「咁你呢，又點呀？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvourH5M9O
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtJdIjUMfL
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQPP99Qvyf
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgttmRdkPOk
「托賴，幾好吖。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEjhpNfPx7
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzttaewCOUc
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6z8Kd96Fgg
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Q7aiWvB7I
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrfIomiRa2
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8jNttEG4y
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyu11PNtBog
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4D7l895Lyo
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZHuykxNPA
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyfWk5hBPo
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtW54VUT3Sd
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNNMRbOh9Y
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsc5Tz7LWO3
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNBxroGpjT
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bDg4mOUVJ
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfzSe4nSSG
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUnmCatSp8
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPprjHBBFnQ
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeI9EB7rys
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdaGltXMs2
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmz8FtakGn
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlB2XpgIjy
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtttHZgiKaG
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uOeu6qoWV
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxbsSmz2Vz
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWmY5Ca4b4
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXa1RVHJUB
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vGCTdG8VG
每天都不想做任何事。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCeRuafWRh
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMvxp1JCvL
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrFwuZFbMo
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBsSfdK4Vd
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijZDCUlSQZ
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0KDZNTsmE
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lPkbdt5ZB
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡep1wfGT59D
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJ9vgO2V3E
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPsyn2h5q3
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgKmUCCbwp
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCwhH9UtnA
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjungZx3lUR
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kTH2FFuQU
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbenHnFoGu
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NcFj7YeLU
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmxy4u3Pa5
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrk2TVzMoj
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMepB2ssjFY
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEIQJ7aUxd
何況，他們如此親厚。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVwDSErCmA
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuGxaR3slR
阿樂問：「去邊？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkcnCGku3d
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpmg7cyORF
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3DfmwLUet
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnwgcJnZCY
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAa0NPz57C
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD9dMq3U5c
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrKDZumHPo
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpTdC9a2w9
Sean回答：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3F0ZCISIr
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXY9fXjvYi
「係。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtU074zJx0n
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPpRTV0mHA
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfhkVdxUNz
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvBbeOth4f
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GV9PAFlQe
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaBJKRK28T
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pMr0tedG5
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MSmIaCluV
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43yx1H0gDn
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9qbbKvekF
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGh7yBQ0pWk
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UIodlAalO
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QwGLFrOVU
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsmhmuv9ZD
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdT9wUj4bI
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZrE8zsgy1
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYMOid1IEf
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYQAOqNczs
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcX1rOOSHBX
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtT8gv0AXc
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHqFgTnzDX
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4U55jVwls
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjhoYbbdDU
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2e4Y07Skws
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOW1BnTZZx
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelMpRwxa8J
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYB230eG3j
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWh2Gvx2R0
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MBpdz8NNw
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfrsNDdQ6N
阿樂質疑：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQByBPyJix1
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRVAiHQ6EM
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3DPSlPovr
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEW7T4FNLvP
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXniJw3c8ao
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CVS0Gburc
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpZd9VoywE
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8tkrZMW2D
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgilxP5YMT
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJd8T9EKOoV
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJf3YA0tyNM
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EmWcSbbcm
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9HOgBTRpl
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4cSWzqx8Q
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPc97UcOka4
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzQOXvS5h8
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp2PMrfYZi
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZKLN2zYDj
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9KItMToWF
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXj5MmrOWft
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYOpP3IJjy
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswj0mxpjHY
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaVIbNuHaE
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRkQuN1KNi
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMro28gy799
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDElDuxdB1H
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuwEHkUy72
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeXcnBbeCR
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadRFULJ5cx
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbf48fIeMj
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0gLBGXRUI
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdhgAaJj5M
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUMXMVUVnG
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTDLLg7oRL
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSUJ6AAUom
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0e6V3libA
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4Qz7xTNVh
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgYimpBihj
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1xvEkbLyc
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkRcUO6ByX
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDhMNDKFOm
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwLH1Eb6bl
她發現自己有些恐懼。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cp9wKq8Z9
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4xaaNFyks
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZJXzWmUPa
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusEFIOI5fY
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZJHw3qtoT
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtyIYLXvN7
最後，Matt離開。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscTeGFD0fo
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwjmrzr20g
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tJdNN5UUn
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHB3uXGOBD
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxdvxNImHt
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzZeHjfFiC
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJrsKPCqPo
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57zPvhKJJJ
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvZw3GPsie
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTCnWmuigd
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2DG8O8hXv
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS6EjBf3cb
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3SXCFl73O
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLbpeMRdWA
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpaOc4sF4u
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwyAc65Yd4
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7w00LN1iVB
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLcLmyvStd
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlI5BHYv7ic
618Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWMaMTM6BL
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
Penana
search
Loginarrow_drop_down
Registerarrow_drop_down
