阿樂突然跑去廁所,跪在馬桶前一下下地嘔,聲音像要挖出心肝脾肺腎;青青跟過去,掃掃他的背,又出去斟了一杯温水給他。481Please respect copyright.PENANA9147yL6xaD
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他接過,沒有喝下,只保持跪姿抬頭、定神看她,看了好久好久。他的眼睛因酒醉與嘔吐而通紅和濕潤,像哭泣一樣,他這樣腥辣地盯着她,像是在控訴一切的罪魁禍首是她。481Please respect copyright.PENANA0FvUPRDASr
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她再平靜,也想起了Tim少說的話,內疚而不忍:481Please respect copyright.PENANAzQiE9hA4Qn
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「快啲飲啖啦,你喉嚨會唔舒服。」481Please respect copyright.PENANArWQL8vyMAA
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她想轉身出去,但他捉住了她的手腕。481Please respect copyright.PENANAB96QrWbx9g
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兩秒後,他站起來喝下,他們擠在同一個廁所裏。481Please respect copyright.PENANAXZfe4cA6Z7
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阿樂嘔完,沒有原先難受,又清醒了一點;但仍然借醉,擁抱了青青,將重量放在她的身上,包括那二十一克的靈魂。481Please respect copyright.PENANAMh7cy4fQRn
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「喂——」481Please respect copyright.PENANAm8zvt2R1Kz
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青青皺眉,想要推開他;他作環抱狀擁得更緊,沉沉地說:「我有啲暈。」481Please respect copyright.PENANAGTi4bVmZrj
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他語帶哭腔,像哀求,又像撒嬌,整個人都變得異常温糯。481Please respect copyright.PENANAm5RpLRpTu6
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她沒有再郁動,就這樣埋在他的胸口處,只說:481Please respect copyright.PENANAP8o0ayVkLm
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「沖杯茶俾你?或者你早啲休息?」481Please respect copyright.PENANANJdMrrmNDH
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「唔洗,等陣先。」481Please respect copyright.PENANAlPLHHuUlFz
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然後,阿樂就這麼一直抱住青青,突然內心一陣悲慟湧出,因為他知道,連這一個擁抱,都只是偷來的,他沒有名、沒有責、沒有義去擁抱她,要不是他妥協般的聲線沙啞地一陣哀求,根本不能將她擁入懷裏……481Please respect copyright.PENANA32WwR1RNB0
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終於,阿樂放開青青;她抬頭:481Please respect copyright.PENANAQmc3dMN68V
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「好啲啦?」481Please respect copyright.PENANAoNcxcKxsd1
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「嗯,我想食餐蛋麵。」481Please respect copyright.PENANA9lONUbnbvT
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阿樂知道,青青是一個受軟不受硬的人,他若吟吟地向她撒嬌,她必然妥協。481Please respect copyright.PENANAVG0QRsEAMM
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「好。」481Please respect copyright.PENANA5XCutonicG
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阿樂跟在青青的身後,擔了一張椅子坐下。從側身看去,見到她趷腳開櫃,拿下罐頭和即食麵,再開始煮食。481Please respect copyright.PENANAE9gyPzuOqf
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他就這樣清晰又迷糊地看她,看她開火、下油,煎、翻、煮、攪。481Please respect copyright.PENANAaUDtfpCnL4
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「落唔落麻油?」481Please respect copyright.PENANAlrTLpT6Bnk
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她轉身,頭向他坐着的方向,問;他輕輕的點頭。481Please respect copyright.PENANAwGoBgWland
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然後,她將麵拿出餐桌:481Please respect copyright.PENANAlFezJ4Jgkr
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「以後唔好飲咁多,睇住身體。」481Please respect copyright.PENANAqm2KuVq65d
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他點頭,再扯開話題:481Please respect copyright.PENANAn2aOIswKl1
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「揾日我哋去街好冇?」481Please respect copyright.PENANAAKTCNBG9wT
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阿樂要約青青出去,不能再困在有間隔的屋內上演平行時空,Tim少說感情是流動的,要有來有往,不要上演自我感動的戲碼。481Please respect copyright.PENANAvbql57Un8l
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「好。」481Please respect copyright.PENANAe1mJyneSND
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青青已想通,既然她本身對阿樂有好感,不如一試,嘗試看看二人有沒有可能;機會若然流失,就此錯過。481Please respect copyright.PENANAaTkGPPDNMe
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何況,她已經無法喜歡Matt了。481Please respect copyright.PENANAETJlgOEd7t
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她不否認自己愛他,只是,不喜歡他了;如此,這一種愛也會慢慢消逝。481Please respect copyright.PENANAZSsdn5vCzm
