It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEX167jWhp
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy63zvWQulP
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYSnmAamUu
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTVqlKvgcR
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaPNMRVhF1
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXz7cZ961Tr
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTyY0w5arL
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKv3y8gD48
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Oh, well. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfLqxMUE8f
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZ9vdJCmcI
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdynMjclf5
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnkTP3etur
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYOabcBJst
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVhgr7WZMu
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzJDHmmMVp
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEU32zrCaxU
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvdP4DH0Z9
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRevXFjblo
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"I—"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGZlKEzw9y
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"But—"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBirIktVaw
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"You—"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzkIbtMzJC
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrdOhBgF8S
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I shut up.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6mDHl7ZCr
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhPvAhThzK
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19sM9lqIkO
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBsIgd3Tai
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVt5vCSKzk
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I hear him laugh through the phone.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzlI9wT6kv
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"By, Leah."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbDRY0udpo
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"Bye."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQC2EHOYsH
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwE880JsTC
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOfjkjGki6
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ycM2z2zwJ
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0Vtp4CJ1X
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqXgfEInLg
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXKICnxxLq
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrhuBY4gbp
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6KxT451vQ
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Well that's an odd offer. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvC1QszQG6r
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbSnJ1wWua
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXNXrwoeFj
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGMESQ7qjY
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkXT9BCEQe
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"So do I."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RbxNQgCCi
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeM8WTBmLGa
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0iktp06y7
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MZXyjrdNl
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"I'm a graphic designer."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoWXCCVOiX
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Well I wasn't expecting that.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsETSR444b
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZLRvwFY0O
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That's more like it.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBCHycvuQ6
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRXzh8VA04
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7bqB6iJNz
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"Okay. Bye."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1dAbH6CBV
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXsmJFVwca
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkwPUxqqk5
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIKTix16xo
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMVqsbFtZe
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ387YqPRv8p
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"Hello. My name is Henry."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraArHKcmvn
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People in the crowd say their greetings.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRRTeYXtAt
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqluNlw96C
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He clears his voice, then begins.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5CM1nrJNM
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"Have you ever been in love?462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2KKFWoxok
Had your soul so deeply entwined462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJXEstaO0r
With another's462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcmfSQGRPp
That you cannot figure where yours ends462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC1fnSna2P
And theirs begins?462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjno9bghwD
So madly and deeply in love462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X3OhfyAbV
That that person's heart beats with yours;462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vbxoJwffJ
Just looking at them is blinding; 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYUmOc40E3
It's like staring at a supernova 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5q16TJKwH8
But you do it anyway462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7eSJpklvj
Because when she's there462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRd0QvC1qG
Logic and Reason die."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWY3pF4VHM
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDadQ5QzkI
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"Now imagine what it feels like 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS9UnEy68S
To have that person462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfwrUlmjjn
Ripped 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78TzVSgJ5o
From your life;462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUx23eZuuZe
Torn away from you.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf0sHMzowG
You can't breathe. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAWEuVZYoC
You're dead, yet you aren't,462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgbTkXhY5R
You still 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6RPNPIC49
Walk462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVcklmIbip
Talk462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQzcWMmIYJ
Interact 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIoyKCUOiP
With the people around you,462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ckJ13jjk7
But on the on the inside, 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mpGedmE83
You're hollow;462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvaUvP54jt
Dead."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkK0944suG
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhKXl3RXIR
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"It's been ten years,462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN6IaslytE
My love, 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWarLBZMeeQ
And every day, 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWtFrpkprB
Every hour, 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwHbk0ED8b
Every second without you 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcplUwGzn6Y
Feels like 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckt9GMwOOB
Torture."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5BlU4gSoj
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AyHFq7RjR
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"I would ask for 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3OOf0Z49K
Forgiveness,462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEMDUaSQ4q
But I can see that you've... 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8faH7D0U8v
Moved on, 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyNDQSsrbP
And found happiness elsewhere. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pkoCgnEQ1
And I have to live462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9x7nzCgAc5
With the consequences 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXErCLWGdwg
Of my stupid actions 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovHCPMR0Hk
For the rest of my life. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKKTk0Hxrm
I have to live with this 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmWzyTQ9k1
Torture, 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1toDW60Vv
This 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5woxKyRdsr
Pain,462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXJnDJ7f5n
Because I have never stopped,462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIuseJ5PHZ
Loving 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnQp8lFpBz
You,462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1oQ7vgLVZ
And I don't think I ever will."462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKu8b0FzMSe
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNW9KPQe7gX
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdofBGWH3O
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFntk61NyWj
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KXAuocRoX
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARfdPKLsVJ
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffW9lPgUCg
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFKw4zUitL
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbvIqx7EdG
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzQqtEsCT8
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIGNLxIl02
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He doesn't look convinced.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazP41jZICj
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9BKFni9go
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm7O5WJSV0
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVQzqPCqnd
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGuGs1F3El
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnEamq2MQa
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcIko9dm3X
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I'm hyperventilating.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCidEQRAUm
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vIZuzyRKR
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gM6trDTgf
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkq60uUKzU
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYEpzxxnTk
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcuyT3Peil
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"He died."
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