Something is not good with me. His touch is still running in me. His feelings are still touching me. My body betrayed me today because his scent was totally licking me. He's still with me. God...
“Excuse me, I'm asking for coffee?” A customer looked at me with frustration. What happened?
“Huh? Yes.. of course, one minute.” Concentrate on your work. Stop thinking about him. He's behaving differently. His looks find something in me. First, when I saw myself in his bedroom on his bed my heart started panicking. My clothes on the chair and my naked body in a blanket. His smell on me. The second thing I noticed was my soreness. After drinking what happened I don't know. Just some memories like his soft touch, words. My kisses on his skin...
“I'm getting late... I need my coffee.”
“Rose, you can go there. I'm handling it here.” Everyone noticed my weirdness. They gawked at my clothes. Someone says it's designer clothes. But why has he started buying costly clothes for me? No, it's normal... but when I saw a tag on clothes my jaw dropped. It's costly.
If I sold this cloth then maybe my two months rent paid very easily. Today I took all my stuff to my new apartment. It's a ten-floor old building. But now I live like the last one. It's old and cheap with no kitchen, just a bedroom with a bathroom and a little hall. Thank god the last person left his bed so I need just some things for the kitchen and bedroom. I'm sure Ronald is unaware of this and I don't want him to know about that. Just time for hiding all things from him. My half of the money's gone in advance payment now...
“Order for table number five.” A tray in which black coffee and some donuts were placed in my hand. Finding table number five I set my tray there.
“Hello, Rose.” My hands freeze in between picking up the cup and placing it on the table.. Laura is sitting here obviously with full and cheap makeup on her face. Now my day is starting to get worse.
“What are you doing here?” I asked with anger.
“What? I'm here to give you rest.” What?
“What's that mean?”
“It means..” Her hand came and the cup of coffee in my hand is now in her lap. What the hell? We both jumped together.
“Hey what the hell you did? Do you know how costly my suit is? You bit...” So come here with a plan. Planning to ruin my life again.
“It's not done by me.” Shaking my head, I try to protect myself. Every customer sitting in the cafe looked at our drama.
“Where the hell is the manager? First, she throws coffee at me and looks at how shameful she is acting. Don't argue with me. Where the hell is the manager?” My boss came after her shouting. All eyes on me She planned everything for throwing me out from here.
“Mam..”
“Shut up! Throw her out or I’ll destroy this place. You don't know who I’m?” So now she's putting pressure on him to show her high-class status. Good.. keep going.
“I haven't done anything wrong...” I need to protect my job here.
“Rose, it's your first day and look at what happened. Look, I don't want any drama here. I'm sorry mam for your loss, forgive us.” She came face to face with me.
“Throw her out.”
“Yes, mam.” She has gone and my job also. After she had gone I tried to talk to him but he refused. Now she wants me on the road. I came home after losing my job. After some sitting and walking when I felt alone in my apartment a shock of panic hit me. I have only one job and so much work. Jessie's birthday is coming and my pocket is empty. Half rent, electricity bill, groceries, things god how can I manage that?
I start cleaning my house and three hours later my stomach starts making noises. I'm so hungry and don't know what to eat. Placing some things I head toward for some shopping. Two hours and shopping done and the last five dollars left in my pocket.
My evening shift started with lots of tiredness and hunger. My health is not going well. I need to check myself for once but after my job is gone I have nothing to use on my health. Loud music and people touching are not my types. After my shift ended I saw Ronald's car outside. He's here for me. But all my happiness was gone when Theo came out.
“Mr. Ronald..”
“He's not here. Gone for the meeting.” He opens the door for me. Standing outside my eyes fixed on the seat. He sends a car for me. Okay but if Theo knows where I lived now then.
“Um... Theo, I can walk by myself.” He looked at me and shook his head.
“So sorry but it's an order.” No, please.
“I can go by myself. You can go.” But we both stand looking at each other. Now, this is the only way. I sit and he takes me where I lived before.
“Where has he gone?”
“Somewhere.” Okay... he doesn't want to tell me. He's not here but I’m feeling his presence with me. He sits here on this seat. Sometimes he touched this or that. His hands...
“Shut up Rose.”
“You said something, Miss Rose.” Shaking my head, my eyes locked outside on passing the views. Little snow on the road shines in the lights. Watching outside, I don't know when my eyes closed with tiredness. Suddenly the car stopped and I came to reality. We're outside.. he takes me here to my old apartment.
“Then.. thanks.” Coming out I stand and wait for him to go. Please go...
“Miss Rose please go inside.” Frustration running in my mind. Already my body is not feeling better and my mind keeps dizzy so I want him gone.
“You go first.” I fake a smile. He looked at me with a serious stare. Okay, not going.
“Okay...I'm going. Good night.” Waving and smiling I came inside and stood behind a pillar. When his car was gone I came outside. Coming home I sleep without eating. But my stomach never let me sleep. The whole night I just waited for his call or message but it never came. I have only one option.
Dream
The next day I got up with lots of weakness and exhaustion. Just a glass of water for breakfast and now I’m ready for my today goal.
Job
I really need a job. Last time I gave up in my town but here never. There're so many chances for me and here no one has known me. My mission starts with excitement and ends with frustration. No one gave me the job or all jobs end in New York City. Coming home with empty hands I saw my past again standing in front of me. Begging for food, staying outside in the cold.
“What can I do?”
But I don't know the second bomb hit me hard when I reached my second shift. They threw me out because of my bad behavior. Last time what happened in a club it's my mistake they thought but I just saved him from Jenna. But what if Theo told him? Ronald thought I’m dumb that could not find a job for myself. Now Theo is my problem. He's coming to take me home.
I sit near the park and wait. Five or six hours on a cold night with a hungry stomach my body temperature gets down. I needed some food and a warm place but with empty hands nothing came so easily in my hands. Leaning in thoughts, my gaze landed on the ground where I saw a paper in which someone was looking for help in a party for one day. A good amount writes there. Picking up the paper I called the person and he told me to come before six the next day. It's one day's work but I have some money for my food now.
“Miss Rose, what are you doing outside?” Why did I come here? My thoughts are always away from them. He never called me or he never missed me. What if I ca... My body jumped with Theo's voice when my brain was running with Ronald’s thoughts. He's looking at me with confusion. Again he found me. God why is he spying on me?
“Nothing, I.. let's go.” He takes me home and goes. My all strength now gives up and looks like I’m dragging myself on the road. Full exhausted with pain in my legs, I kept walking until the block near my house came into view. My health is not the same as I thought. Looks like I'm a beggar now who ate two day ago.. Fifteen minutes later I reached my home. But before I unlock the door...
“Miss Rose?” My hand stopped in the middle.
Oh No
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