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March 24th
9:30PM
'I went to see my therapist today.
She's a monster.
What kind of woman does that to her patient?
I talked to her about this after my time with her was up and she told me I wasn't the only person and many of her patients 'loved' it.
To be honest, I don't know if I'm her patient or her boy toy.
The only helpful advise she gave me is writing in this journal. She said something about it helping me with my psychosis and she's kinda right. I can write about my day, my feelings and my missions freely. Writing in this journal makes it feel I am talking to someone I can kill with no regrets.
Not like I have anyone in my life to begin with.
Ever since I moved out of that crazy lady's house, I have been living alone in this spacious apartment and so far, everything in my life has fallen into a routine; wake up, get dressed, eat breakfast, go to school, come home, rest, do homework, eat, take a shower, sleep rinse and repeat.
Everything is so boring.
Even the missions bore me. Its always the same thing; "I want this person dead by midnight. Kill this son of a b*tch for me. I want you to kill this person but make it look like an accident. Kill him and frame this person for me."
At least the complicated missions are a little interesting.'
Four men walk into costume party wearing suits and medieval masks. After having some champaign and appetizers, each go their separate ways to enjoy themselves. Suddenly, everyone hears a gun shot and first man dancing is crushed by a chandelier. As everyone is trying to piece together what is going on, another party member finds the second man dead from blood loss in the men’s room and the third is seen hanging from a noose in the hotel’s garden. The last one plunges head first into the mansion’s star attraction: an aquarium full of a school of piranahs. The fish smell blood from the injuries and the party guests watch in horror as they devour the man until there’s nothing left of him.
The police are called and after a thorough investigation, they arrest the party host and a few others as suspects but all claim not to have anything to do with the incident.
Recalling this incident makes Jake chuckle because it was one of the best missions he had ever done.
'Its a pity none like that have come my way. Not to mention Detective Walsh is still insisting it was an outside job. Good thing I have is death ready for him just incase he decides to get too nosey.'
He sighs.
'Maybe life won't be so boring if she was here with me.
I think about her almost everyday and every weekend, I go to the park hoping she would come back but she never shows up.
I talked to my therapist about it and she says this girl made no significant impact on my life adding that the promise she gave me when we were kids was nothing more than a childish gesture.
Childish.
Ha!
I don't believe it!
Looking back at it, I should have killed her for saying that. Use the paper weight on her table and break her skull. Heck! I'm so pissed even thinking about it.
I don't give a damn about what she says.
I'll wait for her to come back.
Even if it means waiting for the rest of my miserable life.
I'll do it.
Anything to see her again.'
March 26th
4:05 PM
'I saw her!
I saw her for the first time in years!
I can't believe it!
I mean I am trying to believe it but its true!
It's actually her!
But she doesn't seem to recognize me at all.
That's okay.
It's been years since the incident.
I'm sure if I talk to her she'll remember me!
Maybe I should see her tomorrow but I am scared!
What will I tell her? What will she say to me?
Just thinking about this makes me so nervous and excited at the same time.'
March 27th
5:45 PM
'I have had many terrible days but today turned out to be the worst. Worse than my years in that military boys camp.
When I got to school today, the first thing I did was to look for her but I didn't know her class and when I did see her, she walked by me like I was invisible.
I was disappointed but decided to wait until the lunch break to speak to her but when I said hello, she simply waved and walked away.
Maybe I should do a proper introduction next time because the first time we met was a little sloppy. We just bumped into each other and she helped me up and ran off to class. She didn't even look at my face!
Oh well. I'll try again tomorrow.'
March 28th
9:30PM
'I went to see her today with a bouquet of flowers in my bag then I saw her talking to a boy...'
“Seriously Andrew?”
“What? It was a joke!”
'I was happy to see her laugh but I was angry that he was the one making her laugh. It should be me making her laugh not him! Who does he think he is?
The bastard!
Then I discovered something even more shocking during cleaning time...'
“You know that girl with the big rack?” one asks.
“The girl in class 2-1?” ask another.
“Yeah, I got her name.”
“For real?”
“Yeah. Her name is Emma Cross-wood,”
Upon hearing this, Jake stops drops the mop and listened carefully.
“Whatcha going to do now that you have her name? Ask her out?”
"Yep!"
Upon hearing that, he opened the door with a huge slam and startling the boys.
"What did you say?"
The two boys stared at each other and one shoved his hands into his pocket while biting onto the cigarette in his mouth.
"What nerd?" he bellowed.
"You were going to ask her out," Jake raised his head to look at the boy. "Is it true?"
While one of the boys shivered under his cold gaze, the smoking boy smirked. "So what?"
Unhappy, he grabs the boy, turns him around and pins him painfully to the desk.
“Hey! Let me go!” he screams.
“Yeah let him go!” the other yelled
"Forget about it!" Jake bellowed.
"Wh...what?" the boy underneath him asked.
Irritated, Jake leaned closer to him and whispered into his ear, "Forget about asking her out. She's mine!"
“Okay, okay! Let me go!"
Jake releases him and the two run out of the messy classroom leaving him in shock as the setting sun shined its light on his silhouette.
'My Beloved was admired by all.
Every guy has a crush on her...'
"Please go out with me!” one of the boys bashfully yelled.
Emma who looked surprised smiled and shook her head. "Thank you for being so brave but I am sorry."
"Please?" he begged but she walked out on him ignoring Jake as he continued to stare at her.
'...and every girl envied her.'
"Look at her." one said.
"Every guy is in love with her,"
"I heard she seduces older men," one whispered to the other.
"Really?"
"What a b*tch,"
'I don't like this!
I spent seveen years waiting for her to come back and they think they can just come in and take her from me?'
He grins.
Well, I can't have that can I?
He looks at the picture he took of her and grins.
Don't worry Beloved. I'll make sure they don't ruin our happy ending.
I swear it.'
