June 17th
7:30PM
I had to skip school today because I had a mission to kill some business tycoon in Tai-land and as usual make it look like an accident.
I'm getting tired of this mission. Not to mention they are one of the main reasons why I haven't been taking care of you properly.
Several days ago, I called all my contacts and told them I wasn't available. I did, however, promise to keep our communications confidential.
While most weren't happy about it, Kencho Saikou took it the hardest. The idiot had been trying and failing to keep what little family legacy running and every investor that backs out of the deal is a traitor in his book. As a result, I have been paid to kill five men and make it look like an accident, but none of that is helping his collapsing business.
And the idiot still owes me five thousand yen in cash.
Anyway, I was watching you walk home with the snake when she suddenly asked you what you would see in someone if the person was your partner. You chuckled revealing your sexuality adding that you don't really care what gender the person is or their height. As long as the person is loyal, kind, brave, and understanding you are okay. Then you asked her if that was a shallow way of thinking and she said no.
Liar.
Personally, I don't think it's shallow in the slightest, but I hate that you are telling her this instead of me.
Now she might use this information to entice you into her web of deceit.
Then she asked you if you would love someone with a tragic past. You said you would if the person uses that to change themselves for the better adding you admire people like that.
'I believe people with tragic pasts deserve redemption but I hate it when they use their past as an excuse to do something terrible,' are your words.
My heart leapt for joy when I heard that.
This means you can forgive me for having intimate knowledge of my therapist but that awful woman has been bugging me for a month now!
Then she started asking you some personal stuff like your favorite food, drinks, videogames and hobbies. You told her you like dumplings, steamed buns and pasteries that are both savory and sweet but your favorite food is ramen noodles. Not the kind sold at the convenience store but made from scratch. You don't really have a preferred drink but you would love to try boba.
You also told her about your love for manga and wanted to take her to your safe haven but she refused admitting she doesn't like manga but is in love with the fantasy series; 'My Phoenix, My Love' and both of you started talking about it.
Ugh!
Just recalling the conversation between you two makes me want to vomit.
How can you not know that she's lying to you Beloved?
Not to mention the only thing she knows how to cook is sandwiches.
But you are too polite to reject such a bland meal.
Anyway, the conversation later shifted to the mystery surrounding the building where you supposedly got the book from. Gwen said there was a room where you could teleport yourself to another world. According to her, in order to start the ritual, one must obtain a ritual knife, a skull and place it on the supposed altar in the room. Then you must kill someone with it and place the knife inside the skull and it will teleport you to another world full of demons and ghosts.
You didn't like the idea and advised against trying it out because you aren't a fan of killing. The snake asked you if you had killed someone before but you said no and changed the subject to the fantasy drama series you're watching.
However, her words got me thinking. If I could teleport myself to that world, maybe I could finally guess who placed that stupid destiny on you or know more about that girl's supposed immortality.
It's a little risky considering the school's situation, but it will be worth it in the end.
Let's hope it's worth it in the end.
June 21st
12:30 PM
Well I did it and I had to admit it wasn't anything I was expecting at all.
As I braced myself for something terrifying, what I was met with was a black void containing four demons circling in a circle.
I talked to one of them who looked like the infamous succubus I'd heard about and she was flirting with me instead. The other, sickly looking demon kept muttering something about revenge in exchange for power, so I moved on to the next one, who appeared like the legendary flame demon. I have to admit his powers were exciting on paper but that's not what I was searching for.
The only one willing to help me without a price was another demon wearing our school uniform with dark grey "hair" hiding its pearly white teeth and red spider-like eyes. She told me why you were special, because someone was fighting for your destiny with only one wish: for you to have a happy ending. The problem is that this person was indirectly making things more difficult by blessing you with untapped power, both mortal and spiritual.
"Many want that untapped power she's blessed with and would stop at nothing to get it. It's such a pity. Although the girl doesn't deserve what's coming to her now that she's left to her own devices, she's wise. Wise enough to know how to overcome these difficulties, but foolish enough to give up on herself when overwhelmed."
I asked her what her words meant and her response was that everything would be okay in due time, and I am the key to your happy ending.
Why?
"Her Samurai is you. Her only hope to getting a happy ending. Stay by her side and she'll keep the promise she made to you years ago."
Unfortunately, it told me to seek out the Death Demon whom a certain someone released into the mortal world and it would tell me what to do next. Luckily, it taught me how to become stronger without killing anyone by teaching me the Laws of the Conversion of Power.
It's kind of like the law of Conversion of Energy which states that matter can neither be created nor destroyed but can be converted from one form to another. This rule applies to spirit power. It can't be created because it's inside us and can't be destroyed because it can be converted from one form to another almost immediately.
However, if I convert some form of earthly energy into the source of my spirit power, I will get stronger without harming anyone. I didn't want to depend fully on love or affection because it is an emotion that I learned could lead to deadly consequences. Therefore, I'll use my love to fuel my determination to keep you safe and in turn my determination will fuel my powers.
Since I love you so much, it's a win-win situation for me..
June 24th
3:30AM
I saw something obscene today Beloved.
So obscene.
But first hear me out; I wanted to kill my therapist today.
No I am not a manic or someone who loves killing. However, I had to do that because I was afraid she would tell you about us. I tried to convince myself that you might forgive me for doing that but the image of you looking at me in disgust terrified me.
You will never look at me the same way after learning about this.
And I don't want you to leave me because of this.
I thought of blackmailing her into silence but then remembered she doesn't love her job nor her patients. It would be a suitable excuse for her to find me and use me, so I decided to permanently keep her mouth shut.
But someone beat me to it.
It was 6:30 PM, when I slipped into her house using the back door and heard a noise up the stairs. So, I took a peek and witnessed my therapist being brutally stabbed in the chest with a knife.
I admit that I am a fan of brutal deaths especially when blood is involved but this one clearly irritated me. Everywhere was a mess with broken glass and blood all over the floor and walls making it obvious that there was a sign of struggle.
At least she picked the right place to kill her. The bathroom can be really easy place to erase traces of evidence.
Anyway, I watched her place the woman in the bath tub, turn on the water and proceed to wash the soles of her shoes in the wash hand basin then left the same way I came in.
I don't know who this woman is but I have to thank her for making my life easier. When the police find two signs of a break-in, they are going to have a hard time figuring out who the perpetrator is.
And so would you if you were to investigate.
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