Chapter Thirty Six: Unfair life!
Kristen's POV:
It was late at night, but since I had lots of homework to do I was still awake, plus our dear teachers couldn't just leave one day without a quiz or a small test for us.
These days I'm acting like a hard working student and I busy myself with homework and exams, just to not interact with my parents and just to not be reminded of Richard and the problems I have, and so far studying was the only good distraction, besides I had to get into a good university otherwise my parents will kill me and nag me more about it.
I shook my head and narrowed my eyes to concentrate on the current question in my textbook, there's no use of thinking about my problems anyway.
I was trying to solve the Math problem, when suddenly I felt a very sharp pain in my abdomen, my pen dropped from my fingers and I moaned in pain, what the hell?
This is the second time I'm having these kind of pain.
I put pressure on my abdomen and clench my other hand into a fist from pain, seriously what's wrong with me these days? First nausea in the mornings, and now I have this kind of pain.
The pain went away a little and I could breathe with more ease now, There was a knock on my bedroom door, and after a few seconds Bob came in.
"Are you okay?" He asked in his husky protective voice, I nodded my head and removed my hands from my abdomen, looks like he had seen my pale face. He came closer to me and reached out his large hand which was holding a phone, my phone to be exact.
I furrowed my brows from confusion, and stared at Bob for explanation.
"Natalie is on the line.." he explained, and I took the phone from him.
"I'll wait outside" He said, and walked out of my room.
"Natalie?" I said into my phone, feeling relieved I can talk to a person who understands me.
"Yes, Kris. How are you doing girl?" My best friend said, she seemed nervous about our mini exam tomorrow, I knew she might have problems with solving the questions.
"I'm alright I guess! I was busy studying when Bob told me you've called me" I answered, then bit my lower lip, and checked the door to see if Bob can hear me, when I made sure he's not around, I decided to tell my best friend about my sudden pain "Listen Nat, actually I'm having these pains nowadays, and I don't wanna tell my mom since she'll think I'm lying, can you bring me some painkillers tomorrow?"
Natalie was silent for a few seconds, that I almost thought she has hung up, I was about to call her name when she suddenly sighed and talked.
"Kris, when did you last have your period?" Nat's statement made me roll my eyes, but also caught me off guard, when did I last have my period? I can't quiet remember.
"Nat, you know I don't track those things right?" I said in an annoyed voice, she was my best friend after all, she had to know that it's never my habit to track my menstrual cycle.
"That's why I told you many times to install that freaking app for tracking it silly" Nat exclaimed, making me feel uneasy, I shifted in my seat and swallowed the lump in my throat, she isn't thinking of what I think she is, right?
"Umm, what does that have to do with the pains I have?" I mumbled, my best friend snorted and I could imagine her glaring at me, if she was right here.
" I'm asking if you think you're pregnant, Kris. I told you, you should have installed that tracking app."
"I.. I don't know" I furrowed my brows in nervousness and confusion, oh god what if she's right?
"Honey, don't freak out I'll help you, alright?" Nat's voice was almost inaudible for my chaotic mind, but I managed to understand and I nodded my head, then I remembered she can't actually see me.
"A-alright!" I stuttered, I could feel my heart beating furiously in my chest.
"We'll have a sleepover this Saturday at yours, I'm sure your mom won't mind, and I'll bring you a pregnancy test" Nat said, I sighed and I could feel a single tear drop running down my cheek.
"Okay!" I said, and wiped that tear off of my cheeks, what's the point of crying? I don't even know if I'm pregnant for sure, let's not jump to conclusions.
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It was Saturday morning, me and my parents were having breakfast in our garden, I was actually pretending I'm eating, I didn't have much appetite for eating breakfast, I admit I was nervous about Natalie coming to our house, my mom had agreed when I told her, I'm actually more nervous about our plans, if I make sense.
I could hear our front door open and close, and heard our maid talk with another female voice, which was unmistakably Natalie's voice.
My heart clenched in my chest, but I acted calm in front of my parents, didn't want them to suspect something was going on, otherwise I wouldn't be able to have my friend at home too, more like I wouldn't be able to even see the only caring person left in my life.
"Good morning Mr.and Mrs. White" Natalie said in her girly sing-song voice, the good thing was Natalie was a very good actress and my parents loved her very much, and since I was grounded my parents agreed on our sleepover at our house.
"Kris, if you've finished eating let's go watch our movie!" Nat exclaimed a huge fake smile on her face, I nodded and got up from my seat, my mom's suspicious eyes were on me and Nat, but looked like she soon let her suspicions go, which is something I'm grateful for.
Me and Natalie then hurriedly went upstairs to my room, and shut the door, we told Bob we are doing girly stuff such as waxing and picking eyebrows, at first he wanted to come and check on us, but we offered him some waxing so he cringed and said he'll go wait outside, and we can call him if we needed anything.
Natalie game me some weird envelope, which I have never seen before. I furrowed my brows in confusion, and stared at it for a while.
"What's this?" I asked stupidly, Nat rolled her eyes and opened the small envelope, she then took out a small rectangular thing.
"It's your pregnancy test!" she whispered, I swallowed and stared at the rectangular thing again, I never imagined that I'll ever use it in adolescent years, but well it's not like I have made a crime, I was legally married to Richard, and I was genuinely in love with him, and we would have had kids one day, but it's just that maybe not this soon, I'm not even sure if Richard is gonna like the idea of being a father, he already has troubles with one baby.
"H-how do I use this?" I asked my best friend, she sighed and held the rectangular thing in her hands.
"You see these two things?" she asked and I nodded my head, there were two things in it which kinda looked like holes.
"You go to the toilet and put a few drops of your pee on this one, then we'll wait and see the results" she said mumbling the last parts, I sighed and closed my eyes, I'm not ready to see the results.
"What if it was positive?" I asked my best friend, feeling my heart clench again.
Natalie pulled me into a tight hug, and I let her hug me I needed it.
"It's alright, Kris! Let's first see the results then we'll figure out what to do later on" Nat being the wiser one at this moment advised me and I nodded my head.
"I'll be here for you" she said and I nodded into her shoulder again.
She then gave me the pregnancy test, and I went into the toilet after struggling for a while I decided to just do it and get it over with.
I held the pregnancy test in my hand cautiously as I got out of the bathroom, and I walked towards my best friend, I put it on my studying table and I stared at it, already panicking while waiting for the results.
"Calm down Kristen, even if you be pregnant you'll be the best mom ever" Natalie complimented me, making me smile at her sadly.
"Now what?" I asked.
"Now we wait for it, after a few minutes lines will appear, if there are two lines then it's positive, if there is one line then it's negative" Natalie explained.
"So if it's two lines...then I'm pregnant" I mumbled.
"yes" Natalie said, she was holding my hands in her own small hands the entire time we were waiting for the results.
We waited for a few minutes, then Natalie stared at me and nodded her head, that was when I knew I have to face the truth, it's now or never, I walked towards my table, where the pregnancy test was, and I reached out my shaky hands to it.
I closed my eyes, holding the test in hand tightly, then I opened my eyes and stared at the test, on the other hole were the lines are supposed to appear, I saw it. And I felt like my whole world has crashed.
I fell to the ground while holding the test in my hand tightly still.
"What's wrong Kris?" Nat's worried voice could be heard somewhere at the back of my mind, but I wasn't aware of anything, I wasn't aware of my surroundings or of Nat or anything, there was one thing I was worried about and cared for at this moment, this thing which is gonna leave a great impact on my life, it will change it either to a better or worse life.
"I'm pregnant!" I heard myself say, as my vision got blurry and I lost consciousness.
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