我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVl6a0OIRHH
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ0XXjMcBk
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「咬下——」明白了。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw2lcXmRtS
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsQKRWfAQf
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDd404qWs0t
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK66Pcjt73
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FlHHdkU8G
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神是不是故意的？590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKeY0tXnyq
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1jDPKQku1
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC31mGq3Mr
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhE0h0oLuC
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyLxlEEGTd
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6urd5q3IFk
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV5KgOF8d0
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcq0yEZAyT
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfj1mt9COJ
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHjZ20fJwa
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y6QtIrpyP
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNGBr2t0E6
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLicOfpO0W1
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmnL04JmLT
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4s7vzRX2nt
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然後我沒有再阻止她。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqA5LIBJRpr
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18hlXVVz8l
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9RxwfXp2F
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOVfhj2VDU
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApxFVj4cr0
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9c3ehx2HKp
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsEfL45FkR
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweSvb8Jhsi
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFh6NpLiZKf
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1gjdcrBBv
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqSlWfBmQj
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsY4pC8nE5
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIw7A9bm5a
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlxXlvTeaY
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUlt5mwdHb
我也正在難過。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3lxp96DFG
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszTCeASkfI
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2VHJWtlmz
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZLmdKRW5P
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「點解？」她問。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbH2heSXId
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvjH7vSAfm
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvu65LkLZnU
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRKa7admtF
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbrV0HHHLc
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjfDoQO3Sz
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx6pKiCDMD
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpAF5UT2Jl
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRNjf8Ra8L
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1ZZF65O48
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FoOhVSLnO
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT495drxZxV
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這是……什麼爛方法？590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrR8D9KPEZ
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM5L5uzlai
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5VBJtIFx2
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq0T9awKzI
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eEi71M1mC
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「咩條件？」她問。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdaAdbgpBe
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAirUTK9ZDw
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94jRz9JeiL
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNf3bGX0q3h
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVdk1ZD2Xz
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrEYVjECBL
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibYHvA2bZN
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVAvr31E2R
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzhoixdUo4
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGGBOxEpi7
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DIkOvqkHz
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7KvUTUf4F
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEA1tKOGnm
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXI3zG7PsI
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC4nbYuWj1
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1VyJxmMvP
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT04gwXDyg
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRxhJdOnhy
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqAUrnpkdd
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vussXz9gl
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZItBkvDTaP
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf9F2dj51A
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOtQsAujTz
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowknZWnXvf
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6ZnTomFnF
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6o7n5yAFMn
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgPQD7pmg3
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8ArekL49O
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW8uuslETr
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPfoM85msi
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAToSN2FhQy
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說完，她聽完。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85zQawcjdk
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU75sA9nui9
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCSMAOssGY
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6MzZoXwP4
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzq0Gs8GUU
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0ZEfe6nZ7
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC84xSV1rPs
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rjCJ0NWfz
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKwhmRVhBI
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliYxdq6p3D
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWqfADEU0x
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyySFlbpNw
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUDJAb6XWI
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgwgy8IbGn
「陸傾兒……」我說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DobkXfUiy
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hETnplVff
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEy50tt7OaB
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU80L2UO4KX
「揀咩都得？」我問。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopVrvsFa9t
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNUB4ch6wA
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IGlEGYrIa
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG88LJbiULA
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3MYTXdtVx
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRg5zCFajp
而我不懂回答。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSw7wFjcYz
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ788cIX8vtl
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SPPZ4w0KX
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlMpxUwvfI
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv75UM5UD4Q
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtWzS3acfl
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO64Q5LceD
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqQj3zyJ1o
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb39oFaqlIG
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOj0inQ7pH
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlvwRUfWUP
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPeT5hbSRC
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB6hdTCnie
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrBiY3gXKY
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KyQAvuMDh
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過後——590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iXz6zEZUp
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsphNLZoQb
590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5rqta4Un9
屁股坐下。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNgkhgcZOI
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dYw9loiRJ
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