阿樂突然跑去廁所,跪在馬桶前一下下地嘔,聲音像要挖出心肝脾肺腎;青青跟過去,掃掃他的背,又出去斟了一杯温水給他。482Please respect copyright.PENANAUqao4UO1sY
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他接過,沒有喝下,只保持跪姿抬頭、定神看她,看了好久好久。他的眼睛因酒醉與嘔吐而通紅和濕潤,像哭泣一樣,他這樣腥辣地盯着她,像是在控訴一切的罪魁禍首是她。482Please respect copyright.PENANAUiC8E5bbjr
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她再平靜,也想起了Tim少說的話,內疚而不忍:482Please respect copyright.PENANAQtNGBbc4eu
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「快啲飲啖啦,你喉嚨會唔舒服。」482Please respect copyright.PENANAQXd2KHBhMM
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她想轉身出去,但他捉住了她的手腕。482Please respect copyright.PENANA6veILTIeHb
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兩秒後,他站起來喝下,他們擠在同一個廁所裏。482Please respect copyright.PENANAcnxCmSeOm0
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阿樂嘔完,沒有原先難受,又清醒了一點;但仍然借醉,擁抱了青青,將重量放在她的身上,包括那二十一克的靈魂。482Please respect copyright.PENANAdWTLSS7Szy
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「喂——」482Please respect copyright.PENANAURjKjiU4Nc
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青青皺眉,想要推開他;他作環抱狀擁得更緊,沉沉地說:「我有啲暈。」482Please respect copyright.PENANAKd72h0Nc5d
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他語帶哭腔,像哀求,又像撒嬌,整個人都變得異常温糯。482Please respect copyright.PENANATDCmU6JZY5
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她沒有再郁動,就這樣埋在他的胸口處,只說:482Please respect copyright.PENANApFdeLotbC0
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「沖杯茶俾你?或者你早啲休息?」482Please respect copyright.PENANAxhtPGR0E0F
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「唔洗,等陣先。」482Please respect copyright.PENANAydpza1xcxJ
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然後,阿樂就這麼一直抱住青青,突然內心一陣悲慟湧出,因為他知道,連這一個擁抱,都只是偷來的,他沒有名、沒有責、沒有義去擁抱她,要不是他妥協般的聲線沙啞地一陣哀求,根本不能將她擁入懷裏……482Please respect copyright.PENANAwW91lpNIa4
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終於,阿樂放開青青;她抬頭:482Please respect copyright.PENANAaYgt8zk0xk
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「好啲啦?」482Please respect copyright.PENANAK0dH9H0gkS
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「嗯,我想食餐蛋麵。」482Please respect copyright.PENANAjtJQweLOIW
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阿樂知道,青青是一個受軟不受硬的人,他若吟吟地向她撒嬌,她必然妥協。482Please respect copyright.PENANAbgtqB6nbVx
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「好。」482Please respect copyright.PENANA5H2SyqwIBl
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阿樂跟在青青的身後,擔了一張椅子坐下。從側身看去,見到她趷腳開櫃,拿下罐頭和即食麵,再開始煮食。482Please respect copyright.PENANAqOlWabkFZJ
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他就這樣清晰又迷糊地看她,看她開火、下油,煎、翻、煮、攪。482Please respect copyright.PENANAy6QNcFWBXh
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「落唔落麻油?」482Please respect copyright.PENANA3tTuyNnP7F
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她轉身,頭向他坐着的方向,問;他輕輕的點頭。482Please respect copyright.PENANA2bx8HWpNNT
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然後,她將麵拿出餐桌:482Please respect copyright.PENANA76tNzTyCrO
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「以後唔好飲咁多,睇住身體。」482Please respect copyright.PENANAE9lW4ZDaB8
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他點頭,再扯開話題:482Please respect copyright.PENANAtjxd5oXaXn
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「揾日我哋去街好冇?」482Please respect copyright.PENANAMMJpnYzSOl
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阿樂要約青青出去,不能再困在有間隔的屋內上演平行時空,Tim少說感情是流動的,要有來有往,不要上演自我感動的戲碼。482Please respect copyright.PENANAS4hEWjO7ti
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「好。」482Please respect copyright.PENANAC4WXQUvcIx
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青青已想通,既然她本身對阿樂有好感,不如一試,嘗試看看二人有沒有可能;機會若然流失,就此錯過。482Please respect copyright.PENANAyLn11a6Iua
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何況,她已經無法喜歡Matt了。482Please respect copyright.PENANAmNIDs2XDC0
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她不否認自己愛他,只是,不喜歡他了;如此,這一種愛也會慢慢消逝。482Please respect copyright.PENANAggjuZgiFGs
