「係你啊!銘B!」看到箭頭停在愛人面前,Helen也變得興奮及期待。71Please respect copyright.PENANApTrKaftiAF
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大哥啊,求你了,安安份份地渡過這一輪便算了。但不知道是否小昭的自白感染了他,讓他突然在這一輪也產生了面對自己的勇氣:「我揀Truth。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAacSOqJw3wc
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聽到他選真心話,我和阿靜也有默契地坐直了身子,警覺地留意接下來的問題。71Please respect copyright.PENANAIbGsdlu3Oc
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「講一個在場嘅人都唔知嘅秘密。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAoXATqCjHmZ
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「嘩,諗諗先。」阿銘陷入了沉思,令我也不由自主地緊張了起來。我也很好奇,他是有什麼秘密,是我不知道的。71Please respect copyright.PENANAS5FRTCqLjz
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「你諗住先!我去個廁所!」Helen突然說。71Please respect copyright.PENANAnjfJmmdSH6
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但隔了一會兒後,未待Helen回來,阿銘便開口說:「大家都知我有個仆街老豆,佢成日都賭錢。一輸錢,佢就會打我老母。所以,好細個我就會練到自己好強壯,雖然未至於還拖,但至少可以保護我老母。」71Please respect copyright.PENANA8FA431k0CU
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「我老母成日返夜班,就係唔想對住成日睇夜波嘅佢。個衰人有時仲會借貴利,老母大部份糧就係俾佢攞去還錢。由細到大我就係成日過住隨時有貴利佬上門催還錢嘅日子。」
「記得小學果陣,啲貴利佬仲試過追數追到去我學校,令所有同學都知我老豆係爛賭鬼。每個同學都唔係好願意同我做朋友。直至上到中學,個爛賭鬼算係比較進步,好少拖數唔還,我先有安穩少少嘅校園生活。但我唔知,幾時佢又會故態復萌,所以其實每一日,我返學都返得好提心吊膽,即使平時係嬉皮笑臉,但內心仍然係好驚。」71Please respect copyright.PENANArPJcjIsitC
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阿銘一直在分享他的故事,雖然他父親的事,我都略有所聞。卻沒有想過,他的賭癮是嚴重到這個地步。難怪阿銘從來不會邀請我到他的家作客,他也從沒有提及過有關他家需要償還高利貸的事,說實話,他的經歷是讓我頗震驚的。難怪他有時候如此的成熟,原來是被落魄的家庭所鍛鍊出來的。71Please respect copyright.PENANAxMVRgDEokA
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「甚至驚到,連有鍾意嘅人都唔敢講,只係敢扮到好花弗咁去掩飾。因為果個女仔嘅生活都過得好艱難,屋企都有好多問題。同我一齊,只會令佢有更多嘅煩惱。每次望到佢有好多狂風浪蝶纏住佢,我都好想幫佢趕走曬。但我一咁做,我知佢實會以為我對佢有意思。係啊,我係對佢好有意思。我知道佢每日都係搭電車返學,因為好鍾意望出窗口嘅感覺;知道佢最鍾意食嘅係陳皮魚蛋,而唔係果啲幾百蚊一盒嘅朱古力;知道佢最鍾意係貓,令我都不斷睇有關貓嘅資料,甚至自己都因為佢而喜歡上貓。」71Please respect copyright.PENANA8JxjNXlOKv
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「雖然佢唔係成日笑,但係佢每次嘅笑,都係我見過,最單純,最精緻嘅笑容。」71Please respect copyright.PENANApgqprxf6Jx
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雖然他沒有明說,但我們皆明白,他所說喜歡的人,正是小昭。71Please respect copyright.PENANAXOBMV56xI0
本以為,他家被高利貸纏著,已是他想說的秘密。豈料,這個才是。71Please respect copyright.PENANAjPzme9SEew
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聽到這個故事,本來應該很驚訝,卻半點驚喜的感覺也沒有。反之,剛才一直延綿的心疼感覺,現在越見強烈。阿銘因為自己家庭及心理的負擔,而忍痛拒絕小昭對他的愛,更默默承受著一切。作為他們之間的好友,看到他們各自面對家庭的壓力,亦因為這些壓力,導致明明相愛,卻不能在一起。71Please respect copyright.PENANA4WnWKMgz7f
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自從母親去世之後,我再沒有像現在這一刻般,那麼想哭。71Please respect copyright.PENANAdHvxlteOag
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他說,Helen出身自小康之家,從小到大都無憂無慮。所散發的開朗都是毫無壓力的正能量,才吸引了生活沉重的他。71Please respect copyright.PENANAviQbuMkMmI
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此時的小昭,已感觸得泣不成聲,只使用雙手掩著自己的臉,不想讓阿銘看到自己狼狽的一面。我想她也沒意料過,原來自己一直的心意,是成功傳達到對方的意識中。71Please respect copyright.PENANA0ggGYaVdhd
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亦原來,自己在旁人眼中的堅持,一直為阿銘帶來沉重的壓力。71Please respect copyright.PENANAcpXgQXQGn6
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老天啊,你這玩笑也開得真大。71Please respect copyright.PENANAbYoRX9Poyy
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「毛志銘。」我叫他。71Please respect copyright.PENANAAId0j09iKw
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「嗯?」71Please respect copyright.PENANAQlS5xfz2lE
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「你真係個仆街嚟,自己一個人背負住咁多嘢都唔同我講,係唔係兄弟嚟?」我打從心底地責怪他。71Please respect copyright.PENANA6tRZkPuWAa
「識你之後,先真正知咩係兄弟。兄弟用嚟共富貴㗎嘛,患難洗乜一齊共?」他輕輕抹去眼角的淚說。71Please respect copyright.PENANAzZLmlMI9It
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「啪!」一個狠狠的巴掌,打到了阿銘的臉上。71Please respect copyright.PENANA6iZxqTQP9w
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「自私鬼!你係咪以為自己好偉大?你知唔知你每次拒絕我,我係幾咁失望?一個人失望咗四年,失望咗156次,你係咪覺得好好玩?」小昭激動得站起來對著阿銘大喊。71Please respect copyright.PENANAUxaBDSqR11
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「係162次,你舊年邀請過我同你去聖誕Party,喺你眼中係一次,但你果次其實問多咗我六次。果陣我阿媽因為操勞過度而入咗院,令我更加覺得,自己會成為你嘅負擔。呢162次拒絕過你嘅嘢我都記得。」阿銘說,此番說話教自責的小昭更是心痛。71Please respect copyright.PENANAdFI5H6goK2
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「唔好意思啊,肚痛所以去咗便便...做咩事啊?小昭你冇事啊嘛?」這個時候,Helen才回到現場,恰巧被她看到這難堪的時刻。71Please respect copyright.PENANAqdKHXtRLER
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「冇啊...頭先又講起小昭暗戀人嘅經歷,搞到佢感觸啊。」阿靜為仍然在其懷中啜泣的小昭打圓場道。71Please respect copyright.PENANAb47qQv1abi
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「都夜喇!不如你哋去梳洗先喇,飲完酒唔好吹風啊。呢到啲嘢我執得㗎喇!」我說。71Please respect copyright.PENANAP5pj5qxW52