我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzhlGPFNcV
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06pgDixzyQ
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「咬下——」明白了。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8y8gWRLvtq
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQsfPbQmTk
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekBhdBwa6r
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KRuvpI9VY
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNLdu3P5wF
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神是不是故意的？652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVykGlnz1u
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZnVJlNemT
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKqGHT1V56
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjtAlWij1M
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yjkfFTXwl
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzWQaakDXd
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ahZSC1Gjr
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkr8WkGOiL
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZosNTBMvUn
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkB1BiqNBUK
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA6GWZIdzM
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZSe5xVrWt
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然後我沒有再阻止她。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQZNORHxCo
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBazyWOK3A
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakJ20BBDSH
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyyKwjgXn1
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkqZeDwYfi
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluPXbSZ3vz
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNQipEA5D5
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzW1nkZZA9
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「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ETcfSw72R
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「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds20qWDfBh
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYUPFk6IKD
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我也正在難過。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuz6uZoshNW
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhZGGCXKPu
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPE3X5vVla
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC8koZpFHw
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「點解？」她問。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPAxRTzwwc
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNDwpSpmig
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7cqyXaFy7
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4617DU0Hb
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiN09wQfZli
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRpH4vooBH
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6EgwLULGZ
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7G5Otj7Rk
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk3USNGOKY
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2iSDLI3Fz
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8fRRG71lM
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzzkcTi7R1
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這是……什麼爛方法？652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgZTlZ3HXF
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9ySjdXIQz
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nGhwSqkEH
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzI9hz7HmNq
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Hy2psVclZ
「咩條件？」她問。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZ0s3RQpN3
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULXhH4KD6q
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiotKGwG9cN
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4r4SYkbxp
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKilU9p1TQ
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiBSgYMRDg
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3IHWmgwku
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPpMpC6S7p
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xEUaHwCTX
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBILd1Relt
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「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyV0hVUDjn
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I6xwo4aH0
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtwnVJYjR9
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlGo2SbclI
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjXHYLYYaf
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFqTjlQ9Pr
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Mz2JVmPpq
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxrQvYr03U
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTc78pRyJb
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHSpZGi9ei
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8UcS9bBGY
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BkVi5ocGo
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VJ2u3FKVc
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6SnyRbVuK
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJh3pFA8jk
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsosD2QffML
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMt6UMKDQB
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJWsETnpEs
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsu0uyVp5U
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGku4NKRDvB
說完，她聽完。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJh9f9sfrMK
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36dDmduGMD
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH7h5LGcDw
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fnXmUlV1S
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5QiI8WikZ
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ix0uPoGas
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5etwuZOSR
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrV2Yjuok2
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqbabe7TWr
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVyOtfR1Cn
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3QUGIi7EK
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoib5232ekq
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicYtf5ajzN
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMup5HNnqGg
「陸傾兒……」我說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZ8ygfD4Uo
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1bRERFXzA
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKcdUMbsoz
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWdC5eusSf
「揀咩都得？」我問。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTznodJtIc
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PMfjgVsox
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmSHiGmvsj
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YX7NFmYvT
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVaPqD8fTx
而我不懂回答。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf2HNqHpeS
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIW7VNRzVqi
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpQskVmCGx
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gKhWc3iv9
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJicvKSR3g
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnML5K20R58
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIg6OBUjE0
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWStOxF9sJ
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrJLmAfkcr
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsks47HQhFt
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrn2MXxq9z
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMkIbBBEtc
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxfLX9LAeD
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptxf1Npqu5
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIBb51hl6M
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過後——652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinVuzuKuB6
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AA4tuxuMl
652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcimweDyQHQ
屁股坐下。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqJOTRILZE
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。652Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tf4dNjsaz
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