過去篇(四)438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujcy4U0eq3
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7Trsa0IRv
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBjcdf0W0C
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMh1AOiMpV
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sWtOSQ1Bq
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6U5sLjGef
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXmPyWN0w3
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vMBKt9XAx
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlj6Cwl7mUg
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EaCWIt9Ik
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBeIhWGbEV
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8Ha80Smyn
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Lue5SLlRw
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBOydoTtrb
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVQ200TrYT
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXzaSQVrwb
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pQgJRzmKT
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHhi4wUB7w
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEKQXW7zeP
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsy1cla2V6
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nhR38eflW
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1koa352Oz
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRQrKZSG47
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGMPplmjZt
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxAn96zQgd
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfz4DuD3Oe
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyeN15YKIq
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUTAERin9V
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY7xk3grdd
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1v57HBHAQp
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPGonkc474
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCy7lLvGIO5
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGPiuqvWYt
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUTNNYJe0v
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncET8dhy0A
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktz0m8wnbu
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dB0OEyBDb
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3Q5Pguacf
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrvc8SLAtZ
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutlmUeEav7
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7Mdd3ZWap
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LayhfoX9R
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSM4al3N6cQ
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNY2EnL3j2
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpMX2D8okv
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yIzoTRiCd
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnuBpp8Auy
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNHnxfvTFM
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc73zkrWf7Z
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nSX5Mvfjh
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmG6y33yorT
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5L0bLd6XuH
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEJlW4ThD6
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhDowm0C0V
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCNo9cwvcd
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMXMH6ryDL
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lt4UwLmRl
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438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZSbv4IQ2j
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaChuQx1ql
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt977IblC2
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXl34nhn97d
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgs7fVsriBA
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkeERAKqhL
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTj1kldc63r
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgETc5co6lU
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodbe0PmREO
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwIsSMCVhf
隨即二人也站在了原地。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1qUgGRuXS
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMwv3Tw8dH
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPpEk4XZcn
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmarQOLzsm
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuNCORT93M
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJgB3JKnaK
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpRCnoEUP1
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKaDusJ2z2
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNc1bRlSiFN
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCF01EwfYav
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNZJMyvehv
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGGebFh9vy
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6ZVNLCzWi
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSz8z2A2iI
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IXBNLEYvO
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGJ8WMS5Iq
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMNrVzYXLi
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGVaTM3ItS
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwcO1n26kg
可是，她接著聽到答案是……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VIjw0EOSt
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKnf5HpSLa
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbhhdwxWr0
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcdkfzR9KW
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tG5TgeO6a
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMWN556FPs
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBF4eYZKMw
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNosl3wS5Ax
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodl2IZ7mGv
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEM4h1aRPu
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMdlXHKPlx
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxT6so2vAi
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ1g3OOcH7
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8M8uWBtkca
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoZ75OuoSC
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DP1e3OmGf
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUjasJ8WUI
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRUMC64Lc7
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bJMJEDfR8
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbidxO4273
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmAdnz2xbh
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZx1MeD0UP
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438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vt3lRr2m1
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6BhafGghv
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQ15xRM70w
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYvwQtDDWd
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUvUqQeBnB
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatrJSOSboz
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlpdmIQ5T2
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqIgfQHej2
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWU44yd1zT
「嚓—」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8c5r64KQVT
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDvQly5px7
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyQLBxKnvW
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrcK3mlfm4
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLeWU7sIza
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuJyQH2KNS
作者在此鄭重聲明：438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cedIx8Lqz
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaot4tY2cI
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9oNy2D5MN
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPKHpo9kz5
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0D97ZHRne
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuMje8Do0n
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZxyw6oSXK
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFLThd01sV
作者閒聊：438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgo5ujliC0h
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmknivNWKh
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAheI9OmLZ
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