Authors pov
its nearly midnight in thailand but mix hasnt got out of his room..since his parents left he cried hardly and went inside the damn room..they tried to get him out but not a single noise came..plan wasnt there too , he was with alex but no one knew it , they knew that resort is where he usually stays ..so they dont bother him..
meanwhile in the resort
Plan : are you okay?
Alex : i dont know where he is , is he even alive? is he lost? is he happy? what is he doing? where are they?
Plan : alex , calm down..
Alex : it started from me!! i shouldnt have done it!
Plan : i said calm down!!
Alex : hmm..
Plan : lets go..(stands up)
Alex : ha?
Plan : lets go! (grabs alex's hand)
Alex : where?
Plan : somewhere , where there is peace
Alex : okay?
they both didnt have a normal friendship. they teased each other. they play hit each other. they called each others names. but underneath that anyone could see how much they cared because if you listen closely after every ''shut up'' there was an ''i love you'' inside it. they got inside plan's car and plan started driving..something rises in plan's throat - anger , confusion , hurt , bile. he feels like he might cry...
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Alex pov
he started driving..i was confused..where are we going? plus its nearly midnight now, whatever i will just listen to him.. he suddenly stopped the car. he killed the engine , released his seatbelt and took a deep breathe. we were in a pitch dark place ..i cant see anything
Alex : what is this place?
Plan : come out (bluntly)
he just bluntly said me to come out and he grabbed me out and he just walked..i followed him.. i suddenly saw some light peeking out of somewhere..plan was walking towards it , i followed him and my eyes sparkled seeing the view..i could see the whole city from here...how did he drive here? it was the most beautiful view i have ever seen..it was peaceful , i now know why he comes here..
Alex : there is no one here?
Plan : no one comes here...its just me all the time..
Alex : why?
Plan : you saw the road and the surrounding..
Alex : so you are the only one who comes here?
Plan : yeah , probably..
Alex : plan?
Plan : yeah?
Alex : did you forgive me?
Plan : (silent)
Alex : plan.. (tears)
Plan : mean..(tears)
his returning hug sqeezed all the air out of me.. he called me ''mean'' after a long time.. i feel like my heart will explode..
Alex : i am sorry , please forgive me! i cant lose you..
Plan : you wont mean..
my eyes closed , focusing on the feel of him. the smell of him. remembering once i never feared anything when i was with him..why cant i get over him? i know he doesnt like me like that. i know that he doesnt have feelings for me. i am obsessed with him. i am stuck between letting go and holding on hoping and hoping that he will find those feelings for me. i am hoping that after knowing that i like him like that he will finally realize that he does too. i am obsessed with plan. i think about him more and more everyday than he has thought of me his entire life. its hard. it sucks and i dont even know how i can fix it. i hate that i cant find the beauty in someone else but it doesnt seem to exist.
Plan : dont cry mean..i am here..are you okay?
Alex : no , i am not..i was just thought about how we have drifted apart and now people are saying we ''hate'' each other! our families have turned against each other , and even worse is we were turned against each other! never did i think we would meet again! i saw you standing in mix's house that night!..
Plan : when i was three , i was alone playing in the sand when you came to me and said ''besties''! i never thought we would despise each other. when we would always have those little arguments to laugh as we got older..
Alex : promise me that you will always remember me
Plan : dont make me promise that mean..
i looked down , hurt.
Plan : because only people who are leaving promise it..i will never leave you again mean..i will not repeat the mistake mean..
Alex : (smiles)
Plan : do you regret it?
Alex : what?
Plan : i dont know..
his voice shook..
Plan : everything..
he was quiet for a moment. heat flooded my cheeks. i finally opened my mouth to lie saying that i forgot him but he finally said..
Plan : just because we didnt work out , it doesnt mean you werent the best thing that ever happened to me. because you were..
Alex : did you love me that much?
Plan : yes.
Alex : how much?
Plan : does it matter?
Alex : why does it not?
Plan : because it wasnt enough to make you stay.
Alex : i dont deserve you..
i whisper and he suddenly pulled me by my waist..
Plan : how dare you say that?
he replied breathlessly ..
Alex : i dont. you are so amazing and caring and someone like me doesnt deserve someone like you..
i assure him, his grip tightening on my waist. he is too pure and too sweet to love me, as i fear. yet, i have already fallen for him..i was so happy when he said he loves me..but we cant be a couple, can we? ... it was silent for a moment before he leaned into my chest and whispered..
