這算什麼?579Please respect copyright.PENANAXSaGE0VMMU
579Please respect copyright.PENANAU5cGNpdaZL
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。579Please respect copyright.PENANA8PeyLZTt3R
579Please respect copyright.PENANAj7CyiUAXIR
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。579Please respect copyright.PENANA4PZAsekw0L
579Please respect copyright.PENANAuQYqyTVSru
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。579Please respect copyright.PENANA9fmEnxzVLC
579Please respect copyright.PENANA0b4yOJc9rC
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。579Please respect copyright.PENANAsLhj3O4Agw
579Please respect copyright.PENANA2ux1xSHVbu
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。579Please respect copyright.PENANAozP7zUL32H
579Please respect copyright.PENANA6OjGOv7Bgp
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。579Please respect copyright.PENANA1TT6WeDkcH
579Please respect copyright.PENANAHoaiqDpV91
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。579Please respect copyright.PENANA9YLD4fDACu
579Please respect copyright.PENANAu0cr4HevOA
然後便準備下山了。579Please respect copyright.PENANAu5sUYC9Rkg
579Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3IInOWSel
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。579Please respect copyright.PENANAjuzZoy9kI6
579Please respect copyright.PENANAEZMylicbYP
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。579Please respect copyright.PENANAAYFclvKJEy
579Please respect copyright.PENANAqjOiBik0qH
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAvsWAUfz1Qn
579Please respect copyright.PENANAxvZHmP70yK
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。579Please respect copyright.PENANAgT4Xpmpqwo
579Please respect copyright.PENANAl5hfyAy1eb
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。579Please respect copyright.PENANA4cGUlNN7pE
579Please respect copyright.PENANAmwSxuEakF6
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。579Please respect copyright.PENANAROsVLfgvdU
579Please respect copyright.PENANAnQsDfnx3Zc
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。579Please respect copyright.PENANAq3qq4w9a7Q
579Please respect copyright.PENANArcBgIURYCJ
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。579Please respect copyright.PENANAglyAfr4Ng0
579Please respect copyright.PENANAt3Hur2Vjj9
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」579Please respect copyright.PENANAFCoIXjMYZw
579Please respect copyright.PENANA2QXo4Fd5Nv
不會告訴我,又一天了。579Please respect copyright.PENANAPisf0MrKxc
579Please respect copyright.PENANA5L76zIpHOj
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。579Please respect copyright.PENANAuHhLf0XfjP
579Please respect copyright.PENANAdA7wLO715T
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。579Please respect copyright.PENANAwQjCOGwLF5
579Please respect copyright.PENANAgZQWI1WRG9
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。579Please respect copyright.PENANAh9ub2a6wII
579Please respect copyright.PENANAdh4BijbVdq
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。579Please respect copyright.PENANAgCkC3l1JUC
579Please respect copyright.PENANAf5kQfIYdfK
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。579Please respect copyright.PENANAoN1NPNd1JQ
579Please respect copyright.PENANADACGg0Seb0
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAVRIRINmiki
579Please respect copyright.PENANAO2yq6bo8Ud
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。579Please respect copyright.PENANAmA06M8I5NO
579Please respect copyright.PENANA0frHHV5wKQ
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。579Please respect copyright.PENANAONJmtxGweh
579Please respect copyright.PENANAUEAun6fxco
怎麼說呢?579Please respect copyright.PENANAcy5umlEJqO
579Please respect copyright.PENANAAWxBgo8ZnT
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。579Please respect copyright.PENANAPG4GOeLodp
579Please respect copyright.PENANACodQGjRC2U
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。579Please respect copyright.PENANAz3XblGMewp
579Please respect copyright.PENANAY5RDavnawx
翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。579Please respect copyright.PENANANMpr5UJXrD
579Please respect copyright.PENANAMShBf7nTf2
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。579Please respect copyright.PENANA93BMbPMvk5
579Please respect copyright.PENANAB9TZR9t1ec
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。579Please respect copyright.PENANAtAp7b7Wi38
579Please respect copyright.PENANATdnANu1aTf
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。579Please respect copyright.PENANA85PR4p9JMu
579Please respect copyright.PENANAu6nBGchBD7
我再點頭。579Please respect copyright.PENANAbUd77qCP0n
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。579Please respect copyright.PENANAkhwGVMBhjG
579Please respect copyright.PENANAMPsZDb0T7Q
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。579Please respect copyright.PENANAvebHNQEvgN
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我馬上看第二天。579Please respect copyright.PENANA7NtslHlnDN
579Please respect copyright.PENANAy9gR6Xw3ZD
中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。579Please respect copyright.PENANA9QKgDiMCIU
579Please respect copyright.PENANAuU46P4Zdaw
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。579Please respect copyright.PENANAb7MjcBpF9B
