我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。669Please respect copyright.PENANA3HjKhQ2b54
669Please respect copyright.PENANAhRZ3tJ2Tzz
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。669Please respect copyright.PENANA3J08ACRE0c
669Please respect copyright.PENANAhUklaUON5m
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。669Please respect copyright.PENANAo7xTNhll0J
669Please respect copyright.PENANAoDkV5aX22S
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。669Please respect copyright.PENANA0sda8GSKNZ
669Please respect copyright.PENANAmLUU4ZFCys
走進了屋邨商場。669Please respect copyright.PENANAoXHyGtdgfg
669Please respect copyright.PENANAr2UkLk8Kxl
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。669Please respect copyright.PENANAf4NJdWCQAe
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwUED9pM8Iu
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。669Please respect copyright.PENANACituTGBDuT
669Please respect copyright.PENANAXSQfvru3Ll
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。669Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5HP3lWJDD
669Please respect copyright.PENANAdkwjPzKzqD
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。669Please respect copyright.PENANAIPxrUnxWYa
669Please respect copyright.PENANAnvuatH3NCd
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。669Please respect copyright.PENANAE37kyd3WBn
669Please respect copyright.PENANAZtpPJbGq7J
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。669Please respect copyright.PENANAUBFzJiCBdH
669Please respect copyright.PENANARJCnHJ3pJi
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。669Please respect copyright.PENANA4O1mOIa11v
669Please respect copyright.PENANAUHJfZuUGB6
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。669Please respect copyright.PENANA0uLfqXZBLS
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1iFjyrZ2ak
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。669Please respect copyright.PENANAu1bt7TF3FT
669Please respect copyright.PENANAsrKOGLxIHD
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。669Please respect copyright.PENANAosUzLhPBQJ
669Please respect copyright.PENANAPUHehrfHNu
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——669Please respect copyright.PENANAmOQ67bzoNI
669Please respect copyright.PENANAAotTMJgNJd
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。669Please respect copyright.PENANAssyEiblzLn
669Please respect copyright.PENANAfSibvA2UZz
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。669Please respect copyright.PENANAb4EXhPoqV9
669Please respect copyright.PENANAurm5RBSFXm
腳步還是能動。669Please respect copyright.PENANAb8x3i1u6zo
669Please respect copyright.PENANAWf73UkE6EA
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。669Please respect copyright.PENANAkaJwZw0vkb
669Please respect copyright.PENANASRaG8GZU0C
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……669Please respect copyright.PENANABMOnLPtty9
669Please respect copyright.PENANAXW0VFilaQp
腳步才轉向離去。669Please respect copyright.PENANA5o3qTCWXCa
669Please respect copyright.PENANAO2TWDyhhWW
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。669Please respect copyright.PENANAqqIfv0LNYm
669Please respect copyright.PENANAtZY6ewr4cj
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。669Please respect copyright.PENANAAKzbzCZgfj
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwyEEfeL3kL
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。669Please respect copyright.PENANA1BL0KXTZdS
669Please respect copyright.PENANAjCXIbkqKxF
但是已經不再重要。669Please respect copyright.PENANACpw845z4fw
669Please respect copyright.PENANAF37K2Mqfsw
她騙了我。669Please respect copyright.PENANAcyyu5mdsmg
669Please respect copyright.PENANAok9gChfi5v
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。669Please respect copyright.PENANAlsM1CVscOg
669Please respect copyright.PENANAxHBX4B56Qv
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。669Please respect copyright.PENANAQlA7gTyXHS
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1o0RLrCUeb
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。669Please respect copyright.PENANAJLim6s2KTf
669Please respect copyright.PENANAjFbKsUt94l
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。669Please respect copyright.PENANAF3r2WpdlHA
669Please respect copyright.PENANA843DYsJ6u8
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。669Please respect copyright.PENANAfJ4gSTEl2G
669Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ftw2D9QCQ
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。669Please respect copyright.PENANAz8TsX8HFXL
669Please respect copyright.PENANALTTCz2RcPc
但我錯了。669Please respect copyright.PENANAvct63CT5lt
669Please respect copyright.PENANAaYtk0hgz9Z
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。669Please respect copyright.PENANAHFq10Ycn6R
669Please respect copyright.PENANAXcrMP1JLqY
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。669Please respect copyright.PENANAt4Ig06NcE2
669Please respect copyright.PENANAtTCmElGkx3
眼下——669Please respect copyright.PENANA5vSBMe8M2g
669Please respect copyright.PENANAgJYZ2wPXIh
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。669Please respect copyright.PENANANbVABdUpG7
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1zldeFYdgK
