我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgqkgTyNoK
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw069MEHSvR
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「咬下——」明白了。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqQU6gkrIb
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKYoKfsGuE
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdjXpY5vvQ
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKvbNwhKbB
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12n8vTGvm1
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8FMPSzQIK
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WBOZSVdl3
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4B4lqp55S5
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMQx57vDF5
神是不是故意的？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MipeRGNnz
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdHBaWxswU
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqibmq5kuC
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4ItSXtQqO
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5r6KqbACXs
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNNdFo7txf
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciVE7VVZpI
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolgANkQ2XY
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI97Zpad04d
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQXFO56mcK
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G3hosbnL8
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1cMK07wHj
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6q3DAuaD92
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJzxorK2ti
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYpqmVwMH9
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVYDqXhWbO
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IU5CIczJC
「唔好再講喇。」我說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbr2rz9Gve
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ490W2iV8GJ
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hU7J9QdOG
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mVFGWlHQX
然後我沒有再阻止她。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTpJxGJ4Gu
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElkqZdSXfx
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNj9CA2QFPY
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9MfhciVpx
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxx1ve8TmC
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uWzJ0GjdN
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGtW1efaKc
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAsvZORRYV
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPQi2MhAPf
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEX55p6h3wJ
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyQSIYZ8Hl
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuFuSONYXj
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlXHHm01MU
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUImETxLMx0
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5YVTtwv3z
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjU2kwkZ9NT
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3KVRiSuaI
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcPbpjkalH
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvohZKKufm2
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnemVC8KbJ
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnIzrpwVgX
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv2zEpAOZU
我也正在難過。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1Kr02p0uO
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kY0x68wNl
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQU0fEDikT
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUk5Q9ZPz1
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoioXyTMIId
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZlP0oU4wj
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「點解？」她問。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsVInhVUEQ
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARi5s2OoYU
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyifKhsYVt
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgbhhsOPc7
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwQCYuTGN5
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmIlb2bwxY
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PzYcEmB2F
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe93f56Ain
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmJpwdpR6j
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBEomBs8lf
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCBq797aDn
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIDTJx0rQ0
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnNO5sjIre
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByzmBFfh3z
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHj2gBlVtf
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBckR6lkbry
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1S1CoSeqZ
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CGD3nLJTx
這是……什麼爛方法？610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRows2eFh93
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKGIOTo2am
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TKHOgDL9d
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkCe8OvO4V
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXeTxRE406
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFsX3NS74d
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsO82w70XjF
「咩條件？」她問。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCEq5CsSI9
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0REdaNneB
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKG9yffsv0O
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNDzygUhtB
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh39tBkky3K
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5FRrxFogm
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpTZGNaqZd
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW737cU7ZK
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXGoOV1JQV
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8CJShctNM
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hk7fLj5NA
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9zg1tYcnd
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHmjjsiOcd
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PP3UZMouX
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCDBwL3rzA
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIdMgj9aCW
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqQuSkWPyp
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK4MYpwdIY
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDf5udCL58U
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUd9K5hs95G
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8BDvqL9Zy
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RRq53opz4
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3N1xE7AdA
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iSxqNSqos
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0AZ8YsyyU
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwUuNoU1IL
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8t2m9zIzD
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡad9mdnlEtU
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPMPeXMea2
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyf7tbtNUS
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCfkDA7aBy
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmou62f8O2j
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlB9Y2ZEPHD
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlg45jWnpb
說完，她聽完。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemKYgZvLGx
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK9zxoxSbi
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZacljDz84
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSsYKEO9Wd
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhjChzjwsh
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWS3Ba8XHdD
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEUW6edfDt
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntO55xWlFQ
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bLxCjbcuD
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodqBGbKdmz
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3m3IuRCvVH
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLlDRNdDY6
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNrqqKcgIC
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2Xz5Ge4AI
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxdfryj7YK
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNB3e5HI4p
「陸傾兒……」我說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzIWHvJ9Ko
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHVtFncgJo
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMYDCp3pDW
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNpCluofkn
「揀咩都得？」我問。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVZZziXGMh
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MDLgnfYYn
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc9LWbfNnq
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsisTIwnZG
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSA66FfU4P
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMsY7QWa2M
而我不懂回答。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFNGcLU5Mi
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrd6SqTRSU
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYCMWANaF4
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUSNXU1ujn
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCW4Udsewx
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWc67qlRIJG
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpoxmjN2gK
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4UQou2b37
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzA3VEd9qv
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93PGSOkOu4
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnH4tOUF1DD
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA6947MC0o
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1CiF1tfP5
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGu38cOxTQe
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfmFFMU7xS
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過後——610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EnxUeT9tC
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLfSvMlXCK
610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHc1tTYmg3
屁股坐下。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdVFZwDkuB
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FIy0pmtVW
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