我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS4a8PTC4z
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ046f6EyWmB
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「咬下——」明白了。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IdOFj1Qn0
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEosycEkXr
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyOoKJULHD
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ihOBSVqN4
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphPzfwGBG9
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神是不是故意的？626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmm2wxybht2
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmICJHVoGin
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FseXRgmx6
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEz3vZuxqYo
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzniOG7rax
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Viewsp9jz
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQrH6p9NXo
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeSeIoOMhE
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aD3CM1deQ
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62hyVGuXgL
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEnNW4lYE2
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60csX9MCOx
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然後我沒有再阻止她。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OTAiSipLt
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3hnISCzYt
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIiS1vq4jM
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkx4vOnjXc
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yAHiMdojc
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXSsZF7iT8
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tUDf4t4Ds
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLktiKDU7DM
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「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9gyAVbTXM
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「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbUWMAJgeV
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NSWurMZf0
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我也正在難過。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOgeRARxDL
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRr3x8kwL9
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98QFN5vht0
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrytGgK7Tl
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「點解？」她問。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pzAI4IoQR
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIUUpQuXAu
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHxALPJcOu
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同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UsewJBAL9
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcedj5gBDc2
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffPJ9I32OS
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只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbkzx6TCbD
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gFC9ytnz3
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLpoFr9zH3
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這是……什麼爛方法？626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkTjU26Ne4
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncJhjtxM7m
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AotVhggbX
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShsRvwe1p6
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「咩條件？」她問。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaAthfDzjx
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「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTUiFclPUD
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8zofjX5LP
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「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaD4fwRhO9
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1gNXCaP0d
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但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4G2HhrF9uj
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「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYZLI7yDyp
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「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2ygImuVPY
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「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBEkfHNKi4
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmolm5AV52z
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「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixKskhL257
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「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuCXbQjw8v
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她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAbTGzodHp
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也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjTyuuzCjt
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fpkvYwjxw
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「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bHe37DXMw
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vKYQEuExm
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說完，她聽完。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9qrvBmmli
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm2sABwalj
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「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoI57ZYpdH
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbECVTX1QL
626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU2Wp8Bs1A
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcliZyNxZX
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被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7aKaPCLip
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMvOib2Dm8
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGbb2SYu4Q
626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNf4ajlMXoA
「陸傾兒……」我說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjnu5exQk9
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「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcXq8dPLNo
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「揀咩都得？」我問。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGu8DnytJNd
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn86QFaaOc8
626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1CftMQSE5
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5gx2KSXko
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而我不懂回答。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnESfHrJox
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfd70DbGj8
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「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDGJJITAmI
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「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56jTQYyOPI
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我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcqjzla5EB
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「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyTsgjrZUd
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「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYq47G5obu
626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGBhlgxeGF
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREx7LDI0Hx
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過後——626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3Z71qitVn
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ624lwfuT4J
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屁股坐下。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU0kPnndA9
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。626Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAPDxzhNJW
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