我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。645Please respect copyright.PENANAeUXx3CIOFh
645Please respect copyright.PENANAv3lDwDFRQG
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。645Please respect copyright.PENANAiPVZs045gL
645Please respect copyright.PENANAAHDYoFtV9L
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。645Please respect copyright.PENANAtI86dTILWV
645Please respect copyright.PENANAzidjNUcUx5
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。645Please respect copyright.PENANArOIFUggjMV
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走進了屋邨商場。645Please respect copyright.PENANAPbmwfw3LoN
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。645Please respect copyright.PENANAW4qYslLSn5
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其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。645Please respect copyright.PENANALOhKv20eFl
645Please respect copyright.PENANAtfoJFHN3B1
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。645Please respect copyright.PENANASp6sQBdZZK
645Please respect copyright.PENANAlU90QFB6ix
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。645Please respect copyright.PENANAve3oF5Bnkp
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曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。645Please respect copyright.PENANA7NIKlOsAp8
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。645Please respect copyright.PENANA1oUPVkpuHT
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。645Please respect copyright.PENANAmISig6oTXK
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果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。645Please respect copyright.PENANABIVYBkDcls
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陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。645Please respect copyright.PENANA7JmMe0IST7
645Please respect copyright.PENANA5yrSFozMJZ
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。645Please respect copyright.PENANAGjuTPwt9oX
645Please respect copyright.PENANAgKyXfXGZXj
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——645Please respect copyright.PENANAd9OYPhUEOf
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。645Please respect copyright.PENANALWzHq6r6DH
645Please respect copyright.PENANAfNRcERiJQT
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。645Please respect copyright.PENANAdXqgMRcKM3
645Please respect copyright.PENANApbsSJjufwM
腳步還是能動。645Please respect copyright.PENANAf11th8EcJJ
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。645Please respect copyright.PENANAIlikKpaG8a
645Please respect copyright.PENANACKWxbMRmY7
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……645Please respect copyright.PENANAWuNEZ9JQ8H
645Please respect copyright.PENANAwx98amlgKd
腳步才轉向離去。645Please respect copyright.PENANAa2xtiqVoDo
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。645Please respect copyright.PENANAIQlx6I5UDB
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。645Please respect copyright.PENANAcAkrY1fOe7
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。645Please respect copyright.PENANA8LHbd1cG0c
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但是已經不再重要。645Please respect copyright.PENANAyFk7ueIuBi
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她騙了我。645Please respect copyright.PENANA6xiESWFfTo
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。645Please respect copyright.PENANA53mX5KvrSn
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。645Please respect copyright.PENANASGGNH70U14
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她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。645Please respect copyright.PENANAfNlWqQK5Ki
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。645Please respect copyright.PENANAYb75laEZV6
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我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。645Please respect copyright.PENANAZXtHyv1wM8
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我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。645Please respect copyright.PENANAToV4xL2EW2
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但我錯了。645Please respect copyright.PENANAU4buTBqqhp
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。645Please respect copyright.PENANAFKSo9IOPQE
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我辜負了她,成為了人渣。645Please respect copyright.PENANAyI6qiBpZ7e
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眼下——645Please respect copyright.PENANA5Is1Eb2KLA
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。645Please respect copyright.PENANAdkJSrWK1Lf
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陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。645Please respect copyright.PENANAKs6cPEuEpQ
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。645Please respect copyright.PENANAvusxtmRGYO
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?645Please respect copyright.PENANA2zeQyYoA7y
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。645Please respect copyright.PENANAejg34jG1In
645Please respect copyright.PENANAJcRAlJtsMT
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。645Please respect copyright.PENANAKIs2ERMIJC
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「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。645Please respect copyright.PENANAzRVm9KQECi
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孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。645Please respect copyright.PENANAZDClaFhZ8W
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我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。645Please respect copyright.PENANALAHsQXBoZG
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。645Please respect copyright.PENANADqyIjb86cY
645Please respect copyright.PENANA4qlBM9sed7
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。645Please respect copyright.PENANATZqtCx7Ehe
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。645Please respect copyright.PENANAZrWz7vwNkF
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還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。645Please respect copyright.PENANAL5YW4DEPlh
645Please respect copyright.PENANAwVfZnM0ogr
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……645Please respect copyright.PENANAAe3l1jWmvd
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我樂意代勞的。645Please respect copyright.PENANA3127CEwy6w
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。645Please respect copyright.PENANA5JZiBHsSLg
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——645Please respect copyright.PENANAPuGHnST8RU
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。645Please respect copyright.PENANAoOBqyzG6KH
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我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?645Please respect copyright.PENANAMMXMjQznGl
645Please respect copyright.PENANA2iXsCpQyza
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。645Please respect copyright.PENANAZUyTtXl8cv
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在下午等待至日落——645Please respect copyright.PENANA9OCDPOTCGW
