彼時，青青正在阿樂的屋裏，無聊度日。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IixJ3AKcO
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不用上學，又因為武漢肺炎疫情，大學的實體活動取消了，兼職也暫時擱置。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5Hi4iJb8h
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無聊，就真是一個好機會去胡思亂想，青青會對着電腦打文，然後發呆，可能一個小時只打了幾句，因為她會上YouTube看食物ASMR，聽着聽着就十分專注地看別人在吃，她什麼都沒有做，只將時間浪費。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZt1805NgE
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她心裏沒有可以愛的人，就算想找些事去寄托，也未如人事，總有種迷糊的感覺。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPSuHR8wfy
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作為失戀者，她的記憶落在最美好的瞬間，不知為什麼，只是懷念起從前開心的時光，總是止不住地感動，這令她對過往更加着迷；即使她失望於愛人的離去，仍然忍不住回味最初的快樂。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21Vgb2XMO3
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但她拒絕這一種回憶的襲來，因為傷心只會尾隨而至。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3JXcxmHw5
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青青乾脆躺在床上玩電話，來回掃遍連登、Facebook、Instagram，連建議帖文都看了一遍遍，不斷刷新。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MxbMhfJkS
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然後，她聽見客廳有聲響——阿樂回來了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1O57LN0diX
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她起身，出門打一聲招呼，卻看見一個女生在阿樂身後慢慢地除鞋。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5DQ98XBX8
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阿樂看見青青，他站在兩個女生的中間，突然覺得客廳很局促，空間似在無限地縮小。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0z2h1q7aL
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其實剛才他已預想這個情景，原本覺得，最多是有些尷尬，因為Tanya就會知道他在和另一個女生同居。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2BBM4AHCI
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但此刻，他覺得困窘，原因是自己可能會被青青鄙視吧——519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAxFpaZelN
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明明這段時間都說喜歡青青、追求她、對她好，甚至不過昨天還向她求愛；然後今天，帶昔日女神回家。說得多麼、多麼真誠，甚至用暴烈的情緒佐證，但此刻，卻像在告訴青青一切都是謊言。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxW0ljfG6D
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青青會不會以為他在示威？是為了氣她才這樣做？但他不是。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWptzRhBU9D
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這一種真心話被揭穿的慚愧令他無地自容。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HgCxjsHnj
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想到此處，一刻，阿樂完全靜止，他的眼落在青青的臉上，他們不發一言地對視，阿樂的臉因難堪越來越紅。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjbhRdeXky
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青青看見阿樂像Lag機一樣，她也有些尷尬，為着她這不知所措的多餘；只好踏步向前，和Tanya打個招呼：「Hi！」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsagZ1O48r
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Tanya一邊打量青青，一邊對青青微笑，又行到阿樂旁邊：519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01FK2YLfic
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「樂仔，快啲介紹吓我哋啦。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzjV4uNB1E
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阿樂反應過來，向青青攤手：「佢係青青，係——我阿媽嘅朋友嘅女，有啲事嚟住幾日。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8z4rICyLfg
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青青聽了阿樂的描述，頓了一頓，幾秒後突然釋懷，又向Tanya點點頭。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jalSvkEfg
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阿樂續向Tanya攤手，道：「呢個係Tanya，我朋友。」Tanya正仔細看青青的五官，又對青青說：519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbRjv5aZmK
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「同樂仔住係咩感覺啊？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbIPcZ7X9u
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青青看一眼阿樂，思考怎樣答Tanya才對大家都好：519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbmYlTyd9W
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「冇咩特別啦，咪又係咁過，我哋都係識咗一陣啫。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXE893w5fWV
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其實，當青青看到Tanya的第一眼，她已經猜到這就是阿樂的女神。Tanya美麗，奶茶色的斜瀏海下，小臉十分明艷，眼尾上揚，牙齒整齊潔白，笑容非常有感染感力。青青又看到阿樂一動不動的呆，這一種凝滯，應該是女神才能帶給他的吧……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGCtxK3HnY
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Tanya直覺氣氛有些奇怪，故試探地對青青說：519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNLfQCrQht
