The War Isn't Just Inside
Ah, another wonderful day. This thought rolls through my mind several times while I start my daily tasks. My great king put some urgency on today's task list as if something is wrong. It's just the same guy I normally watch over and other than physical issues, he tends to be alright. Let’s get to it, after I greet my lord for the day. "Good day to you I Am. I hope today, hallelujah is raised high. I will make sure to watch over your dear son today extra hard since you told me today would be bad. Thank you, lord." I tell him before returning to my post to watch over this great person. I arrive to my area and immediately notice an issue. It is sad that this man must endure this type of petty nonsense but let’s see how I can help. Ok, first things first. You are a good friend. All because you cannot constantly give your all for every little thing, does not mean you don’t try. You’re constantly trying, and I love that about you, so keep it up. I hope someday, you’ll gain wings and help someone along like I try to with you. Ok, and second. You are and will always be a good husband. You constantly put in effort to your marriage and you do everything you can to make sure she knows you love her. If you don’t remember, you used to be scared that you loved her more than God, but you were able to realize the truth. If you love her that much, how could you be a bad husband? You need to stop thinking about yourself so low mister. Oh, and third. How could you not be considered a man? How does pushing through all this pain and misery, continuing forward, and striving to make others smile not make you a man. He gave you this gift and then the strength to accomplish it so how are you not a man.395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhnE3fh7Ar
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I wake up to my usual alarm. I don’t need it for anything, but I have it in order to help my wife. I will do anything if it is to help her, so getting up extra early is nothing. She goes through her normal morning ritual of getting ready for work. I am able to get a goodbye kiss as she heads out to work. It makes getting up so much more worth it. Hours go bye and she arrives back home. She rushes in and hugs me tightly. This is a soothing feeling and she professes her apologies and asks me how my day was. “Well, it started off with the darkness creeping in. first you left for work, then a friend calls me so we can hang out. He claimed I was worthless as a friend because I wasn’t mentally fit to drive. Then, when I thought I was in the clear, you called. Well after that whole mess was cleared up, I got a huge feeling of not being a real man. This was flooded out by that calming realization that yes, I am. How could I not be a real man with how much I must overcome. Its amazing how much my guardian angel has been watching over me today. It made me praise the lord often for what he has done.” I proceed to explain to her.
While nodding my head in triumph at my man’s confession to his wife, I get a notice. He is about to be attacked bad. I smirk, shaking my head. “Darkness, my old friend. You will have to try again. My lord wants him and is far more merciful and gracious than your petty tricks can overcome. You think making him question God will cause him to fall? Guess again buddy.” I shout out at the floor. Ok, so let’s make your lovely wife hug and comfort you. Oh, and let’s have a random friend call you just for giggles and to say hi. Let’s also have your mother call to chat. All this should warm your heart and help you to see right and as a just in case. I am going to drown your in the relaxing knowledge that God does want you and doesn’t feel your worthless. He has a plan for you. Just to further help, so you fully know God has your back, lets get you to go to a counselor for some good advice. I crack my knuckles and lean back in my chair. “All in a good day’s work with the king to watch over us.” I say out loud with a smile.395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtolawKPNoG
I am suddenly overcome by the nagging feeling that I am so worthless, and God would never want me. This feeling is almost immediately washed away with a calming realization. If he wouldn’t want me, why would he do so much for me. I tell my wife about the feeling and after some discussion, we come to a choice. I would go see a therapist and talk to someone about these negative thoughts I have. After an amazing appointment and then just an amazing rest of the day, I call my wife to tell her. This excites her which also makes me feel good.395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LzPfMGyhz
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Ok guys. This is a story that is mostly true. I really did go to a therapist, and he really did tell me some great things. One of which was to write a story as if the angel and demon were fighting on my shoulders. I know I didn’t do a great job, but the point is still there. He wanted me to go about these problems in a different way. That being said, yes, these are issues I really have. It definitely has helped to go about these issues in this way and I’ve raised my hallelujah a lot because of this. Just remember to keep the faith, trust God, and pray. Take care y’all!
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