I felt a little guilt in my heart when I saw the announcement board in our school. We lost the championship game in mens volleyball. It was partly my fault, I snapped during the game and quited the varsity during the game. I was dazing off when Bea slapped my face.
"Snap out of it. It's not your fault. You have bigger fish to fry now." She said to me and it I don't even know why it calmed me. She's right, we need to win the dance competition.
The other competitors are really great, but somehow, I don't feel nauseous. I'm nervous yes, but I think this is pure excitement. Yes, aside from volleyball, I really love dancing.
"It's not really about winning right? I for one don't care if we win or not. I just know that we need to have fun." Keith said to us. It really boost the morale of everyone and we started to dance in the stage.
WE WON AND IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST NIGHT I EVER HAD.
After the dance battle, Brian was nowhere to be found, so Bea and I decided not to wait for him and went home to watch a movie and something.
We are watching Evil Dead with Denise. We are all covered in blanket because scary parts are coming when the door flew open. "What are you guys doing?!" Keith said and we all screamed!
"For fucks' sake Keith! knock the door!" Denise and Keith just shrugged and laugh.
"Sorry. Are you not going in the party?" Keith said and Brian entered the room. Saying that our student councils had a rushed party event tonight because it is the first time that our school won in the dance battle, and mens' volleyball to enter the finals. So we end up going back to school.
I saw few familiar faces from other academies, I greeted and chat with them for a while. I kept myself busy and accompanied by others. I don't know why but it looks like I was unconsciously avoiding Brian and I to be alone.
Had you ever felt like you think you like someone, but when a person you loved from your past came back to your life, you pick him instead and hoped that this like you have is just an infatuation. However, you realized that you don't have full trust anymore to the person from your past and you are right for not trusting him even thou you choose him. And you end up still liking the person in your present.
long story short, I unconsciously made myself believe that I still like Rick, but the truth is that I really like Brian the whole time and I just can't admit it.
I was now with Bea and Denise again while we are having some drinks when Keith grab or should I say pushed all us and we ended up joining a truth or dare with Brian, captain jock. Alison (one of the school slut) , Janice (Another school slut from I don't know what academy), Keith, and effin' Hayley.
I don't like Hayley. Maybe because she's a slut or because I had trauma of her moaning style in the bathroom in of the parties I had attended before. Ohhh the memories, It burns.
Captain Jock spins a bottle and truth or dare questions was asked. And ofcourse, alast! it was my turn to be chosen.
It was Denise who will ask the question and I choose dare.
Go to the infirmary with Jake Brian Jackson. Just you two, and stay there for 30 mins.
OH MY FUCKING HELL NO.
I can see Denise and Bea's smug looks as if they know something. well, hell maybe they really know something!
"Oh don't worry Reid, Brian won't try to make on you. He prefers my breast anyway." Hayley said and I cringe at this. Before I can't stop myself at answering back, It just roll out of my tongue.
"Bet you can't do anal the way that I can do." I said to her and her proud face turned into a frown.
"Ohh you nasty girl!" Bea and Denise said earning a clap from the two hoes and some Ohhhs' and Ahhhs' from the boys.
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Brian and I are now stuck in this infirmary. Should I say something? or not? maybe it's better if we don't talk. I'm feeling this thing again in my tummy fuck it.
"Rick is one lucky bastard to experience your anal sex." He said without looking at me. what the hell? Can't he do better than that to start a conversation?
"I'm sorry but Rick is just a bastard. We never had sex." I said to him and he blushed. "so who s your first?" He said scratching his head and messing his hair.
"Why do you care?" I ask him because, why does he care about my first right?
"Just... just answer the question please?" He pleaded at me and ofcourse I said it to him.
"It's in a one night stand in of the parties after Rick and I broke up. Just plain sex. no kissing. I was never been kissed before." I was shocked when Brian grab me in my shoulders looking shocked. "Jaden kissed you in the lips. He kissed you in your mouth. Is he y-"
"Yes Brian. He is my first kiss. But you know what? It actually didn't matter. All those firsts' things. I did it because I was not thinking straight at those times." I said and just sat there releasing his hands in my shoulders letting me to continue talking.
"I had sex when Jaden and I broke up because he cheated on me, I felt emptiness, I felt that sex didn't matter anyway. But when I heard you and Hayley having sex in the bathroom that one night, I was really hurt! I don't know why but I was hurt! That time, you just kissed me in the cheek and you did dirty stuff with that slut! So first kiss didn't matter anymore! I'm so pathetic I even thought you will be my first kiss!" It was like I was puking the words. I can;t control it. It just went out.
I covered my mouth, blushing because of what said. "I'm s-" I was stopped mid sentence when I saw Brian blushing so hard. His ears are even red.
"Let's go home." Brian held my hand and we leave the party. I nodded and walked with him.
"This time I won't let you go."
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