Chapter 19
The next day, I skipped the school, I stayed locked in my cold house, I lamented
How sad it is for my parents, for their child to not come in their funeral prayer
I've tried to make their death something insignificant to lessen the damage on me, how screwed am I?
That's how much broken I was, when I heard my current parent's death, then what about if I heard something bad about my past life family, no matter what I've become their child with an adult mentality, even I recognize them as my parent's but I'm sure I'm not as emotionally attached to my family in my past life.
Then if something happened to them…, no maybe something already happened which I don't know ten years is a long time so many things can happen in that range of time
Just what should I do from now…
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The next day too I skipped the school, when was the last time I consumed food? I don't remember what am I doing here? Stayed in my house dazing the whole day…
Am I still laminating? Am I still regretting? Am I missing them? I don't know anymore. Only questions accumulated….
*clack
I heard the front door opened, did I forget to lock it? Well I don't care….
“Lex…” when I turned I saw Kate was the one that come inside just now
"Kate? What about schools?” I tried to act as normal as possible
"it's fine"
“….”
“….”
“Oh, right juice or tea?” I the one who's been sitting at the living room sofa, when I tried to stand up and goes to kitchen, my body suddenly pulled from being
Kate pulled me and embrace my head tightly, I can feel her soft chest which started to develop
“it's ok” she said softly and Kate started to stroke my head
*thump *thump *thump
Strangely her heartbeat calms my mind…
"Are you alright?" Kate asked
"I'm fine"
"Really?"
"un"
“haa…” Kate sighed softly, she pulled my face into to face her, like always we touched our forehead and nose, “it's ok if Lex cannot cry, I'll cry for you” she said as tears started to flow from her eyes
“Kate…”
“I'll do everything Lex can't for you, but I can't help if Lex didn't tell me anything, so please tell me…” her pure and intense gaze struck into my core
“please let me help you Lex, I can't watch you look this frail anymore…”
“…..”
“please help me Lex, please help me how to help you…”
"hehe, what's that even means Kate" somehow her silly words cheers me up, is it her words or her being here…
“finally… promise me never show me that empty eyes ever again! If Lex break it I won't do this anymore” Kate said what she means is our usual nose kiss
“really…, isn't it Kate who wants this more than me?”
"w-what! no, I'm not!" Kate replied as she blushed deeply
“haha, my Kate is so cute as always”
"m-my!?" her head as red as tomato now
I kissed her nose softly, this time different it wasn't nose kiss we usually do, I literally kiss her nose with my lips
“!!??”
“thanks Kate, let me borrow you for now” I said then I pushed my head to her chest
*thump *thump *thump
Her heartbeats calm me down, after a while Kate is stroking my head once again.
“….”
“….”
"Kate…"
"mm?"
“am I a good child?”
“have I done well as their child?”
“were they happy to have a strange child like me?”
like a broken dam, my heart feeling my most inner problem slowly flow out from inside, I keep asking even if Kate never answer to any question, some questions were strange enough that anybody know that's something that shouldn't have asked by their blood related child but I don't care anymore
in her comfortable embrace, before I knew it I've fallen asleep….
….
When I woke up, the first thing I saw was Kate's face, looks like after I fell asleep she gave me a lap-pillow, and Kate too has fallen asleep.
"!?" I was tranced when I saw Kate cutely sleeping on the sofa
“since when you've become this beautiful”
“haa…, with this I can no longer see you as a family” I said to myself as I softly touch her face “this is your fault ok, I have a strong possessiveness, I'll never let you go” then I gave Kate forehead a kiss
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I came back to school that day with Kate, it can be said that my everyday life back to normal, like when my parent's went out of city for their job
nothing changes, nothing different, at least that what it looks like on the outside, but still… nothing can deceive my inner feeling, the home that's feels much wider than before, much colder than before, much lonelier than before.
Aunt Layla looks relief when she realizes I started recovering even if that's only on the outer shell, uncle Paul too gave me a pat on the shoulder. As for Ella maybe their take consideration with her young age, they didn't tell her anything so there's no changes in her usual behavior to me.
At school, Alice and Dia gave me a tight hug right away when they saw me, looks like both of them have heard my family circumstances. While the others student gave me a pity and sympathy looks which is a bit unpleasant.
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I stopped holding back myself in flirting with Kate no matter where, especially at school I need to show the others that no one can touch her anymore she's MINE!
Actually even if I said we’re flirting its only in the acceptable rate, the same Alice and Dia only playing together, the real romance relationship start when we grown up.
On the other hand, Kate back to the day before she came to my house, every time we met she quickly blushed red to her ears which is so adorable that I can't help but to tease her
But why? Didn't she much bolder that day how can she back to this miserable but adorable state? Even in this life woman's hearts that I can't understand.
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It's after dinner with the Bentley House, that I came back to my lonely house, Aunt Layla offered me to stay with them from now on, but I declined for a practical reason it's better for me to live alone to avoid other finding out about my extraordinary abilities, and for emotional reason I just can't leave that house alone, it's still the place where my memories with them for ten years belong to.
*Click
When I entered the house the gloomy and lonely feeling struck me…, without minding that I went to my own room
I stopped before in front of my room's door, I take a glance to the room at the end of the corridor, my parent's room
A few days after their accident I unconsciously avoided that place,
Suu haa suuu haaaaa
I take a deep breath
I can do this
I encourage myself for me to settle this holding feeling inside me I needed to go there.
To move on from their death, to settle it once for all
I slowly approach their room
Suu haa
I take a deep breath once again in front of the door
*click
I entered the room, the room was 1.8x-2x bigger than my room, with double bed, table, mirror, etcetera
I hold myself to not deeply reminded to them with the familiar smell lingering around the room
Let's take a few things from here as a memoir from them
I look around the room, I checked the all the things inside only to find one strange sideboard which locked down with a dial lock
It was a six digit lock.
I don't the reason but my instinct told me I need I have to I must open this strange sideboard
First I look around once again to find the hint to open this strange sideboard
I dismayed with the result, I can't find anything related how to open that sideboard
Should I break it forcefully?
I quickly denied the idea,
I should call a specialist tomorrow
For now, let's try it out a bit, six digits password, what comes to my mind is a calendar, ok... let's try it
I put into it my Mother's birthday date and the result…
Failed
Next I try to put my Father birthday date and the result…
Failed
“Haa~” I sighed looking at the result, are there any other special date I can try? Or maybe it wasn't a date in the first place?
Wait? Should I try my birthday date?
I remembered my past life parents once told me that her bank's password was my birthday date in the past life ok, let's try it
I inputted my birthday….
*click
Seriously… I wiped the little tears on the corner of my eyes
*clack I open the cupboard
There's a beautifully made silver box inside
I took out the box, there's a note on top of the silver box
“To Ours Beloved”
The note shook my core
Whoa! I can feel tears started to accumulate on the corner of my ears once again
When I inspected the Silver box I found there's the same six digits dial to open the box
Without hesitation I inputted my birthday date once again… the lock easily unlocked
I slowly opened the box
“w-wha-what is this!?”
The contents of the box once again shook my core, it shocked me on the different way
There are three kinds of things inside the box
The first one is a cylindrical like thing
The second one is bullets, six bullets inside divided by three type of color, 2 red bullets, 2 blue bullets, and 2 yellow bullets.
And the last one is…. a gun,
A silver handgun
“just what the hell was my parent’s jobs!”
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