I just want somebody to run after me. I want somebody who can tell when something is wrong with me. I want somebody I can trust.378Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvVjinbII8
But I don't have that somebody.378Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qXcqT5vcD
Not one of my friends supported or even comforted me during my darkest moments. They didn't care that I didn't know who I was. And when I needed them the most, they wouldn't even listen. They didn't care about me.
My family doesn't usually check on me. It's like I'm invisible to them. They think I'm completely normal. They think I'm this happy, funny person, while truly I'm a mess.
Every day, I put on what some call a "happy face." My face is almost always one of happiness and joy. But what I really do is shut people out. I've learned my lesson about trusting people. They don't need to hear my sob story because they won't care. And sure, maybe it is unhealthy for me to think about every person like that, but I can't help it. I've received too many empty promises, too many looks of pity, too many speeches to "keep moving forward" to ever completely trust someone again.378Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3y68BfHX8
So let me correct what I wrote earlier. I don't just want somebody to run after me, I need that somebody. I need somebody who can tell when something is wrong with me. I need somebody I can trust, because I can't hold on much longer.378Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP28pGC6YnW
I can't keep waiting forever.
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