我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。580Please respect copyright.PENANAGfCdIpkeRC
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看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。580Please respect copyright.PENANAUfuFWbR8w3
580Please respect copyright.PENANAHJUvzNwZDB
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。580Please respect copyright.PENANAbX7rRYCn5A
580Please respect copyright.PENANAvH0ASLU4RU
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。580Please respect copyright.PENANAIIYhKxn3ss
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走進了屋邨商場。580Please respect copyright.PENANAIpTciPpOPY
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。580Please respect copyright.PENANABxKuYFBJZq
580Please respect copyright.PENANAyTWZ2oSwxF
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。580Please respect copyright.PENANAdnKyuMT5HW
580Please respect copyright.PENANAFuAcWfjxvm
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。580Please respect copyright.PENANAbBKx4cYFGc
580Please respect copyright.PENANAYLP2Ngpm72
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。580Please respect copyright.PENANAdmgDcvgkiN
580Please respect copyright.PENANADPztv5gBHP
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。580Please respect copyright.PENANA7umdMNfZUl
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。580Please respect copyright.PENANA5NrUZsNmoy
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。580Please respect copyright.PENANAJY4O3YPvE3
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果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。580Please respect copyright.PENANA7nDKN0DUMM
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陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。580Please respect copyright.PENANAuXP7GaPvdu
580Please respect copyright.PENANAgGd1R0OgaL
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。580Please respect copyright.PENANA3NKdH3uZ7I
580Please respect copyright.PENANAgC7ZrE7aer
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——580Please respect copyright.PENANAsUXGy5FT65
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。580Please respect copyright.PENANAZtaM055x3l
580Please respect copyright.PENANAgJ1okRwWlY
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。580Please respect copyright.PENANAvcr9lInQNI
580Please respect copyright.PENANAAqz5ImeRrP
腳步還是能動。580Please respect copyright.PENANAZbkzhwimWp
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。580Please respect copyright.PENANAxoPYt5kjwd
580Please respect copyright.PENANA8VzL2k0kpX
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……580Please respect copyright.PENANAVcfMHPglnw
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腳步才轉向離去。580Please respect copyright.PENANAXnXDpQzhXP
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。580Please respect copyright.PENANAk9esGoftW7
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAZIbOh0bzND
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。580Please respect copyright.PENANA0mqrvO0Fjg
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但是已經不再重要。580Please respect copyright.PENANA9QHFlOao7b
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她騙了我。580Please respect copyright.PENANAulX87D9szp
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。580Please respect copyright.PENANAEXwqXOLwyU
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。580Please respect copyright.PENANA4qIgkpBvwP
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她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。580Please respect copyright.PENANAYjhkRpz4Jw
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。580Please respect copyright.PENANA4fzGwmWi7S
580Please respect copyright.PENANAQM5YAnRoSy
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。580Please respect copyright.PENANAh3FrDUJPZw
580Please respect copyright.PENANAx7tDZiAKI7
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。580Please respect copyright.PENANAwI0CjJEROe
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但我錯了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAwxDG2rXa6H
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。580Please respect copyright.PENANAWWHTp31vZL
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我辜負了她,成為了人渣。580Please respect copyright.PENANAgAE3PuPmvh
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眼下——580Please respect copyright.PENANAZHRTgnAyw9
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。580Please respect copyright.PENANA0SMzqYsFv5
580Please respect copyright.PENANAetoNcoSutP
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。580Please respect copyright.PENANA3KhvC6BxY1
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。580Please respect copyright.PENANAMnVr3qKNxL
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?580Please respect copyright.PENANApYOTeDFuWP
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。580Please respect copyright.PENANA9UtX2b5kFj
580Please respect copyright.PENANAWapiR2hcy3
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。580Please respect copyright.PENANAKD9s8Yyice
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「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。580Please respect copyright.PENANAbqvNtwQLZq
580Please respect copyright.PENANA5KPOdJDxWF
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。580Please respect copyright.PENANAayyhsPU9ao
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我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。580Please respect copyright.PENANAaGH8VtPhbL
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。580Please respect copyright.PENANAljJuKQOK9W
580Please respect copyright.PENANA1uEOoIUvxz
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。580Please respect copyright.PENANAdGaJNWO5l2
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。580Please respect copyright.PENANAsuMGXe319K
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還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。580Please respect copyright.PENANA9Kl4vjv7aH
580Please respect copyright.PENANAWcS7hQCtWa
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……580Please respect copyright.PENANAbk9cpbCWBL
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我樂意代勞的。580Please respect copyright.PENANAtRL41tkyL8
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。580Please respect copyright.PENANA2MXJvTkqDW
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——580Please respect copyright.PENANAYDXMVAiP6R
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。580Please respect copyright.PENANAAR401fmsU1
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我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?580Please respect copyright.PENANA0gZcN4OMa4
580Please respect copyright.PENANAJj3CZskAyf
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。580Please respect copyright.PENANA86ySmCdPHw
