Joshua and I first met when I was still in foster care. We were so young but I remember perfectly , other children used to bully me and he always protected me. I only stayed in that mad house for 2 years before Elena's parent's adopted me. Joshua protected me and gave me courage, for a girl who just lost everything he became my everything. When I was adopted , Joshua told me to keep in touch and I did. We started to grow up and in the end at age 16 we finally got together. But Joshua took some wrong turns and started to work for bad people. He tried to leave me out of it but I never wanted him to face loneliness ever again. So I went to Vegas and asked for work. No one would want an underage brat , but one day a lady told me she would teach me to dance and that one day It would come in handy. In fact it did , in two years I was one of the best dancers in Vegas. Joshua kept heading for the darkness so I worked my ass off and in a few months I handed everything I owned to Josh's employers, but never expected what would come. The fucken bastards ordered Joshua to take my clothes off and have fun with me in front of them , if he did that he would be free. I laughed at first as if the kind Joshua would even try to touch me, that's were I learned to not be so fucken naive. He ripped my clothes off and tried to fuck me but I kept struggling , Joshua thought me to fight throughout the years so I kept a fair fight but then he grabbed a knife and the last thing I know was that I was in hospital and Joshua behind bars. I visited him often but he never wanted to see me , after all he did to me I still loved him. After that I got back on my feet and danced throughout Vegas , I repaid Joshua's dept and got shit loads of money for myself. No one knew about that except for Elena.
" I heard you repaid my depth that time." Joshua whispered.
We where on our way to Vegas , back to that shit hole, back to the times I feared for my life so badly just because I was born a girl and my Joshua was never there to save me again.
I shrugged.
" I still love you." He said.
" Sure you do Josh."
I heard him sigh but I kept my eyes outside the window. If he really loved me he would never take me back to that place.
" Look , if you help me with this , I will leave you alone."
I couldn't believe my ears , I turned around to face him.
He caught me off guard and kissed me.
" God I missed you."
He put a hand on my thighs.
For fuck sake , I missed him too.
But it was too late.
I removed his hand.
" You had your chance Josh , you had my life in your hand and look where that got me."
Josh shook his head.
" You wouldn't understand."
" What wouldn't I understand Josh , I did everything for you , I even learned to dance like fucken whore. And what you do ? When I was dancing , you got my instructor pregnant."
He shrugged.
" She attacked me , you must be thank full I didn't turn her in for abusing an underage guy."
I couldn't believe my ears.
" What about me?"
" What I did with you was always real."
He grabbed my chin and grinned.
I shook my chin from his grasp.
This is getting worse.
" If you really loved me , you wouldn't have stripped me and cut my stomach in two."
" That was a mistake , they gave me something to drink and it went to my head."
I laughed once.
" And you think I would believe you?"
I turned to him and he cupped my face.
" I would never hurt you."
" You already have."
I pulled his hands off and turned away.
Deep down , I know Joshua had a huge part of my heart. But when Brett appeared in front of me all of Joshua disappeared. The way he touched me , the way he looked into my eyes the way he kissed me all gave me life. When Joshua kisses me he takes my life.
" About that kid."
" Which one?"
" Brett."
Shit he knew his name.
" What about him?"
" You really didn't recognize him?"
I turned to look at him and he sighed.
" Damn your memory must be hazy. He was one of Dan's favorite fighters."
My eyes went wide.
" What ?"
" Yeah , he was the one who stopped me from killing you that time and he was the one who sent me to prison."
My eyes stung.
Brett. It was thank to him I was still alive. Why wouldn't he even tell me ?
Damn that Brett.
" I must say when I saw him , I was so pissed. But then I remembered he saved you so I let him go."
Joshua's face blurred.
Shit I am about to cry.
" In 14 years I have known you , you only cried when your parents were involved and this time."
I wiped my eyes.
" I cried everyday you went to prison."
His eyes went wide.
Brett. My sweet Brett.
God, I miss him.
Even when Joshua the guy who almost killed me , the man who changed my life , the man who put all my walls up , the man who's fault I lived the way I did. Brett's face calms me.
" Dan payed your bail." I said.
" Yeah."
" So it must be one hell of a sum."
" 15K"
" Shit."
" Yeah."
" So I need half a year to get all that money, after that I don't want to see your face again Josh. Keep out of Vegas and find a life."
Joshua stayed quiet for a while but then he responded with a simple Okay.
Half a year away from everyone. Please wait for me. Please accept me once more.
Brett please , don't forget about me.
Brett.
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