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。669Please respect copyright.PENANAZjp721Zj63
669Please respect copyright.PENANA8F31jsdTUO
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。669Please respect copyright.PENANAD9LozPZoo9
669Please respect copyright.PENANAHH1penXQhJ
我能夠再承受一次嗎?669Please respect copyright.PENANAk3BNepw2OG
669Please respect copyright.PENANAljBluzXYyj
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。669Please respect copyright.PENANADvV7BAxAoK
669Please respect copyright.PENANAX2IKhKDFeD
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。669Please respect copyright.PENANAdBPkXmHL6U
669Please respect copyright.PENANAK09aEVEpOj
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。669Please respect copyright.PENANApujU2HO51x
669Please respect copyright.PENANAUwKWq9YXN6
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。669Please respect copyright.PENANAt6Dh5yfPR2
669Please respect copyright.PENANAhgcWMKavHK
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。669Please respect copyright.PENANACVfbvFt8ET
669Please respect copyright.PENANAUiYUYpDZRU
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。669Please respect copyright.PENANAnBv6PLM7HU
669Please respect copyright.PENANAl1gtYbCcI4
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。669Please respect copyright.PENANAY25KAMSdRe
669Please respect copyright.PENANAxt0xqTyLjy
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。669Please respect copyright.PENANAhjb7UTPP3t
669Please respect copyright.PENANAmccJIyz49h
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。669Please respect copyright.PENANAk9gJYvvmdh
669Please respect copyright.PENANAEQn5h0XodS
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……669Please respect copyright.PENANAFoZOnrlo3J
669Please respect copyright.PENANAQx11AY6YeH
我樂意代勞的。669Please respect copyright.PENANAsRNCuZS81x
669Please respect copyright.PENANAibaHeR8sNk
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。669Please respect copyright.PENANAtWHkFg1N9H
669Please respect copyright.PENANAax0DW1yNiT
我馬上看看後座的乘客——669Please respect copyright.PENANADYA1RNRJ2G
669Please respect copyright.PENANA80lyWYhnce
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。669Please respect copyright.PENANAE2h2gKSFFY
669Please respect copyright.PENANAtpctKRGgdf
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?669Please respect copyright.PENANAWmtHARi7t1
669Please respect copyright.PENANALTmYPjTdvO
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。669Please respect copyright.PENANA3qcfBNOsXg
669Please respect copyright.PENANAo9AiE1e5ha
在下午等待至日落——669Please respect copyright.PENANAeQCPwr1cz0
669Please respect copyright.PENANAdsxX6aezKr
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。669Please respect copyright.PENANAXRJXGF3Vys
669Please respect copyright.PENANAkqjqB7WCcD
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。669Please respect copyright.PENANAZvwcDsGToN
669Please respect copyright.PENANA6d0bHuTVmA
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」669Please respect copyright.PENANAM2yxeqW9Z4
669Please respect copyright.PENANAtCRasahrUZ
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。669Please respect copyright.PENANAo9foRQnVxZ
669Please respect copyright.PENANA0G9pSQlEyR
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。669Please respect copyright.PENANA2i2LOpPDCL
669Please respect copyright.PENANA5qRM5T9GHy
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。669Please respect copyright.PENANAussEXsCB6V
669Please respect copyright.PENANApqauS29KGm
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。669Please respect copyright.PENANAihImpOSrvJ
669Please respect copyright.PENANAAI8JajyFvv
「嘭——」也是不進。669Please respect copyright.PENANAlLxJVKelB9
669Please respect copyright.PENANAmtIgfXjitw
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。669Please respect copyright.PENANALujJp9BVx8
669Please respect copyright.PENANAWd6T4LDNoC
漸漸出現晚霞。669Please respect copyright.PENANAVeCDlHhu0t
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwyWFMmt0nl
回去吧。669Please respect copyright.PENANAhDM60ENY5m
669Please respect copyright.PENANAfpmFWuYFRY
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。669Please respect copyright.PENANAjkhlEk2Kas
669Please respect copyright.PENANAR1Nupvh5xH
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。669Please respect copyright.PENANAcy9Cuxxxa0
669Please respect copyright.PENANAei3VKshY5P
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。669Please respect copyright.PENANAyiCG8THSJw
669Please respect copyright.PENANAbbzS6GqiT4
背著書包,累然站起——669Please respect copyright.PENANA2pLKZ4Ya6q
669Please respect copyright.PENANAgpBJ7iIdBf
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAFGQj95aBLe
669Please respect copyright.PENANAHtMU76y7gb
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。669Please respect copyright.PENANANQ03n77zLt
669Please respect copyright.PENANAHOCwYJ147b
最後,舉起手。669Please respect copyright.PENANAsfqUinfcpb
669Please respect copyright.PENANANOjNWEctaK
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。669Please respect copyright.PENANAsqdkwnika5
669Please respect copyright.PENANAy9ANoxqmC5
* * *669Please respect copyright.PENANA0GzBcIHwaQ
669Please respect copyright.PENANA3asHp79ByN
