我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。628Please respect copyright.PENANAT4fWXl4Bts
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看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。628Please respect copyright.PENANAvBoRg0jBIT
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背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。628Please respect copyright.PENANAFj2ZSgrNOq
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奈何,心頭一樣沉重。628Please respect copyright.PENANAgkf5YbCLZa
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走進了屋邨商場。628Please respect copyright.PENANATxI3ie1SKT
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。628Please respect copyright.PENANAF9YDKtdmQw
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其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。628Please respect copyright.PENANALuNVlu3Xdb
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看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。628Please respect copyright.PENANA7FQVMZtxpy
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我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。628Please respect copyright.PENANAgIy4FPhksp
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曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。628Please respect copyright.PENANAMvPbUQantr
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。628Please respect copyright.PENANASX7AZ8EFjR
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。628Please respect copyright.PENANA8o0mWaCvS7
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果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。628Please respect copyright.PENANAr7nqLTGB84
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陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。628Please respect copyright.PENANAOAUzdf1EGE
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兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。628Please respect copyright.PENANA2xsQIEbIjg
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我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——628Please respect copyright.PENANAotCk6UKXSi
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。628Please respect copyright.PENANATRzGH4oQ2L
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當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。628Please respect copyright.PENANAYp7QFmAuFn
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腳步還是能動。628Please respect copyright.PENANAjWVqsVYrSA
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。628Please respect copyright.PENANAg7rA2FSvko
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直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……628Please respect copyright.PENANA1QUJqox4GI
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腳步才轉向離去。628Please respect copyright.PENANADqJuM2r2cs
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。628Please respect copyright.PENANABlB3s18XVT
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。628Please respect copyright.PENANAfGWwwZz70t
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。628Please respect copyright.PENANAtTSfsW1Tv6
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但是已經不再重要。628Please respect copyright.PENANAVQSsbcuSXb
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她騙了我。628Please respect copyright.PENANAyb1jq6UZXf
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。628Please respect copyright.PENANAVOfWUAItsR
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。628Please respect copyright.PENANAqbllD8YePy
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她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。628Please respect copyright.PENANAD8RD2Q0BXm
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。628Please respect copyright.PENANAXHOl7ulDIn
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我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。628Please respect copyright.PENANA7WcD1b0EpK
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我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。628Please respect copyright.PENANAz6f1AL5ELU
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但我錯了。628Please respect copyright.PENANAQPZfLaB0aK
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。628Please respect copyright.PENANA8vFQTLyYmY
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我辜負了她,成為了人渣。628Please respect copyright.PENANAGaBDePdics
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眼下——628Please respect copyright.PENANA3enII0fYff
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。628Please respect copyright.PENANAPBXqZiCLdo
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陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。628Please respect copyright.PENANAocNL5RT7Nc
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。628Please respect copyright.PENANAQUpCtm5jnH
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?628Please respect copyright.PENANAD2lQIi7daI
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。628Please respect copyright.PENANAUt6iBFUQt2
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我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。628Please respect copyright.PENANAs4e3hRZS71
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「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。628Please respect copyright.PENANAFcR4QsV7iU
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孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。628Please respect copyright.PENANAUTLtYiWhfj
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我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。628Please respect copyright.PENANAf7pYzlb8vm
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。628Please respect copyright.PENANAH9LMtokxb4
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有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。628Please respect copyright.PENANA8Zmi6IT5Uj
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。628Please respect copyright.PENANAKuhLC5ZVFj
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還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。628Please respect copyright.PENANAUnHF3NFQ6a
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神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……628Please respect copyright.PENANAevX7CHclXZ
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我樂意代勞的。628Please respect copyright.PENANArQDCEMy21O
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。628Please respect copyright.PENANAWJeStaLu3N
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——628Please respect copyright.PENANAODm0Uj2kKk
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。628Please respect copyright.PENANALMOxj4PD3c
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我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?628Please respect copyright.PENANAHWcc07ZQyR
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坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。628Please respect copyright.PENANAjMeb9NpxiK
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在下午等待至日落——628Please respect copyright.PENANAJJtA3y8b80
