這算什麼?559Please respect copyright.PENANAcFVnjC4m6q
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。559Please respect copyright.PENANAoi2ak18qTr
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。559Please respect copyright.PENANACLLxX7Njxr
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。559Please respect copyright.PENANAAX7H17D9tG
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。559Please respect copyright.PENANAbwuBO8TZZ1
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。559Please respect copyright.PENANA0sKSm5oIcQ
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。559Please respect copyright.PENANAuhQa3RWb8f
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。559Please respect copyright.PENANAEkdwqdPoyW
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然後便準備下山了。559Please respect copyright.PENANApW7StdYL7l
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。559Please respect copyright.PENANAxxfdoVRPSa
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。559Please respect copyright.PENANAmamnGkkg5X
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAVBbsHI2Nao
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。559Please respect copyright.PENANA1snDCAce88
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。559Please respect copyright.PENANAuqD0XGRDlc
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。559Please respect copyright.PENANAgp5AcfOQ3m
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。559Please respect copyright.PENANA37x8VcXhoK
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。559Please respect copyright.PENANAeTowyu6qRt
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」559Please respect copyright.PENANA4yZAWIrsx1
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不會告訴我,又一天了。559Please respect copyright.PENANAvA8hMwZiYk
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。559Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7UBgh0NAc
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。559Please respect copyright.PENANAuz2Tz7PMbh
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。559Please respect copyright.PENANAcUGDNESPnc
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。559Please respect copyright.PENANATS8rFgrgPY
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。559Please respect copyright.PENANA0TpB3MCm9n
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAVZzryUzXLu
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。559Please respect copyright.PENANAoIswv19wep
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。559Please respect copyright.PENANAtYIC4HCgRD
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怎麼說呢?559Please respect copyright.PENANAd5eIdoJfX7
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。559Please respect copyright.PENANApuFNR04skv
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。559Please respect copyright.PENANAkjosFHftDp
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。559Please respect copyright.PENANACpavKJt8hv
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。559Please respect copyright.PENANAeR8OEwXyZi
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。559Please respect copyright.PENANAQjuN4LSjZN
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。559Please respect copyright.PENANAHkcG5GEZH7
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我再點頭。559Please respect copyright.PENANAxs5FXZ9V25
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。559Please respect copyright.PENANAW3V1qoRXxr
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。559Please respect copyright.PENANAIGHksyDe7Y
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我馬上看第二天。559Please respect copyright.PENANAM7Fy4FOTBf
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。559Please respect copyright.PENANASJRdJ94xWp
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。559Please respect copyright.PENANA7Z2Wq5FSBf
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……559Please respect copyright.PENANAkZfV2LodeH
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。559Please respect copyright.PENANA9hYyuyEfsT
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」559Please respect copyright.PENANApIz3axCxai
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」559Please respect copyright.PENANAMaa40js1oH
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第二天「END」出現。559Please respect copyright.PENANAu5VQQpViBa
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我蓋上了練習簿。559Please respect copyright.PENANAsIGwTRA6jO
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。559Please respect copyright.PENANAHlALH83OMT
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?559Please respect copyright.PENANAA8il8QNM3V
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。559Please respect copyright.PENANATnRuFt7vrh
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。559Please respect copyright.PENANArsCLowaDbm
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。559Please respect copyright.PENANAI3skpYJ8NP
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。559Please respect copyright.PENANAAoiO3lhonu
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。559Please respect copyright.PENANA5zOn1FTWgF
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?559Please respect copyright.PENANAtrJ9tA8Hv5
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。559Please respect copyright.PENANAC2Uo3ZnIZV
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。559Please respect copyright.PENANADxZamAsTNE
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」559Please respect copyright.PENANA2mMczgTgwI
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。559Please respect copyright.PENANAG5rxqffk6u
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAVoA42L2QQu
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。559Please respect copyright.PENANAoagX7PiFNt
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。559Please respect copyright.PENANADC92gGa9km
