(TRIGGER WARNING: Ptsd, mature content ahead!)
Hi sorry I haven't posted in awhile, I had some writers block but I'm back now and will hopefully finish this story, which will take awhile because there is a lot left to write XD
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I had forgotten what it felt like to be healthy again, the pain and the Unbearableness of this pregnancy felt like it would never end or that it would be the end of me, but some how I feel on top of the world. Sapphire rose to attention, Kain was near. My eyes travelled to the door waiting for him to step through. 'You know better mate.' Sapphire warned through the link, which made the bronze door handle twitch and the door swing open.
He looked terrible, as if he hadn't slept in months. I recoiled slightly when he stepped in the room, clutching my babies to my chest. "Get out.." I whispered breath hitching in my throat, his eyes screamed desperation with every stalking movement he made towards my bed. "OUT!" Sapphire barked her fangs shooting out of my mouth.
"I need you." He whispered, eyes and black hair wild. "I wont hurt them, I can't. let me touch you, I need contact, my wolf, my wolf feels like he is dying without you." Had he actually gone insane? I placed the pups in a white bassinet next to my bed and placed them into the large closet that I had turned into a little nursery for them, they were safe now, no one could hurt them thanks to the witches charm, and I wouldn't let anyone go into their nursery. Once I got back into bed I slowly moved the quilt to let him into bed with me. "You can sleep next to me but don't try anything I'm still angry with you."
Kain stripped down to his black boxers and piled into the bed with me, holding me close to his boiling skin. "I can't help my primal desires Reyna, you are my mate. Those..Pups are not mine, my human side doesn't wish to harm them but Artimel.. You have lived with Alphas before, you know what their wolves are like, if you hate me for this please only hate him."
'He's throwing his wolf under the bus so you will let him mate you.' Sapphire commented, a small chuckle in her voice. My body had began to heat up at his closeness, a part of me wouldn't forgive him for anything he had ever done, but the more primal part wanted what he wanted. Sapphire wanted him too. "I just gave birth, if you think I'm going to sleep with you, you are very wrong.
"I'm not asking you to sleep with me, I just need contact." His hands moved underneath my shirt, brushing past my tiny bump that was left from the pregnancy and up to my breasts. My breath hitched in my throat from the contact which made him grin, it was the sexiest thing I had ever seen him do.
I bit down on my lip while his rough large hands massaged my chest, he knew exactly what he was doing. A groan escaped my trapped words, he took the opportunity to kiss me hard, one of his hands drifted down to my crouch. "That's enough." I broke the kiss sitting up and away from his ravenous hands. "I need more." He whined. "That's enough!" I barked, blue eyes starring his down. If I couldn't have control of my life I would have control of his actions towards me, never would a man harm me like Jackson did again.
He stood up to face me, my face turned bright red as my eyes travelled down, he was fully erect and scarily large. Kain was a monster of a man, his six pack and bulging muscles making him look like a beast. My feet stumbled as they tried to back away. I couldn't see my own face but I imagined it was filled with terror. "Reyna, don't be scared, this is natural, Reyna.. " His hands, giant hands that had pleasured me just moments ago reached out, grabbing my shoulders and pulling me to his chest. The moment his member pressed against my leg everything went black.
"..Reyna.. Baby it's ok...You are safe... Reyna!...I'm here." Fog drifted through my brain, I was not in control but slowly coming back to the room. "Baby don't cry you're safe, I've got you." Joy cradled me in her arms, my eyes shot up at Kain who was littered with scratches and dripping blood over the carpet. "I don't know what happened she just freaked out and attacked me...Martha I don't know what to do if she's traumatised how am I ever going to have an heir."
Guilt and shame wrapped around my fragile heart, traumatised? "Joy?" I whispered, burring my face into her auburn hair. "I'm here, are you feeling better?" Martha stood next to the bed patching up Kains cuts. "What happened?" I asked, pressing my hands into my tear stained skin. "You had a melt down and attacked Kain, or I think maybe Sapphire did seeing as you blacked out."
