嗰晚返到屋企,我成晚都瞓唔著,諗咗好多如果,但每個如果嘅盡頭都唔係一個好結局。708Please respect copyright.PENANAts0o4L1Gb0
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其實個天想我點?喺我覺得放低咗嘅時候再考驗多我一次,就係等我認清楚自己未放得低?708Please respect copyright.PENANAHGZajQiYQ6
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咁我依家認啦,我唔會再呃自己,我的確係未放得低。708Please respect copyright.PENANAaRhDlW9W68
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可能真係懲罰我對自己唔夠誠實,事實上唔係撞返芯玥我都無機會直面自己嘅問題。708Please respect copyright.PENANAyEoswdEOvK
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我好記得蠔哥問過我:「你係咪真係放低咗先?」嗰陣我啱啱開始同晴晴一齊。708Please respect copyright.PENANApupibsfMJk
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「放低咗啦,都咁多年喇。」708Please respect copyright.PENANAnJrHde6REx
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「但依個你好似唔係好鍾意咋喎。」雞腎一矢中的:「你拍拖都一排啦,都無主動提起過佢。」708Please respect copyright.PENANAsMMQnSVGjw
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「鍾意架。唔係吓吓都要提先係鍾意嘅。」708Please respect copyright.PENANAQUiGUPxT0c
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我當時講嘅大話,講到同晴晴一齊耐咗幾乎連自己都信埋。708Please respect copyright.PENANABA54ps2TpS
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直到被親戚問起先發現原來紙始終都包唔住火。708Please respect copyright.PENANAI9y2KnruWw
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但我當時只係承認自己同晴晴行唔到落去,而無發現自己其實未放得低芯玥。708Please respect copyright.PENANAI9lHCt8Anr
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我真係唔明,又唔係第一個女朋友,亦唔係最後一個,點解就係放佢唔低?點解就係面對佢我先仲好似困咗喺過去無進步過咁?708Please respect copyright.PENANAQlXYR27JON
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面對晴晴我可以分咗手就無再諗過佢,係半秒都無。但芯玥呢?依六年嚟每次有啲咩細節觸動到我嘅神經就會諗起佢。708Please respect copyright.PENANAWuOx5Qsog0
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可以的話,我真係好想將所有同芯玥嘅記憶刪除得一乾二淨,連同佢開心嘅回憶都唔想要,想依世人無認識過鄧芯玥。708Please respect copyright.PENANABxM8VPEg3B
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成日叫人放下向前行嗰啲人,同叫個咳緊嘅人唔好咳,叫個唔開心嘅人開心啲係一樣。708Please respect copyright.PENANApuiDVQcblU
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我哋都好清楚人到最後只可以自救,乜都只可以靠自己,我都知未來可能有一日做得到,但我依家就係做唔到。708Please respect copyright.PENANA5O0E2vhSqP
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我已經好多個夜晚自己匿埋喊,亦無煩過芯玥,好努力咁去放低,去呃自己,去睇啲放下嘅佛偈,去再愛下一個,再拍拖⋯⋯點知再嚟多個咁大嘅整蠱,依種情況有邊個遇到過?可唔可以教吓我點做?708Please respect copyright.PENANAUQSNu7vfXc
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每一次我以為放低咗,再發現原來又係未得,就會喊。708Please respect copyright.PENANAzYiduutArl
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「一年喇⋯⋯」708Please respect copyright.PENANAvZ4dgKp5GN
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「兩年喇⋯⋯」708Please respect copyright.PENANAHc4NvwDMlF
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「三年喇⋯⋯」708Please respect copyright.PENANAHsN5DOJs3R
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直到同晴晴一齊,我已經接受咗依個人生入面無辦法填平嘅窿。我至少做得到諗起都無再喊。708Please respect copyright.PENANAvbQrt3Cddp
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「六年喇⋯⋯」708Please respect copyright.PENANA6TbYthQEnC
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然後依家,再被個窿跣多次,跌到頭破血流。708Please respect copyright.PENANAiQBNAG0HEI