我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。670Please respect copyright.PENANAYgoj7t94qd
670Please respect copyright.PENANAtHBQWLOqKY
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。670Please respect copyright.PENANA86U9exLnGW
670Please respect copyright.PENANA5bF6Z0NraG
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。670Please respect copyright.PENANAvuz3UyCEmF
670Please respect copyright.PENANAtPKu8HnBfu
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。670Please respect copyright.PENANAN84UQILCxx
670Please respect copyright.PENANAchOmcEgz47
走進了屋邨商場。670Please respect copyright.PENANArY9pEsVv16
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。670Please respect copyright.PENANAsuvKvQNHqE
670Please respect copyright.PENANAWMJoJglT1o
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。670Please respect copyright.PENANAa6r2dDb22V
670Please respect copyright.PENANAyh7DjDCuiX
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。670Please respect copyright.PENANALlxjxwUPvc
670Please respect copyright.PENANAmFociPNLoN
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。670Please respect copyright.PENANADER2JbsktU
670Please respect copyright.PENANAdqmLTi062i
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。670Please respect copyright.PENANAyK3HoFID4S
670Please respect copyright.PENANAkqPlWBqdLf
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。670Please respect copyright.PENANA8hiN2l1cjx
670Please respect copyright.PENANAthARYAWPbA
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。670Please respect copyright.PENANAHymXdrUUSg
670Please respect copyright.PENANAYvf8vH03LO
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。670Please respect copyright.PENANAeBQCRO05Go
670Please respect copyright.PENANAdo5nfw3xUB
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。670Please respect copyright.PENANAqLGtK4KawO
670Please respect copyright.PENANArIK9VYtCmb
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。670Please respect copyright.PENANAfNJE43QpX3
670Please respect copyright.PENANA0pVyYp6Cgp
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——670Please respect copyright.PENANA3oAIeD85yO
670Please respect copyright.PENANAHm34s9Zrjv
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。670Please respect copyright.PENANAQWfrOzmmJI
670Please respect copyright.PENANAZw3VSZbt9Y
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。670Please respect copyright.PENANALlXMbbfXyf
670Please respect copyright.PENANA66KvDm3pNq
腳步還是能動。670Please respect copyright.PENANAwb5yY817b0
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。670Please respect copyright.PENANAfqnqZoPALv
670Please respect copyright.PENANAZ9oQSJNMSN
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……670Please respect copyright.PENANAWFdBWcW2mb
670Please respect copyright.PENANAxOip1QHfaB
腳步才轉向離去。670Please respect copyright.PENANADKnxCpTPFM
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。670Please respect copyright.PENANAn4y6zTg1uq
670Please respect copyright.PENANAuAzobcFRcu
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。670Please respect copyright.PENANASSC6EHlMeY
670Please respect copyright.PENANAmsKtA5j6JE
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。670Please respect copyright.PENANAMs1iH1O59G
670Please respect copyright.PENANA85PKW49a8D
但是已經不再重要。670Please respect copyright.PENANAXJdqYKFSHM
670Please respect copyright.PENANAVI00jidu34
她騙了我。670Please respect copyright.PENANAVZJI9PtGBk
670Please respect copyright.PENANAI40s5kBnXT
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。670Please respect copyright.PENANAPAu9chnjdh
670Please respect copyright.PENANAjVALUFgA96
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。670Please respect copyright.PENANACxQPyGVFI5
670Please respect copyright.PENANAjkH26vyRy7
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。670Please respect copyright.PENANAqyMGu9G7ca
670Please respect copyright.PENANAxHermWWjFS
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。670Please respect copyright.PENANA6Hake3ftqu
670Please respect copyright.PENANA4CxjgihBHO
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。670Please respect copyright.PENANAM520Zy4p7W
670Please respect copyright.PENANAcJpSPn2cnC
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。670Please respect copyright.PENANAEaFDRtCVJy
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但我錯了。670Please respect copyright.PENANAEKIimfCwCn
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。670Please respect copyright.PENANABmXEx8mr8D
670Please respect copyright.PENANA8TnUudMUnN
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。670Please respect copyright.PENANAiRhIF5RsvU
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眼下——670Please respect copyright.PENANAkbES2wAI1n
670Please respect copyright.PENANAn923sdoHJA
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。670Please respect copyright.PENANAtYye0QkZra
670Please respect copyright.PENANARQADn5lB9u
