Welp. That ended quickly.
We were on a walk in health, with me and a few friends. It was a guy friend, ice cream tattoo guy and my friend who’s pretty popular and one of “those girls” but is super nice ig.
It was definitely cold, and my friend, let’s call her Jess, wasn’t wearing a jacket. ICT guy, as nice as he is, offered her his sweater. I was right there as she said no, I was there walking back with my heart feeling like it got smashed and my legs getting weak, and was there as they talked the entire rest of the walk.
I had this feeling that I was outside my body just watching it all happen. I shoulda known he’d go for the stereotypical popular girl who has everyone’s attention.
I refused to cry in front of them for seemingly no reason, instead just walked with this feeling of overwhelming pity but numbness at the same time.
I give up. I literally can’t handle falling for a guy just to have him hurt me without even knowing it.
LOVE SUCKS 💔
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