這算什麼?596Please respect copyright.PENANA4fdFlLOz3w
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。596Please respect copyright.PENANAb3ZA9ITSCY
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。596Please respect copyright.PENANA4CBU0fmEKz
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。596Please respect copyright.PENANAFdmy2Li10k
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。596Please respect copyright.PENANAAgSHHBigWW
596Please respect copyright.PENANAcY2XMVE5k7
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。596Please respect copyright.PENANAMnp9fOXeBE
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。596Please respect copyright.PENANAwlCWZ1HcvN
596Please respect copyright.PENANA0B6Xb87hw6
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。596Please respect copyright.PENANAYKgBZ49LnY
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然後便準備下山了。596Please respect copyright.PENANAVZBApngeIv
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。596Please respect copyright.PENANAu6wUUDB8c2
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。596Please respect copyright.PENANA4dTXnnOzC1
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAZVvA9EYUgF
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。596Please respect copyright.PENANAatfe3pWdRI
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。596Please respect copyright.PENANAzjMgAwVGu2
596Please respect copyright.PENANAEbsvGcNwpO
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。596Please respect copyright.PENANAvjD5kYGmJN
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。596Please respect copyright.PENANAPBo1quGmRN
596Please respect copyright.PENANAw7UzdXl2vP
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。596Please respect copyright.PENANAO24InGdE0j
596Please respect copyright.PENANARgpnW5wiAW
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」596Please respect copyright.PENANAdOBxsZUCb2
596Please respect copyright.PENANAlfIyWK3jyA
不會告訴我,又一天了。596Please respect copyright.PENANA7yOzknJxnL
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。596Please respect copyright.PENANAbzngypxSQV
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。596Please respect copyright.PENANAbIKvurTfIH
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。596Please respect copyright.PENANArRGukEa072
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。596Please respect copyright.PENANA2nLcbuKxm4
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。596Please respect copyright.PENANA6F7M4nRFVW
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAYK8CcAm3ri
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。596Please respect copyright.PENANAT9T0cZf0xL
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。596Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8cU4e99xD
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怎麼說呢?596Please respect copyright.PENANAgNwsP3j1l7
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。596Please respect copyright.PENANA6sPRDzOymi
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。596Please respect copyright.PENANAioXWYmA9HW
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。596Please respect copyright.PENANApOlYYXs5GD
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。596Please respect copyright.PENANAXWDUJVGwct
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。596Please respect copyright.PENANA8GxMXqN6X3
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。596Please respect copyright.PENANAFYSNYn8ylL
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我再點頭。596Please respect copyright.PENANAjtCXoRev4X
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。596Please respect copyright.PENANAMF3P17C8qB
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。596Please respect copyright.PENANArpIjLmaFYS
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我馬上看第二天。596Please respect copyright.PENANAAa6ZFJRzrD
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。596Please respect copyright.PENANAMGy58uZ6Wf
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。596Please respect copyright.PENANAjSE3PwEhCS
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……596Please respect copyright.PENANAA9OGaBEacF
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。596Please respect copyright.PENANA4gnVrNqrEF
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」596Please respect copyright.PENANATfvu8WTa7E
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」596Please respect copyright.PENANALjHZrnZQB0
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第二天「END」出現。596Please respect copyright.PENANAlHRv6KR4vH
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我蓋上了練習簿。596Please respect copyright.PENANAvSgGVWrshy
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。596Please respect copyright.PENANAKf8sRDsSzC
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?596Please respect copyright.PENANA0vtgQwnpaj
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。596Please respect copyright.PENANAWaFPgkx5be
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。596Please respect copyright.PENANA0QCe34vlnR
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。596Please respect copyright.PENANA2olwMQGbpe
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。596Please respect copyright.PENANAEBzSLSKMMs
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。596Please respect copyright.PENANADeUvREd573
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?596Please respect copyright.PENANAXRWbyuJTQw
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。596Please respect copyright.PENANAgOi6DlGzpb
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。596Please respect copyright.PENANAFu7NdtRmL3
596Please respect copyright.PENANAYLRqnVB4fV
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」596Please respect copyright.PENANApXLYKenijR
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。596Please respect copyright.PENANARXBkWAz1wk
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAOBuf7KVZTM
596Please respect copyright.PENANABpoBlJFVL0
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。596Please respect copyright.PENANA3qZtKypoV8
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。596Please respect copyright.PENANAHOUMaDMNRh
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。596Please respect copyright.PENANASfJHLoq8Mj
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然後再次坐好。596Please respect copyright.PENANA1ckSUXZnmh
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「陸……傾兒。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAzYKdKhchQ6