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。670Please respect copyright.PENANAZBZaB4WtbW
670Please respect copyright.PENANAUysSr8IAcA
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。670Please respect copyright.PENANArf60MbByWF
670Please respect copyright.PENANA5hzQbQWzHn
我能夠再承受一次嗎?670Please respect copyright.PENANAuNmfOdEQWl
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。670Please respect copyright.PENANAEJoHBkgZSm
670Please respect copyright.PENANA0fI8XyS0zH
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。670Please respect copyright.PENANArcdrPLCeFg
670Please respect copyright.PENANAfjIpvxOIto
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。670Please respect copyright.PENANAlzHpwqb4h7
670Please respect copyright.PENANAfREnIWS4Fu
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。670Please respect copyright.PENANAFDTvu36CXZ
670Please respect copyright.PENANALc8ejfOL15
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。670Please respect copyright.PENANAZ9RIZJ8mfv
670Please respect copyright.PENANAmq9v4QDHo4
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。670Please respect copyright.PENANAUysNe0fFdH
670Please respect copyright.PENANAR3CgIViPrV
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。670Please respect copyright.PENANAaGvT2bHqvh
670Please respect copyright.PENANAw23Q2YmkXo
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。670Please respect copyright.PENANAcqcqTnqQxw
670Please respect copyright.PENANAoglu1DxheA
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。670Please respect copyright.PENANA2NqaAkKXDE
670Please respect copyright.PENANA0fKc2rwvVj
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……670Please respect copyright.PENANAYTOApQW7rU
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我樂意代勞的。670Please respect copyright.PENANALLkeRrGAqN
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。670Please respect copyright.PENANAZV1cOXxNrE
670Please respect copyright.PENANA4nlZLHTQk4
我馬上看看後座的乘客——670Please respect copyright.PENANAe3x6C7Geu5
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。670Please respect copyright.PENANA0OqE5gA3iX
670Please respect copyright.PENANA4WpfN7F3QT
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?670Please respect copyright.PENANAoPCcVjV43C
670Please respect copyright.PENANAFi9W9KptCf
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。670Please respect copyright.PENANAZmUrPkuVZT
670Please respect copyright.PENANABIu2384cRR
在下午等待至日落——670Please respect copyright.PENANACZMv5psUrN
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。670Please respect copyright.PENANA3QWNzHQuUd
670Please respect copyright.PENANAzjdEjRam1f
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。670Please respect copyright.PENANAaHcJV840Rp
670Please respect copyright.PENANAlsHln8eZbn
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」670Please respect copyright.PENANAi3YFwSPdDM
670Please respect copyright.PENANAqTqetAtlH3
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。670Please respect copyright.PENANAFDBD0iopvV
670Please respect copyright.PENANAMkR1wo5PKs
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。670Please respect copyright.PENANAIKnnIeKVvv
670Please respect copyright.PENANAzbk4s2Qr7y
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。670Please respect copyright.PENANAJLve6M1Taa
670Please respect copyright.PENANAsPjaQYwkDb
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。670Please respect copyright.PENANAkEtizQ4oQ9
670Please respect copyright.PENANA8KklC9B0WG
「嘭——」也是不進。670Please respect copyright.PENANAyDHHKwTINI
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。670Please respect copyright.PENANAHCrqWKwe3p
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漸漸出現晚霞。670Please respect copyright.PENANANLzOuGjKbv
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回去吧。670Please respect copyright.PENANAStk0rfbtTJ
670Please respect copyright.PENANAHTa6DOJWH9
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。670Please respect copyright.PENANALdIIvmYaj5
670Please respect copyright.PENANA9g3vORkNNN
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。670Please respect copyright.PENANAsIbMERwqg7
670Please respect copyright.PENANAlYIB3lMhiO
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。670Please respect copyright.PENANA63sTN6usDt
670Please respect copyright.PENANAg5srA1Uhhq
背著書包,累然站起——670Please respect copyright.PENANAaB4hoRPrwF
670Please respect copyright.PENANAhFoC92R4gZ
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」670Please respect copyright.PENANAnOuJoxlawp
670Please respect copyright.PENANAKGw4VMtn74
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。670Please respect copyright.PENANAAcsx8bk7bb
670Please respect copyright.PENANACLyT0vhcre
最後,舉起手。670Please respect copyright.PENANAUQCDePbGDL
670Please respect copyright.PENANAxNHrIRoHqa
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。670Please respect copyright.PENANA4VOZLhdo5R
