阿樂突然跑去廁所，跪在馬桶前一下下地嘔，聲音像要挖出心肝脾肺腎；青青跟過去，掃掃他的背，又出去斟了一杯温水給他。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaxOjo0CP7
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他接過，沒有喝下，只保持跪姿抬頭、定神看她，看了好久好久。他的眼睛因酒醉與嘔吐而通紅和濕潤，像哭泣一樣，他這樣腥辣地盯着她，像是在控訴一切的罪魁禍首是她。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgOb9osXB4
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她再平靜，也想起了Tim少說的話，內疚而不忍：561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJei02GkmEp
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「快啲飲啖啦，你喉嚨會唔舒服。」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAwlkQYj6b
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她想轉身出去，但他捉住了她的手腕。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfM8eFLQWF
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兩秒後，他站起來喝下，他們擠在同一個廁所裏。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ84ojSK6iT
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阿樂嘔完，沒有原先難受，又清醒了一點；但仍然借醉，擁抱了青青，將重量放在她的身上，包括那二十一克的靈魂。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSqrWTSZ6y
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「喂——」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFtUY3GbTK
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青青皺眉，想要推開他；他作環抱狀擁得更緊，沉沉地說：「我有啲暈。」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyJvSfSMJY
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他語帶哭腔，像哀求，又像撒嬌，整個人都變得異常温糯。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZ9kFKhnlT
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她沒有再郁動，就這樣埋在他的胸口處，只說：561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFt3jrPNyo
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「沖杯茶俾你？或者你早啲休息？」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGBcvB4SOJ
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「唔洗，等陣先。」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU8YXrnLWm
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然後，阿樂就這麼一直抱住青青，突然內心一陣悲慟湧出，因為他知道，連這一個擁抱，都只是偷來的，他沒有名、沒有責、沒有義去擁抱她，要不是他妥協般的聲線沙啞地一陣哀求，根本不能將她擁入懷裏……561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMXYGcpjJ2
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終於，阿樂放開青青；她抬頭：561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DVhu003eb
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「好啲啦？」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHfKibnM5W
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「嗯，我想食餐蛋麵。」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh4esRLA1L
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阿樂知道，青青是一個受軟不受硬的人，他若吟吟地向她撒嬌，她必然妥協。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyurV3tB7j
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「好。」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IPSVLyAyK
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阿樂跟在青青的身後，擔了一張椅子坐下。從側身看去，見到她趷腳開櫃，拿下罐頭和即食麵，再開始煮食。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc79V5Z6Ku
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他就這樣清晰又迷糊地看她，看她開火、下油，煎、翻、煮、攪。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutthcME1zn
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「落唔落麻油？」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8obedJrjzC
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她轉身，頭向他坐着的方向，問；他輕輕的點頭。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnx8mzg9qLG
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然後，她將麵拿出餐桌：561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQzyBq2UCP
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「以後唔好飲咁多，睇住身體。」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cK1RHvH7N
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他點頭，再扯開話題：561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtPzCb5DQA
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「揾日我哋去街好冇？」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3O6YNVqKoM
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阿樂要約青青出去，不能再困在有間隔的屋內上演平行時空，Tim少說感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQ9oyywzXh
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「好。」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkqYEg1nK3
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青青已想通，既然她本身對阿樂有好感，不如一試，嘗試看看二人有沒有可能；機會若然流失，就此錯過。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jDNfThxAy
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何況，她已經無法喜歡Matt了。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUlrjUkO4I
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她不否認自己愛他，只是，不喜歡他了；如此，這一種愛也會慢慢消逝。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEl2dQMyOqr
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Matt傷害了青青的自尊，嚴重地。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmTOeboRHN
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他既不喜歡她、又喜歡別人；既借辭暗示她是這段感情的過錯方，又欺瞞她變心的真相，如非最後她問，他根本不會提記，只像什麼都沒發生過一樣欺瞞她。原本一直陪伴身旁的人離棄了她，她感到十分受傷。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYy1206BIc
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直到現在，她還覺得是自己的問題：561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOolKoMP0j
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係咪我唔夠好？係咪我冇能力令留住你？561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAPJ91dzfR
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係咪我俾你嘅印象太恐怖，就算你變咗心都唔敢同我講？係咪你覺得我好唔掂，所以就算傷害我，你都唔會覺得內疚？或者，呢一份內疚微弱到唔會影響你嘅所有所有？561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0exALSPMpB
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係唔係？561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8NHNEzeVO
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是？不是？不、不，無論如何。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHqPJDxK1u
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總之，青青若對Matt心懷喜歡，她就會覺得自己很低賤。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpLHvWXrLZ
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因為Matt已是別人的男人，熱情都在別人眼中熊熊燃燒，青青不過難堪地、被新鮮而有魄力的火焰波及，可是她已是那一吹即散的、無意義的灰燼。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWEb3k5mjK
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感覺像，Matt向青青走來，要求交歡，她心歡喜自覺袒胸露乳，他正攤開手伸向她的胸膊，卻忽然將手指並攏，以指甲插穿她的皮肉、急躁地挖出她的心來，用力捏碎它，無視那種鮮活，不管當中對他的無窮情意；然後輕輕轉身，彷彿她的祼露、她的傷感，都與他無關。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDRdJi9Xia
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感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtauaJteoyD
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青青對阿樂有一種不能言說的抱歉，因為，她在想要不要給大家一次發展的機會時，心裏想的人，並不是他；而且，她也不確定自己對阿樂的感情。但她有種念頭，覺得，如果一切都好好地進行下去，說不定她真的會喜歡他。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32a17Rxyfy
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他們很夾。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2ugT0LgIm
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她喜歡和他相處，她不抗拒他的擁抱，甚至剛才他緊抱她不放的時候，她竟然有些感動。她分不清這是心動，還是因寂寞而無法撒手的一種温暖。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7Vz21KDN6
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即使，他對她是如此如此地好，但她總是猶豫，她又暗暗地質疑他並非很喜歡自己。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5cmrEiTdk
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猶豫過後，她想，應該要試一試。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwz1bquVmJ
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追求之事，不應過早談得失，二人都是。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHPf1LCIXJ
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阿樂高興，雖然他得到的資訊只是一句「好」、只是她肯和他出去玩，別人看來可能是小事，但只有他知道這一句「好」，而非「唔好」的意義是什麼。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE6FNELm6O
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除了代表她不抗拒與他共處外，還代表他開始正式追求她，她也不會再回絕他的好意。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTlRHy6fCW
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更重要的是，他清楚知道，這代表她願意放過自己，不再自我束縛，嘗試給他加入她的生命裏。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPZQumRPCB
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阿樂又想起Tanya，他想問Tanya：561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnK3G7at3Et
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「其實你有冇諗過、我哋有機會可以一齊？而唔係永遠都只可以做好朋友？有冇諗過俾呢個機會我？定係由一開始就知道，一定冇可能？」561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57pjRWIo2m
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至今，阿樂也不知道答案——因為他沒敢問，卻仍然非常介意；然後他又望一望青青，沒來由地笑一下。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLu2FfHBPs
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至少，這次，阿樂覺得有個人願意肯定自己的用心，而非強行將他安放到一個「最佳位置」，若實現最大可能性，能夠不只做一個大將軍。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQPrOZ9HJ9
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對，至少，青青有這一份考慮，無論最後結果如何，他都覺得比以前好。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PIHfrwiOq
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他稍為心安。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKwEQP2ZDk
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如果最後青青真的和他在一起，生命似添亮色，他就會很開心。561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN34VQzJoq3
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但其實誰沒有了誰，也能夠好好活下去，561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQtczUN2Gg
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