It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaA2X4IwY6B
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDMOTCNeb8
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik66KBA9IF
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobmWDLLHZv
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwELpy2B3X
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZdkV8ztkw
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIT460k8Ge
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgExbSFvjtr
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Oh, well. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnsYuQ8uTl
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UOB5Bhu3a
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphw3BeJfgt
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3EwxjTRiU
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFs6uKS5Xb1
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIrkfJu6mu
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE19ZCgJZug
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5vbJC9s1x
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2PqyMFvku
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tsilNrbYB
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"I—"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgarEb9j67t
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"But—"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhpdaYbHKj
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"You—"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwS3JASBzE
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklX0urhGHJ
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I shut up.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UqtaYgVHN
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Gkn4zuk1L
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfnMWh3wH5
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGucTaBOZC
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbFMKhAZ2L
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I hear him laugh through the phone.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXNvaMFjlX
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"By, Leah."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEuLjhokDp
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"Bye."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTD5Zaiohvv
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLTCSfOuy4
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYW4e1mjak
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflFddQH7tK
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJh0YE7OGh
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdejR6lBLL
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ355u6CG4Bu
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbOYq3WL7H
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTsJyp2DyB
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Well that's an odd offer. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzelIzxNRT
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFguLUfC9F
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUGHCiIAhy
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLU7FdnQAN
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59bbUWEZ48
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"So do I."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLZLIFRuBE
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmsHl25LbU
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBpG8kUmGI
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgE0adxNRN
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"I'm a graphic designer."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbZbi0m4B3
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Well I wasn't expecting that.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedL5TxgV8s
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jkaAnAfNT
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That's more like it.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCrzVNHca3
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXt4vO7ifjk
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iRpm0wWIt
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"Okay. Bye."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlHqSxu1zX
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJUA6FNjGj
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TUdO7EG5N
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9b9263OVLd
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpn833GW7Y
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcqk1ln3Lw
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"Hello. My name is Henry."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4C6HwffEy
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People in the crowd say their greetings.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QwrQE6bfe
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4j3e0627Cw
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He clears his voice, then begins.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BWZoljClW
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"Have you ever been in love?460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1FuUKuz22
Had your soul so deeply entwined460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycUPHllFjz
With another's460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYdJTitHx8
That you cannot figure where yours ends460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUJ9O8u2uH
And theirs begins?460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgsJA3TBRq
So madly and deeply in love460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojwgKKnvWP
That that person's heart beats with yours;460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82r8pF2lxt
Just looking at them is blinding; 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0HAo1N3EI
It's like staring at a supernova 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVNG5BDvZC
But you do it anyway460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhi41GsTyF
Because when she's there460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5fzZK2iZP
Logic and Reason die."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqmUuj7hPg
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPwsVt7O8z
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"Now imagine what it feels like 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh06sH9xN7k
To have that person460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6khdt3PNF
Ripped 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcU4GQTNPTM
From your life;460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5advRuLSb
Torn away from you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQXEwDe5HD
You can't breathe. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSXqzOsukL
You're dead, yet you aren't,460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AryhLnrCW
You still 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNC1KE68F83
Walk460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzKzNDCV0c
Talk460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylfgWivT4T
Interact 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRTPx04K5A
With the people around you,460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXjL9PmpJv
But on the on the inside, 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuKhQKm5T3
You're hollow;460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VwvvnDXXg
Dead."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7Kwd8XY8J
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIMn81tP2B
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"It's been ten years,460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEl9HUsnxB
My love, 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxL4pY5QW7
And every day, 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmDigHnMyn
Every hour, 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9HkrAwBv1
Every second without you 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2YfN9Nekv
Feels like 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomVYPUWQnj
Torture."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xukS9CgeV
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bZ687c88C
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"I would ask for 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4s0JUHwqS
Forgiveness,460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyo4sDgm16
But I can see that you've... 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5lqqtUjzr
Moved on, 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9k5sdyvKI
And found happiness elsewhere. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYq1CLaKxY
And I have to live460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyHXYCnPXW
With the consequences 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8jCWjY35B
Of my stupid actions 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9AwhF4Zp7
For the rest of my life. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboRsEwcmMx
I have to live with this 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDHp2kvxCh
Torture, 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UeYZ0FvSH
This 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtziFVtkVpN
Pain,460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgj5bMk8gM
Because I have never stopped,460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeiJyfser5
Loving 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNBRKVUuBO
You,460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhUn2IVbNl
And I don't think I ever will."460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoLGfOYQVE
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFR0AEMJ1E
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EAiLtLW21
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4qIRpTwJU
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWZvp84FLF
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKow9glNL8
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrVf7KksJF
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgcOgyHLzj
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKA9L2r1Ph
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnrmZ25ZzF
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LE9ec0Rnp
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He doesn't look convinced.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtykDVU9N4
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihykYjxoVA
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60KOJWDXUh
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi7KyyumSx
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBR5jvPi4v
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxn5uF0bU0
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcolwWO5iX1
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I'm hyperventilating.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8bHgNS1nZ
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLPLL1vNr9
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2A99pVRT5
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1wDQn2Bug
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pOdUqXrAP
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFB5e6PRskq
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"He died."
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