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在下午等待至日落——580Please respect copyright.PENANAClSqQcL0aj
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。580Please respect copyright.PENANArHtr9jJvNI
580Please respect copyright.PENANAXaEeusH4rW
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。580Please respect copyright.PENANARHJf2gLjZO
580Please respect copyright.PENANAluonldZZHp
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」580Please respect copyright.PENANAe3MBKY5HyW
580Please respect copyright.PENANApmHD9rYTZO
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。580Please respect copyright.PENANASEq3GzM8b9
580Please respect copyright.PENANAVmlB6vXs89
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。580Please respect copyright.PENANAgPHr3DJAf8
580Please respect copyright.PENANAFwVWLkpBCP
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。580Please respect copyright.PENANALfk0cTzzMF
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。580Please respect copyright.PENANAZnRiiI5VTA
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「嘭——」也是不進。580Please respect copyright.PENANAi2qi7jY6xZ
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。580Please respect copyright.PENANAmMtGMtNrCt
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漸漸出現晚霞。580Please respect copyright.PENANAEQnAMBNu7L
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回去吧。580Please respect copyright.PENANAJmNIsNsDxy
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAkXZZYfKTS3
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我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。580Please respect copyright.PENANAnDLfZFa9dn
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。580Please respect copyright.PENANALsKUr5bflE
580Please respect copyright.PENANArTlCHbRJyW
背著書包,累然站起——580Please respect copyright.PENANAKb9YqrU5ss
580Please respect copyright.PENANAWcKyZEXAPG
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAbefwguTCa2
580Please respect copyright.PENANAf5eAe3HzqE
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。580Please respect copyright.PENANABCbcwdYPUF
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最後,舉起手。580Please respect copyright.PENANAUQtKY3kVcH
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。580Please respect copyright.PENANAZWUS5AdhuJ
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* * *580Please respect copyright.PENANAiqGUiDb5DE
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。580Please respect copyright.PENANAEvkf9N0gRd
580Please respect copyright.PENANAUwbmCqFdEH
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAHaG92aWr35
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。580Please respect copyright.PENANAASQ1PfsAvR
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。580Please respect copyright.PENANA6Nivrexmjw
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。580Please respect copyright.PENANA4Jagoh9VlJ
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。580Please respect copyright.PENANAcPYmpJ8vR1
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小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。580Please respect copyright.PENANAVIRcYHJqrk
580Please respect copyright.PENANAmAUvPl74if
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。580Please respect copyright.PENANAnK7VTId8i3
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。580Please respect copyright.PENANAW3HgjXz6nD
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我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。580Please respect copyright.PENANArkIHFTkFcj
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。580Please respect copyright.PENANAKlvVGp9ir4
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。580Please respect copyright.PENANAtfwViHxN8y
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。580Please respect copyright.PENANAR55sB0jpiO
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。580Please respect copyright.PENANAxu1MUvfa4m
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。580Please respect copyright.PENANAePfpq2wZJj
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。580Please respect copyright.PENANAUtdBdNo2wL
580Please respect copyright.PENANAzNynDbQ1r7
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。580Please respect copyright.PENANAQBmLVvW53R
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雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。580Please respect copyright.PENANAHjxwarqneV
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。580Please respect copyright.PENANAAKWa3P9sSx
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……580Please respect copyright.PENANANJYaFY7Jug
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——放大瞳孔。580Please respect copyright.PENANAJjXLt6f7yJ
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。580Please respect copyright.PENANATpaNWnj5iI
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手機就在我的褲袋。580Please respect copyright.PENANAYEQ2sRDJCr
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。580Please respect copyright.PENANAnzGZPqhnaT
580Please respect copyright.PENANA5oagNWs36F
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。580Please respect copyright.PENANAlVqAereCQY
580Please respect copyright.PENANAUFX75aWuoG
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。580Please respect copyright.PENANAtmdsYi8hcA
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在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。580Please respect copyright.PENANAmsLqC3m6hL
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那麼,打嗎?580Please respect copyright.PENANAY0eSV4B936
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。580Please respect copyright.PENANAN6Ej2fDYsR
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還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?580Please respect copyright.PENANA3YICeWuh1R
580Please respect copyright.PENANAfFvEuLCD3P
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?580Please respect copyright.PENANArvpu9XCZkv
580Please respect copyright.PENANAKg1Wi4BZmn
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。580Please respect copyright.PENANA9469LWNioI
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。580Please respect copyright.PENANAK7NLr9mxNu
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幾度拿出手機的我——580Please respect copyright.PENANAC1fHvSOPO6
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算吧。580Please respect copyright.PENANAtdKqut4izJ
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把手機放回褲袋。580Please respect copyright.PENANAC99vHL4tve
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「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。580Please respect copyright.PENANAmpih8pbJLy
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。580Please respect copyright.PENANAMzB2y8S12C
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。580Please respect copyright.PENANAPoNZTJHd1n
580Please respect copyright.PENANANdUF4lUZe8