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* * *670Please respect copyright.PENANALDE27IGtqi
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。670Please respect copyright.PENANACthFBKfLEr
670Please respect copyright.PENANA04sJbSGgIp
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。670Please respect copyright.PENANAS7KlqyEf0p
670Please respect copyright.PENANAYEoaoqKuZv
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。670Please respect copyright.PENANAAZWGAhrb9F
670Please respect copyright.PENANAnJNaDcvVoC
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。670Please respect copyright.PENANAvh3o2aybKs
670Please respect copyright.PENANAqjuNBY3z27
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。670Please respect copyright.PENANAFyopjtMgqE
670Please respect copyright.PENANA7995EKWP1C
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。670Please respect copyright.PENANA8uePolUXYP
670Please respect copyright.PENANAH3Waf0jvg1
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。670Please respect copyright.PENANAcPq3zDhaOq
670Please respect copyright.PENANAmiYBZte0fN
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。670Please respect copyright.PENANAoQGU9ScSqw
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。670Please respect copyright.PENANAHVhsasNsRp
670Please respect copyright.PENANAWSuajByzbp
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。670Please respect copyright.PENANAUxgiuIctiG
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。670Please respect copyright.PENANA4kzM7WKo4r
670Please respect copyright.PENANArmbWk2pbWu
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。670Please respect copyright.PENANADQGA0NYzWE
670Please respect copyright.PENANA2ndkPXqDVp
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。670Please respect copyright.PENANA8iVYv4hQfN
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。670Please respect copyright.PENANAynLZZAVL1u
670Please respect copyright.PENANAy19x2W70EK
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。670Please respect copyright.PENANAWwntn94DAS
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。670Please respect copyright.PENANA9uDYeRFqdH
670Please respect copyright.PENANASNtK5mxi9L
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。670Please respect copyright.PENANAsp1XHnEuyy
670Please respect copyright.PENANAljadoggm03
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。670Please respect copyright.PENANAdnBcSEkhan
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。670Please respect copyright.PENANAtj7lE2M5ES
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……670Please respect copyright.PENANAnil4ECxjex
670Please respect copyright.PENANAHPziT5QOzQ
——放大瞳孔。670Please respect copyright.PENANABwvbapYJOz
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。670Please respect copyright.PENANAWYuQ7Ebj9c
670Please respect copyright.PENANAtGIEmzDuDe
手機就在我的褲袋。670Please respect copyright.PENANAiRpCs23LoU
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。670Please respect copyright.PENANA6bt4rj7g0W
670Please respect copyright.PENANARVpvBo8qvb
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。670Please respect copyright.PENANACXASZpIl8Q
670Please respect copyright.PENANAodj9pJusk6
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。670Please respect copyright.PENANAvw0OY9NYwW
670Please respect copyright.PENANAlndRDSKlTu
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。670Please respect copyright.PENANAUteaP4A8yA
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那麼,打嗎?670Please respect copyright.PENANAD53KIn3yfx
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。670Please respect copyright.PENANAptwFAFgNPH
670Please respect copyright.PENANAKOk5kR1oJ6
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?670Please respect copyright.PENANAHIHxHROP51
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定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?670Please respect copyright.PENANAceW5J7DWb2
670Please respect copyright.PENANAl25fqGcYCq
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。670Please respect copyright.PENANAzStRGTDqAc
670Please respect copyright.PENANA7NgR5UVQzR
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。670Please respect copyright.PENANAjJpsusBKTr
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幾度拿出手機的我——670Please respect copyright.PENANAu29ZWbWLyE
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算吧。670Please respect copyright.PENANA1O7oRf3gli
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把手機放回褲袋。670Please respect copyright.PENANAHH0wN4pEpN
670Please respect copyright.PENANABvDyyu29gg
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。670Please respect copyright.PENANAZEl3iO4pCG
670Please respect copyright.PENANAUE62a7MXSl
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。670Please respect copyright.PENANAW6t83FiUru
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。670Please respect copyright.PENANA27C4WYWfFu
670Please respect copyright.PENANAB3behLPYj0