於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0n7NaQ25v
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2otWhZsLBE
青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvjVYimNoC
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKGn8EqopS
之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipVg1bWGUA
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1Po62aBBN
「好耐冇見。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlE54u4XCUm
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSanA2Edqs
「係。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSBq0yWIhk
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKFZQVCmSf
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32PavAcROL
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrf4Q45on3X
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EbiPEOjQh
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV026c9TsFN
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqPvY2ICn1
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskua0b75fO
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4Tfg2KRXz
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLoglhVjNG
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IjYCxoYms
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWcMp0zYY3
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcqi0g1YnD
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EDmXc5tXQ
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhm6NVdAzXs
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbcEzwaZau
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiCQldQCRu
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsD67GoKf7
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLyLGf40Wp
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBIYbY1McF
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiL0FAL580
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPZzfsVpOA
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pOUq6ocgP
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme5YyKZLOR
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2MPYO7OWt
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOfgqxTVGh
對。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZM3hyV6FZt
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsUs08mme1
她有些不一樣了。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbsxOuAlhz
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEn1J8kyShg
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLn2PYEIyEf
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9lHbEDVUu
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMGUWKhDch
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5DI8zSH4H
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nm3gf4XOe
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0DBUl12v0
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpd2YaiOeSQ
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7cINybn86
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdyg5BwWQX
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iJuWKO1nx
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4foW7zWIw
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOk3xCNqP4
Matt有些錯愕地回握：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfVfCACWFe
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YdinPuEkB
「你都係。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYpANnhcR7
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTPSMIOFy0
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2tQHtAK4t
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zRWPmvhbz
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYmLK2Kyjd
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyu2x0Aggp
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhNuMMugE0
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuE4wEDHlSe
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OItI1S2Lu
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnOsnl9VAh
屌，失戀啫——691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwe4R7yR70
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKN0ZS1hQv5
但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEv40RhGnq
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSJolEqgTT
好痛。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8bcvbnq7i
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5Vtvcy04N
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB7RGEoPE4
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TUc7NX8vP
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5tAUhbnUu
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5eewVjBHD
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnZpvU0Q1s
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetSeT5vxD4
- - -691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurQxWyOKsI
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoL20JSA7l1
夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8O99Ldui2n
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdM0tDGL880
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVuID0vTRR
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeGA2S2aFh
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pgbcIrThR
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AXuzw04c8
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qwfTInkIC
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BqaW2fIc4
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04wI4kn6rm
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb91aSpiEYR
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvMnMdW9CD
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6c3m3jpeS
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0PRSWUUYK
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1oGtUK0Vt
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NTyTMGDO4
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6AAiy9c73
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g37PawB6j
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdfX5k14J3
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOGuDQ1Itf
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqZfhvMWyC
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vWzSEgM1i
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHyg9kwcHp
「快啲許願啦。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGv4Yti1aU
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiPYts2Zgy
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU53ynyd00
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfji3mVM9ns
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡni0M8vnsHH
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8dsBFSceO
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrnfxVZC9R
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXctAGs1TT
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOqIIHAPtD
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFAhcqVhAA
她看着鏡子。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5Sllvy5K8
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1M5P0qcX9
一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYd8bgn6wGV
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPV2ltFplT
我都要證明，我有本事。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcphBf4Aqx9
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMSpXLaSD2
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDub02dcHH
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXEwebDHbV
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCZooFHANi
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LNNDUMMor
她出來，整個人都很香。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgcrBvbYy5
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOGOKFaX3T
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrDQuu0Lt3
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhCel6b4LU
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUH2WxgIkP
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDqB9JD7yn
「你咁迷信咩？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE3t3UmIVy
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisKcuAV4NV
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMku678Pr86
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOYzAlPyeo
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbNlPttsLf
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMypjkjKlEk
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrsmop6mXQ
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIRp9DUJRN
「吓話？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdo7i3PdgaK
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4idAK74c0
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4NqrogBd9
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkd7wsIkJww
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lemb8hSim
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLknODR2CR
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCA47wMr1ZR
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF9O0kgNy3
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPCFURR3dC
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fmbzdrdmB
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDTHB5A0tT
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ1ZOsymBG
後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurdx63BATn
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbolh3z7Ra
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTrzSehziB
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHtJdeHysS
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM39drE70D3
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsQSCkh101
我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好，我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈，至少喺我呢度，我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷，然後呢？佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人？並且仲要繼續同個女仔過？仲繼續鍾意佢？仲因為佢，所以唔要我……691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpE7xPJyXp9
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeoaWeMJOV
我好難受……691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzaaWnX4wx
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER9A1jqXga
我真係有咁唔好咩……」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PwGxfXKl5
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPq5oWx9jz0
Penana
search
Loginarrow_drop_down
Registerarrow_drop_down
