於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMB652OVfV
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksYCzDqyMV
青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRKIfXWEkL
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiGOkwijLv
之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6ixUPfq21
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwTlY9YaaJ
「好耐冇見。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRagwhUuXr
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSnzoXvzpJ
「係。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1vvW5feJ9
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZ7SEzGGqQ
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5UdTWCWJE
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVQXrt4IcG
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtO4puHJQH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3NyGw7YCW
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATdXM3YXBU
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Dmh30vbfg
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmHwvG4NEY
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2MzrDG89S
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix7UYAMYWC
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj42w8ZgU6q
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PvkByEDxq
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaaycFXsTg
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzvPjfDlYl
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc8EOWXPOq
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gHBijNApF
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdZz6D0xgG
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeB1DspEsB8
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVzqR1cj99
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu1TA7SMHb
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFobp1LEPYB
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OQMhmO2X2
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYi6oKe7FS
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnmzbJTs8T
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDKD8Ycgvg
對。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3vGcbFPKT
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8SqCJyVX2
她有些不一樣了。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOb0aEI8pG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CbzNi8yPH
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GA8b8yrAE
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQM3Ybxl5OI
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOngOrT39Y
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBcS1h9stw
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiuoZCrFkw
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqn876TeBt
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNedhhrBkDD
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKONbmVLer
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhBVw8xOYz
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X9izEhdZ4
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJidqzdZaTi
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Iej4T8CTu
Matt有些錯愕地回握：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaH7jgsc29
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbNBnTj8h5
「你都係。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqONCpq1sq
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtvza5TlmV
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9ncLSGqxc
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9kPQvCQ4m
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBv2reY7v1e
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTANKAzD4RN
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3918xgpKtm
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1QTLFRELY
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqNRGt2fNe
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgY7clbhDaV
屌，失戀啫——702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Xljk7EKqp
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXShYQwlJFP
但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUcOW0Nysr
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFnAA6kAwH
好痛。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhN1omi5VNR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyLGS6D396
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3EzYgWTGf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zruzzo2R5
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBebX4vBji
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCdQxXhbk2
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWbS9avCLH
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702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMK0TRAcWRJ
夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6B3nY0xKPy
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4wr9oL9TB
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSTTvfLMZT
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡii61h7sRxh
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJYN4AWvmz
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGokhNkTN9l
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZxLr1kiYR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzLt66m44Y
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmrrumgKXp
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHivEtHoKf
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjszGCu8pnZ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtRjMAkOQB
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQ0frA7MwJ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmKbIiVhL8
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlkLFQmo5A
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuus0BcfUn
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AdKcCbyaq
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRN4PYoQCU
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZ7ZcNODHH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfgHMdG5hJ
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodAXOREnCV
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31GG5xDOGa
「快啲許願啦。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8StSe1DNw
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoSJfkentk
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWA7C21UZT
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUCRTeMfaP
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHjqoKb9LH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs27UpBT0Wa
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV19yDongli
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTaiDnOhWD
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtVqgxj0ts
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuza8ZS1cX
她看着鏡子。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNE8kMbDlca
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnF3xjGcU2m
一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOoBw5JUWS
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlRXfJpOpi
我都要證明，我有本事。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyQrlK1LW9
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazNf5ITA6R
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkk9ALmk30
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIXGuLalS8
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8u7i3SGHs2
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1cfvlZ3qH
她出來，整個人都很香。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCmiMm82Ss
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQqIFauwcH
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhbx92voyC
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVqrVbbVuy
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrfxplZAXj
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBu9NZr73g
「你咁迷信咩？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePSPj0pBBw
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh26adIp17v
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyVbQwHSbG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHKBzL6gUg
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHY3zL7gYPr
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphF6xR6JiI
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLHNZ8nx9G
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwjfic76tF
「吓話？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEoOrjaflB
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefUHGIf6Z2
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTSwZbUfcg
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIx6hKXV0a
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrmW9fmOnJ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETfhL76Y18
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXCQNeLtSW
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCBcdDICBm
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWzJII6Lgf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiT8MIRj7f0
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkJ22rST43
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKkpNFhZ4c
後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69bbc21htB
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPvBURrOi6
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AZBHB1AxG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCdMFTuYyN
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzMpXOiqnq
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6h7MizNYij
我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好，我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈，至少喺我呢度，我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷，然後呢？佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人？並且仲要繼續同個女仔過？仲繼續鍾意佢？仲因為佢，所以唔要我……702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAU3wXtBO0f
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhDvUFiC2w
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