0bd
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。578Please respect copyright.PENANA2MN0A9fMBK
578Please respect copyright.PENANAhRtaVFBAcz
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。578Please respect copyright.PENANAICnDXbT9UC
578Please respect copyright.PENANA5dMb0HdWJk
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?578Please respect copyright.PENANAfxIpeTx03A
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。578Please respect copyright.PENANAsckZo2dniV
578Please respect copyright.PENANAxI01pxMxCq
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。578Please respect copyright.PENANAFp8NVBfpUN
578Please respect copyright.PENANAW1U4bMs0Ri
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。578Please respect copyright.PENANAbo8HOE1fgu
578Please respect copyright.PENANA48yg3aYH57
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。578Please respect copyright.PENANA5v6QH1myHL
578Please respect copyright.PENANANN8jPv19QD
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。578Please respect copyright.PENANAvHT6VFem3f
578Please respect copyright.PENANALaOe5ipULF
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。578Please respect copyright.PENANAOWbMEBRJrz
578Please respect copyright.PENANAcvMRzozgaL
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。578Please respect copyright.PENANA3yTMAWuQm0
578Please respect copyright.PENANALFKvYcflSU
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。578Please respect copyright.PENANANpLIEnnhW9
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。578Please respect copyright.PENANAi1WwZORian
578Please respect copyright.PENANATZWgFHS3nV
那麼,我呢?578Please respect copyright.PENANAsS8rPmnp3t
578Please respect copyright.PENANAhq6nI34rjA
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?578Please respect copyright.PENANAml3BAAh6aj
578Please respect copyright.PENANAwoATxWLJP9
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。578Please respect copyright.PENANAeLTyL8Lo5n
578Please respect copyright.PENANAhduiwiVKZH
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。578Please respect copyright.PENANAfV2zxFyqZR
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。578Please respect copyright.PENANAG9dr3UQytF
578Please respect copyright.PENANAnvzFTK9BFV
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。578Please respect copyright.PENANAKTnqpcMTUy
578Please respect copyright.PENANAR9GgMVoQJI
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。578Please respect copyright.PENANAHiGrB3L4Ib
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 578Please respect copyright.PENANAqvPQCjHUxq
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 578Please respect copyright.PENANAAUaP2Wipjn
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。578Please respect copyright.PENANAMktCFH6E0d
578Please respect copyright.PENANAYFwgTCC0LO
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAaIHzXdeAQ8
578Please respect copyright.PENANATNDLWgsjWi
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」578Please respect copyright.PENANA7UZhWyYFyp
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAYpN0M5CqE6
578Please respect copyright.PENANAYVITL0JGs2
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」578Please respect copyright.PENANACOI6tcxlPk
578Please respect copyright.PENANA6iDqJl7kAa
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。578Please respect copyright.PENANAz9fuyPOXuC
578Please respect copyright.PENANAMm3sF1cfm2
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」578Please respect copyright.PENANATUvAGUlMq3
578Please respect copyright.PENANANjrQFZmbKy
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。578Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ie0jpHOpr
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。578Please respect copyright.PENANANpTgfM1zu2
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。578Please respect copyright.PENANACmJiQsF4dw
578Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7WvGzfrH4
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。578Please respect copyright.PENANANLSe9LQduG
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?578Please respect copyright.PENANA7YFJwFgArm
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我期待著。578Please respect copyright.PENANA1g4xLecRqW
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。578Please respect copyright.PENANALDWwlnfSdX
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。578Please respect copyright.PENANAo7yFmMWdm4
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。578Please respect copyright.PENANAbbbX1f61Hm
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」578Please respect copyright.PENANAPPO8fMUKCG
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。578Please respect copyright.PENANACXMcayh9GN
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」578Please respect copyright.PENANA0Dm6S5FKOd
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。578Please respect copyright.PENANAlDCkjcFyzQ
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。578Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7XNOhiX9z
578Please respect copyright.PENANAhsiICkZqwm
傾耳以待——578Please respect copyright.PENANApIlQdJS6ha
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAEmdIAN4nmE
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。578Please respect copyright.PENANAZqkOPPOPuw
578Please respect copyright.PENANApOGThc2t1a
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。578Please respect copyright.PENANAkjs897cp0W
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。578Please respect copyright.PENANAPDP4CKI1UE
578Please respect copyright.PENANAysZzeYxcVk
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAywkj2fds9Y
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身體傾後,躺了下來。578Please respect copyright.PENANA02Dolqtt3K
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「係諗住攤。」578Please respect copyright.PENANAeNY3VspFJS
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。578Please respect copyright.PENANAVJmGjb1Ly6
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。578Please respect copyright.PENANAhUwhLIHNvB
578Please respect copyright.PENANAmehWWRxshI
在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。578Please respect copyright.PENANAEdrXvXrnqZ
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露出鼻尖和微笑。578Please respect copyright.PENANAicyo9D25Jh
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。578Please respect copyright.PENANA0IcG7Trrl2