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Was there a shooting star?
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Good things happen when you least expect it and it can be overwhelming
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Crystal Valerie Beck
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"What's your purpose in life"
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What the fuck why would someone say this to somebody, that sounds exactly like my father would say to me to get on my last nerve
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"To achieve things you can't"
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I typed the user name with so much hatred, I hate this person already even without meeting them
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"Do you think you sing well"
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Why are people so damn mean
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"Do you think your life is going well?, I mean you're out here commenting trash when you could try achieving what he has"
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It is always the best feelings to reply this fools
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"So today I'm going to be announcing the winner of the coupon" Alex scratched his head, something I notice he does whenever he was uncomfortable, scared or nervous, oh my god he is so cute, I'm dieing like literally
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why is he nervous to announce the winner?
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I want to know who the lucky bitch is, I am excited for who ever it is going to be, imagine hearing your name coming out of his mouth, that is gift enough for me "Crystal Valerie Beck" he read out in his deep voice, the person has the same name as me
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The same name as me?!!
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Is it me!? "With the user name kissmyeffingass" same user name as mine
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What? Two people can't have the same user name on Instagram, was it me?
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I see him smiling and rubbing his neck when he said it, I agree it is uncomfortable to read the username out for somebody who is meant to be a sunshine, his nickname is sunshine
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"That's me"
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I typed
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"what did I win?"
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I asked since he was not bothering to talk about the most important thing "you should see it in the emails sent to you" i nodded as if he is right infront of me "wait you haven't checked it before" he said again realizing I wouldn't be asking if I had already checked, why is he reading and replying to me today, they hardly replied to me "everything and every details should be on your email, it has been sent since this morning, I hope you check it out now" he said in his British accent
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"Thanks hyung"
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I squealed before going on my phone to check whatever I won, this is the first time they would do something like this, so I am so excited to know the outcome, is it a free concert ticket
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my last email is the one i received from KBWE which is alex agency
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"dear Valerie, this is to inform you that you are the winner of the coupon, you are to be on a show for five months with DSMILES, it is our pleasure to inform you that the boys are so ecstatic to meet you and be on the show with you, this email gives you the opportunity to send your reply within twenty four hours, we would contact you to explain the details after the reply, we would like you to keep it a secret till the agency tell the fans about it
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And congratulations for being the chosen one"
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Was this some sort of prank?
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Is this real?
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living with my idols?
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What the hell, this is every fans dream
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why would they phrase it like that though, chosen one?
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Am I going on a suicide mission for the king, I let out a snort, that was funny
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It seems like something Alex would come up with
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My laptop has been going crazy with notifications since they announced the winner
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It should be from my fan account
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Since I decided to start being sarcastic and somewhat rude to rude people online, I made the anonymous account which only consisted of few things about me and mostly everything about my kpop addiction, I didn't have any pictures on there because I know how toxic the media can be and I don't want to be stalked
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I gained a lot of followers when I started replying some anti fan, it could be one of the people I replied coming to threaten me in my DM or just fans praising me for standing up for their oppas
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My real Instagram account is actually not even related to my fan account, I dont even post anything Kpop there, that is how careful and paranoid I am
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And I opened that account with another number entirely, it isn't even related
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I am not going to check the notifications now, this is huge, I never expected it to be anything like this, has any group ever initiated this before?, would I go?, they need my reply within twenty four hours, what am I supposed to do?, who am I supposed to ask? Would any of my family member even want me to go?
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My dad's wedding is in two months time, I won't be able to attend if I go, and they said it is a show, that means I would be on TV and everything, would my mum allow this?
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This is more complicated than anything that has happened in my life
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I don't know how I got downstairs while I was buried within myself asking million questions, I never expected this, this is the most random thing that has happened in months, why would they want to be on a show and how could I have been the chosen one, i heard over seventeen million people bought the coupon, was it randomly generated?, how is it me?, I am never this lucky
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I have only about eighteen hours left to decide and I don't think my mum is at home considering the fact that all lights were off "hey" I jumped on the chair putting my hand over my chest and breathing very heavily "what the hell Tim" I yell at my brother "you are supposed to put on the light if you know you are in this part of the house, are you fucking crazy?"
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this guy should learn his manners and stop scaring human being for no reason "you are such a chicken" I am not about to start arguing with him about being a chicken, I need someone to tell about this meaningless but meaningful thing that happened, I mean who could have predicted that
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"Tim?" he looks at me "if you randomly win a lottery to be on a show with a boy group, would you go" he looks confused for a second before slowly nodding "yo, anything to avoid going to my fathers wedding" that's not a good reason, the wedding won't go on for weeks, it just for maximum of twenty four hours and we are done
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I want to attend the wedding because that will be my last gift to him, after that I won't be going to see him again, he has done enough damage to my self confidence and my mental health
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"you are going to be on TV, you are going to leave your family behind for months, you are going to have to stop working to save up for college, would you still go" he nods enthusiastically "I would think about the fame and the publicity I could get, is it a big group we are talking about" I nod interested in his answer so I can sabotage him if he decides to go against me later
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Yes there is fame involve, yes I could make money by doing anything online with just the right publicity "everything you are saying is weirdly specific, did you win a lottery?" I make an attempt to look puzzled but I'm sure I look constipated instead since my brother is staring at me like I have magically grown two heads "who me?" I blew raspberries before bailing, stumping my pinky in the process
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The toe get banged than I do
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"Ouchy, who put the stairs here?" I can feel my brother shaking his head with a crooked smile on his face "in my defense I didn't know the stairs was there" I hear him snort but I didn't look back at him, I just limp my way up the stairs
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"Valerie, the staircase has always been there" he mutters after his laughter died down, why would you be laughing at the downfall of others, I freaking hate my brother "you decided to talk and a simple sorry can't come out of your freaking mouth, what the absolute hell brother?" he chuckles some more muttering things i couldnt hear under his breath "I didn't see it there" I defend my self to make him stop his laughter but it only intensified "I hate you"
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I am all pumped up just thinking about the coupon, I am in America and they are in Korea, am I going to fly there? was this some kind of trick or a dream? am I going to wake up tomorrow and this would all be gone?
