Now our English class begins teaching urban legends . It’s cool, I like exciting things.
These days me and my first host brother have a little friction, we were not quarreling, just sometimes he would bother me? Ahhhh, I don’t know how to explain. I don’t wanna make it like complaining, but something if you write it just like complaining, that’s why I didn’t write it at the beginning. But it’s my diary, I think I still need to write it.
At first he just used words, actually it wasn’t very serious, no bad words. He just yelled my English name and said “Nooooooo!” whatever I do. Just like a joke, not serious, right?
But now he has come to use physical, actually still not serious, now just early, hasn't had any serious problems yet. Only two maybe a little serious are once he throws toys to my face twice, kicking me behind my knee. But kicking I have seen him do it to his sister also, so yes. It still could be explained with kiddings.
Although if I stand in the third person’s perspective to watch it, I wouldn't take it as a little thing. But in fact I don’t care, I'm not pretending I'm strong, I really don’t care. I am amazed by it too. I was even more annoyed at him for lifting my paper plate when I was getting my food.
Un-huh, I already said don’t do that.
But I think I still need to discuss it with my host parents, but my host family already noticed it. My host dad tonight said ”Are you okay?” and “I’m sorry he is so mean.” But I don’t like when they say sorry and I am really okay, I don’t think they need to say sorry, and I think they don’t believe I’m okay. But I really really don’t care. I think I need to let them know that. And I need to know what I should do and why he doesn’t like me. I think I already guessed it , but it’s a small scheming. No matter if I was wrong or not, at least let my host family know I want to deal with it.
Now I just take my host brother as a capricious kid, I don’t hate him, he is just a child. Normally I fast forget, but he is attacking frequently enough now, I can't forget it even if I already forget it. I’m a little worried that maybe I will hate him in the future if this situation continues. I don’t wanna hate my host family's member, it’s troublesome.
My host brother still has cute times, though it’s very seldom. And my host brother is in fact quite smug( I don’t wanna use this word, I want to use 跩, but I couldn’t find the vocabulary) for most people, maybe he's not targeting me. I don’t wanna embarrass my host parents either. If I can have a good relationship with him, I still want to have a good relationship.
Tonight I began to weave a hat, I considered which color is better, finally chose green and yellow. I don’t know if one yarn ball is enough to weave a hat or not, just in case, I used two colors.
It’s my first time weaving a hat, but it’s not as difficult as I thought. If I really finish it, maybe I can try to weave a sweater.
Not really good, haha.
I like to do handicrafts one reason is that you can do other things at the same time. I listened to global news while weaving. Listening to the global news everyday is one of my goals now, Though I originally would have done it, but not everyday. I hope one day I could listen to news in English, but now I still listen to it in Chinese, if I listen in English, the news is just like Buddhist scriptures, you know?
I'm still a little bit negative, you know, even if I don't care about being hated, it's really annoying to be bothered over and over again.
But it also has the advantage that I will work hard. I'm a bit weird. When I'm in a bad mood, I will have “revenge study”, and I don't want to look at my phone at all. That's why I can resist the temptation of my phone tonight and get down to business. So if my host brother bothers me properly every day, my success must have his credit.
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現在我們的英語課開始教授都市傳說。很酷，我喜歡刺激的東西。
這些天我和我的第一主持兄弟有點摩擦，我們沒有吵架，只是有時他會打擾我？啊啊啊，不知道怎麼解釋。我不想讓它像抱怨一樣，但是如果你寫它就像抱怨一樣，這就是為什麼我一開始沒有寫它的原因。但這是我的日記，我想我還需要寫它。
起初他只是用詞，實際上並不是很嚴重，沒有壞話。他只是大喊我的英文名字並說“Nooooooo！”無論我做什麼。開個玩笑，不認真吧？
不過現在他已經開始使用體力了，其實還不嚴重，現在才剛剛開始，還沒有出現什麼嚴重的問題。有一次他兩次把玩具扔到我臉上，踢我膝蓋後面，只有兩個可能有點嚴重。但是踢我看到他也對他的妹妹這樣做，所以是的。它仍然可以用開玩笑來解釋。
雖然如果我站在第三人稱的角度來看，我不會把它當成小事。但其實我不在乎，我不是在裝堅強，我真的不在乎。我也很驚訝。我更生氣他在我拿食物的時候舉起我的紙盤。
嗯，我已經說過不要那樣做。
但我想我還是需要和寄宿父母商量，但我的寄宿家庭已經注意到了。今晚我的主人爸爸說：“你還好嗎？” “我很抱歉他這麼刻薄。”但我不喜歡他們說對不起，我真的很好，我認為他們不需要說對不起，我認為他們不相信我很好。但我真的真的不在乎。我想我需要讓他們知道這一點。我需要知道我應該做什麼以及他為什麼不喜歡我。我想我已經猜到了，但這是一個小心機。不管我做錯與否，至少讓我的寄宿家庭知道我想處理它。
現在我只是把我的宿主兄弟當成一個任性的孩子，我不討厭他，他只是一個孩子。平時我很快就忘記了，但他現在攻擊的頻率已經夠高了，我就算已經忘記了也忘不掉。我有點擔心如果這種情況繼續下去，我將來可能會討厭他。我不想討厭我的寄宿家庭成員，這很麻煩。
我的寄宿兄弟仍然有可愛的時光，雖然很少。而我的宿主哥其實對大多數人來說都挺自鳴得意（我不想用這個詞，我想用跩，但是找不到詞彙），也許他不是針對我。我也不想讓我的寄宿父母難堪。如果我能和他搞好關係，我還是想搞好關係。
今晚開始織帽子，考慮了哪個顏色比較好，最後選擇了綠色和黃色。不知道一個毛線球能不能織一頂帽子，以防萬一，我用了兩種顏色。 這是我第一次織帽子，但並沒有我想像的那麼難。如果我真的完成了，也許我可以試著織一件毛衣。
我喜歡做手工藝品的原因之一是你可以同時做其他事情。我一邊織布一邊聽全球新聞。每天收聽全球新聞是我現在的目標之一，雖然我本來會這樣做，但不是每天都這樣做。我希望有一天我能聽英文新聞，但現在我還是聽中文，如果我聽英文，新聞就像佛經一樣，你知道嗎？
我還是有點消極，你知道的，即使我不在乎被人討厭，被一遍又一遍地打擾真的很煩人。
但它也有一個好處，就是我會努力。我有點奇怪。心情不好的時候會“報復性學習”，根本不想看手機。這就是為什麼我今晚可以抵製手機的誘惑，開始做正事。所以如果我的寄宿兄弟每天都在適當地打擾我，我的成功必須歸功於他。
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