Plan : i am always going to love you more , arent i?
Alex : is that a bad thing?
Plan : well , kind of , like your the last tank of oxygen on earth and i cant breathe. i dont mean to sound selfish but i want you to myself. you are everything i need , but thats not what i am to you..
no plan , your wrong. your my life. your everything i need. your my breathe. i wake to face the world because your in it. what should i do? should i follow my heart? i feel like i am always taking the wrong decision.. am i?
Alex : we loved once
i said biting my lip at the memory , it was eyes meeting , feeling electrified every time our bodies brushed each other..
Plan : almost love is the worst. when you know it works under different circumstances , it tears you apart.
Alex : almost love hurts. but if anyone could be my almost lover , i am so glad its you..
Plan : i thought i will be over you , but after years , it still didnt stop hurting..i find myself being accustom with the sharp pain that i feel every time i see you with someone... that sharp pain will turn into a dull ache soon. when i see you in a picture with some girl , i will know something has changed. maybe it was the picture i saw from last year that i keep on looking back to remind me that you are never mine to begin with.
he said those words looking at sky , tears falling from our eyes... i felt a stab in the heart hearing it.. if we love each other then our lives would be totally changed... what should i do? my job and his job wouldnt be there for us.. our families hate each other.. they can do anything.. they dont really care about us.. all they care is money and their reputation.. why? what did i do wrong to deserve this?
Alex : plan...
Plan : what did i do? loving you was the best thing i have ever done in my life.. you left me and went somewhere without a- trace.. you didnt even think about me , did you?
his voice cracked by crying... tears didnt stop from out eyes... we didnt even face each other..
Alex : how could you say that?
Plan : then why? (grabs alex's collar) why did you leave me?!
his face was red and tears made his face wet..i cant stop crying.. what should i say to him? that i love him to death? i am obsessed with him? what do i do? he again went and looked at the sky.. tears falling from his eyes non stop
Plan : and maybe.. thats a good thing because thing are never how you imagine and having expectations only ever sets you up for disappointment..
Alex : your going to kill me you know?
Plan : mean..
Alex : hm?
Plan : do you think we will be together at least once?
Alex : i do really fucking wish.. you would be mine.. but will that come true?
Plan : i would love it...
Alex : i never stopped loving you plan...
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Authors pov
Fluke : who is it banana?
Earth : it was..p'kao
their eyes widen..kao was looking down and fidgeting his fingers..
Jennie : YOU GUYS KISSED??!!!!
Prem : how did it happen?
Earth : uh-
Kao : just happened! ok? we answered your question , so no more!
Prem : o-okay
Boun : are you hungry baby?
Prem : yes
Boun : lets go eat then
Prem : okay hia
they split, kao and earth head to their room , same for ohm and fluke ..taehyung and jungkook said they have some work to do so they go.. jennie and kai have slept since kai is drunk.. boun and prem took their food to their room..
Prem : (eating silently)
Boun : baby?
Prem : hm?
Boun : uhm.. do you wanna go to my university?
Prem : if you suddenly ask...
Boun : we are going to start in a weeks after your first mission baby..
Prem : i am okay hia , if your okay with it!
Boun : okay! (smiles widely)
Prem : (smiles widely)
at ohm's room
ohm was sitting in the corner of the bed folding his clothes while fluke was on the bed scrolling his phone..
Ohm : jeab?
Fluke : (silent)
Ohm : jeab?
Fluke : ha? what? what did you say?
Ohm : put down your phone!
Fluke : ao.. why?
Ohm : i wanna talk to you..
Fluke : okay.. now say..
Ohm : after your first mission , do you..wanna..come to my university?
Fluke : if your okay with it , then i am okay
Ohm : okay then..
Fluke : can i use my phone now?
Ohm : no , help me fold the clothes now
Fluke : p'ohm (whining)
Ohm : Jeab?
Fluke : hm?
Ohm : i think its snowing..(staring at the window)
Fluke : (runs to the window as fast as he can)
Ohm : (comes behind him)
Fluke : its so..white
Ohm : its snow.. havent you seen snow?
Fluke : we were prisoners ohm.. we didnt really get to enjoy weather.. (looking down)
Ohm : (grabs fluke's hand) lets go
Fluke : w-where?