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。628Please respect copyright.PENANAiIwFd7HMPn
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在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。628Please respect copyright.PENANAxQuEMvy2JN
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「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」628Please respect copyright.PENANARC3CMgVnT3
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他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。628Please respect copyright.PENANAwZrOhNIt0g
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「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。628Please respect copyright.PENANAhqOgo4jFmT
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操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。628Please respect copyright.PENANAAIjW19sGpS
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。628Please respect copyright.PENANAfe0ij15mH7
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「嘭——」也是不進。628Please respect copyright.PENANAydKfAXiy6f
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。628Please respect copyright.PENANALWNNklZONs
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漸漸出現晚霞。628Please respect copyright.PENANAaeEqyuzFpq
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回去吧。628Please respect copyright.PENANAzsGgjPI6uz
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。628Please respect copyright.PENANAfNadPob8Al
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我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。628Please respect copyright.PENANAjrPoKzSiRK
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。628Please respect copyright.PENANAl0EncDtuxn
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背著書包,累然站起——628Please respect copyright.PENANAutmoGuzzEr
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手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」628Please respect copyright.PENANA9ba5WYAjzF
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這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。628Please respect copyright.PENANA5zfz6lXFEc
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最後,舉起手。628Please respect copyright.PENANA3YvDvH4vvy
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。628Please respect copyright.PENANAerAbQvQnBm
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* * *628Please respect copyright.PENANAsblvgCKiq2
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。628Please respect copyright.PENANAR5KfT5VlTN
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萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。628Please respect copyright.PENANA3MS9A0CzVX
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。628Please respect copyright.PENANAY3yPk0Svql
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。628Please respect copyright.PENANAVcZa36bwMl
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。628Please respect copyright.PENANAYWZAHNRTqA
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。628Please respect copyright.PENANA86dZBEPy7O
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小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。628Please respect copyright.PENANAGOXn1CAy4a
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我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。628Please respect copyright.PENANA7faRvc8U5N
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。628Please respect copyright.PENANAJGKV5cMigY
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我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。628Please respect copyright.PENANAFe8guc2g2z
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。628Please respect copyright.PENANAaLdUoWjKTT
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。628Please respect copyright.PENANAmPrbakVBwN
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。628Please respect copyright.PENANAppvC7iuS8G
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。628Please respect copyright.PENANAqevyeQ2Rvn
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。628Please respect copyright.PENANAwaZ5L57Z52
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。628Please respect copyright.PENANAbVZAmP8udv
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「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。628Please respect copyright.PENANAIqBl4NF8L5
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雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。628Please respect copyright.PENANAS5Jc4aBvE9
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。628Please respect copyright.PENANAfE2SdAKOFQ
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……628Please respect copyright.PENANA2as5cbCjbm
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——放大瞳孔。628Please respect copyright.PENANAdP9bmngUOR
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。628Please respect copyright.PENANAk2P0LeavTf
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手機就在我的褲袋。628Please respect copyright.PENANAI20tARI2CP
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。628Please respect copyright.PENANAfPoxAfDOGP
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陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。628Please respect copyright.PENANAF3CFNDs8F0
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阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。628Please respect copyright.PENANAuf8hoyJW9J
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在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。628Please respect copyright.PENANAsSVHVCS89i
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那麼,打嗎?628Please respect copyright.PENANAsP8mqgOYe3
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。628Please respect copyright.PENANANzS06dcPUN
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還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?628Please respect copyright.PENANAYoMTWUkz5M
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定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?628Please respect copyright.PENANAU25bYoUx0v
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我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。628Please respect copyright.PENANAJC2LMqeHSB
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。628Please respect copyright.PENANAV53bT1fI8e
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幾度拿出手機的我——628Please respect copyright.PENANApF9ACrhVXC
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算吧。628Please respect copyright.PENANAzKCopHWEGK
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把手機放回褲袋。628Please respect copyright.PENANAHFqWUoC2pz
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「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。628Please respect copyright.PENANAWSGptT9cE7
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。628Please respect copyright.PENANAMHVPv4VyB6
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。628Please respect copyright.PENANAz4EzdmZx30
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