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「都辛苦你呢段時間睇住阿樂啦。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51DFB2CHdW
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青青戴着近視眼鏡，穿着居家的睡衣，頭髮因躺在床上而散亂，Tanya卻認為她看起來還不錯，就是氣息有點差；這一點，不知為何，就是引起Tanya內心隱隱的不適，莫名其妙地。尤其當Tanya看見，阿樂整個人都靜止了，直覺引起她微微的——519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjzuwxJlsf
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嫉妒？擔心？危機感？認為原屬她的東西，有機會被人奪去了？519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQhOakFJ6m
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「唔會啊，都冇點睇住。唔阻你哋啦，我入房做嘢先。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04ZbQFApzp
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青青聽得出Tanya的意思：Tanya想確認青青對阿樂的態度。Tanya以「女主人」的語氣來測試青青會否反感，但凡看出青青感到不妥，Tanya的戒心只會加重。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCNAWecIos
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青青不想惹事，只想逃離，何況，其實她和阿樂又沒有什麼關係。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Hl0mgNw9W
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她向阿樂和Tanya欠一欠身，回房；關門後，她長舒一口氣。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIHWcj1rGr
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第一個反應，當然是愕然。明明阿樂說喜歡青青，但轉頭又與Tanya見面，更將她帶回家。瞬間，青青異常疑惑，又有一些委屈地想：不知道為什麼，總沒有男人能喜歡她很久——519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGsFiC9eWs
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她笑了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcN9jZVphT
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但下一秒，青青又覺得不出奇。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsiATvQ5dj
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她知道阿樂很喜歡Tanya，青青聽他講過為Tanya做的事，她這旁觀者都動容。這樣的女神和不過如此、又不接受他的青青，阿樂當然更對Tanya更有渴求，他根本未有放下。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOFc3Ml5bc
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而且，青青一直覺得阿樂並不是很喜歡她，這仿佛是一個美麗的誤會。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kBdqed4n6
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最後，青青釋然。此前，她的心頭一直有點內疚，始終她有份誤導阿樂，令他追求她、失落、憤怒、傷心，她也不是無辜的。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBdN3w1oT5
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這一種愧疚的感覺，就在此刻自私地悄然流逝，她說服自己，其實阿樂只是「剛巧」喜歡她，換個別人和他在一起愉快相處，可能他也會出現情感的投射，這個人，不需要是她。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV9zWaNwY6
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而阿樂，根本未放下Tanya，她的存在很難複制，他的每一次心動就變得很模糊。說到底，他最愛的也是Tanya。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Vu44zIo67
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青青放心，安慰自己，她的惡行終於停止。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrusTGAVag3
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她沒有覺得阿樂是「狗公」、隨便喜歡、隨便求愛。因為他們都需要時間和經歷去成長、確認自己的情感，有時也會迷失，被當下的環境氣氛來催化自己的情愫。一如她自己，也曾經認為可以與阿樂嘗試發展。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhLuX4OE9D
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算了吧，平手，打和，Super。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jQIW335iD
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他們都幼稚，說到底，清楚自己想要什麼，從不是易事。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEh3EWvC0s
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青青的心情馬上好了很多。至少，若然想念Matt，她的負罪感也會減輕，再沒有愧對他人，她只愧對自己。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4qmsFEzxe
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Tanya問阿樂：「做咩木口木面嘅你？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AV8hjBvJi
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「冇啊，突然屋企多咗個靚女，唔適應咋嘛。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6CUpbtg3F
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阿樂回神，又如常誇獎她；他發現，就算很久沒有講這些滑頭的話，還是很流利，Tanya一出現就打開了這個開關。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡravLVS4Zlo
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「係咩，你屋企唔係不嬲都有個靚女咩？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnCG1x1Waj
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Tanya的眼㬓向青青的房間，挑一挑眉。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDf6AepZVS
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「OK啦，哈哈。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUserGjngE
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阿樂有種受審的感覺，只得乾笑幾聲，不知怎樣應答。原本，他想向Tanya說「唔夠你靚」，良心卻忽然譴責他，叫他不要太過分了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBoUL0q5bp
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