579Please respect copyright.PENANARafdilkfOr
在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……579Please respect copyright.PENANAtWDHOUw5d3
579Please respect copyright.PENANAD1Iml4p90R
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。579Please respect copyright.PENANAcwXRk8xnJ3
579Please respect copyright.PENANA8sAd6iWAwT
「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」579Please respect copyright.PENANAuf4HIZxZZN
579Please respect copyright.PENANAMRviT76fBa
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」579Please respect copyright.PENANAcAsAmZ05E0
579Please respect copyright.PENANAHsRZQT7Rh3
第二天「END」出現。579Please respect copyright.PENANAqXBnXnFQkQ
579Please respect copyright.PENANAX4sGw5zuID
我蓋上了練習簿。579Please respect copyright.PENANAgEIeEG3yAs
579Please respect copyright.PENANAjF3LLs2HuA
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。579Please respect copyright.PENANAg0wqVXMfQh
579Please respect copyright.PENANArpZUZXXCwZ
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?579Please respect copyright.PENANAGmNdYz47bK
579Please respect copyright.PENANANqtmfFlkRm
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。579Please respect copyright.PENANALH32eTdXq2
579Please respect copyright.PENANA4Rm90MRzrv
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。579Please respect copyright.PENANAgf8yey4Jjy
579Please respect copyright.PENANAKHH1QbfgNn
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。579Please respect copyright.PENANAk7muMdzqa5
579Please respect copyright.PENANACekCSUqnUo
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。579Please respect copyright.PENANAGX6YgdgzQ5
579Please respect copyright.PENANAukNDUcbHGk
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。579Please respect copyright.PENANAYEkRSxRA2p
579Please respect copyright.PENANAvI9woXlBx2
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?579Please respect copyright.PENANAUCgtQaR5wy
579Please respect copyright.PENANALdKTcFN6xv
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。579Please respect copyright.PENANAozsAmieDln
579Please respect copyright.PENANAMTnXZbell4
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。579Please respect copyright.PENANAJhrVSzXU6h
579Please respect copyright.PENANAuvgR6zIPYR
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」579Please respect copyright.PENANATtONkvasoV
579Please respect copyright.PENANAVaqQDRUXa0
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。579Please respect copyright.PENANAeItAGfSLev
579Please respect copyright.PENANAZlIgTssbYw
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAPdst6QnKsc
579Please respect copyright.PENANAzG9cDKs2iQ
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。579Please respect copyright.PENANAitK878WoHS
579Please respect copyright.PENANAC0NoBbTfQf
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。579Please respect copyright.PENANAEuwDiI4Zma
579Please respect copyright.PENANAng6YCTTWCE
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。579Please respect copyright.PENANA0hwI3IvG2v
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然後再次坐好。579Please respect copyright.PENANA2EWe5Miahf
579Please respect copyright.PENANAQIG4Q52Hdz
「陸……傾兒。」579Please respect copyright.PENANA3nWOHxn8Fx
579Please respect copyright.PENANAemCGXnQZj2
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。579Please respect copyright.PENANA3mCGPGKwW2
579Please respect copyright.PENANAZoaBoBLO4h
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。579Please respect copyright.PENANAuCYaNiwukh
579Please respect copyright.PENANArz9MHUXWuh
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。579Please respect copyright.PENANAFVaHl6PWnA
579Please respect copyright.PENANAs0RmKtojYH
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。579Please respect copyright.PENANA87X5u7HZ4N
579Please respect copyright.PENANARSvXnJwHud
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。579Please respect copyright.PENANAP2aNE7BJLX
579Please respect copyright.PENANAwJgHaZKsg9
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?579Please respect copyright.PENANAOfhaBOcTJE
579Please respect copyright.PENANA0hNkajVY7t
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。579Please respect copyright.PENANAhwki9fIvBQ
579Please respect copyright.PENANASFBUvpvdgg
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。579Please respect copyright.PENANAUMG01spIHT
579Please respect copyright.PENANAeFBU2Mxpwn
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。579Please respect copyright.PENANAsmf7Pmkn79
579Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZCeitktgy
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。579Please respect copyright.PENANAWPLuZXR3Tk
579Please respect copyright.PENANAKrZGvyp4P6
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。579Please respect copyright.PENANAbd5ObYxV49
579Please respect copyright.PENANAbvF3v7hZ6P
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。579Please respect copyright.PENANAKv1E8mbV2V
579Please respect copyright.PENANA5OcIUhCqG6
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。579Please respect copyright.PENANAW9xBWc5szs
579Please respect copyright.PENANAlMaNB9nGEF
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。579Please respect copyright.PENANAtE8Go88aIz
