We left the school party without notice. The ride on our way home was silent, but not the awkward silence... It was as if the air was filled something heavy but at the same time it was filled with flowers with a pinch scent of cinnamon and vanilla. I can't fully explain what I am feeling either.
We arrived at the Jackson's residence and I took it as my cue to go back in our house since it was just less than 40 steps.
"thanks for tonight" I said to Brian. I was looking down and feeling a little bit uneasy. After I bid my goodbye I walked towards our house only to be stopped by Brian's hand.
"I told you, this time I'll never let you go." He said as was crushed into a hug.
It was as if my strength left my body and I wobble in his arms. I was flush red and I hug him too to support myself from falling. I don't know what to say. I blurted out words earlier and I am embarrassed. I just wish that this will never end.
We entered their house... passing the living room... went upstairs... and... now... we are in his room sitting in his bed.
I'm fidgeting. What are we gonna do? Are we gonna do the deed tonight? I can't seem to calm myself and that's when he hold my hand.
"It's alright. I'll take care of you." He said as our forehead touched. everything was like in slow motion. I felt warm where his hand is touching me, my face, hands, arms, even my waist felt hot even thou it was covered with clothes.
We are centimeters apart, our nose touching as he cupped my face with his right hand while his left hand was in my waist, and slowly... the gap between us was nowhere to be found.
We kissed each other. it was not the liplocking wild kiss nor a smack. It was a sweet kiss. It did not last that long but my body says the opposite. Even thou our lips already parted, I feel like I'm melting. I felt something unusual inside of me. I can't explain it but what I only know is that...
Whatever it is...It feels good.
I can feel his breath... It was so deep and he started to groan really deep. He kissed me again, but this time, our lips never parted each other.
I can feel him touching me in my thighs, those small trails he left everywhere he touches me. can't help but moan. I grabbed on his back as he lay me down and started to undress me... He kissed me again and I can feel him shiver. It was as f he was controlling himself not to put to much strength in what he do. Brian continued to kiss me. Even in my neck, down to my chest area, licking my navel which earned another moans from me... I was really turned on. He was about to me down there when we heard a knock from his door.
"Brother? Are you home?" It was Bea
He did not answer but instead he kissed me again. I can;t but moan because it was so ecstatic.
"I will rip this door apart if you lay hand on Reid." Bea said from the other side.
What the?! How did she know that I'm here? I heard Brian clicked his tongue and he helped me put back my clothes. Same goes for him.
"what do you want?" Brian said to Bea as he opened the door. Bea entered his room, smiling at me and sit in a chair.
"did you do the deed?" She asked me and I blushed real hard I can't even answer.
"No. You disturbed us" Brian said on my behalf, and Bea let out a relief sigh from the information she earned.
"Thank Goodness I was right on time. Sis... I take you home." She smiled at me and with that I said another goodbye to Brian and leave.
One thing is for sure... I can't sleep after what happened tonight. I can still feel his touch lingers in my body.
***
The events in the school were finally over and now it was back to studying and projects and academics. Looks like we have to wait for another two months for the last leg of the academies festival.
Everyone is really happy with the results we had this time, Since our volleyball men was in finals. I stick to my decision to quit the varsity team even thou my former teammates said their apologies. I was glad that they understood what I felt and that they regret their decisions and actions but that was enough for me. However, Rick and I never spoke with each other again.
I want to see Brian and see what happens after what happened that night. However, we tend to become really busy after the events and homeworks and other school stuffs was piled and given to us. So there was no time to think about it for now.
I was left with some things that I can't answer by just asking myself. What are we now? Where do the boundary line stand between us? What is our relationship now? Are we friends? of if we are JUST friends then I don't know what I should feel. What does he mean by not letting me go again? Does he like me? or he just need some sexfriend or stuffs?
All of these questions that was left unanswered it was because....
After what happened that night, I never saw Brian again.
I don't even know if he's in school or what, I never catch a light on his room, nor I can't ask Bea of what happened to Brian.
"are you alright?" Bea asked me while we are in the middle of a science experiment. "yes, I'm good." I said to her smiling.
"I know you're not. Is it because of what I did?" She asked me and I shook my head. "No... It's not that... It's just... I was left with so many questions that I can't answer" I said as I scribble some notes in my paper.
"Wanna grab some ice cream later? It'll make you fell good. Well, that's what it always did for me." She smiled and I agreed.
It was a good solution to keep myself from thinking that I was left in the air.
It's been 2 weeks since that night, and I never had any idea where Brian is.739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRC8Cs6uTz
ns 15.158.61.8da2
