我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjuHSIBzye
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHlTYdpjmj
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「咬下——」明白了。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5npqYdFbI
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZvY2AE5O7
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk7Vsv42H3
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHFcs7cSdQ
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHClbhoeCA
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神是不是故意的？625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfjaMEN7vK
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VFz0fVlG7
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcMLcUowoN
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFX91dxUkK
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8dPSJXOzr
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPhNWPFKn5
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhF8WLzZZ2
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wAcHjHADf
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7k0eRdCxE5
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDqXRSRlLL
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9jvfHfX2J
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAftAIcVSVd
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然後我沒有再阻止她。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAEfomIegk
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pRSYiFHwb
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN1pMaxBvS
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrozcWFZdU
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmdiGZuO82
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa5iux5R6W
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIMMEoZrTN
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9c30YbPKm
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「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonobdUl9LA
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「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcL1kyCihoB
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgEi3lZZzu
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我也正在難過。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5npRcEkBS1
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CQMlMytDG
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqtT5BfDcS
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugvxJFXIbH
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「點解？」她問。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TWPyWi1dd
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwJ0hfxWRy
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzh2Fc5CNy
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同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzkSy9BosO
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngNyBhDy7q
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8B4SwfUuKv
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只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3A1ZBK9iX
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFteEtgiEsZ
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFrKM89Jhr
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這是……什麼爛方法？625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntnrUqT9tj
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrPeq8n7nZ
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETcUJgthxt
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiFGwVHBLU
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「咩條件？」她問。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGytEaVIdV
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「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAO4F9cmROr
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGj2EUJZlFc
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「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIIPyBby0w
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorUvd2UyaN
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但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzX4UWAaAI1
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「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOjE2D6SBZ
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「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lCQPpdT51
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「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HjRoWRrxM
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVqK7eFUEI
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「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrsHuGJb8g
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「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10uYCyrO2I
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她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndEcnRHCjG
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也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVAKIux3ak
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUApPCnk4n
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「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpp5svpD0T
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYtXNpAC9g
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說完，她聽完。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYbpdltpPI
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vsQjuE5wP
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「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiswtHeeSrM
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4tMKwAEdq
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「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NIY7ionZ2
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被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQI65R9IX3
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6Xf0Gha2m
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk7BmJIw75
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「陸傾兒……」我說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4s62dj7bqx
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「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZVNrNyu1b
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「揀咩都得？」我問。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPO40V3d9m
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡje9EdLkMY2
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「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqpDiC1OWg
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而我不懂回答。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtwLUhCCtV
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYGOGivQ62
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「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNLSsIcn3v
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「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoTfMo5s6B
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我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbRcG3gvvd
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「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzY8CfNR62
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「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIYhgoq3DG
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「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpP6mczU9m
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過後——625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedhuXGkL04
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHKS0YaIjN
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屁股坐下。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAnjIJcLhT
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoQeN6Sf4u
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