這算什麼?580Please respect copyright.PENANATZjbQm9uTm
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。580Please respect copyright.PENANApH8di8xl9I
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。580Please respect copyright.PENANAkSgCSjQSCj
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。580Please respect copyright.PENANAHJxxPhHEw5
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。580Please respect copyright.PENANANYIF29MPvL
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。580Please respect copyright.PENANAbXmsHwx2u9
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。580Please respect copyright.PENANAIBj3ia6q1C
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。580Please respect copyright.PENANApjDAU7F7ZH
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然後便準備下山了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAnm20zoCw5U
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。580Please respect copyright.PENANA4dADa6cyNz
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。580Please respect copyright.PENANAJHnmFePE1G
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAwJhA0CDtQQ
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。580Please respect copyright.PENANAIBRmk4n0tL
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。580Please respect copyright.PENANARLxoW90laN
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。580Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZusAXeGIJ
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。580Please respect copyright.PENANAFOG5B3TBk4
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。580Please respect copyright.PENANA3dDWIIj9nQ
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」580Please respect copyright.PENANA28h5tuCznj
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不會告訴我,又一天了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAiGEmv9Qn2Y
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。580Please respect copyright.PENANAlNXwe08m0j
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。580Please respect copyright.PENANAYEQTFlyQef
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。580Please respect copyright.PENANAK7H03AWSnM
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。580Please respect copyright.PENANAe4vhdVCtMd
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。580Please respect copyright.PENANAyuv7nODlMU
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAsQXrhoTfAZ
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。580Please respect copyright.PENANAaNmOHoahlH
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。580Please respect copyright.PENANABFMGF8FP0B
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怎麼說呢?580Please respect copyright.PENANAGS8Jn0QZCV
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。580Please respect copyright.PENANAlySLjLtKV8
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。580Please respect copyright.PENANAYsLinQ5yvh
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。580Please respect copyright.PENANAffa0LCPiff
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。580Please respect copyright.PENANAMp32nimvlG
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。580Please respect copyright.PENANAKprFUgOvEV
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。580Please respect copyright.PENANAdogpm0BobO
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我再點頭。580Please respect copyright.PENANAc0g9kvJBjh
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。580Please respect copyright.PENANAk0upZpDarS
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。580Please respect copyright.PENANA2WOBKcGK6F
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我馬上看第二天。580Please respect copyright.PENANAgIk38SBkPY
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。580Please respect copyright.PENANAqtAwcMLcP5
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。580Please respect copyright.PENANA6oBl5u92Kp
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……580Please respect copyright.PENANAteARjuaGwL
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。580Please respect copyright.PENANAhmowwBz3mt
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」580Please respect copyright.PENANAJlTKs24SwU
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」580Please respect copyright.PENANAN5IaJs6EiG
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第二天「END」出現。580Please respect copyright.PENANAipvUAgRWqG
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我蓋上了練習簿。580Please respect copyright.PENANAaB5pvcHo5K
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。580Please respect copyright.PENANAkh5mC1e2PF
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?580Please respect copyright.PENANAGAZiCk1tmi
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。580Please respect copyright.PENANA1oUOaYda0N
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。580Please respect copyright.PENANAXBrYqdaomt
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。580Please respect copyright.PENANAWdsXEajpr1
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。580Please respect copyright.PENANAzcDHDgGxei
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。580Please respect copyright.PENANAimN4O8n8CH
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?580Please respect copyright.PENANAlwNLHuz9dj
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。580Please respect copyright.PENANANYCfRocRns
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。580Please respect copyright.PENANAqce7zisycX
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAYyHzuE8LJO
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。580Please respect copyright.PENANAsHg2MHlhzX
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAsgZTMqRX5s
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。580Please respect copyright.PENANAF8cX9CNV9E
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。580Please respect copyright.PENANAt5hfcvdYui
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。580Please respect copyright.PENANARzjbv2jHBK
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然後再次坐好。580Please respect copyright.PENANAxEr6EG1D9o
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「陸……傾兒。」580Please respect copyright.PENANARnNkjR3NA3
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。580Please respect copyright.PENANAGlcqnts14x
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。580Please respect copyright.PENANAKdJ13Je20d
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。580Please respect copyright.PENANAUExd9Rv2bO
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。580Please respect copyright.PENANAEhLzo77zIi
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。580Please respect copyright.PENANAnleGRKMKgS
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?580Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7RpUUHVeo
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。580Please respect copyright.PENANAoJIsD7TFI5
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。580Please respect copyright.PENANAEjU0go0bQZ
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAV8QlFgSlXk
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。580Please respect copyright.PENANAsj671k3pNR
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。580Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZvZqqd4qy
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。580Please respect copyright.PENANAEnxiduE9Le
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。580Please respect copyright.PENANA67tfLIyI2y
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。580Please respect copyright.PENANAODSuwY5gxM
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。580Please respect copyright.PENANAe7HdshazaC
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那麼,我呢?580Please respect copyright.PENANAttYRxuBnnK
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?580Please respect copyright.PENANA0qyyLNd40M
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。580Please respect copyright.PENANAhWSckBTB0Y
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。580Please respect copyright.PENANAUdZwGms1d6
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。580Please respect copyright.PENANAjnlaRkoBfd
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。580Please respect copyright.PENANAPy07FL16qN
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。580Please respect copyright.PENANAKhH4mCQpna
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 580Please respect copyright.PENANAWsG0NPzqAo
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 580Please respect copyright.PENANARdkikLoTsf
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。580Please respect copyright.PENANA3EefqAwEgq
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」580Please respect copyright.PENANADP8MIOU0H8
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAfFafkKgzHJ
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAN9I584lxxu
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」580Please respect copyright.PENANATNcT0axKRd
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。580Please respect copyright.PENANArSgbMNPkT4
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3uldnSDwg
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。580Please respect copyright.PENANAMek6isX41T
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。580Please respect copyright.PENANASB3UxMvGgc
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。580Please respect copyright.PENANACjpeQzWo27
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。580Please respect copyright.PENANAC1Tk7egySw
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?580Please respect copyright.PENANAD86hKwhQbi
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我期待著。580Please respect copyright.PENANAiHKAlBGjVh
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。580Please respect copyright.PENANAJTY6O8IRL3
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。580Please respect copyright.PENANAnHpqGmEEQA
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。580Please respect copyright.PENANA0THW7Y2opS
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」580Please respect copyright.PENANANtOofWfzBz
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。580Please respect copyright.PENANACGEPO4JWvb
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」580Please respect copyright.PENANA4Te30Vn7lZ
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。580Please respect copyright.PENANAl0w2ZczQnn
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。580Please respect copyright.PENANACYJM76b50j
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傾耳以待——580Please respect copyright.PENANA26DfnSM0w5
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」580Please respect copyright.PENANA6oiWHiGvC5
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。580Please respect copyright.PENANAn6WvQ2yFpi
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。580Please respect copyright.PENANAf0zz2FstZ2
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。580Please respect copyright.PENANAIwiIyIs89f
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAjKHek7vi5S
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身體傾後,躺了下來。580Please respect copyright.PENANA3uxy1cP5mG
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「係諗住攤。」580Please respect copyright.PENANAcAHTYuo201
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。580Please respect copyright.PENANAaH0RWs0yPq
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。580Please respect copyright.PENANA7qHSwXykmm
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。580Please respect copyright.PENANA7nnQc4qZoc
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露出鼻尖和微笑。580Please respect copyright.PENANAL4Bj7wtN0U
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。580Please respect copyright.PENANAqQAU1XClaN