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Matt傷害了青青的自尊,嚴重地。481Please respect copyright.PENANALcFSRktW0Z
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他既不喜歡她、又喜歡別人;既借辭暗示她是這段感情的過錯方,又欺瞞她變心的真相,如非最後她問,他根本不會提記,只像什麼都沒發生過一樣欺瞞她。原本一直陪伴身旁的人離棄了她,她感到十分受傷。481Please respect copyright.PENANAsRmZh1GuOf
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直到現在,她還覺得是自己的問題:481Please respect copyright.PENANAmj1VM3CQOf
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係咪我唔夠好?係咪我冇能力令留住你?481Please respect copyright.PENANANoUFaVbmxv
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係咪我俾你嘅印象太恐怖,就算你變咗心都唔敢同我講?係咪你覺得我好唔掂,所以就算傷害我,你都唔會覺得內疚?或者,呢一份內疚微弱到唔會影響你嘅所有所有?481Please respect copyright.PENANAs6pjdbAyzB
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係唔係?481Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZVjaKd2NZ
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是?不是?不、不,無論如何。481Please respect copyright.PENANACKS0SbcaG5
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總之,青青若對Matt心懷喜歡,她就會覺得自己很低賤。481Please respect copyright.PENANAWfKs531O8F
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因為Matt已是別人的男人,熱情都在別人眼中熊熊燃燒,青青不過難堪地、被新鮮而有魄力的火焰波及,可是她已是那一吹即散的、無意義的灰燼。481Please respect copyright.PENANAWEYIuDCNpn
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感覺像,Matt向青青走來,要求交歡,她心歡喜自覺袒胸露乳,他正攤開手伸向她的胸膊,卻忽然將手指並攏,以指甲插穿她的皮肉、急躁地挖出她的心來,用力捏碎它,無視那種鮮活,不管當中對他的無窮情意;然後輕輕轉身,彷彿她的祼露、她的傷感,都與他無關。481Please respect copyright.PENANADgXTjRjm6X
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感情是流動的,要有來有往,不要上演自我感動的戲碼。481Please respect copyright.PENANATm6WMBn6Fc
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青青對阿樂有一種不能言說的抱歉,因為,她在想要不要給大家一次發展的機會時,心裏想的人,並不是他;而且,她也不確定自己對阿樂的感情。但她有種念頭,覺得,如果一切都好好地進行下去,說不定她真的會喜歡他。481Please respect copyright.PENANAPvDa0GimbR
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他們很夾。481Please respect copyright.PENANAynE6oapFgK
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她喜歡和他相處,她不抗拒他的擁抱,甚至剛才他緊抱她不放的時候,她竟然有些感動。她分不清這是心動,還是因寂寞而無法撒手的一種温暖。481Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3tYDS4XvL
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即使,他對她是如此如此地好,但她總是猶豫,她又暗暗地質疑他並非很喜歡自己。481Please respect copyright.PENANAIpFHrzHQ6M
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猶豫過後,她想,應該要試一試。481Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1yfMLyU99
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追求之事,不應過早談得失,二人都是。481Please respect copyright.PENANAv7NvlvBNO6
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阿樂高興,雖然他得到的資訊只是一句「好」、只是她肯和他出去玩,別人看來可能是小事,但只有他知道這一句「好」,而非「唔好」的意義是什麼。481Please respect copyright.PENANAoAVJhG661a
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除了代表她不抗拒與他共處外,還代表他開始正式追求她,她也不會再回絕他的好意。481Please respect copyright.PENANAcMIxovprxb
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更重要的是,他清楚知道,這代表她願意放過自己,不再自我束縛,嘗試給他加入她的生命裏。481Please respect copyright.PENANAvdPB8sRYmx
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阿樂又想起Tanya,他想問Tanya:481Please respect copyright.PENANAwqh0UuDVUZ
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「其實你有冇諗過、我哋有機會可以一齊?而唔係永遠都只可以做好朋友?有冇諗過俾呢個機會我?定係由一開始就知道,一定冇可能?」481Please respect copyright.PENANAdAQ6b9KSOD
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至今,阿樂也不知道答案——因為他沒敢問,卻仍然非常介意;然後他又望一望青青,沒來由地笑一下。481Please respect copyright.PENANA3HcmhnXOiC
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至少,這次,阿樂覺得有個人願意肯定自己的用心,而非強行將他安放到一個「最佳位置」,若實現最大可能性,能夠不只做一個大將軍。481Please respect copyright.PENANAY9jjdV420k
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對,至少,青青有這一份考慮,無論最後結果如何,他都覺得比以前好。481Please respect copyright.PENANARJB6csZsFK
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他稍為心安。481Please respect copyright.PENANAI2BFfqKnfo
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如果最後青青真的和他在一起,生命似添亮色,他就會很開心。481Please respect copyright.PENANAHeX6xKHKAq
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但其實誰沒有了誰,也能夠好好活下去,481Please respect copyright.PENANAa2wdXaZAgW
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只要身體健康。