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。645Please respect copyright.PENANAe4ymYwL8iG
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在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。645Please respect copyright.PENANAeP0T8jgWvz
645Please respect copyright.PENANAkUWGZxTveN
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」645Please respect copyright.PENANAXp5p4zy3g0
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他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。645Please respect copyright.PENANAd1UFpqQZn4
645Please respect copyright.PENANAWBOK7m7lj9
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。645Please respect copyright.PENANAQhzjNyAlPi
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操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。645Please respect copyright.PENANAY1tyiHrE7o
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。645Please respect copyright.PENANAUh0lccrhgK
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「嘭——」也是不進。645Please respect copyright.PENANAQXGjmECozc
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。645Please respect copyright.PENANAjm1bNHIvpw
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漸漸出現晚霞。645Please respect copyright.PENANAv8OaB6AYqN
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回去吧。645Please respect copyright.PENANAkRHXIx4yWN
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。645Please respect copyright.PENANAioq34p8QSx
645Please respect copyright.PENANA9c2SLs1JPY
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。645Please respect copyright.PENANAIv7jApHzQZ
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。645Please respect copyright.PENANAsE13KuAxi1
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背著書包,累然站起——645Please respect copyright.PENANAXXBap8jOKL
645Please respect copyright.PENANAUWBkRqKprU
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」645Please respect copyright.PENANArCHEvOHzpV
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這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。645Please respect copyright.PENANAVMAAwJzaA6
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最後,舉起手。645Please respect copyright.PENANAiGCarTmSdG
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。645Please respect copyright.PENANAIQveOhUVG6
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* * *645Please respect copyright.PENANAFF1GDJZO9B
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。645Please respect copyright.PENANABnEFVS1QbK
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萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。645Please respect copyright.PENANAKp7Ch0w5Dt
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。645Please respect copyright.PENANANH71XyC4JM
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。645Please respect copyright.PENANAc4TRyKznuj
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。645Please respect copyright.PENANAEkCC6z4CSK
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。645Please respect copyright.PENANAEESxlgkkY2
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小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。645Please respect copyright.PENANAroOc8iyGvn
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我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。645Please respect copyright.PENANACeMNwIHxZp
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。645Please respect copyright.PENANAnuXx6JVNRh
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我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。645Please respect copyright.PENANAUuD4D8hhlq
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。645Please respect copyright.PENANAmwaUjK0gzw
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。645Please respect copyright.PENANAEYdF5Ny6TG
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。645Please respect copyright.PENANAwHTw0TNxoe
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。645Please respect copyright.PENANAak4tPnw7Of
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。645Please respect copyright.PENANAvR3jMj4zKP
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。645Please respect copyright.PENANA4fsDjYe2eB
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「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。645Please respect copyright.PENANApAVtjzRY4P
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雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。645Please respect copyright.PENANANHwbBWFVyA
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。645Please respect copyright.PENANAJH4rf2UTHE
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……645Please respect copyright.PENANA7EEOeuPh5b
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——放大瞳孔。645Please respect copyright.PENANA9PvyUOlPeN
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。645Please respect copyright.PENANAw8hx04I2Ik
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手機就在我的褲袋。645Please respect copyright.PENANAYDRO7cbwFj
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。645Please respect copyright.PENANAcZRBXzJ31c
645Please respect copyright.PENANANX9K9f2i2B
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。645Please respect copyright.PENANAhwaQUgqZtb
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阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。645Please respect copyright.PENANAdIqZmR7MZw
645Please respect copyright.PENANAp76Ocn6Vqn
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。645Please respect copyright.PENANAeyz5eVg8Nu
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那麼,打嗎?645Please respect copyright.PENANAoBjIyo2SM5
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。645Please respect copyright.PENANAmAhWlqi37r
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還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?645Please respect copyright.PENANA3qCDq6Oidp
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定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?645Please respect copyright.PENANA5mqez7Om6V
645Please respect copyright.PENANACDOgjx8aCI
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。645Please respect copyright.PENANA2wSkDKc61V
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。645Please respect copyright.PENANAZoe6quRjQ5
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幾度拿出手機的我——645Please respect copyright.PENANAooQSISQSJS
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算吧。645Please respect copyright.PENANAJm9qH80s4m
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把手機放回褲袋。645Please respect copyright.PENANAP1wWQSjeBn
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「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。645Please respect copyright.PENANAt988Va4BK5
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。645Please respect copyright.PENANA60oxHtc3Jv
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。645Please respect copyright.PENANA8alc7C3D1Y
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