於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEZnVOWugF
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxQkXwyzTC
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZ8zzYcLdh
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMnB0asspj
「好耐冇見。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNofP07s23H
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvIFA3rBpH
「係。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbGnrZhKJK
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaMk8VFGNu
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfeIIAGXeB
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHkh3CVHJy
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFR9XwOxtp
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHeFFRvoWE
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorDumd9GOt
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjax8xMS0l5
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmt0ufMulS
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqItK7ymDlY
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEeSTNELhO
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxtRpbcmPj
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjxV9yGKJS
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5X9uvTMiPk
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAUUg9SZmC
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuVW4QUIle
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFpPs7LIQ8
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3TPqBL91W
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZ66JF3vtz
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSRVX0tzTV
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzJznZMitJ
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu48yxrcoa
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FDYCoFuBv
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVm0AtsEH8q
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBG35Pv9Md
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對。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrv2nqNyk2
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PK5UQgWSl
她有些不一樣了。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPjAWKXZOA
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjU9ZeXn9wU
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBD6PIPpedv
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67OIsfnIei
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuLYcTmfI0
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0VWvXbVnX
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6C3fEXDD3Y
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wnVpBYgyE
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7wDDTvQ6T
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn58JXADnsi
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJT5p8DGsl
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ078tiDI62A
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wGuckPxQX
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW8wmsQK3W
Matt有些錯愕地回握：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AVyp8YYFl
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wvNyjb6wJ
「你都係。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0eNTLhLfu
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuElSW1EZPw
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVu3EFvEUqZ
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavNfCXl4vp
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLjKRThHue
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5BPKP1sc6
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOv7FeHpDl
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZlWRu13lo
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Kh0AIUurg
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdCp6tzRP3
屌，失戀啫——636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1JgBdYRTH
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnbX21lSrq
但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCSCGrhDAq
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq85ttVkS6C
好痛。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZyO75n1nn
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvM2ZmpDW2p
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VPEVZ2MhQ
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28T7c8GBYY
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNegsZRVct
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ7XPzcWmA
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMqwNGFZ2v
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636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEWjZeFQrp
夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevcVyTEQIS
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHLQgI3xGv
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zW5osZ724
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy11E88iZc
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLeEhbHKqg
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75NEAyHyZ2
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5UGbMEbDa
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCViym5jX0U
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEk4ufhijn
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76oXplnhYh
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZx2N53sLag
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq2WvmKAXm
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YZVxwFpkp
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhwrfjwOjD
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnnXUNgMe6
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1tAmBlJCu
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eL22WUJp1
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyktOYUtKp
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnqXxPWIsm
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67WHXqMJxS
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71jB9nSYQu
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuGpKqBMr7
「快啲許願啦。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzOE0QElym
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwu6vXL1yUB
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRitTecF5K6
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eOKdvKKNn
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfk2b1mZ0US
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mnVTiwgKs
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTghZ2gasr8
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkUOKfqaUa
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKM3TCMLYn9
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdusPX8wgC
她看着鏡子。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOMpJExF96
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一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERn263fdGo
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wMlaaRxUM
我都要證明，我有本事。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHcfBs6pHb
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS360hOiC1
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKBQcreUJI
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡondF2n29jf
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NMnKh4fma
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbebkfk0anl
她出來，整個人都很香。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzb8NpFh2I
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjJyXnV3b5
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZny781gqBq
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXLG08kE94
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupggR8lDSz
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3N9RLMpJKn
「你咁迷信咩？」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUm7q8XqAk9
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FT5fLhWMs
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusi79jTk3z
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoynw1xLM8
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XPdB7b96L
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBvtXLefBn
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdS0oZP1nkf
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfglteMxAn
「吓話？」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrOEhtbMBE
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQzYNYpNsc
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6mZZQ9Rp2
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wHqPeCoDp
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6m5B10yGt0
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP58s1VyYho
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFaWIm0Ytd
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvjr4dCU5L
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaau3Q5exf
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPQufSZ3eZ
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dcqOorrdh
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITtpi7aixA
後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Cl9GF8zok
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtNm2ssBFj
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnPmILh2g6
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJEw19bVRD
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HPnAJAz3l
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUGkpDZXi0
我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好，我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈，至少喺我呢度，我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷，然後呢？佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人？並且仲要繼續同個女仔過？仲繼續鍾意佢？仲因為佢，所以唔要我……636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2ugbsfgCF
636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Hbt0X77fj
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