「咁你呢，又點呀？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxDTmN4y7V
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5adkQZUuFe
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzvCdRSNX2
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW5iTkD9eR
「托賴，幾好吖。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jcTbuMUfp
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEgPyVgOAo
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV04yDgmbry
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hYQALIDLl
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFjPSBM7Kb
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzs1pAIWPsS
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJ8mmCzbkg
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsyjoFgrTD
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQG8lQdgnXI
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM7R7hsJLK
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sifEbyzM7
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQIkNtVfHF
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVaufrqnu3
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6FtVnzlA0
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxj0wj2VdxI
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfQBJCZ51k
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8jlnWO7y2
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LogGjvZ9R
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCbc25BKvK
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzxBLgBnBf
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiThik5Jlbb
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KBu9Ogayi
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmn84waLnL
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt27cMeia46
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAUMJwTISH
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlRdxSdvQN
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu4zJL5yGV
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7om4i6IaAM
每天都不想做任何事。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JVwpydoBg
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡep5pUWCKHo
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77Ih4lSo3h
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDAoPqgsiI
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQKWDpr9Pd
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiPCkddSEy
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLw0XavEvsl
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElMy6DZ0Uq
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxkZ3CDYtv
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGicE00wlcH
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg2tyWetnG
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPm6hwXVIFp
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0dsWAqE9d
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlaDkyb7Vg
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtP32pkh72P
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMat5kwmx9
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanH9s7RFvf
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYG3dYUFG2x
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVx116lMZqh
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFK9Ds98Mg
何況，他們如此親厚。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7WonyHjTE
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gRa3r1f8x
阿樂問：「去邊？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYMPudqmgz
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGsvZNll1k
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduy3A0jc3e
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnI5yn8B0a
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PQXihcLxS
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBoaSwUzui
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtFfDSOJR0
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXtKlkzupF
Sean回答：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYNB84RSPK
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2R2rFtha8
「係。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXElqjF4hH
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbqJq3hWzu
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarlintqVrY
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYUNfYLPqC
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvkbs7pgWa
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡievyYQQRvp
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1F7YQLf0q
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtZJBoNvcl
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBpTpJyMNA
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1psOBiOU44
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4T3SbcSA5
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdvrQmZFmO
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNaN692X6A
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynO5R2cMVz
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GCXqSHfrL
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGTKGP469m
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2b3SKSur7
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJzLskeAO5
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPoqOFg6bk
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGVJfrQEOl
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA9QKNIiEK
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYHdH0E9be
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FAJzENnpT
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIDlORXl9Z
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNwYk68U14
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUdRc1GmbE
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qZoNTTxBt
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERTpKFl3XR
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcnJLUS6zz
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFXHs7Qt8p
阿樂質疑：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZ8IsCGIki
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrnHobkita
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8w8EyVv4B7
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnitziUeeZ
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdkpAKOwLm
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7tabG9aIt
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuqW2M3PuV
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vPEDFl2Z1
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FIAWu8fdQ
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsx6BLF8Ga
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdAAUTvkq8
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMnyreWNbW
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ISRkiEVDR
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wPTB2maNL
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEktR482SG
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5KI21FnRw
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3zqoJE28w
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWZSBgjbXc
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0nZAdFuBq
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3ll0XPybu
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdW1jyGtAHg
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZsLF5Ernz
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoeK6YiP8F
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1afCMuCu5
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2AnL5Ulgq
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaevY6yN0t
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtIs2Gjkdc
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJPRpCgJZa
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWLrEFLLBT
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqBNVWKGxq
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatyRTZsAUz
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenkGQzU6Z2
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPadiL1TOa
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB0DyrkuMm
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHtcA5jvPF
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzhtnwunaD
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RYq5FTCTN
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vz29PPY9j
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIqrWvO6Zv
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7mnAsirpA
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZ2MqhlJyc
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaTkUzIUNN
她發現自己有些恐懼。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEcxFfi2oL
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGrBSQ0oFB
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkpaZKGjCf
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb00PqdBiyH
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlpHx94z9T
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp68zQ8pwKc
最後，Matt離開。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcnf9h15rr
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aEC0VnOrh
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41ZvPqLoWP
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Tdkgk7oe6
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nTiA6XJ1z
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgrsNIGNsq
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuzX2RQVdR
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZwEJ1ZBpZ
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAGPG4PQGM
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xuAgV3Yjw
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc0tCULbvQ
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ThNYccAX9
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvo9GFOVFwM
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVo2kQEa5e
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx47mcF2al
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxi07W6qnq
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseEisOvOaU
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZj6buCaYE
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFoU6H5PaY
688Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y7UWbp5mC
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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