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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1TwXMyyCr
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4Yx7M24D4
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWM79EL1E5P
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG4Y8XeWuR
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuSlHHDVVy
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z6sDMRE1p
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmBnVdZd7w
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWRBRXABjv
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOKwWbwONq
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Bw6JllSCv
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUMLhmbfBO
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzxYm9VUze
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBOsDNQHgH
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGluQ5eLWAT
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPadwhN007
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTu9DeCkoO
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡat78czlxPC
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlJrKo7lbs
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ocTzFfanO
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tFGEVYyzx
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Iu890wFX2
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUdjyqpeUV
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYSsqfCTUa
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XdVzeiMfV
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydL5a5LtOC
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2bFvd2cQo
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviBDiuMNR5
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01wGSpubXB
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9JbmB7hUs
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZUvMomcGB
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FsT1MAIhV
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZwavWVaWo
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3D226PpKJR
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4PrUPqfsn
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT47cIZuzRA
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtypyTOLgFZ
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoMImo1bWo
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgCouiYJ1H
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TEovcITOZ
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIA0fwjFzH
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JnQuXKo9H
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTNM7n80OB
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGF8grOXhp
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnMRpPLlp4
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFnxsptq5P
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y8bggCJlb
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKNJzNYBgb
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVWj7yu3l5
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6z9JX7lPS
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ65tCgk8WZ
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkcrvpRbLJ
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TOQqoXZnS
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTepjhyCsWW
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSuVghJl7v
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSx6CVGoa4
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcB2WjmNShO
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37WUFYf7Dz
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xbJNBibCc
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCs1DGJ4VW
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyKp9tHe1f
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoObb4K6cX
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNNfSwsf1i
隨即二人也站在了原地。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmESdJFRMN
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IZh3X4RGD
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDIr12APt1
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHkChbfhkq
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurJx1KNb79
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OnygPBz7y
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XzevS4vZG
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbGF5il7c1
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetH8Phw7M0
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjidTYhEn5B
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1YZXZ8f4M
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAR2ne7vQAO
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJffyK9QxB
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwEekWeoxj
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYOZ40sT4P
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgp3nRSfDFc
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjdvEBSaja
可是，她接著聽到答案是……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYty3n8Che
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwWvKGQ5jW
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApBUftOHeP
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iRKuTly87
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk41934lcvh
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjBCPXuagj
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsNznGdcEU
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEZRQ2loUS
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFmi4MttXS
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUTL32oXav
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMO2Ug4C5Z
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOB3UTb3zZ
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAm4tIEyk36
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4skkKgTz6
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBzYWxC5Ht
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvmgKW8izM
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWTKZ8WgEp
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTi9cScWAG
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTx8VuuqH3
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWer8Q9AMpm
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l6AFRZIt2
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡej8NMTmblZ
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD91jU3s7Y
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3DQWGVxnE
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrPCqm54SC
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6pYFOAikf
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaLtHOwVoi
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5u93L7kJV
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEeXuoUggO
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPJVvE5nNH
「嚓—」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7cwSVa2Ha
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417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0Ct47Rx5X
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0s6m8o8Wi
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作者在此鄭重聲明：417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyR6vL8DcHU
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CwAKB5rkP
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsQspo5DVJ
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8r4XpNlAH
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1JjGCYGJn
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMJEZXxnwl
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwgkRKXhaX
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作者閒聊：417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQG887Kcc6
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpwhRWZhfw
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYaapYnbQY
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