"Merry Christmas Rose."
"Merry Christmas Todd." And I walked away to my destination. New York city shining like a sun at night. Little clouds of snow coming from sky and it looks beautiful view all around. Today is Christmas night and I'm one who's walking alone. But I'm happy.
One year ago, my decision for leaving the town was not so easy. After hearing them talking about me, I lost my all control and packed my all stuffed and came here. For this I sold Ronald ring. He gave me a ring when he kissed me first time. In those years, I lost him so many times. Once upon a time, I dreamed about spending my night in his arms and where I'm now.
He's my memory and one year ago I lost him completely by giving his things. I came here with empty hands and now I'm still empty hands. But now I have a job and a small house to live. It's a suitable house. Small but okay.
In one year, I learn a lot of things. Just forget and move on. No one knows here about me. Who I am? What happened to me? I feel here comfortable around people. The coffee shop where I work is small, but I impressed everyone there. Todd is my friend and his girlfriend not jealous of me. That a good thing. I also lived in a clean environment. No food from trash, good looking cloths and clean face.
Happy that the girl I'm.
After coming home I changed my cloths and wear Christmas cap. My last saving for Christmas cloths and gift. First time I gifted myself. I looked so silly in a green sweater with a red cap. Ronald always get so excited when Christmas came. He told me for baking his favourite cookies.
Why Ronald
He's not here
Stop it
One hour spending in making cupcakes I went out. There's not just me alone in here. I saw a poor person everyday sleep near my house so I went to him and offer him some cupcakes. He looked happy always when he saw me. It's Ronald's favourite cupcake. We secretly spend Christmas together. I don't know where's he now. After offering him cupcakes, I walk towards my house.
Alone, I prayed for everyone For Ronald and Jessie, for dad and mom. Why I eat not my favourite food? Why I always prefer them first? Taking a deep breath, I eat. All around the music and happiness running in everyone's home, but here nothing. Silent, sorrow and pain. This is my life now, alone and miserable. No one around me and no one here for taking care of me. Closing my eyes, a fountain run through my eyes.
Throwing my cloths I check my reflection in the mirror. A low smile spread across my face. My body, not mine. I'm not Rose. Shaking my head, I came out from the bathroom and lay down on the bed.
"I.. I sleep well Ronald."
'She's the one.'
'Kill her.'
'Witch.'
'I saw her... with blood.'
'Kill her.'
'Kill her.'
Shit! My eyes snap open. It's light everywhere. Where I am? Running my eyes around, I find out it's my home. Again nightmares. It's always so dark nightmares and scared me till the last where my body covered with sweat. Christmas morning and today is my holiday. It's my first holiday for exploring the surrounding city, so with no delay I take a shower and go straight outside. Frosty morning full of fog and snow welcomed me. I love snow. It's habit for me to look for snow. Two hours and I'm walking on the street. Turing on one point, my body crash with a body.
"Shit! I'm so sorry." Some stuff spread on the road.
"Sorry." A woman in a business suit picks her things. Oh god her expensive phone and tab on floor and I think it's broken now.
"I..I'm so sorry. It's my fault." I help her. Today is a holiday then why she's wearing office clothes?
"Oh, no my phone." Her expression telling me it's broken. She's trying to see inside, but it's blank. I'm so embarrassed right now. She's looking so horrible because she continuously trying to do something with her phone.
"I.."
"No, it's my fault. I's running without my eyes. It's so bad day. My boss' entire day schedule, notes inside my phone and it's broke. I have no time for repairing. He's going to eat me alive." She looks like start crying. I need to help her.
"Mm.. i can help you if you know the notes." She stops and looking at me for a minute.
"I.. if you want." Then a wide smile on her face.
"Of course you can. But let me grab my whole things. Can you hold this for me?" She gave me her phone and a diary. We sit on a bench and then I helped her. Looks like she's someone's personal secretary. When we did with a long list, I'm holding in my hand I hold my breath for a second. Who the hell worked so much? Her boss like a machine.
"Thank you so much for helping. Actually, I'm really like to take my notes on my phone. You know technology, but today I know the importance of paper and pen. I lost my all notes, but you helped me so much. Hey by the way, I'm Olivia." A beautiful hand comes towards me for shake. A diamond ring in ring finger tells me she's engaged. Her shinning and painted nails look beautiful in front of my hand. Before I thought she grab my hand and shake it.
"Don't be hesitate."
"My name is Rose." She stops for a moment and then smiles. Really smile. Then I realised she's a gorgeous woman.
"Rose, I'm asking you something straight. You have excellent skill in business work. I'm going to be married in next week so my boss gave me one week for arranging a new secretary. Can you please take my position?"
What? I pull my hand away.
"Umm.. I already have a job."
"Where?"
"In coffee shop."
"If you take my position we can offer a car and a big house." Here, my mind stops for a moment. What I'm thinking now? This is what I want? I know my skill that I learn from my dad. When dad alive i can take care of his business.
"Please don't let me down. Think about this, my boss is a jerk. He's going to kill me." I'm so confused right now. What if he not likes me then?
"I want time." Her eyes fall and she opens her purse.
"Hey don't be upset. I'm going to think about it, really." She nod and gave me a card.
"Don't call on second number. Just call on first number if you agree." We both stand and she said goodbye. I stand motionless, watching her gone. A girl offer me a job in the middle of the street.
A card
R. P written in red colour with a black rose on the back side. It's after eight and my fingers can't stop running on the card. I can see myself there. I'm feeling. Some butterflies running in my stomach. How it looks from inside?
My own office
My boss
Whole day the card inside my fist. I thought it's going to be lost from my side so I take it with me everywhere. When night came, Grabbing my phone, I dial the number. It's running and ringing. She said she'll be waiting until Twelve. Before I cut the phone, a male voice came from another side and everything stop for a moment.
"H..."
"Hello." Wait! How? It's Olivia's number. Then how? The voice I never forget in my whole life.
"Who's this?"
"Your nightmare." My breath stops for a second. He's trying to scare me. The flashes.. stop.
"Hello it's Olivia."
"H.."
"Who's this?"
"Hi.. it's Rose."
"Rose, i's waiting for your call tell me your decision." Why I feel it's Ronald's voice? No, he's not here.
"Olivia, who picked your phone?"
"No one." Why she's lying? It's male voice then, or maybe it's my imagination.
"Are you there?"
"Actually, it's yes from my side."
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