Chapter Forty: My stupid destiny!
Richard's POV:
After getting ready, I walked out of my room, I found dad sitting in his usual place in the dining room, reading his usual morning newspaper, with a cup of coffee in his other hand. My mom was sitting opposite to him, she was sipping on a cup of coffee too, and sitting beside them was none other than Sarah.
"Good morning" I mumbled, my mom gave me her usual small smile as he greeted me, my dad greeted me back without staring at me, as for Sarah well she stood up from where she was sitting, and she practically ran towards me and put her arms around me.
Here I was, engulfed in a tight hug by Sarah, the stupid lying bit- okay I won't go there.
Stay calm Richard, stay fucking calm!
"Hey, baby!" she exclaimed, I just mumbled back a 'hey' and that was all, I didn't want to make a scene in front of my father, especially when he was glaring at me, basically to know what my reaction will be to Sarah ( the girl I've had an affair with), I know if I make a scene now he'll keep lecturing me about responsibilities and blah blah blah...
"Richard, honey. Come sit down and have a breakfast before you go, you've been up very early this morning, I'm sure you're hungry" my mom said, as aunt Judy pulled out a chair for me to sit beside my mother, maybe even she knew my current messed up relationship with my father.
"I'm not hungry, mom. Thank you Judy" I gave her a smile, she smiled back and nodded her head.
"Let's go" I told Sarah, and I walked towards the front door, without waiting for her, I could hear Sarah's heel clicking quickly behind me, as she kept calling my name and telling me to slow down, which of course I didn't. I opened the front door and went out of my parent's house, without waiting for Sarah.
"Richard! Slow down please!" Sarah kept calling my name, but I just kept ignoring her, I wanted this day to be over, I just wanted to get over it.
The servants had my car ready, in front of our house. I just grabbed the keys from one of them, and got in, waiting impatiently for Sarah, just as she got in, I hit the gas making my car roar, and we were soon on our way to the doctor's.
I could feel Sarah staring at me now and then out of the corner of eyes, but I ignored her. My hands were on the steering wheel, my eyes fixed on the road, and my mind elsewhere. Somewhere far away, somewhere nice and warm and pretty.
I guess Sarah noticed that I was not in the mood for a chat, or anything else with her for that matter, so she stopped staring at me, and she was looking outside from the window. Which was something I was grateful for, I sighed from relief and kept thinking of that ideal, imaginary place in my mind, the place where I should have taken Kristen to after kidnapping her.
Soon we arrived at the doctor's place, I parked the car somewhere near the clinic, and we both got out.
We went inside, and surprisingly it was full of pregnant woman thankfully my mom told us the doctor was her friend and she has told my mom that we can get inside as soon as we come here, Sarah talked to the receptionist excitedly, but the receptionist said there is a patient inside so we sat down on the waiting area, and waited until the patient was done.
The entire time I kept myself busy with some magazine left on the table right opposite of me, just to not talk with Sarah. The door of the doctor's room opened and it was out turn to get in, I got up with Sarah passing the girl who was inside, and now was talking to the receptionist, just as Sarah was inside followed by me, I was about to close the door when I suddenly saw Kristen's back.
She was walking towards the elevator, so I ran. I could hear Sarah's voice at the back of my mind, but I didn't care. I had to find Kristen. I ran as fast as I could, towards the elevator but just when I reached there it was already closed, without wasting a second, I walked down the long stairs to the ground were floor, my legs were already hurt from all the stairs, but I didn't care. All I wanted was to find Kristen.
By the time I was on the ground floor, panting and out of breathe, I looked around searching for Kristen, but she was nowhere to be found. I ran my hands in frustration and kept looking for her among all those people in this crowded building. Then I saw someone who had brown hair and was wearing the same clothes as Kristen, I ran to catch up with her and when I did I grabbed her arm and turned her around, but it was not Kristen. I furrowed my brows and apologized to her, she glared at her and walked away without saying anything.
Where the hell is Kristen? Did I imagine her? I guess I did, I mean what is she doing in a gynecologist's clinic, right? I have seriously gone crazy, I was already crazy but now I even hallucinate and imagine seeing her.
I went back to the doctor's clinic, Sarah was already inside so I went inside too, while seeing Sarah's warm smile as she was staring at the computer screen at her baby, I couldn't help but smile at her expression too, don't ask me why but I just did, I always had this curiousness , the curiousness of knowing how it will feel like to hold a baby in your abdomen for nine-freaking- months, what made Sarah's smile even wider was hearing her baby's heartbeat for the first time, I know Sarah's lying but her emotions and expression were certainly not fake.
We were in my car again after the doctor was finished with Sarah, I was driving to Sarah's house dropping her off before I went back home.
When we were in front of her house, I waited for her to get out but she was hesitant, I stared at her to know what's wrong, she stared back at me. Then she leaned in, I furrowed my brows in confusion, then it hit me that she wants to kiss me, just when her lips were about to lay on mine, I put my left hand on her shoulder to stop her.
"Get off, Sarah" I hissed, making her flinch, she looked hurt which made me kind of guilty. But that guilt soon disappeared, one day all of this will be over and she will pay for her lies.
"Why do you hate me this much?" she whispered , her eyes becoming wet from unshed tears, I sighed and ran my hands through my already fucked up messy hair.
"Everything about you was a mistake, I regret even dating you. Otherwise I don't hate you Sarah. Now get off..." I answered without looking at her.
"Please" I added.
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