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Matt傷害了青青的自尊,嚴重地。482Please respect copyright.PENANA2NLDxmet1z
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他既不喜歡她、又喜歡別人;既借辭暗示她是這段感情的過錯方,又欺瞞她變心的真相,如非最後她問,他根本不會提記,只像什麼都沒發生過一樣欺瞞她。原本一直陪伴身旁的人離棄了她,她感到十分受傷。482Please respect copyright.PENANAumfSTvqeXJ
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直到現在,她還覺得是自己的問題:482Please respect copyright.PENANAcEa3kvLdR6
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係咪我唔夠好?係咪我冇能力令留住你?482Please respect copyright.PENANANSEZIPf58x
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係咪我俾你嘅印象太恐怖,就算你變咗心都唔敢同我講?係咪你覺得我好唔掂,所以就算傷害我,你都唔會覺得內疚?或者,呢一份內疚微弱到唔會影響你嘅所有所有?482Please respect copyright.PENANAtmrEa09ovi
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係唔係?482Please respect copyright.PENANAizsKQzsxOP
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是?不是?不、不,無論如何。482Please respect copyright.PENANAgewrO5y50Z
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總之,青青若對Matt心懷喜歡,她就會覺得自己很低賤。482Please respect copyright.PENANAr7Rr6hk97Y
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因為Matt已是別人的男人,熱情都在別人眼中熊熊燃燒,青青不過難堪地、被新鮮而有魄力的火焰波及,可是她已是那一吹即散的、無意義的灰燼。482Please respect copyright.PENANACoVJsrJcEy
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感覺像,Matt向青青走來,要求交歡,她心歡喜自覺袒胸露乳,他正攤開手伸向她的胸膊,卻忽然將手指並攏,以指甲插穿她的皮肉、急躁地挖出她的心來,用力捏碎它,無視那種鮮活,不管當中對他的無窮情意;然後輕輕轉身,彷彿她的祼露、她的傷感,都與他無關。482Please respect copyright.PENANALOh7M20NQT
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感情是流動的,要有來有往,不要上演自我感動的戲碼。482Please respect copyright.PENANA6RDZyN0BPC
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青青對阿樂有一種不能言說的抱歉,因為,她在想要不要給大家一次發展的機會時,心裏想的人,並不是他;而且,她也不確定自己對阿樂的感情。但她有種念頭,覺得,如果一切都好好地進行下去,說不定她真的會喜歡他。482Please respect copyright.PENANAdFWzj8xz1e
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他們很夾。482Please respect copyright.PENANAr3K6Q4eYBH
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她喜歡和他相處,她不抗拒他的擁抱,甚至剛才他緊抱她不放的時候,她竟然有些感動。她分不清這是心動,還是因寂寞而無法撒手的一種温暖。482Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0CrVQAi2F
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即使,他對她是如此如此地好,但她總是猶豫,她又暗暗地質疑他並非很喜歡自己。482Please respect copyright.PENANAOSecz9jHkT
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猶豫過後,她想,應該要試一試。482Please respect copyright.PENANAvt3St5sXXV
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追求之事,不應過早談得失,二人都是。482Please respect copyright.PENANAs3GLCsdvYH
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阿樂高興,雖然他得到的資訊只是一句「好」、只是她肯和他出去玩,別人看來可能是小事,但只有他知道這一句「好」,而非「唔好」的意義是什麼。482Please respect copyright.PENANAAAevOMUOic
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除了代表她不抗拒與他共處外,還代表他開始正式追求她,她也不會再回絕他的好意。482Please respect copyright.PENANAM7oYCR203F
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更重要的是,他清楚知道,這代表她願意放過自己,不再自我束縛,嘗試給他加入她的生命裏。482Please respect copyright.PENANAT7gerjgFBW
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阿樂又想起Tanya,他想問Tanya:482Please respect copyright.PENANAZr12bF6xz5
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「其實你有冇諗過、我哋有機會可以一齊?而唔係永遠都只可以做好朋友?有冇諗過俾呢個機會我?定係由一開始就知道,一定冇可能?」482Please respect copyright.PENANA3dvS0qZeJO
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至今,阿樂也不知道答案——因為他沒敢問,卻仍然非常介意;然後他又望一望青青,沒來由地笑一下。482Please respect copyright.PENANANB86b5MkFj
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至少,這次,阿樂覺得有個人願意肯定自己的用心,而非強行將他安放到一個「最佳位置」,若實現最大可能性,能夠不只做一個大將軍。482Please respect copyright.PENANA1Khm998zQC
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對,至少,青青有這一份考慮,無論最後結果如何,他都覺得比以前好。482Please respect copyright.PENANAGvjmNsvDqS
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他稍為心安。482Please respect copyright.PENANAQMHd5ybp0l
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如果最後青青真的和他在一起,生命似添亮色,他就會很開心。482Please respect copyright.PENANA1WXr73HFaA
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但其實誰沒有了誰,也能夠好好活下去,482Please respect copyright.PENANAYn5lbfRldu
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只要身體健康。