我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8z8zDl409X
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IY62b0Mlx
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「咬下——」明白了。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2acohUytN
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMviNE1QU1
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5y9s2rsCn
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JVRg8ahSg
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDprI1yabg
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDGakNlRZO
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3hMIohkLF
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zXcmGcvjO
神是不是故意的？611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hShL3UdPL
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt7JnQpEdP
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbImSlqNYyO
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRQZiFwHKu
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VhA0pLu4T
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGShO4c3LLE
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdSyKQmPTB
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8S3RGLIcAQ
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡou9Amencdq
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWA3Ts7fEwI
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNlCicCIn3
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28Pq0aYPVU
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5b9RcpMAf
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxldDSobMuq
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKWeDqFjAK
「唔好再講喇。」我說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyEKDDvYWs
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38Je7xNEWL
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJD0o08RQw6
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然後我沒有再阻止她。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9T4duwclU
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nUvhjQh4C
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQGKwyNmLB
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAaI4zxvZr
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLBwDvyc4E
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA78SgieaAj
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡky3YwTGlCy
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhXNbPkMjy
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlraDZ4MRY
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUc7TVTBwt
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkzcfRWgnF
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJa8lkkqJ5
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5eRmHeVjB
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AIBtmu5xq
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBOYnHawYg
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEsJsfSsSg
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys2Ma0Erc1
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLrLoan3Tb
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDpBbmZWbE
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81iOu3EaC4
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrO2Tg6pg68
我也正在難過。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6BTzW9nQV
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1EwsuRzus
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacDTQRjtxy
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8Je9rl2jH
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmjkA3u7FL
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「點解？」她問。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3rE5lpLyX
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfqsnyTa9V
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnFv3RqMyW
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPzvUXXNbd
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfFUJ2a70f
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQwwK3eoNV
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTjUOPCuEu
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOdjzpZDd4
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyw1hHNmgFE
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbG7mLuWALT
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgt02ZVRkz
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsRAoCQmqK
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8w1k7yfz3P
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這是……什麼爛方法？611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJKisleQGe
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzExxKWbSH
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPO8y2iDgN
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEKkUwOHyQ
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「咩條件？」她問。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiWgXf0gz7
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSjwwL5PKi
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgDgzVcX7x
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyTZMjzOsf
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9q2mfh4BI
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUrqHVs3OM
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEx71eeEW0
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfZ6iR3hew
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Co2fL7ry0
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXH3sFm6hH
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6lMuqkRt5
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILSpbfX1IA
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldfkPrNGHi
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBZ5n3dVl8
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkNVt2f0gw
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4eCAiQn2W
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEX3Uzh2SVk
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHotOAEXL4H
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oB15uhFYW
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyphEC8Fji3
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfM7aCDqKM
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvv77GYtYM
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCrco6xRMV
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhJWJaeHTx
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRGebuQi0W
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7CVJYWnwV
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoXUFlrckF
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ615Qt7l5SN
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsjevTUxL2
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzlpQP4T94
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wgT3Vr8Dk
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說完，她聽完。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhR5fr8Erc
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6NDeUOmtK
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPE41x0V3n
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaL3DuQKh2
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HjOoYlLGD
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbl8SIxt3ER
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVOOvZs6UN
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ939ffye65i
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaTqk8oesc
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemhUgjBaHN
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySdXtnyZMn
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60uxn3PP6S
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXILrJ64Ixc
「陸傾兒……」我說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vGrLZXGZb
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEVXcIOHia
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7oL7EQlc3
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2H6xnQavp
「揀咩都得？」我問。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmC0nBwiqU
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIqW8r4Rru
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94ZSpr5qPI
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4e3zb8ZwX
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwluYpTQZQ3
而我不懂回答。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LoJ3FoMHj
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT74WU2EBG8
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrSCGbS5x5
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TbTWbDJtC
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsb0AWrawtY
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RFChogjIu
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj88oRrAITg
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaLe5zb4T1
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVg8Bcn3wM
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdpLbNSso4
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGilzGmVFq
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbYAwHX9CL
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK6x0XecTn
611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YD6lAYCUI
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWRVDRwv7N
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過後——611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZzjbLEfeB
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXvOwLJqgG
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屁股坐下。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOksnglotd9
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。611Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNKE7KfKlo
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