暑假篇：釋懷480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKvLXilto4
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kcQLvWyNG
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSSSMKql2d
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoO4RRKZCaz
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXS8y3ce81
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopar8vOW3k
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQL16OpMR8
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinK0x2gP3z
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhFFjsnqT8
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHlWIlaaLr
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH0qHgjkKl
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9Gf4z7iAc
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6AjAKL3Q4
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBacjTbnzVT
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhcRxhOBDP
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRj3KpRsWpO
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeK5dagFYn
一種難以形容的內疚感。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IfgPiETtz
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LtYIWf6YG
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ569fXiHlLN
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2kjpCzuUg
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbWUxkHTAY
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoXRdo47nE
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDZgdBnX0F
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2XRndsRjL
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2znKn68KQ
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOrkxxk16a
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR31JwU5DDI
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tkEM6BigT
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKARWTsp3jK
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqKN5nAD8C
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UMBqbtmza
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10M6VBCvxD
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50hOY6KVCe
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXFD7jrdJz
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2WNgUhB5B
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VewqN68sV
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNe7jGpfGMZ
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzFZSE3fQk
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rbAcCtGEl
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56CGNrU4Om
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXqWWMP7N7
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzRHDnUYVl
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYy3xeaKJYs
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ouvGpzMZR
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHPohnoFrQ
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlI0BVBrh6
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpLv4WhmRq
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCQhjtyKjY
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6FXvmOpkI
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTVCJ7Y8Xn
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbGzLba6Lb
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfS8FNkWtKv
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqbCJ74dFL
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElXLpaLpah
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuvogBSxi9
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpSArlfr5L
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzF4enkdvJ
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxZKvogrw1
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVhiAsNgwG
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV60GB4BBKD
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDF6nLm1LO1
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIy3CftNGO
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMxPLEkCJV
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl60NJk0mJb
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbvKqkzz5q
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABEA15oFsb
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIvkGIvsa7
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEVxLSOEHj
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7yROdvtZd
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnT5uAWoiqi
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryngtIB9CZ
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm6yJXEOQu
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttY32YVF7P
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9QN2frI2J
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY5F2Irmtx
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmme2YZkVMs
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4ZaAutn4K
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJRL9T1ZRk
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Cv7RBOQ6P
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs91L4vIAjw
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sr1SU7CNZ
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxS3qQjt5Ej
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW03hn5NLjA
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkSkcfj3r0
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOQKcuXaTd
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHxrDJcxsj
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLs3AJY6z0
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGETVO3Byl
甚麼原來就是我？480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGD1Ywcibe
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrSnHFinTY
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkLgDci3AL
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsg45dW2rd
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPTdGHdHcZ
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8uCV5v0e7
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxym5VPd0JH
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtMDyCPcHM
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlH1Y0W8cgA
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lJhlc7EHL
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOzQm0cRFh
「到底講緊咩啦……」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZx0kfvM17T
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qzsRGtrpI
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qD1MyUzpk
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJskz0a088
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAysrZ4MLU
480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDF7myWMmn
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMl9S2OPzNN
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpLT53HL3i
而且還是三個那麼多……480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePDLRQIgUE
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutXATj3CkY
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkdvx2rs1H
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