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。559Please respect copyright.PENANAoXvreEEY0k
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然後再次坐好。559Please respect copyright.PENANAOhZeQsaYDN
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「陸……傾兒。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAaN3jduBPhq
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。559Please respect copyright.PENANAMPTpzUboOi
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。559Please respect copyright.PENANARsFZN5XvtL
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。559Please respect copyright.PENANAct96y4C6af
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。559Please respect copyright.PENANAHcFf7Cbdh6
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。559Please respect copyright.PENANAD9ZKadbtTk
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?559Please respect copyright.PENANAmnB5zGQxEf
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。559Please respect copyright.PENANAGH1ZLQSZ6y
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。559Please respect copyright.PENANAPysnsmVkt2
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。559Please respect copyright.PENANA7fQcMAoTRR
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。559Please respect copyright.PENANA0RpKzYtznE
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。559Please respect copyright.PENANAPIgBXYkdm0
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。559Please respect copyright.PENANAhDIuArPf0S
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。559Please respect copyright.PENANAB3e3v2mdyY
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。559Please respect copyright.PENANA6VnkNX3VYk
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。559Please respect copyright.PENANAIWDEQUWcoW
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那麼,我呢?559Please respect copyright.PENANA4HmmYIdi4n
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?559Please respect copyright.PENANA9NmNi5O4gx
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。559Please respect copyright.PENANAIbC8asabrf
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。559Please respect copyright.PENANAPOa3hwusJ4
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。559Please respect copyright.PENANAp8y6WPRNsm
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。559Please respect copyright.PENANAmaS7ED2Bge
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。559Please respect copyright.PENANAEnYz37giWt
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 559Please respect copyright.PENANAnl81k6g454
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 559Please respect copyright.PENANAe7WPJxe5iB
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。559Please respect copyright.PENANAWxiJamMGVT
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAgfRPT5Iapu
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAGCeCtLeeRX
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAQwJbIWYE2d
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」559Please respect copyright.PENANATNRvIm2lS1
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。559Please respect copyright.PENANAVQ5JTqFuwK
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」559Please respect copyright.PENANASTyAaS6IR7
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。559Please respect copyright.PENANAZqRafdVQLv
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。559Please respect copyright.PENANA8ipFLl6vd0
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。559Please respect copyright.PENANAbrSTFSPoRB
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。559Please respect copyright.PENANAOZPUPjmrM7
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?559Please respect copyright.PENANAy1zkKTIAkB
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我期待著。559Please respect copyright.PENANAGtuhFTtcEu
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。559Please respect copyright.PENANAGssQoscits
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。559Please respect copyright.PENANAjGTwEYwUXT
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。559Please respect copyright.PENANALYi5IDjoq9
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」559Please respect copyright.PENANA51ShITCUEm
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。559Please respect copyright.PENANA6ufk7dFq4e
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」559Please respect copyright.PENANA05FimRfx0F
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。559Please respect copyright.PENANAERDfHuf2kB
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。559Please respect copyright.PENANA9mIWXIsxrM
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傾耳以待——559Please respect copyright.PENANAwE80rLBHVE
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAipuZwS21W6
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。559Please respect copyright.PENANAYQd6h0dGKw
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。559Please respect copyright.PENANAGnYEnN5nVI
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。559Please respect copyright.PENANAaM9g8STG0b
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」559Please respect copyright.PENANAXXWFAAyj6O
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身體傾後,躺了下來。559Please respect copyright.PENANAgWpXWnY11G
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「係諗住攤。」559Please respect copyright.PENANA6b37dqwwSm
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。559Please respect copyright.PENANAJnWQpFpSVz
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。559Please respect copyright.PENANAcM9Vd7hASh
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。559Please respect copyright.PENANAMRPly3IIaM
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露出鼻尖和微笑。559Please respect copyright.PENANASi97N2NAUT
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。559Please respect copyright.PENANAVtllzcBjBN