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And I think I'm over thinking this too much, my answer should be yes even without asking around, yes I have my life planned, but my plan wasn't perfect, my plan is exhausting and hard, I work way too much that my body sometimes can't catch up
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i think I'm not dreaming I came back from work, sat on my bed, carried my laptop and I started watching Alex lives on Instagram
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It is already 1 a.m. and I can tell you I have never been this excited to wait for my mum to come back from work, I am already always asleep by the time she comes back
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just waking up occasionally to check if she had arrived, but today I am wide awake
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finally I heard the door open
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the first thing I do is jump out of my bed to run to the door "mum you are back" she looks surprised to hear my voice and she looks extremely weak
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the way her body is becoming fragile day by day, how she looks so exhausted I feel like crying
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i made the right choice about this opportunity, this could be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. No, it is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and I won't miss it, all I have to do is persuade my mum
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if I don't magically wake up tomorrow and none of this ever happened
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"Hey sweetie" I smile at her before going to take some of the things she had with her "how was work today Mum? was it okay I hope you didn't deal with extremely rude customers today" there has always been some difficulties with her job, especially with customers "you can tell me their names and I can kick their flat butts if they decide to disturb you again" as if i can kick butts, she smiles but then the smile faded just as soon as it came
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"mum what"s wrong" even if she had the most exhausting day at work, even if she experienced dealing with the rudest customers, she always came home with a smile on her face, I think the wedding got to her more than it should
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It got to me too, they've been divorced for just one year and few months and he is already getting married
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He hardly sends child support infact he has only sent it twice, and when he was around he did absolutely nothing to help considering he now has money for a wedding ceremony
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i told my mum to let us go back to the court but my mum being the nice and tolerating person she is, told me to ignore him that he might also have some problems, was the problem marriage? getting married was more important that taking care of his children
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I wouldn't even consider him if I was deciding on going, it is worthless doing so
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"mum so something crazy really happened" that got her attention "I bought a coupon online" she knows about all the boy groups I like she knows I'm obsessed with Korean music
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I won't even be able to go to the concert I went if she didn't allow it
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she didn't make comments about it when I'm sure my brother won't get away with it if he should try to buy a concert ticket
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She knows that I hardly spends money on anything so when I took some of my recreational fee to pay for a concert ticket, she said nothing
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she looks confused for a second before she start to nod slowly "you follow more than one boy group there is, I think in A1 you like a guy called Alex and hyun joon" I giggle, my mum knows me like the back of her hand "and there is this other one, elite right?" it isn't like they were the only korean boy group but I am healthily obsessed with A1 and EPS" they are the only groups I spend my monthly recreational fees on
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"A1 mum, the one with the Alex boy" bet she is feeling all victorious for getting it right "it is time you get something back with all the money you've spent on them" wait till she hears what I got I bet she is going to faint
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And before you ask, i already replied with yes and my direct contact to the email, don't judge me, that was the right option
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"so what did you win" I cleared my throat ready to receive a wave of no when I tell her what I won "a trip" she turned to face me "for a few month" she is still listening diligently "on a variety show" she must have pieced together what I said, her face went from surprise to denial to happy then sad
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"and mum before you give any answer, I think this will be a perfect opportunity to do whatever I want" she signed loudly "I haven't said no" I continued my mini rant "I know it is sad and all to let your child go but this is going to be a perfect opportunity" I back tracked a little ,she said she hasn't said no yet "but you are going to say no?" she shook her head no
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What? "I can go?" She nodded "if you are sure it is the right decision" she added "and if you are sure it is legit and not a scammer" I know it isn't a scammer, that one is certain but how could she have said yes just like that, I was here having a crisis with my self and she just said yes without even bothering me, how is that possible
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"why mum?" she looked over to me "like you said it is a perfect opportunity for you" that doesn't make total sense, she is supposed to oppose to it and then I beg her like my life depends on it "where is the fun in you just agreeing to it" she chuckles lightly "were you expecting me to say no"
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I went over to her to hug her thanking her as much as I could, I don't want her changing her mind on me "I was expecting you to say a lot of thing and yes is not one of it" she sighed deeply and I could feel her hug me tighter "I love you mum, and be sure i'm only doing this for our sake" she is crying, I could feel the tears
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I quickly stand up to stop my self from an emotional outbreak "so see you tomorrow" I waved at her, feeling more like a departure than a good night
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"you were the one that won a trip?" I heard my brother's voice immediately I got to my door "you didn't learn that it was bad to eavesdrop? I don't think the same mother raised us" I joked but only got a glare
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"go to bed, we'll talk first thing in the morning" he wants to say no "I have to be at the diner by 6 a.m" he still had this deep frown on his face "i'll be home all day" great , just great ,I am going to be home arguing with him when I could just die, one thing about him is that he never loose in an argument
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Thanks for reading
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