579Please respect copyright.PENANALevpxhTSdM
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。579Please respect copyright.PENANAWR7hF2wvvV
579Please respect copyright.PENANA3owcBaU5XZ
那麼,我呢?579Please respect copyright.PENANAgUNS1kuFeO
579Please respect copyright.PENANAofUaga4pdM
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?579Please respect copyright.PENANAxbzxEQBoGg
579Please respect copyright.PENANAVA5subfIgj
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。579Please respect copyright.PENANAKgerHLnQqh
579Please respect copyright.PENANAMmLDyb1Ias
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。579Please respect copyright.PENANAqG2jmTV5Zw
579Please respect copyright.PENANAwhVbNG3KGe
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。579Please respect copyright.PENANApwNem9kyGI
579Please respect copyright.PENANAzN7Oa425Ge
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。579Please respect copyright.PENANAvXXRvuVWkv
579Please respect copyright.PENANAtemYvXcAK0
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。579Please respect copyright.PENANAa04ne8XqGS
579Please respect copyright.PENANAoWkF0tKJHc
第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 579Please respect copyright.PENANAgX1MgOPe6I
579Please respect copyright.PENANArhW6TnC3UK
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 579Please respect copyright.PENANAl80Nvk93L3
579Please respect copyright.PENANAkSCtjbPCfG
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。579Please respect copyright.PENANAAW90nq94RQ
579Please respect copyright.PENANAAKd1aH2gna
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」579Please respect copyright.PENANASnaAhsUb9R
579Please respect copyright.PENANAv9a22dK55K
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAfuUL1cSJk0
579Please respect copyright.PENANAVGC92fXtMG
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAbXeloPW0pj
579Please respect copyright.PENANAQwuXavTMEZ
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAhewdVliXYu
579Please respect copyright.PENANAvPwLtL2Gr7
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。579Please respect copyright.PENANAv9BbWyUrvO
579Please respect copyright.PENANA3sKfMsu78d
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAds5GndPXGy
579Please respect copyright.PENANAOo3F9vFKwP
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。579Please respect copyright.PENANAVjYlspz8FE
579Please respect copyright.PENANAQLoH5iz8jg
「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。579Please respect copyright.PENANAVwM2AqCZnF
579Please respect copyright.PENANAnb015XOax9
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。579Please respect copyright.PENANAJJVBVejs21
579Please respect copyright.PENANA0STrE6sREk
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。579Please respect copyright.PENANAp8u34SRSOz
579Please respect copyright.PENANAuqyWlAV4kL
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?579Please respect copyright.PENANAoiE65NwTz7
579Please respect copyright.PENANArUiNuIbAWN
我期待著。579Please respect copyright.PENANA4R9ks2Sweq
579Please respect copyright.PENANAetpaw7SG5m
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。579Please respect copyright.PENANABnAj7Gj0XV
579Please respect copyright.PENANA8BibcwoCBr
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。579Please respect copyright.PENANAphoJZgrXKR
579Please respect copyright.PENANAU3zYYqiiq5
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。579Please respect copyright.PENANAiNpbuZR9Hj
579Please respect copyright.PENANARDX7nQkbA7
「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」579Please respect copyright.PENANAEytLl2cDPN
579Please respect copyright.PENANANb3N8UhSDn
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。579Please respect copyright.PENANAOmQWokYupa
579Please respect copyright.PENANARIymEJIxAy
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAwReiPLBk1b
579Please respect copyright.PENANAfkEiNrfARk
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。579Please respect copyright.PENANAHEpyHYORhT
579Please respect copyright.PENANAUj9rixzZXh
「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。579Please respect copyright.PENANA9c5MTyqcU9
579Please respect copyright.PENANAIeYZXp46po
傾耳以待——579Please respect copyright.PENANAM7yYuCSYEc
579Please respect copyright.PENANAQqNuwtsTiK
「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAIIssqdqoHl
579Please respect copyright.PENANAfTT0qtNokN
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。579Please respect copyright.PENANAoEBSh0DFyW
579Please respect copyright.PENANAOTA6pzC0OY
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。579Please respect copyright.PENANAvi0kwnFB8J
579Please respect copyright.PENANAx2PkwrbsKP
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。579Please respect copyright.PENANAcAUYfM5b1v
579Please respect copyright.PENANAFSJE1Frarz
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」579Please respect copyright.PENANA2kva5osiMV
579Please respect copyright.PENANAgq6vENX8Dh
身體傾後,躺了下來。579Please respect copyright.PENANA9ReLJMnvp7
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「係諗住攤。」579Please respect copyright.PENANAX2DXehAqOY
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。579Please respect copyright.PENANACJp5k1dGxf
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