Kain noticed me coming around and moved over to me, I recoiled from his touch. "Are you ok?" "I-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.." He nodded placing his hand on my back, this time I stopped myself from rejecting his touch. "It's ok, you aren't fully healed from your.. Attack.. You will over come it in time I'm sure." His words were steady but eyes told me other wise.
"What if I never heal? I don't know if I can." A long breath left Kain's throat. "Reyna I need an heir..You need to get over it some time, I don't mean to be cruel, but more important things are at stake than your fragile mindset, If I need pups we will find a way to have them. In time you will get used to it, we just need to get you used to contact with me, it's going to be fine."
I nodded, trying to control my breathing as my skin flared up once again, it was so confusing, my body wanted him badly but my mind rejected every part of him. "I'll give you some space." He whispered, noticing me deeply in thought. He looked so much better, his wounds already healed, even though it was only for a short time my touch had brought him back to life, he was no longer the shell of a man that walked into this room just moments ago. I nodded my goodbyes as he moved away towards the door.
Joy climbed into the bed next to me, holding me closely. "Are you ok?" She whispered, eyes flickering to an awkward Martha that quietly followed the King. "I.. I think so. I don't know honestly, everything is so messed up. Maybe I should have just stayed with him." Joy froze, sitting up with a stern glare. "With Jackson? Did you forget what he did? I.." Tears began to well in her velvet eyes. "I miss Tom, so so much. But I do not wish that this never happened. They were cruel, the things they did to other packs, Demeter was a dictator! She massacred so many to get what she wanted. Kain has shown himself to be a bastard, but he will be good for our Kingdom. He never would have killed an entire pack just to steal their daughter.. Never."
She was right, Kain would be better for the Kingdom, I hated him but he was not evil, he was just did what Alpha's were taught to do, take what they want and dominate, it was a screwed up world, but I couldn't fully blame him for it. Not completely. God had the mate bond really warped my brain that much? I had almost completely forgotten that I hated Kain. I was so focused on my thoughts that I hadn't noticed Joy's touch. Her breath was hot on my neck, her hands tucked under my dress, drawing swirls into the flesh beneath my stomach, it caused my stomach to clench the excitement of the feeling washing over me.
"What are you doing?" I whispered, desire hiding in plain sight. "I want to forget about him. I want you to make me forget, touch me like you used to. My Queen, please make me forget." I turned around to face her, her lightly tanned skin was now brushed with red, her eyes full of hunger. "I can't.. Your brother would kill me." She moved closer finally choosing to straddle me. "He wont know, just this once, I need to feel something. Please, I wont ask you again just this once?" Her light grinding and groans of need woke a deep primal lust inside of me, Sapphire purred urging me to do it, she wanted Kain but Joy would be a good substitute.
"Fine, just once." Her white 'Bowie' Shirt flew off along with her black skirt leaving her sitting in a white matching pair of bra and thong. I let her have control for a long moment, testing to see if I was too broken to even mate with Joy once I knew it was safe and I was not afraid I let Sapphire take control. Joy squealed in excitement as she was flipped onto her back, her bare skin littered with kisses, her taste so sweet. I had to muffle her screams of pleasure with my spare hand, as she came again and again through the night. It felt so good to have control again. Joy huffed, laying against my chest once we were done, her skin sticky with sweat.
"Are you ok?" I asked, careful not to ruin the mood. "Yes thank you, I feel amazing. But why wouldn't you let me pleasure you?" My lips pressed into her messy hair. "I'm still recovering, and. I'm still too broken.. You understand.. I can give, but I wont take." Joy nodded, hiding her guilt well but not well enough. "I wish you were my mate. M-Maybe we can run away together and raise the twins? Calith could come too. She could help us raise them properly. Leave Kain to reign alone and just be happy together, wouldn't it be perfect.
"I couldn't leave my Pack Joy, I'm a Luna now, it's in bedded into me to rule, maybe If I could talk some from the old royal pack to follow then maybe.. But lets not think about it now. We can't do this again, it was just once ok? Just to help you feel better and for me to relieve my stress and anxiety. She nodded swallowing any sadness she had and forcing a smile. "I understand." She dressed herself in one of my long night gowns and piled into bed again, cuddling me tightly. "Good night Alpha." She whispered before falling asleep.
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