阿樂突然跑去廁所，跪在馬桶前一下下地嘔，聲音像要挖出心肝脾肺腎；青青跟過去，掃掃他的背，又出去斟了一杯温水給他。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR2XBUpXEc
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他接過，沒有喝下，只保持跪姿抬頭、定神看她，看了好久好久。他的眼睛因酒醉與嘔吐而通紅和濕潤，像哭泣一樣，他這樣腥辣地盯着她，像是在控訴一切的罪魁禍首是她。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFab7RDBPLz
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她再平靜，也想起了Tim少說的話，內疚而不忍：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizaQywXaqR
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「快啲飲啖啦，你喉嚨會唔舒服。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkzNMynCgA
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她想轉身出去，但他捉住了她的手腕。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zl2XUMkWC
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兩秒後，他站起來喝下，他們擠在同一個廁所裏。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBE0e1iNMrs
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阿樂嘔完，沒有原先難受，又清醒了一點；但仍然借醉，擁抱了青青，將重量放在她的身上，包括那二十一克的靈魂。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWEnDyKyuU
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「喂——」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2L3aePvOO
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青青皺眉，想要推開他；他作環抱狀擁得更緊，沉沉地說：「我有啲暈。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvfoktxtJr
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他語帶哭腔，像哀求，又像撒嬌，整個人都變得異常温糯。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRmzyT5XaE
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她沒有再郁動，就這樣埋在他的胸口處，只說：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJ33baMEGh
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「沖杯茶俾你？或者你早啲休息？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBAv5Pj5BP
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「唔洗，等陣先。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAewIkpv5U
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然後，阿樂就這麼一直抱住青青，突然內心一陣悲慟湧出，因為他知道，連這一個擁抱，都只是偷來的，他沒有名、沒有責、沒有義去擁抱她，要不是他妥協般的聲線沙啞地一陣哀求，根本不能將她擁入懷裏……523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoukSRRrWD
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終於，阿樂放開青青；她抬頭：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0me42vMf8V
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「好啲啦？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTCuOjQ9y5
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「嗯，我想食餐蛋麵。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dJ7n94lND
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阿樂知道，青青是一個受軟不受硬的人，他若吟吟地向她撒嬌，她必然妥協。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QzG9wF86s
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「好。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdefPpyqIpP
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阿樂跟在青青的身後，擔了一張椅子坐下。從側身看去，見到她趷腳開櫃，拿下罐頭和即食麵，再開始煮食。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNuB1XqBmg
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他就這樣清晰又迷糊地看她，看她開火、下油，煎、翻、煮、攪。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4i5nA7TrF
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「落唔落麻油？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaog60p1fl
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她轉身，頭向他坐着的方向，問；他輕輕的點頭。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGbRfntAM2
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然後，她將麵拿出餐桌：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9wQ8Ey0BD
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「以後唔好飲咁多，睇住身體。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdGcqfdJ8C
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他點頭，再扯開話題：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwEo6VApnA
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「揾日我哋去街好冇？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvsfLcEhuE
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阿樂要約青青出去，不能再困在有間隔的屋內上演平行時空，Tim少說感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWRrm1Y1An
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「好。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToNIuYOkpw
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青青已想通，既然她本身對阿樂有好感，不如一試，嘗試看看二人有沒有可能；機會若然流失，就此錯過。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYctp2yxg32
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何況，她已經無法喜歡Matt了。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPdkt09rja
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她不否認自己愛他，只是，不喜歡他了；如此，這一種愛也會慢慢消逝。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsR3AcPwaQz
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Matt傷害了青青的自尊，嚴重地。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxMoIbpf0p
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他既不喜歡她、又喜歡別人；既借辭暗示她是這段感情的過錯方，又欺瞞她變心的真相，如非最後她問，他根本不會提記，只像什麼都沒發生過一樣欺瞞她。原本一直陪伴身旁的人離棄了她，她感到十分受傷。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5unLYQk444
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直到現在，她還覺得是自己的問題：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZUPIiuXzD
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係咪我唔夠好？係咪我冇能力令留住你？523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTZuIvpDdF
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係咪我俾你嘅印象太恐怖，就算你變咗心都唔敢同我講？係咪你覺得我好唔掂，所以就算傷害我，你都唔會覺得內疚？或者，呢一份內疚微弱到唔會影響你嘅所有所有？523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQhVIcXCrm
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係唔係？523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcEf5v7bDM
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是？不是？不、不，無論如何。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zlUtZiTZ0
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總之，青青若對Matt心懷喜歡，她就會覺得自己很低賤。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVtBR2UE2e
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因為Matt已是別人的男人，熱情都在別人眼中熊熊燃燒，青青不過難堪地、被新鮮而有魄力的火焰波及，可是她已是那一吹即散的、無意義的灰燼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3ecubnTF6
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感覺像，Matt向青青走來，要求交歡，她心歡喜自覺袒胸露乳，他正攤開手伸向她的胸膊，卻忽然將手指並攏，以指甲插穿她的皮肉、急躁地挖出她的心來，用力捏碎它，無視那種鮮活，不管當中對他的無窮情意；然後輕輕轉身，彷彿她的祼露、她的傷感，都與他無關。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6aFMAAfln
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感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61J8WzYL5o
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青青對阿樂有一種不能言說的抱歉，因為，她在想要不要給大家一次發展的機會時，心裏想的人，並不是他；而且，她也不確定自己對阿樂的感情。但她有種念頭，覺得，如果一切都好好地進行下去，說不定她真的會喜歡他。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOnctS5MO7
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他們很夾。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvqNF3TZYk
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她喜歡和他相處，她不抗拒他的擁抱，甚至剛才他緊抱她不放的時候，她竟然有些感動。她分不清這是心動，還是因寂寞而無法撒手的一種温暖。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyocUzs2ca
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即使，他對她是如此如此地好，但她總是猶豫，她又暗暗地質疑他並非很喜歡自己。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9R5TdM1ph
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猶豫過後，她想，應該要試一試。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKphUgZyY5x
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追求之事，不應過早談得失，二人都是。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimIsMLGI4f
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阿樂高興，雖然他得到的資訊只是一句「好」、只是她肯和他出去玩，別人看來可能是小事，但只有他知道這一句「好」，而非「唔好」的意義是什麼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkFIoslGia
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除了代表她不抗拒與他共處外，還代表他開始正式追求她，她也不會再回絕他的好意。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQf8zLbjsFK
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更重要的是，他清楚知道，這代表她願意放過自己，不再自我束縛，嘗試給他加入她的生命裏。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVqoGLJby8
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阿樂又想起Tanya，他想問Tanya：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5WwpbjPb1
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「其實你有冇諗過、我哋有機會可以一齊？而唔係永遠都只可以做好朋友？有冇諗過俾呢個機會我？定係由一開始就知道，一定冇可能？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbKmMPylzo
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至今，阿樂也不知道答案——因為他沒敢問，卻仍然非常介意；然後他又望一望青青，沒來由地笑一下。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP83tgauwj7
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至少，這次，阿樂覺得有個人願意肯定自己的用心，而非強行將他安放到一個「最佳位置」，若實現最大可能性，能夠不只做一個大將軍。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUV6fTLHbr
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對，至少，青青有這一份考慮，無論最後結果如何，他都覺得比以前好。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXarchzzSp
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他稍為心安。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLyUP05VmW
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如果最後青青真的和他在一起，生命似添亮色，他就會很開心。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6WQIXCKlW
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但其實誰沒有了誰，也能夠好好活下去，523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1F0DMM6azu
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