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。596Please respect copyright.PENANAD2L6IdJE6O
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。596Please respect copyright.PENANAwbVOt4b8dZ
596Please respect copyright.PENANAV44ogaPPrf
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。596Please respect copyright.PENANAHvBdogg6Df
596Please respect copyright.PENANAPIAeHtRXcy
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。596Please respect copyright.PENANAZQeztSnWAw
596Please respect copyright.PENANAAi5BvyjPuP
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。596Please respect copyright.PENANANbh7CKstXA
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?596Please respect copyright.PENANAhZ5MZBwuUZ
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。596Please respect copyright.PENANAP7BEGbbaxF
596Please respect copyright.PENANA7HlkvxNEmi
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。596Please respect copyright.PENANA1qCXRhqIkJ
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。596Please respect copyright.PENANANxshwk0vsJ
596Please respect copyright.PENANAm6KyF7nLl1
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。596Please respect copyright.PENANA4isVWJUZ6c
596Please respect copyright.PENANALo0wOQWr2y
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。596Please respect copyright.PENANAsHOcuUB8Oc
596Please respect copyright.PENANAebV6Vos8FP
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。596Please respect copyright.PENANA1hqMM5jwGE
596Please respect copyright.PENANA6unJzYUvNZ
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。596Please respect copyright.PENANApnZBbfTGuN
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。596Please respect copyright.PENANAiOzHybpjwC
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。596Please respect copyright.PENANARH3z2Z2Zfc
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那麼,我呢?596Please respect copyright.PENANAp9hpu3aKyf
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?596Please respect copyright.PENANAlSK4vJ5KkB
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。596Please respect copyright.PENANA9I6VJk1ODO
596Please respect copyright.PENANAxuWDPFQGzy
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。596Please respect copyright.PENANAio2ndqZsat
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。596Please respect copyright.PENANAoKyL888kcq
596Please respect copyright.PENANAznGn0avwJr
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。596Please respect copyright.PENANAAXuHW4Bt5X
596Please respect copyright.PENANACd35ZwzppY
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。596Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8YCBYrIGk
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 596Please respect copyright.PENANAeDck119jLg
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 596Please respect copyright.PENANAuIr0KqFzlM
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。596Please respect copyright.PENANA95DqXoaTCX
596Please respect copyright.PENANASYGmih0L1t
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAMegHJEPNLi
596Please respect copyright.PENANAscvTPUJZtJ
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAoJnN23POvh
596Please respect copyright.PENANAc6hCcduJSt
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAg1bQ5DC2dE
596Please respect copyright.PENANAR3jHdA2eu7
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAcJk8Oghi17
596Please respect copyright.PENANA1VzGDa1NRO
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。596Please respect copyright.PENANAUN8pDzDiuy
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」596Please respect copyright.PENANALlESPMzp4I
596Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1m7SckN6N
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。596Please respect copyright.PENANAp3jEszv5oT
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。596Please respect copyright.PENANAxWrPg9GsoT
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。596Please respect copyright.PENANAWEYLwFCrUe
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。596Please respect copyright.PENANAhoZiYUgMEW
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?596Please respect copyright.PENANAGMyigGtVcd
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我期待著。596Please respect copyright.PENANADduq25TL0B
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。596Please respect copyright.PENANAlIFYBaeEUa
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。596Please respect copyright.PENANAhbyLVnjwes
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。596Please respect copyright.PENANAP3FedzWA0j
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」596Please respect copyright.PENANA7Lo369iC26
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。596Please respect copyright.PENANACoT3STkco6
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAe4ZVXyyR7p
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。596Please respect copyright.PENANAdWQKxIBFa2
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。596Please respect copyright.PENANAugwRyfFMiN
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傾耳以待——596Please respect copyright.PENANAGSfsYO9vGh
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAAJqhTrA1mp
596Please respect copyright.PENANAqmN9vULe5a
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。596Please respect copyright.PENANAYk81P1FNhq
596Please respect copyright.PENANAKDM82L8rGL
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。596Please respect copyright.PENANAJrLHmwB7D7
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。596Please respect copyright.PENANA5kuD4ZLsNG
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAs4DhmZgNVa
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身體傾後,躺了下來。596Please respect copyright.PENANAO7Ew5Zpttu
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「係諗住攤。」596Please respect copyright.PENANAWtwF526paA
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。596Please respect copyright.PENANAEboNVqCdpj
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。596Please respect copyright.PENANAsdM6XqrMq5
596Please respect copyright.PENANAjW0M6FZEyV
在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。596Please respect copyright.PENANAv722xcz3CQ
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露出鼻尖和微笑。596Please respect copyright.PENANAVUqUUsQ26J
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。596Please respect copyright.PENANAgInb4hQfCo