第一二八章:畢業營(七)451Please respect copyright.PENANAGK8WN6K4oh
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。451Please respect copyright.PENANAaBRtkgBfU2
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……451Please respect copyright.PENANAx0pZr3shBu
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。451Please respect copyright.PENANAjUbVXgD9Du
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」451Please respect copyright.PENANAhqgjP4pjfD
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。451Please respect copyright.PENANAzTlXTJQaee
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」451Please respect copyright.PENANAhUkIJfe5EV
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。451Please respect copyright.PENANAXErHbTut2h
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAj4XPYFRbZC
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。451Please respect copyright.PENANAsfChxKf5vp
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。451Please respect copyright.PENANA72QMbFwqq0
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」451Please respect copyright.PENANAe4nOf7F8ZH
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。451Please respect copyright.PENANAuLKRfiGMxe
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。451Please respect copyright.PENANAmj30Ey0fP9
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAYo0xg3sRM7
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。451Please respect copyright.PENANA6Udlafx03O
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。451Please respect copyright.PENANAZnVWL7qLmI
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。451Please respect copyright.PENANAKcOqZpqKuj
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAHosvLHCuW6
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。451Please respect copyright.PENANAhJz9Q00A4q
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。451Please respect copyright.PENANA2HOxyYPx9c
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。451Please respect copyright.PENANArkzOzzcY4j
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAUcMdGZH7rq
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。451Please respect copyright.PENANAtnhjNkihHQ
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。451Please respect copyright.PENANAUvYYSE0wTb
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。451Please respect copyright.PENANAaIQA6A6LFG
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。451Please respect copyright.PENANAP4O3TWn7Ky
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……451Please respect copyright.PENANAGUixMDCOdM
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」451Please respect copyright.PENANAeAH4VgOlmg
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。451Please respect copyright.PENANAhHPKx0BALq
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAfVngSOxnMK
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。451Please respect copyright.PENANAuFc3wt9IKN
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。451Please respect copyright.PENANAuVr9JgWY3X
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。451Please respect copyright.PENANAt673W98vIV
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。451Please respect copyright.PENANATj3qvd0L3x
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。451Please respect copyright.PENANA098VfmuyhK
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。451Please respect copyright.PENANABxWTS3YvQr
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。451Please respect copyright.PENANATt8kZbqjjI
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。451Please respect copyright.PENANA9JRIkiGQG0
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。451Please respect copyright.PENANAtC6okeU3x7
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。451Please respect copyright.PENANABY9feV52xb
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。451Please respect copyright.PENANAZqpjuCZWq2
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。451Please respect copyright.PENANAb0FUxvOzFv
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。451Please respect copyright.PENANAtZjbrE8E9W
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAdTCca80JBa
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。451Please respect copyright.PENANA3iOO5RoO4n
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:451Please respect copyright.PENANAVYTE2UX7sk
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAyc9WrSjfWI
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。451Please respect copyright.PENANAqRMUIW0FCK
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。451Please respect copyright.PENANA8VGamPcQZQ
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」451Please respect copyright.PENANAVKVCCsRiSY
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。451Please respect copyright.PENANAB1lHlUGevK
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。451Please respect copyright.PENANA7tvqUWbZM7
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」451Please respect copyright.PENANABdjq2RyBRp
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。451Please respect copyright.PENANA3qwAmxw1CU
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」451Please respect copyright.PENANAp1m9H3jZpT
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。451Please respect copyright.PENANAR12aBYIpX8
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAKLEsTkqL9I
「你嘅其他人喺指?」451Please respect copyright.PENANAfzmJvg2dkS
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAVO69V3f3SB
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。451Please respect copyright.PENANA6M6YnMbQtk
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。451Please respect copyright.PENANAu0S4xc125g
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」451Please respect copyright.PENANAvd1EKGGTdZ
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAYqtmGiraTy
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。451Please respect copyright.PENANAnKVj937rKQ
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」451Please respect copyright.PENANAD9COZJgXkk
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAhkGHortL1D
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。451Please respect copyright.PENANAbLxBEXsVsv
是巧合?還是刻意呢?451Please respect copyright.PENANAWKZqJb9bTw
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。451Please respect copyright.PENANAvHQpbfKZev
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:451Please respect copyright.PENANAc3PcqkMcgW
「都好。」451Please respect copyright.PENANARlxdrZX7pO
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……451Please respect copyright.PENANAXPAp9Gs4FA
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。451Please respect copyright.PENANAZu44GZUohk
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。451Please respect copyright.PENANArLRjthwnVn
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。451Please respect copyright.PENANA8Nm8P2U1at
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。451Please respect copyright.PENANACPZkxyx2xw
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAGyCtDMxvro
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:451Please respect copyright.PENANA8b0m6aSLJJ
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」451Please respect copyright.PENANAWSa6ErUQ0M
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」451Please respect copyright.PENANASqUOtD7V3M