Ohm took fluke to the garden..
Ohm : do you like it now?
Fluke : love it.... thank you
Ohm : for what?
Fluke : for changing my life..
Ohm : thank you too
Fluke : why?
Ohm : for changing my life..
Fluke : how?
Ohm : (smirks) you will know it soon..
Fluke : okay!
Ohm : (smiles)
Fluke : (throws a snow ball at ohm)
Ohm : oieee~~ (throws a bigger snowball at his chest)
Fluke : what i throwed was small!
Ohm : (throws again) so what?
Fluke : (laughing) p'ohm~~ stop! aghh.. i just throwed one , but your throwing hundreds!
Ohm : (laughing) ok ok ,lets stop now!
Fluke : ao.. why? its fun p'ohm!
Ohm : we might catch a cold fluke! lets go now
Fluke : (whining) no....
Ohm : jeab
Fluke : (stops whining) okay fine!
they go to their room , fluke was quiet all the time..
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Fluke's pov
i wanna play in the snow but i cant because of this big bulldozer! i just wanna shrug it off! whatever , i came out of the bathroom.. drying my hair and saw ohm standing there , facing the wall and talking to someone on the phone. he hung up and looked at me. his hair was still wet and , in the midnight light he looked more handsome..
Ohm : now sleep jeab.. i have something to do..
Fluke : no..
Ohm : why?
Fluke : i dont sleep. my mind has the scary capability of being dark.
Ohm : you are scared of your dreams?
Fluke : yes.
Ohm : but you didnt get it when i sleep with you..
Fluke : yeah , you said you have some work to do..i will wait till you come back..
Ohm : are you sure?
Fluke : yes.
Ohm : then come with me..
Fluke : okay..
Ohm : lets go!
Fluke : okay!
we went downstairs and got inside in the car.. we were going somewhere in the middle of the night.. its fun! ohm is driving now.. we didnt say anyone in the house about this..
Ohm : jeab?
Fluke : yeah?
Ohm : go back and take 2 guns!
Fluke : o-ok!
i crawled to the back while he was driving and took 2 guns from there. he gave me one and he took one..we reached. he was about to get down when..
Ohm : are you sure you wanna come out and fight?
Fluke : yeah , i am!
Ohm : okay! if something happens , call me ok?
Fluke : okay!
we got down and had our guns ready.. we slowly walked through , it was a pitch dark place , it had black cars here and there..there were high old buildings. no one was there , we slowly walked towards the building.. we were about to enter the entrance when suddenly a voice came.. a tall man walked with a gun towards us..
Man : hey~~
Ohm : do you have a death wish jaehyun?
Jaehyun : no , i dont ohm~ aww.. whos this baby?
Fluke : the fuck..
Jaehyun : you look dangerous though..
Ohm : where is he?
Jaehyun : who? suho?
Ohm : just tell jaehyun before i kill you!
Jaehyun : inside ohm...
Ohm : where is he jaehyun?
Jaehyun : i told you inside!
Ohm : (looks and fluke and nods)
Fluke : (nods back)
ohm went inside while jaehyun was staring at me , i kept my gun ready.. he grabbed my wrist and..''i want a fun night'' he snarled while slamming me to the wall. for several beats we stayed there.. his grip crushing my wrists.
Jaehyun : so , who are you?
Fluke : who do you think i am?!
Jaehyun : who are you to ohm?
Fluke : leave me!
Jaehyun : (smirks evily) what if i dont?
i pushed him back and kicked him hard , he punched me back and my lips were bleeding hard , i shot him in the leg , he fell down and almost shot me but i kicked his gun.. my cheeks are hurting because of his punch.. it doesnt hurt much.. he was reaching the gun when i stamped his hand and he groaned..
Jaehyun : crazy!!
Fluke : sweetie , i am freaking insane. i am also your only hope of making it through this alive. so whats it gonna be? sanity or survival?
Jaehyun : please dont tell ohm this!!
Fluke : oh , i aint gonna say ohm that you punched me!!
Jaehyun : you are going to say , arent you?!!!
Fluke : loud and clear. and every nitty gritty detail.
Jaehyun : dont kill me , please!!
Fluke : lets see.. (shoots his hand) oops!! sorry~
Jaehyun : (groaning hard) this little bitch!!!
Fluke : the heck did you say?!!!
Jaehyun : i-
Tul : who are you?
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