It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPNJ3YnvP2
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmaLTbPvlz
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyp18ZodJCB
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96t4YpeAjN
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvccBwhRwF
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxaf3N1ufi
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLDUN3vpET
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdGdpxvHum
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Oh, well. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ojq2tKRhX
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirZbpzDyK8
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpWVaaaYyi
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqCsObfGzy
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Qk1yhkRyX
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUPH7cWHzx
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUwAlPrXLd
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8KbbFh8oS
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9ysNU82sy
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jaezw4C0m
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"I—"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHVBKuN5IA
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"But—"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOWxX78LEZ
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"You—"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5miSVK91ay
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmOw6YEZXQ
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I shut up.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUZuKa2dTx
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGK4jJJFGD
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9RDHo005q
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6bKLU2ssw
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12daFbuTaR
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I hear him laugh through the phone.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJYOLhUTcY
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"By, Leah."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb79koOwWKV
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"Bye."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZzHswTfaC
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMfoEwPKVR
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt6vpIL305
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjKaGUgl8y
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4sMnvlCSO
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeuB5sPpie
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKENrkWiXb2
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpmMeIonvb
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPleHaqSFSM
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Well that's an odd offer. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqLVryp2tZ
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXlWAkpMwx
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusHMvoRduW
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiz0spcXby1
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXroMHDUG6E
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"So do I."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuDC4veX3D
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8LdVXDL8L
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyvZml65Pj
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HA6SzYl63
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"I'm a graphic designer."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFuEYoRhhd
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Well I wasn't expecting that.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3auBRbfrw
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2XaJQjhwt
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That's more like it.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZisjjNbvt
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMJNYtEOeQ
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgZM4pxiyQ
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"Okay. Bye."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2F0mjHOaT
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3UtqwbZuV
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOmg7Vm5vG
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHurp6RVuuq
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1D9ECXTZJ7
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtzUeVn0Xy
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"Hello. My name is Henry."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNv8K7TUqJ
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People in the crowd say their greetings.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQe1IBPQTHH
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrB6YOFfUF
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He clears his voice, then begins.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVaE3awPoN
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"Have you ever been in love?478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvEwgFDYhO
Had your soul so deeply entwined478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvl0Yw8RPu
With another's478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4oBzgFJaT
That you cannot figure where yours ends478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyLR7im06k
And theirs begins?478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTM9WqC7cKD
So madly and deeply in love478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCZNoH7ozp
That that person's heart beats with yours;478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAumGsfLut
Just looking at them is blinding; 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JBYms6mRr
It's like staring at a supernova 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaxCFwsuX2
But you do it anyway478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXk9H3KrF2
Because when she's there478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxnyVZIj2n
Logic and Reason die."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqljbX1jIOh
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkh9ipoAwe
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"Now imagine what it feels like 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU8E86mGmC
To have that person478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe0wrXeTd4
Ripped 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAqSGZ1uaP
From your life;478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXhcEmo71J
Torn away from you.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73xMJEzYaS
You can't breathe. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0h0vrRPjFM
You're dead, yet you aren't,478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeTIhFXjWR
You still 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSOe9hGiAW
Walk478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jXxUDy8ql
Talk478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcbsT0Zy7d
Interact 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI704ABtnji
With the people around you,478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1GLwlsqul
But on the on the inside, 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojLYllx2P3
You're hollow;478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOB0UXuYKYl
Dead."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFBqcYzzON
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaN7rY6mzfI
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"It's been ten years,478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tvheGLUi2
My love, 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kvlmAnSdB
And every day, 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7r0piMWId6
Every hour, 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAHgqZMmuX
Every second without you 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGR7WxgXrh
Feels like 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbo0FDm3BO
Torture."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqSUUeOG7k
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZGDL0hiNk
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"I would ask for 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g1GwrALoD
Forgiveness,478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zuk88GJKo
But I can see that you've... 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2s3sYzioHv
Moved on, 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8qdxvsEq8
And found happiness elsewhere. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4GgZfWm9K
And I have to live478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKcOzmfm2p
With the consequences 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b48bswgD9
Of my stupid actions 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLidMzrvs3l
For the rest of my life. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcirAv3sFj
I have to live with this 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VBjf5zieq
Torture, 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehVwlJTKdP
This 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHUInjjUDI
Pain,478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrgQhrvtBc
Because I have never stopped,478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgGlohKkux
Loving 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sMCTJXjjk
You,478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bIgz4WZ0i
And I don't think I ever will."478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdQclmyvGo
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyP48VKXHq
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMWrk54vl2
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxNmJGzHJm
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8GzM2is1w
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7VeR2R3Wf
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQN56mH7vE
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70FMtvB9gP
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFD3iLqqBt
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9miDDiawa
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0Yi2Yjek0
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He doesn't look convinced.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENr5vcLMc6
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcR6fc5twwN
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GkHIdLvjn
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSt9pjkBPB
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yMqicsIKS
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzZ04NGSl1
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwkFZS3XZz
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I'm hyperventilating.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQTnqJE3qh
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjNgek3uPN
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDt4qk1X5uU
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfP5qwu9zY
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78ARaqrxLJ
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwu2ThuPuI
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"He died."
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