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。669Please respect copyright.PENANAcbfnRiegvl
669Please respect copyright.PENANA0FgWwFOBD0
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。669Please respect copyright.PENANApdGzu8ohtp
669Please respect copyright.PENANAolmkCGydSt
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。669Please respect copyright.PENANA82mEBgJAlF
669Please respect copyright.PENANAGYdCoawf21
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。669Please respect copyright.PENANAysOAGAXbCN
669Please respect copyright.PENANAKn56wmGnz2
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。669Please respect copyright.PENANAEV0S03mDuq
669Please respect copyright.PENANA0QFRMUz0D7
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。669Please respect copyright.PENANAikSDf73RdP
669Please respect copyright.PENANAAsuyJyfSYd
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。669Please respect copyright.PENANAXids3CScPc
669Please respect copyright.PENANAX6gvZKefdE
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。669Please respect copyright.PENANAYteEw6ZsjX
669Please respect copyright.PENANA7brggfIPkq
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。669Please respect copyright.PENANAp2Pf2Xy3yI
669Please respect copyright.PENANACvBbqVn8ME
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。669Please respect copyright.PENANAEMVU8w0kHb
669Please respect copyright.PENANAI89l59Ip1w
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。669Please respect copyright.PENANAamMxp7rpuG
669Please respect copyright.PENANAY3cDp58cnX
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。669Please respect copyright.PENANAeCunpy7SuI
669Please respect copyright.PENANA6tWmIkoPHg
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。669Please respect copyright.PENANAjF6UgP6bWW
669Please respect copyright.PENANAfh6rwLqRYP
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。669Please respect copyright.PENANArnLv0N3W3V
669Please respect copyright.PENANAd3tQUItNb3
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。669Please respect copyright.PENANAeIdBy1jF6l
669Please respect copyright.PENANANfeYSPIpMD
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。669Please respect copyright.PENANAWw3oo4dYYo
669Please respect copyright.PENANARDMPaoVi8G
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。669Please respect copyright.PENANAChrurOZ7xs
669Please respect copyright.PENANAkli8X6kgxy
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。669Please respect copyright.PENANALleDfRBoeE
669Please respect copyright.PENANAQmjASvVrr8
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。669Please respect copyright.PENANAWj2DonZyKf
669Please respect copyright.PENANAdOdRy0cHpC
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……669Please respect copyright.PENANAehQMiXCTf4
669Please respect copyright.PENANAC73vyOjvcR
——放大瞳孔。669Please respect copyright.PENANA6iyBKfOqhk
669Please respect copyright.PENANAL9TgWTEArg
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。669Please respect copyright.PENANAylXNo2FqE4
669Please respect copyright.PENANAbEi7nFal1D
手機就在我的褲袋。669Please respect copyright.PENANAhulqRvrOyT
669Please respect copyright.PENANAkPruZ0dMVx
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。669Please respect copyright.PENANAGjw8DZmACm
669Please respect copyright.PENANA7fQaqjVqgm
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。669Please respect copyright.PENANATG7CTYdo31
669Please respect copyright.PENANAZodUF2YXs3
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。669Please respect copyright.PENANAj8V0yeeMXO
669Please respect copyright.PENANAoOqtJx6tYr
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。669Please respect copyright.PENANAz4KBAbSQ8G
669Please respect copyright.PENANADprUh2DmIO
那麼,打嗎?669Please respect copyright.PENANAthL19Xibvt
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwnaFCNBWZp
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。669Please respect copyright.PENANAXNO2POWHGC
669Please respect copyright.PENANA9mTTT36EGg
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?669Please respect copyright.PENANAFn0oYJFoL8
669Please respect copyright.PENANAQUTu0v1Dnx
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?669Please respect copyright.PENANAs7KNkObZuc
669Please respect copyright.PENANAjDG1nE4cFC
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。669Please respect copyright.PENANAFcqmsyPU2A
669Please respect copyright.PENANA3KpJ4Uheag
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。669Please respect copyright.PENANAURUCpWyxAn
669Please respect copyright.PENANAUcTFMfnkf7
幾度拿出手機的我——669Please respect copyright.PENANA20pgKcr7TU
669Please respect copyright.PENANAZLRgHD5lqg
算吧。669Please respect copyright.PENANArL1ZPhtBqI
669Please respect copyright.PENANAUhVWZoZIu4
把手機放回褲袋。669Please respect copyright.PENANA8pgujWbxWS
669Please respect copyright.PENANAaVyyhdyYdn
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。669Please respect copyright.PENANAzoXu09RR08
669Please respect copyright.PENANAspXMhSzR6F
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。669Please respect copyright.PENANAXLV7roeiNz
669Please respect copyright.PENANAhb2CRUiikp
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。669Please respect copyright.PENANAvSCmk1VQ9p
669Please respect copyright.PENANAzYTYRbyEAB